The world is broken, the cubs mend it

Because Yuanyuan said that Lu Zheng was always easily angry, Feng Nuan bought some tea to reduce internal heat and clear away heat.

Lu Zheng didn't ask the housekeeping department to come and clean up these days, and the bedroom was a mess, so she took apart all the sheets and mattresses and washed and hung them out to dry.

The little guy followed her like a little tail and occasionally helped her get things.

Feng Nuan always felt more sad than relieved when she saw her child like this. Being too sensible actually meant she had lost her nature.

There are only beds but no mattresses in the two remaining bedrooms in the house. The newly bought bedding is rinsed and placed on the balcony to dry.

Feng Nuan is very careful and serious in everything she does, and she wants to pick out all the dust in every corner.

When she pulled open the bedside table, she saw a stack of medical records and receipts inside. Perhaps because they had not been opened for a long time, there was a layer of dust on them.

Da Lu Zheng had rarely been sick since he was a child, so when Feng Nuan saw the hospitalization certificate, she was a little stunned.

No one had told her the baby was sick.

When she finished reading all the documents, she felt her scalp tingling, her whole body was shaking and she had difficulty breathing.

Suddenly she remembered that summer vacation, Lu Zheng packed his luggage and left alone without saying a word, and did not reply to her messages for a long time.

Feng Nuan dialed Lu Chao's number with trembling hands, and after a few rings, the call was answered.

"Why didn't you tell me about Zheng swallowing pills?"

Faced with his ex-wife's sudden questioning, Lu Chao remained silent for a long time, as if he was unwilling to recall the past.

"Please speak!"

Feng Nuan, who was always gentle and quiet, now sounded sharp and shrill.

Fortunately, the bedroom has good sound insulation and did not disturb the children sleeping in the master bedroom.

"He didn't let me tell you, saying he didn't want to see us. It was Li Yan who took care of him during that period."

Lu Chao went to the hospital as soon as he received the call, but the first thing Lu Zheng did after waking up was to tell him to get out.

He was mentally sensitive and fragile during that period, so I didn't dare go there again for fear of upsetting him.

"Why would he commit suicide for no reason? Shouldn't you give me an explanation?"

"You're asking me for an explanation? I also want to ask you, the child was fine when I sent him to you, how come he suddenly became like this after returning?

Have you only cared about your current family and completely forgotten about him?"

This incident has always been a thorn in Lu Chao's heart. Since then, Lu Zheng has become much more distant from him and rarely even goes home.

"..."

Listening to her ex-husband's accusations, Feng Nuan's breathing stagnated and she dropped her phone to the ground.

She really had no reason to blame Lu Chao. Back then, she only focused on Yaoyao and completely ignored Lu Zheng's feelings, even causing him to suffer a lot of grievances.

Lu Zheng sent the car to the 4S store and sneezed several times while standing on the roadside to hail a taxi.

Could it be that the child is missing him at home?

Thinking of this, he felt warm in his heart. It felt good to have someone waiting for him, and it made him feel a sense of belonging.

The taxi stopped at the gate of the community, and Lu Zheng walked home with a cheerful pace. He hadn't felt so relaxed and happy for a long time.

When he got home and unlocked the door, a figure stumbled towards him.

Feng Nuan grasped his arms tightly with both hands and burst into tears.

Lu Zheng was confused by the situation. He looked up at the empty living room and felt choked.

"Mom, did you lose Yuanyuan?"

"No, the child is sleeping."

Feng Nuan raised her hand to wipe away her tears, looking at him with guilt, feeling very uncomfortable.

"Then why are you crying?" Lu Zheng calmed down, pushed her aside and went straight to the living room. He seemed to have thought of something and asked, "Did anyone from the Lin family bully you?"

"No, A Zheng, it's mom who is sorry for you. I owe you too much."

Feng Nuan's eyes were red. She was afraid that she would never be able to repay what she owed her child.

"It's not the first day you owe me something, why are you bringing this up now?"

Lu Zheng didn't want to hear such words. What was owed couldn't be made up with just words, and her tears were of no use to him.

The medical records that had been put away before were still scattered on the coffee table in the living room. Seeing these, he finally understood why Feng Nuan was like this.

"If you feel guilty about this, there's no need to."

Lu Zheng picked up the medical record and threw it directly into the trash can, with a layer of frost in his eyes.

You saw this?

I thought she had a change of heart!

"A Zheng, I was sorry for you before, but this is my first time being a mother, and it's my fault for not taking good care of you. Can you give me another chance to make it up to you?"

Feng Nuan went forward and tried to hold his hand, but he ruthlessly dodged her. She was so heartbroken that her fingertips were trembling.

But the pain she is feeling now is far more than one-tenth of what Lu Zheng felt back then.

"Weren't you a child before you became a mother? I never blame you for your divorce. You have the right to pursue your own happiness.

I don't resent you for being distant, but you shouldn't favor Lin Yao and ask me, who is unloved, to share my love with her."

Lu Zheng's emotions, which had finally calmed down today, suddenly surged up again. He hated this kind of behavior of giving a slap and then giving a candy.

"..."

Feng Nuan was speechless. She slumped down on the sofa and could only cry silently in regret.

"I don't blame you, nor will I avoid you. If you give me life, I will take care of you until the end of your life.

But other than these, I can't give you anything else. I can never be as close to you as I was when we were little."

Lu Zheng handed her a tissue. It should have been a heart-wrenching and tear-jerking scene, but he felt nothing at all.

If he had never been loved since childhood, perhaps he would not have been depressed because of not being loved.

But precisely because he has felt love, he feels panic and helpless when he is not loved, and even unable to accept reality.

There was a knock on the door in the master bedroom. Yuanyuan woke up and stood on tiptoe to reach for the door handle.

The door opened from the outside, and Lu Zheng opened his arms to catch the child who rushed towards him. The child hit his arms like a small meat ball with quite an impact.

"Dad, I went to the supermarket with grandma today..."

Yuanyuan hugged his neck and started to tell him what she had done today like pouring beans.

Lu Zheng listened quietly, put her on the sofa, turned on the TV and played cartoons for her.

"Grandma, what's wrong with you? Why are your eyes so red?"

Yuanyuan noticed Feng Nuan’s red eyes at a glance, ran over, took her hand, and looked at her with a worried look on her face.

"Grandma is fine, she just got some sand in her eyes."

Feng Nuan pinched her little face and felt a little better than before.

She also understood that the missing love could not be compensated, but she still didn't want to give up easily. At least for now, she could help a little.

Lu Chao was also completely unaware of Lu Zheng's bipolar disorder.

At that time, the doctor told him that the child might have depression and needed the company and guidance of his family.

He had suggested taking Lu Zheng for a check-up but was always rejected. Every time he mentioned this he would be rebuked, and over time he never mentioned it again.

Thinking of the scenes where Lu Zheng quarreled with him for inexplicable reasons every time, he always thought that the child was just growing up and disobeying discipline, but when he thought about it carefully, maybe he was sick.

Lu Chao sat alone in the study for a long time, looking at the diagnosis sent by his ex-wife.

Holding the phone in my hand, I was in a dilemma. It seemed difficult for me to swallow my pride and say sorry to my child.

Rather than being embarrassed, they are actually unwilling to admit that they have caused great harm to their children and are unwilling to face up to their mistakes.

Lu Zheng sat in his study typing away, thinking about the plot in his mind. The book received good responses.

The editor said that if he keeps up his level and continues writing, he will hopefully get published.

He had never thought of making a living from this, but a casual attempt unexpectedly discovered his talent in this area.

He had seriously considered what Li Yan said that day. He couldn't continue to be idle like this. He had to at least have some plans for the future.

Yuanyuan sat in his arms, nodding her head as she looked at the densely packed words on the computer, her eyelids twitching uncontrollably.

At first, he was not used to the fact that his child always liked to stick to him, but now he thinks it is good to have his child stick to him like this, which makes him feel at ease.

And with his indulgence, Yuanyuan became more and more presumptuous.

Sometimes, when he wasn't paying attention, I would randomly press the keyboard and add a string of messy English letters to his manuscript.