He said he doesn't love me

At the dinner table, Tang Yihe was peeling crabs and Li Cheng was serving soup. Only Sun Yichu was idly holding the candy in his mouth, with no intention of eating at all.

"Hurry up and chew it up and swallow it. It's time to eat." Tang Yihe divided the crab meat and put it on the plate. When he raised his eyes, he saw that his thoughts had already flown away.

Sun Yichu smacked his lips twice and finished the candy: "No more." As he said that, he licked his lips. In front of him were peeled crab meat and chicken legs, both of which were his favorites.

"Drink some soup first. Crabs are cold in nature and not good for the stomach." Li Cheng placed the bowl in front of him and filled two more bowls and placed them aside.

"Thank you." Sun Yichu took a few sips from the spoon, then picked up a chicken leg with his chopsticks.

The atmosphere was peaceful, but it did not last long as it was broken by a phone call.

"Hey?"

Tang Yihe glanced at the incoming call reminder and subconsciously glanced at Sun Yichu. Why is Qian Chenyan calling at this time?

Why can't you send a message but have to make a phone call?

"Boss Tang, are you able to talk now?"

Tang Yihe reluctantly stood up and walked to the side, turned back and motioned for the two of them to eat first, then hummed, "You go."

Qian Chenyan flipped through the papers in his hand and said, "Could you trouble Mr. Tang to find some information about your brother's childhood, so that I can judge whether my guess is correct."

"What's the use of this?" Tang Yihe asked with a frown, but still sent all the information in his hand: "These are all the information I found."

"Okay, I'll take a look." The other end fell silent. Not long after, Qian Chenyan spoke again and said, "You can find a chance to ask his former classmates or friends to see if there is anything wrong with him or if he has a more gloomy period. These materials don't have it, but I need it."

"What's the focus?" Tang Yihe casually found a pen and paper and prepared to take notes, "Tell me what you need."

"If the changes in personality and interpersonal relationships are too obvious and weird..." Qian Chenyan pursed his lips and continued, "Mr. Tang, then you must be prepared to accept reality. Dissociative disorder is difficult to reverse, especially when your brother has other problems. It is even more difficult."

Tang Yihe paused when he heard this.

If Sun Yichu's condition is really consistent with Qian Chenyan's guess, then it will be troublesome.

"Go on." Tang Yihe squeezed the pen, "In this situation, would it be better if we asked other people to assist you?"

Qian Chenyan said bluntly: "If it is really as I guessed, calling a few more doctors to assist will be more effective, but it will put more pressure on him. It would be better for you to find a doctor you can trust or one of his former doctors to assist you."

A former doctor?

Tang Yihe frowned and thought about it. Sun Yichu had only one doctor before, Zhong Caiye.

"Okay, I got it. I'll tell you as soon as I have any news." Tang Yihe rubbed his eyebrows and put the paper into his pocket.

"Okay." Qian Chenyan hung up the phone and planned to go out to buy something to eat.

On this side, Tang Yihe was full of worries. The food in the bowl seemed to be rotten, making him unable to swallow.

"Brother... did something happen?" Sun Yichu saw that he had finished the call and his face turned pale. He couldn't help but feel a little worried: "If I also knew a little about work, brother wouldn't be so hard..."

He pursed his lips, and suddenly felt that the meat in the bowl was no longer fragrant. This was earned by his brother's hard work, while he did nothing, but enjoyed everything...

He deserves to die!

"Be good, don't think too much." Tang Yihe pulled the corners of his mouth and forced a smile: "Brother was just thinking, I have something to do tomorrow and can't accompany you. Will you be scared to go to the show alone?"

Sun Yichu shook his head: "No, I'm already an adult, I shouldn't be scared, right? Besides, there are Sister Lin Yu and Sister Tao!"

Li Chengqing cleared his throat and said, "And I will accompany him. Brother, you just work hard."

"Yes, and Li Cheng, brother, don't worry about me!" Sun Yichu curved his eyebrows, "You will age quickly if you care about me like this."

Tang Yihe curled her lips and said, "You are old. Even if I don't care about you, you will get old too."

"Brother is not old, he is only 28 years old, still young!" Sun Yichu pursed his lips and smiled, "So you two are about the same age!"

Li Cheng glanced at Tang Yihe and smiled: "I thought my brother was the same age as those people in the Sun family."

He swallowed hard, unable to believe that this resolute man was actually about the same age as him. But he didn't have his calmness, nor his means.

"No, they are older than me." Tang Yihe stroked her hair and looked up at the air conditioner: "The temperature can be lowered a little bit to avoid heat stroke."

"Okay." Li Cheng nodded and turned down the air conditioner by two degrees.

"By the way, Li Cheng, my parents will be back for a few days next Friday. Please tell your family and invite them to come over so that we can all meet each other." Tang Yihe smiled at Li Cheng. Although the Li family had been thoroughly investigated, meeting the parents was still inevitable.

Li Cheng's ears turned red when he heard this, and his eyes were full of gratitude: "Thank you, brother, I will inform them. I don't know what my parents like, so I can prepare some gifts."

"I know, I know." Sun Yichu looked at the two with sparkling eyes, his face full of impatience and excitement: "Dad likes calligraphy, and Mom likes embroidery!!"

Tang Yihe raised her eyebrows and laughed at him: "You remember it so clearly?"

"That's right!" Sun Yichu touched the tip of his nose: "Brother, will mom and dad stay here when they come back?"

"I don't know either. You know their jobs. They can't stay in the same place for a long time." Tang Yihe rubbed his head. "Just prepare the gifts. What would grandma like?"

The three of them had a great conversation and decided on the gifts and hotel one by one. By the end of the meal, it was already past six in the afternoon.

Sun Yichu stood at the kitchen door, watching Li Cheng's busy back, his eyes fixed on the waist outlined by the apron.

He suddenly looked down at his abdomen and said, "I've gained weight."

"Hmm?" Li Cheng turned his head and saw him looking at his abdomen with a melancholy look on his face. "What's wrong?"

"Your waist is thinner than mine..." Sun Yichu murmured, then sighed.

Li Cheng: “…”

"Take another good look at it?" Li Cheng untied her apron and took his hand to her waist and abdomen: "Don't be so anxious, just be healthy. You are not a girl who is going to participate in a beauty pageant, so if you are fat, you are fat."

Sun Yichu curled his lips and pinched his belly: "Sure enough, sometimes what you see with your eyes may not be true."

"...Come on, we are men. Aren't men supposed to be strong? If you want abdominal muscles, you can't be too thin. Otherwise, are you using bones to build muscle?" Li Cheng looked him up and down. "It took a lot of effort to get to over 120 pounds. If you lose weight again, I'll be angry."

Sun Yichu lowered his eyes and thought for a while, and felt that what he said made sense. Fat or thin is not important, as long as you are healthy, then he will not be so anxious.

"I feel like my brother is hiding something from me..." He bit his lip, and perhaps it hurt, so he loosened his grip a little and retracted his hand: "Does everyone have secrets?"

Li Cheng nodded: "Everyone has their own secrets, this is normal. Like me, I also have little secrets that others don't know."

Sun Yichu sighed, "I want to go out for a walk, will you accompany me?"

Li Cheng nodded and put the last bowl into the dishwasher: "Let's go."

He did not ask Sun Yichu why he did not choose to let Tang Yihe accompany him. Perhaps he felt that he should not disturb his brother's work.

The two of them walked hand in hand on the street. The lake in the distance was calm, with only a few old men fishing chatting from time to time, making the sultry night not so lonely.

Sun Yichu pulled Li Cheng and stood on a small bridge. He looked far away at a place in the east and felt a sense of emptiness in his heart.

"Li Cheng... do you find me annoying?" After a long while, he slowly spoke: "I feel so annoyed. I can't do anything right, but I don't want to hear anyone say anything bad about me..."

"How could that be? I don't find it annoying." Li Cheng smiled at him, "You're very good, and you know a lot of things that I don't. For example, playing the piano, I find it difficult, but you've studied for so many years, and you've done so well, and you've won countless awards, and mom and dad love you so much."

Sun Yichu barely curled his lips, "But... that's not what I like."

"So what do you like? I'll do it with you, okay?"

He shook his head again, "I don't know what I like, I just don't like anything, I find everything boring."

Li Cheng opened his mouth, but didn't know what to say.

He was sick and he knew it.

Li Cheng lowered his eyes and thought for a while, perhaps Sun Yichu himself knew that he was sick.

But just like a doctor cannot heal himself, he cannot save himself and can only pin his hopes on others. If no one is willing to rescue him, he has no choice but to blame himself for not being able to escape.

Will he blame others?

Maybe.

But what’s the point of blaming others after going through so much?

"Yichu, I'm always here. Brother, Mom, Dad, Lele, and grandma, we will always be with you." He leaned over and kissed his cheek. Li Cheng was startled when he felt the wetness on his lips.

He cried.

"It's okay, cry if you want to, no one will laugh at you." Li Cheng pulled the person into his arms, his heart also feeling upset.

This person is always silent, even when he cries, there is no sound.

If I hadn't gotten close to him, would no one have noticed that he was on the verge of a breakdown when I got home?

The person in his arms was sobbing softly, saying something he couldn't understand. It sounded like he was talking in his sleep, or asking for help.

But he didn't understand, he could only pat his back gently, trying to give him some comfort, even though it was of no use at all.

He also wanted to tell him, to show him through his actions: they were always there.

The two of them enjoyed the wind for a while and then went home.

At this time, Tang Yihe was still chatting with her parents in the study. When she went downstairs, the two of them just walked in.

“Brother…” Sun Yichu stepped forward and stuffed the wild flowers in his hand to him: “Here you go.”

Tang Yihe glanced at the flowers, then stared at his face: "Thank you, it's very beautiful. Go wash your face, you'll become a little cat."

"Oh." Sun Yichu raised his hand to wipe his face, but accidentally smeared the mud on his hands onto the tip of his nose. Now, it looked even more like it.

Tang Yihe smiled softly and watched him go into the bathroom. He put the flowers in a vase beside him and walked over to Li Cheng: "Are you crying?"

Li Cheng nodded: "Yeah, it will be better if you cry."

"Yeah." Tang Yihe licked his back teeth irritably: "I can't go over tomorrow. Can you watch him alone? If there are too many people, he will have trouble controlling his emotions. Remember to bring the medicine with you."

Li Cheng nodded and agreed to everything: "Don't worry, brother, I've always been fine when I took him out before."