Male Succubus Apocalypse

"Xu Heng, are you living an unreal life?" Julie suddenly said this in Xu Heng's mind as he was on his way to deliver dinner to Vivian.

"What's wrong again? Why are you so weird today?" Xu Heng was holding a plate. Julie had been saying weird things since she returned to the Mage Tower.

"You quantified your feelings, but feelings cannot be quantified. The real weird thing should be you yourself." Julie insisted.

"Why are you talking so vaguely?" Xu Heng was going to ignore this riddler.

"I often feel that you are not living in the present, nor in the future, nor in the past. Xu Heng, tell me, is it related to your soul?"

"Oh, you're trying to trick me again? My soul has secrets, but I won't tell you. Forget it."

Julie knew that at the moment, Xu Heng could not understand what she wanted to express at all. Indeed, she was very interested in the great mystery of Xu Heng's soul. It could be said that no one in the world was more interested than her as a soul mage.

But what she found most difficult to explain was Xu Heng’s mental state.

Because he is too weak in feeling emotions, he transfers his emotional perception to the third person and always judges others instead of himself.

If Xu Heng had really been a slave in the nest for forty years, calculating every day and using his emotions to survive, he would have to suppress his possible feelings for other succubi - for the ruthless female succubus, even the slightest extra emotion would be fatal.

Moreover, in forty years, without any real emotional interaction with other living beings, yes, living beings, it is not surprising to Julie that Xu Heng has become a numb wooden man.

During the growth process, any living organism will actively give up some functions that are not conducive to survival and instead strengthen functions that are conducive to survival. This is a natural process of seeking benefits and avoiding harm.

Just like when a blind person loses his eyesight, his five senses will naturally be enhanced; similarly, if a person is not good at sports or studying, he will naturally not choose to become an arts student.

This is true both objectively and subjectively.

Therefore, in the past, Xu Heng continued to use emotions as a tool for his aunt's survival, and at the same time, he intervened in utilitarian judgments for the sake of staying alive. It is possible that the emotional receptors in his brain have degenerated.

Because once there is any disturbance, or when others have any disturbance, he will automatically turn to value judgment. It can be said that the trauma suffered in the nest has an impact on Xu Heng that is more than just misogyny.

He has psychological and even physical problems.

But the strange thing is that he went through it together with his so-called brothers, and they had emotional support, otherwise he would not have given up his own interests to help them.

Many people are willing to die for morality and for love because these things beyond material things become their support and a part of their dependence. They are not just purely material survival interests, but spiritual survival interests.

If this is the case, Xu Heng should not be in his current dull state - the actions he takes towards anyone are all based on what he believes is the maximization of his own interests, including taking into account the other person's feelings.

He seemed to treat all this as some kind of chemical reaction, A plus B equals C, but he himself was the reactant itself, but he didn't care.

A sense of detachment.

Moreover, his brothers were not that strange by comparison, they were relatively normal, so why did Xu Heng become like this?

When facing those male succubi, Xu Heng also understood their emotions very well, so the assumption that he could not feel any emotions at all was not valid.

The only explanation Julie could think of was that in the lair, Xu Heng took on almost all the responsibilities of taking care of others. Over time, he lost himself, had to deal with various different Mos every day, and constantly changed masks, which caused him to be lost.

But there is one more point, which is the most crucial one and cannot be explained in any way, and that is that Xu Heng's life has no sense of reality.

He can accept everything quickly and broadly, accepting other people's evil as well as other people's love for him, diluting the love and hate, and everything happening in the outside world.

To describe it, love is a rabbit. Others are like cheetahs when chasing it, seeing the rabbit right in front of them, while Xu Heng is an eagle, always circling and only pouncing once in a while.

It seems that he appears to be flustered and panicky, but he adapts very quickly. It is said that he quantifies emotions, but when faced with other people's kindness towards him that he really needs to take advantage of, he chooses to turn a blind eye. He cannot feel the strong emotions of others.

If others want to kill him, he thinks that they can just kill them. If others may like him very much, he thinks that it is nothing, just a misunderstanding.

It is difficult for Julie to judge whether Xu Heng is not real or he feels that the world itself is not real.

Perhaps from the very beginning, he never accepted anyone or anything, including this world.

Could the answer lie in the soul? Julie was puzzled.

It's like a mole has given up its eyesight, probably because it has been in the hole for too long and can't see, so its vision has degenerated. But if you really ask the mole, its answer will be "I just don't want to see the light."

Julie observes Xu Heng, this interesting demon, every day and ponders his activities over and over again, because behavior is often related to the soul.

It went from "he is slow" to "he has a weak sense of emotions" to "he just uses emotions as a reference", and finally overturned all of them.

In fact, the clue that Julie lacks is that Xu Heng was reincarnated and did not drink the "Meng Po Soup". It would have been fine if he did not drink it, but the problem is that he was reincarnated into a world that was completely different from the previous one.

He was isolated from the outside world in his original world and was locked up for several years. After he came out, he was reincarnated into the nest and was locked up for forty years.

To make a real analogy, it is like a prisoner who has been locked up in a prison worse than death for fifty years. When he is released from prison, the world turns upside down. The first thing he may think of is to go back to prison.

A sense of emptiness. Life is too much of a joke to Xu Heng. Perhaps, he has not yet recovered from the life in an ordinary family before the age of eight.

Did he think that everything he was doing was a dream? Or was he playing a somatosensory game? Yes, it was like playing a role-playing game...

After serving in the army for a long time, one cannot bear to return to society all of a sudden. Soldiers returning from the battlefield also need psychological counseling before they dare to go home.

Not to mention that Xu Heng was imprisoned for ten years, and was hit when he came out with high hopes. He traveled through time and was imprisoned for another forty years. When he came out again, the world was full of ups and downs again.

After half a lifetime of wandering, the world has become desolate.

Many times, many people become indifferent to the world and feel that nothing matters. It is not because they have transcended it, but because their experiences have been too rough.

What about Xu Heng? Please make your own judgment.

"You'd better not be too curious, Master of Emotions. Curiosity may kill the cat." Xu Heng "saw" Julie suddenly shut up, feeling embarrassed, so he added this.

These words, in Julie's feelings, have never been so true.

Yes, curiosity kills the cat. Xu Heng now is a black hole of mystery.

"Indeed, curiosity really does kill the cat." Julie sighed. She knew that what Xu Heng said was different from what she said.

……

In the restaurant, Vivian was wearing an exquisite blue and white Lolita dress, sitting in her seat very dignifiedly, and she seemed to have some light makeup on her face.

She drummed her fingers on the white dining table as she waited anxiously.

She didn't know what she was panicking about. In the bedroom, she dressed herself up and down, not knowing what she was doing. Looking in the mirror, she always felt like she was missing something and was worried and anxious.

It was as if Xu Heng had given her a new hairstyle and she suddenly became interested in beauty. Vivian herself couldn’t figure out what was wrong with her.

After a long time of struggling, I finally came out and waited for Xu Heng to serve the food, but I felt inexplicably nervous.

"dong dong dong"

There was a knock on the door, and Vivian's heart skipped a beat. She blurted out in shock, "Come in!"

The next moment, Xu Heng came in with his standard slime serving tools.

Xu Heng specially prepared medicinal porridge for Vivian, which is more nourishing. Although he didn't know whether Vivian still needed it at her level, it was definitely a good choice to restore vitality and energy.

From beginning to end, after Xu Heng came in, put down the food, introduced why it was prepared, asked Slime to put the broth on it, and said that the dessert would be something called "Qingtuan", Xu Heng never looked at Vivian directly.

Vivian should have felt more at ease if she wasn't being noticed, after all, it was her first time to dress so formally. But that didn't happen. Instead, she felt even more anxious.

Xu Heng adhered to the principle of not looking at what is inappropriate, stood aside and waited for the meal, and began to think about the first time he made green rice dumplings with the mugwort leaves he found by chance, and wondered if it would suit Vivian's taste.

Then he noticed that something was wrong with Vivian's mood.

After thinking for a while, he said, "Master, please forgive me for saying too much. Overwork is always bad for your health. Let me help you recover in the next few days."

"Hmm." Weiwei said nothing else. She picked up the spoon and began to boredly turn over the porridge in front of her - it was a little light, with a medicinal smell... a medicinal smell...

Well, thinking about the smell of medicine reminded her of what happened today.

"Are you magicians so impatient when you can't complete your experiments?" Xu Heng noticed that Vivian's emotions seemed unstable and chaotic, and subconsciously complained in his mind.

"I said, could there be other reasons?" Julie replied.

"Any other reason? Vivian dressed up very carefully today. She must like the way I braided her hair. Could it be that I didn't dress her up? Oh! Is she regretting not dressing herself up properly for so many years? Are you feeling sorry for yourself? Hey, luckily I was prepared."

"You also know that Vivian has dressed up... Wait, what's wrong with you? Xu Heng, why don't you just shake me until I'm dizzy? I feel uncomfortable just looking at you!"

"I'm just kidding. Are you addicted to my shaking? You've been acting a little weird lately."

Xu Heng no longer wanted to argue with Julie in his mind. He suddenly had an idea and took out a box from his space ring. He respectfully placed it next to Vivian and said, "Master, this is a gift I bought from the human city. I think it suits you very well. Do you like it?"

Of course, these words implying "I bought it for you because it's very suitable for you" were made up by Xu Heng. The real reason was that he felt it was embarrassing that he always couldn't come up with a suitable gift when he needed to give one.

For example, when facing the moon elf who saved Kaven and when trying to identify Clara, you must give him a membership card, but if you can add something else, wouldn’t it make the customer stickier?

So, before leaving, he went to the clothing store and bought a lot of small gadgets so that he could give them as gifts later. They were all relatively expensive. Since it was a gigolo club, there were more girls there, so he bought a lot of small headwear for women and the like.

I also told Machi that he could give it as a gift if appropriate.

Look, Vivian is unhappy, so you can give her a gift to express your comfort. People will always feel happy when they see beautiful things.

Men get ties and suits, and women get necklaces and skirts, it's the same principle.

Seeing an exquisite blue gift box placed in front of her, Vivian, who was still struggling with various thoughts in her mind, was stunned.

Then Xu Heng consciously opened the gift box, and inside lay a well-made silk bow headdress. The upper wing was blue, embroidered with small squares of different shades, and the lower wing was beige with a dispersion reaction. The looped and cross-knotted method made the upper and lower wings support each other and appear to have a sense of design.

There is a small diamond at the collar, which echoes the light color of the lower wing.

Regardless of whether Vivian likes it or not, Vivian, who rarely sees jewelry and has never received a gift from anyone, was shocked by Xu Heng's action.

What is an earthquake? It is like an indestructible dam that is repeatedly hit by the accumulated water inside, and finally a crack is created in the wall, and traces of water will gradually flow out.

She was confused.

She didn't want to keep staring at the pretty bow and wanted to turn her head away, but out of the corner of her eye she saw Xu Heng's furry ears wiggling, as if he was looking forward to it.

There was nothing that could be done. My psychological defenses were broken by this final blow.

"I... I like it. It looks very nice. Thank you. However, I usually don't wear bows." Vivian spoke stutteringly. She had to say something inappropriate, otherwise she was afraid that she would not be able to control the situation.

She was used to restraining herself in front of Xu Heng and acting like a little adult, but her emotions would always show up, like when facing delicious food, when getting a massage, and now.

"Master, this is not for wearing. It is for you to tie behind your hair. It will look good. I have seen people doing this. It should be a fashion that has become popular recently." Xu Heng explained, but half of his words were a lie. There is no such fashion in this world. It is just something he got based on his experience in his previous life.

He also deliberately avoided anything with "succubus" elements, because he felt that Vivian might not like anything related to succubus.

"Tie it in your hair?" After hearing Xu Heng's explanation, Vivian believed it a little bit, but she accepted it later because after her association, she found that it seemed to be feasible.

"Yes, please allow me to give you a shot? Is that okay?" Xu Hengqian asked.

"Okay, I'll try it then, and thank you for the gift."

"No, no, it is my honor if the master accepts my gift."

Since she had already massaged her head, combed her hair, and helped with the headdress, Vivian wouldn't object.

Xu Heng's words were flawless. He picked up the bow in the box and came behind Vivian. He gently and carefully tied the bow behind her hair, then skillfully took out the mirror again and showed it to Vivian.

Looking at herself in the mirror, Vivian can be said to be overjoyed. This is not to say that she can get praise from anyone, but that she has become beautiful and cute, and that interesting accessories can be well matched on her body, completing a kind of makeup and discovering a new sense of accomplishment in beauty.

As for Xu Heng himself, his status in her heart rose again, to the point that she was a little unsure about where to put him.

How should you treat someone who can change you? In addition, the relationship between Vivian and Xu Heng is master and servant.

Now, Vivian had to consider whether she should tell Xu Heng about the mission...

While she was in doubt, a corner of the mirror reflected Xu Heng's relieved smile, which made Vivian's chest tight again and she felt indescribable.

Xu Heng was really happy for himself...

No! I can't let him stay around any longer! I have to... I have to slow down! Something's going to go wrong!

Vivian inexplicably felt a sense of crisis.