He said he doesn't love me

As night falls, the Sun family is filled with joy.

The eight dishes and one soup on the table made people want to swallow their saliva. Sun Ran, who was sitting next to Sun Qing, suddenly felt a little regretful for coming back.

Originally it was Li Cheng who took care of him, and he didn't think much of it. But now that it was his brother's turn, he felt a little embarrassed.

"Let's eat." Sun Qi took Doubao from Sun Ran's arms and put it back into the cat house. Then he washed his hands and sat down.

"My dear, this is delicious. Try it." Shen Anran picked up a piece of minced meat and eggplant and put it into Sun Ran's bowl, and picked up a piece of crispy meat and put it into Sun Qing's bowl. "This is delicious."

Sun Qing smiled at her and said, "Mom, please don't take care of me. I'll feed my little one first before I eat."

Sun Ran licked his lips and swallowed the food in his mouth, "Brother, I want to drink soup."

"it is good."

The meal lasted for an hour. When Sun Ran really couldn't eat any more, the four of them stopped feeding him and let him leave the table.

"He eats too little." Shen Anran sighed and said to Sun Qi, "Take your brother to the hospital tomorrow. He's so thin, maybe there's something wrong with him."

Sun Qi nodded, "Okay, I'll take him there tomorrow."

Sun Ran, who was assigned the task, listened with a bewildered look on his face. He was about to retort that he was fine, but then he changed his mind and decided to go.

His appetite was indeed not very good, because he didn't eat much, so Li Cheng usually prepared a lot of food, fearing that he would be hungry and couldn't find anything to eat.

He sighed silently, staring at the anime on TV intently, and no longer cared about their arrangements. He didn't care where they went, just took it as a walk.

At ten o'clock in the evening, Sun Ran lay on the bed and prepared to go to sleep.

A strong urge to defecate made it impossible for him to close his eyes. Sun Ran sat up and subconsciously looked around, but there was no one.

"Tsk, I should have known not to come back."

He forgot that Li Cheng was no longer here, no longer by his side. Without anyone to help him, Sun Ran couldn't help but feel a little depressed. What should he do if he wanted to take a shower?

He endured for a while, but seeing that it was no use, he held his breath, got out of bed, put on his slippers, and ran to the door of his fourth brother's room. He raised his foot and kicked the door gently, trying to wake up the person inside.

It’s only ten o’clock, you should not be asleep yet?

"Brother." He frowned. No way, is he really asleep?

He swallowed and kicked again, but seeing that there was still no response from inside, he simply took a few steps forward and walked to the second brother's door. Just as Sun Ran was about to raise his foot, the door was opened from the inside.

"What's wrong? Are you not feeling well?" Sun Yan heard the voice and thought he had misheard. Just as he was about to come out to check, he saw Sun Ran standing at his door with his lip bitten.

"I...I want to pee..." Sun Ran couldn't help but purse his lips, looking up at Sun Yan for help, "Help me, brother, I'm dying of suffocation."

Sun Yan immediately took him into the bathroom, unbuttoned his pants and looked out the window. Sun Ran blushed and didn't dare to look at Sun Yan's face. He was so embarrassed.

How come he didn't feel embarrassed at all when Li Cheng did these things?

Sun Ran resolved the crisis and then coughed twice, "...I'm fine, brother..."

Sun Yan tidied up his clothes and pulled him to sit aside. "How is your hand? Do you know when the plaster will be removed?"

"Fortunately, it can be demolished in mid-May." Sun Ran glanced at him and saw that Sun Yan's expression was natural, without any embarrassment. He then thought that he was overthinking.

"How about your leg? Does it hurt?" Sun Yan lifted up his trouser leg and wanted to see his wound. Sun Ran didn't stop him, "It's almost healed. When the plaster was removed, the doctor said it was recovering well. But you can't do strenuous exercise recently."

The muscles in the right leg did not atrophy too obviously, but they were much whiter than the left leg. It seemed that the muscles had recovered well.

"You said that you want to go to Yuncheng with Li Cheng?" Sun Yan put down his trouser legs, took the coat beside him and put it on him, then asked.

"Well, his father and grandmother both want me to go over and play for a few days." Sun Ran pursed his lips and looked up at his second brother. "Brother, what's going on between the third brother and Brother Xia Yi? Do you know why they quarreled?"

Sun Yan shook his head. "I don't know much either. I just heard from your third brother that it was because of someone. It might be a third party."

"Ah..." Sun Ran opened his mouth wide. Is it that exciting? He thought for a moment and asked, "Brother Xia Yi said that Fourth Brother is also looking for me. Why haven't I met him?"

Sun Yan raised his eyebrows, "Your fourth brother didn't go there by himself, he asked his girlfriend to go. Your brother Ji happened to be taking a group of exchange students to Paris, so he went to see you, but he didn't run into you guys."

Sun Ran seemed to be thinking about something. "No wonder I didn't meet him. I'll go back first. I'm going to Yuncheng tomorrow afternoon, so I won't go to the hospital. Please tell my brother."

"No, that won't work. It was mom's idea to go to the hospital." Sun Yan looked at him seriously and said, "You are so thin, and we are worried that there is something wrong with your body. Be obedient and go see a doctor. It won't take much time."

"It's not that I don't want to go. How about this? I'll go to the hospital in Yuncheng, and then ask Li Cheng to send you photos of the test results, okay?" Sun Ran smiled flatteringly, "Brother, I don't even want to go to Lele's place, so please stop nagging me, okay? Okay, okay, I'm going back. Don't call me tomorrow morning. I don't want to eat breakfast."

He asked Sun Yan to take his coat away, then stood up and walked to the door. He turned back and said, "Don't call me. I won't wake up if I don't get enough sleep."

"Got it. Go and get some rest." Sun Yan sighed, folded his coat again and placed it beside the bed. When he left, he closed the door.

Sun Ran returned to his room and lay quietly on the bed, trying to hypnotize himself. However, he did not have such superb skills, so he could only close his eyes and hope to fall asleep quickly.

As the night deepened, Sun Ran fell into a drowsy sleep. Just like before, he dreamed of people he didn't know.

"I'm Sun Ran. You bully me. Aren't you afraid that my brother will come after you?!"

"So what if you are Sun Ran? Your brothers don't like you at all. Mom and Dad don't like you either. They don't want you anymore. We don't like you either!"

Nonsense, nonsense!!

My brothers love me the most! Mom and Dad are just too busy to come back and take care of me, but they don’t abandon me!!!

……

"Aren't you the younger brother of the Sun family? Why are you here in the rain alone? Where are your brothers?"

"elder brother……"

"Here's the umbrella. Can you please go home quickly? It would be bad if you catch a cold. Your brothers would be worried."

this person……

The voice sounds so familiar...

who can that be?

"My brothers don't want me anymore, and my parents don't want me either... I don't want to go back... I don't want to go back..."

"Silly boy, how could your brother and your parents not want you? They love you the most. You are so good and wonderful, everyone will like you. Listen to your brother and go home quickly. Your brother is going home too."

"Brother, brother! How can I return the umbrella to you?"

"I've sent you off. Go home quickly. If you're unhappy in the future, come to Yuncheng to play with me. Bye!"

Cloud City...

Yuncheng, who is this person?

Why does it appear in my memory...

"Su Ran, look at it, look at it, look at the report you made. I can't believe that this was made by one person! This month's bonus will be deducted!!"

"Boss, I'll change it, can you please not deduct my money? You know, I..."

"Get lost! If you don't do your job well, you will be deducted from your salary! Why don't you get out now? Are you waiting for me to ask you to leave?!"

"No, this report was made by someone else, not me. Boss, I took a leave yesterday, and you gave this report to someone else, but the name hasn't been changed yet..."

"Oh? If you take a leave, you will also be fined. Your full attendance bonus will be deducted. Get out. I want to see the revised report today. Remember?!"

It's obviously not my fault, why am I still the one being deducted...

Is it because they are powerful?

Is it because I have no power?

"You obviously have everything, why don't you cherish it, Sun Ran?"

I……

I am Sun Ran...

Then who is Su Ran?

“No…No!!”

Blood, sharp knives, pierced skin, layers of cuts...

The pain gradually intensified, the drowsiness and nausea that swept over him little by little, and the heart-wrenching feeling woke Sun Ran up all of a sudden.

He sat up suddenly, breathing heavily, like a duckweed that was about to drown but was suddenly pulled out of the abyss, breathing in the air greedily.

But the piercing pain lingered in his mind for a long time, making it impossible for him to even calm down.

"Li Cheng..."

The name that came out of his mouth was like a beam of light, barely resisting the unbearable feeling.

But it didn't last long, and the light disappeared.

Sun Ran looked at the alarm clock on the wall. Is it already past one o'clock?

He swallowed hard, got out of bed and went to the balcony, where the rattan chair had been changed from its original brown to milky white.

A circle of light surrounded the rattan chair, like fireflies, gathering into a circle of light. Sun Ran sat on it and gently rocked the rattan chair.

At this moment, his ears were no longer filled with those ugly curses and complaints, but only with the sound of the wind chimes blowing in the breeze.

The sound was not loud, and if you didn't listen carefully, it might be easily ignored. Sun Ran looked up at the newly hung wind chime, not knowing what he was thinking. Perhaps, there should be a sunny doll hanging there.

If I remember correctly.

So where did the sunny doll go?

Is it important? Maybe. He closed his eyes and stopped thinking about it. He longed to be embraced by someone to soothe the fear of being awakened by a nightmare...

But here, no one would do this, and the person who would do this is in Yuncheng, two cities away.

Besides, he is not someone who shows weakness easily.

If no one can see through his fragility beneath his strength, he won't be the kind of person who would bring it up.

Is it really good to be alive?

They are all dead, why are you still alive?!

The suppressed emotions resurfaced, and Sun Ran bit his lips desperately, trying to pull himself out of the vortex. But he was alone and weak, so how could he do it?

Why……

Why am I still alive?

"When we come back from the mountain, we'll watch a comedy. I won't make the wrong choice this time, I promise."

"Don't be unhappy. I heard there's a beautiful magnolia tree near the cinema. Can I take you to see it later?"

……

"There are two balls of hair on the shoes. I haven't fixed them yet. I'll put them on for you when I'm done."

"As long as you like it."

……

"I don't regret it. Although I don't know what you mean, I want to tell you that I don't regret it."

……

"Sun Ran, just like you said, we can't predict the future. Those things that are beyond our plan will also be a different kind of scenery, right? Those good and bad things will always become the past. I won't regret it. I also hope that you won't have any regrets."