Quick Travel System: Age Strategy

What Zhou Ye didn't know was that I had come back to see him.

How can a mother not love her child? !

My name is Xu Jiao, and I am from Penghu Bay. I met a boy at a dance when I was in school. He was ten years older than me, graduated from the local Party School, and served in the National Army at that time.

We agreed to get married when world peace came. Everything was going well, but in 49 I could no longer wait for him.

He followed the Nationalist army to Taiwan, and soon after that, the two places began to lose contact. I don't know where he went, how he was doing, and whether he had started a family.

After he left, I lost all sources of information about him. My family members don't know about this and I haven't told them about it.

In 1960, when I graduated from college, my family found me a job in a publishing house and started urging me to get married.

I had always been thinking about him, and to avoid the pressure from my family to get married, I moved near a publishing house.

Until 1968, the situation changed and my family was labeled as rightists because of our different stance. My parents heard the news a few days ago and changed my age and randomly reported a place to go to the countryside, and spent money to send me away from Penghu Bay.

In this way, I was temporarily forced to go to the countryside. I didn't take all my belongings with me, and I hurriedly followed the main group away.

It’s really funny. Maybe it’s because I look young. As a 28-year-old lady, there’s no difference when I stand among this group of teenagers.

The place where I went to the countryside was not rich, but the local leaders were quite nice. Although the approval document for my family came down the day after I went to the countryside, if a family like mine encountered a bad leader who gave me a cold shoulder, I might be transferred to a job carrying manure.

I felt lucky at first, but when Zhou Changyi came to me and told me that he did this for me, I realized that there are not so many good people in the world who would consider you for no reason?!

I asked him how I could repay him, sleeping with him or working for him?

It’s no wonder that I think this way. In such a great era, I don’t believe anything he says about helping me.

He looked at me with a smile on his face and said, "Will you marry me?"

To be honest, I never thought about getting married at that time, let alone marrying a country boy.

Although I didn't think my family would be vindicated, my purpose of going to the countryside was not to get married. I still had the man far away in Taiwan in my heart.

He saw that I was unwilling to cooperate, and then said, "If you don't marry me, can you survive in the village?"

I said to him very firmly, "If I can't make it, I'll die!"

He glared at me angrily, his eyebrows raised, "Okay, I'll wait and see you!"

The fact is that I was too naive. The village party secretary was the first to express to me his intention to take possession of my body.

I desperately disagreed and ran out and jumped into the river.

I would rather die than serve under others.

But I was lucky enough to be saved by Zhou Changyi. It was at this time that he asked me again: "Will you marry me? I will protect you."

I didn't reject him. I realized that if I wanted to survive, I had to get married. It was something I couldn't avoid.

In a situation like this, I can't protect myself by being single.

I lost contact with my parents, and given the situation at home, that person is still in Taiwan and can’t come back.

I can only depend on others.

That's how I married Zhou Changyi. After I married into his family, I realized that my mother-in-law was dissatisfied with me, but she usually treated me badly when Zhou Changyi was not at home.

Even if I told Zhou Changyi, a filial son like him wouldn't believe it. I gave birth to Zhou Ye in the second year after our marriage.

In the past two years, I have been criticized many times for being a hen that doesn't lay eggs, and for eating white rice at home, etc.

It seems that only by giving birth to a child can I be considered to have fulfilled my responsibility.

He is my first child in my life, how could I not love him?

I tried my best to learn from my mother and took care of him while he was growing up, but he would still be instigated by my grandmother to say that I didn't love him.

I think that the child's lack of love since childhood was mostly due to me, but also instigated by his grandmother, which gave the child the seeds of doubt since childhood. Once I ignored him again, he would ask me whether I still loved him.

I feel both distressed and hate his grandmother for the character she has developed. I asked Zhou Changyi if we could move to the city, away from the countryside and his grandmother. I believe Zhou Ye would not be so sensitive.

But Zhou Changyi would always say: "Why do you want to move? You live well here, but you insist on renting a house in the city!"

Whenever this happens, I really want to stop living with him.

But I can’t do that. I have Zhou Ye and I have to live on.

……

I never tell my children what kind of people his father and grandmother are, nor do I point out their shortcomings. On the contrary, I will embellish them and point out their good qualities.

Zhou Ye never knew what my life was like at home before I was rehabilitated.

I tried my best to protect his little body and keep him in a beautiful world.

Until the news of my family's rehabilitation came out, I also received letters written by my parents on the road.

At this moment, I finally felt relieved. I couldn't wait to leave here, but there was someone in my heart that I couldn't let go.

Zhou Ye is so young, how will he live in the village if I just leave? !

I was so conflicted that I decided to go back and take a look, but I didn't expect that I would meet the person from Taiwan Island.

He came back! He came to my house and told me what had happened over the years, that he was not married, and that he wanted to take me away.

After hearing what he said, I was completely stunned.

This is what I have always dreamed of. I thought about him during those difficult years in the countryside.

But every time I wake up, I tell myself that he will never come back, and even if he comes back, it will be difficult for us to see each other again.

I told him that I was going to the countryside to get married and have a child. He didn't mind at all and even suggested bringing the child to Taiwan.

I thought about it for a few days, but I still felt uneasy and wanted to go back to the countryside.

At this time, my parents had already been successfully persuaded. The things they had experienced in the inland made them feel that this was not a safe haven, and they wanted to leave here to seek a pure land.

My parents advised me to go back and take a look before leaving. I can’t stay in the countryside forever, right? !

I began to hesitate and asked myself if I really didn't like the countryside.

But my heart softened after having a child.

I decided to go back and take a look before making a decision, and this time he accompanied me.

But this time when he went back, he saw Zhou Changyi remarrying.

This really stimulated me, and I even saw Zhou Ye among the people at the table eating a chicken leg and enjoying it.

I think he may have stopped missing his mother and forgotten me a long time ago.

Otherwise, how could it be possible for him to eat so deliciously and with such a greasy face at his stepmother and father's table?

At that moment, I chose to follow that person and leave to live in Taiwan.

……

The next time I saw Zhou Ye was when I was watching the mainland broadcast on TV. At that time, the outside world was promoting that he had won the world championship.

I felt very relieved when I saw his face, which looked so much like mine and was full of energy and vigor.

I thought the child was doing well. He became a world champion and his father must have never treated him badly since he was a child.

Later, when a reporter interviewed him and asked about the family, he revealed the hardships the child had suffered when he was a child.

But I was too embarrassed to go back to the mainland to see him. What else could I explain to him? Everything I said seemed too pale and powerless compared to his childhood experiences!

I was filled with regret. I had treated him badly.