Can you please stop hating

Yu Xi pursed her lips. She was not good at lying and was unable to respond to Jin Zhuoxiao's questioning for a while.

"..."

The living room fell into an eerie silence. Beneath the calm surface, there seemed to be an undercurrent, with signs of huge waves about to rise, as if they were about to drown the people in it.

Jin Zhuoxiao waited for a long time but Yu Xi didn't respond with any rejection. His only remaining hope slowly shattered and turned into broken glass that stabbed him all over.

"Yu Xi, are you kidding me?"

Jin Zhuoxiao's voice was low and hoarse, with a particularly strong abrasive feeling, as if it was squeezed out from his throat.

Yu Xi had never intended to conceal anything from the beginning. Since Jin Zhuoxiao had taken the initiative to break the balance, she simply made it clear: "You and I are just playing around."

Jin Zhuoxiao: "What did you say?"

Yu Xi raised her eyes and looked at him: "Jin Zhuoxiao, we are together because we each get what we want. You want to sleep with me, and I use you. As long as the goal is achieved, it's fine. Does it matter to you who I like?"

Yu Xi didn't understand why Jin Zhuoxiao suddenly became angry and acted as if he was betrayed by her.

In Yu Xi's opinion, the relationship between the two was fair. First, she did not restrict Jin Zhuoxiao from hooking up with other girls. Second, although she liked Chen Wen, she was also trying to let him go.

In comparison, she has been very law-abiding. Jin Zhuoxiao can't just allow the officials to light fires and not allow the common people to light lamps, right?

Jin Zhuoxiao had no idea what Yu Xi was thinking. His dark black pupils were like a sharp sword, wishing to pierce through her.

The truth of the matter was even more absurd than he had imagined. With just a few words, Yu Xi tore his sincerity into pieces and trampled it underfoot, devaluing it to nothing.

The two sides faced each other, each with their own thoughts, and the atmosphere became tense.

The tense atmosphere made people afraid to speak easily, for fear that they would step on a landmine in the next second and be blown to pieces.

"Huh," Jin Zhuoxiao laughed in anger, "Have you always thought this way?"

"Isn't it?" Yu Xi asked back, "Can you still be sincere to me?"

Jin Zhuoxiao stopped smiling, his anger overwhelming his mind, and he said sarcastically, "Yes, I'm just playing with you, but I don't play with women that others don't want."

Yu Xi's eyelashes trembled slightly. Jin Zhuoxiao's words made her feel as humiliated as if she were stripped naked and thrown into the street.

Her face was pale, she secretly clenched her fists, and pretended to be calm: "Then let's break up."

After saying this lightly, Yu Xi stood up without hesitation, not caring about her physical discomfort, and strode away.

Jin Zhuoxiao did not stop Yu Xi. He was now filled with rage and had no place to vent it. The fact that he could still speak calmly had exhausted all his rationality.

If he forced Yu Xi to stay, he didn't know what he would do.

But in just a short while, the atmosphere in the living room changed drastically, as if a huge wave had passed through, leaving only a mess.

*

The weather is nice today, but the wind is still bitingly cold and there is no sense of warmth at all.

As soon as Yu Xi came out of the house, she shivered from the cold. She sniffed, wrapped her clothes tightly and walked out of the community.

The taxi came quickly and Yu Xi didn't wait outside for long. After getting in the car, she stared out the window in a daze, and kept repeating in her ears what Jin Zhuoxiao had just said.

Yu Xi felt a swollen stomach, as if she was holding back an inexplicable emotion that she couldn't relieve, and she felt extremely uncomfortable.

They walked in silence all the way. After arriving at school, Yu Xi went straight to the dormitory.

She felt pain all over with every step she took, and the few flights of stairs back to the dormitory almost took her life.

Yu Xi suddenly understood why Jin Zhuoxiao had tormented her so much last night. It turned out to be a deliberate revenge.

Now that I think about it, Jin Zhuoxiao really doesn't want to suffer any loss. Even if they want to break up, he only gets angry after sleeping with her.

After all, his goal was achieved. He got tired of her and just dumped her, even finding a plausible excuse.

Yu Xi felt that she was quite ridiculous, but it was also good this way, at least she would have peace and quiet from now on.

She was now exhausted and didn't want to think about anything. She just wanted to go back to the dormitory and sleep.

I don’t know if it was because it was cold that she didn’t go out, but when Yu Xi returned to the dormitory, Qiao Yining and Chen Yingxin were both there.

Qiao Yining was watching a TV series. When she heard the noise, she turned around and saw Yu Xi, a little surprised: "Didn't you go to work today? Why are you back so early?"

"Yeah." Yu Xi was exhausted from climbing the stairs. She walked slowly to her seat and sat down.

Qiao Yining was startled when he heard her voice: "What's wrong with your throat?"

Yu Xi said calmly, "The weather is too dry, I got a sore throat."

Chen Yingxin asked with a hint of mockery: "Yu Xi, doesn't Jin Zhuoxiao ever ask you out to play? Why do you spend your weekends working all the time?"

Yu Xi didn't have the energy to deal with Chen Yingxin's weirdness. Knowing that she was jealous, she simply said, "We've broken up."

As soon as these words were spoken, the dormitory fell silent for two seconds.

Chen Yingxin reacted quickly, showing a happy expression, and pretended to comfort: "Oh, it's okay, breaking up is normal, you don't have to be too sad."

Yu Xi hummed perfunctorily.

Qiao Yining was a little worried, and came over and frowned and asked: "Yu Xi, are you okay?"

Yu Xi looked indifferent: "What can happen to me?"

Seeing that she looked calm, as if nothing had really happened, Qiao Yining wanted to say something but hesitated for a long time, and finally gave up.

Yu Xi felt unwell physically and even mentally exhausted. She sat down to rest for a while, then climbed onto the bed and curled up.

The bed was warm, and she quickly became sleepy and fell into a deep sleep.

*

Yu Xi slept until night. When she woke up, it was dark outside. She felt a dull pain in her head and her throat was dry.

Qiao Yining knew that Yu Xi was not feeling well. Seeing that she had woken up, she said, "Yu Xi, Ying Xin and I are about to go out to buy food. I'll bring you whatever you want to eat."

Yu Xi was too lazy to move, so after thinking for a while, she said, "Let's have millet porridge."

Qiao Yining: "Don't you want anything else?"

"No need." Yu Xi didn't eat much at night and now she had no appetite, so she planned to just keep it simple.

Qiao Yining: "Okay, if you want anything else, just send me a message."

Yu Xi: “Yeah.”

After Qiao Yining and Chen Yingxin left, Yu Xi got out of bed and got a glass of warm water. After drinking it, she felt her throat felt better.

She sat down and glanced at her phone. It was 7:30 in the evening. She was a little groggy from sleeping too long and thought it was already the next day.

However, what happened in the morning did make her feel as if it happened yesterday, and Yu Xi still feels a sense of unreality.

When the two of them were together, Yu Xi seemed to have the same feeling, probably because it happened too suddenly and she hadn't adapted yet.

A hasty beginning is bound to lead to a hasty ending, which is understandable.

But Yu Xi didn’t know what was going on in her heart right now. She seemed very calm, even numb. After all, she really didn’t want to cry or make a fuss.

But to say that everything was fine was not the case. She felt a little upset.

It wasn't particularly obvious, but she could clearly feel that it was like something was stuffed in there, stuck there, making her feel uncomfortable.

Are you sad because you broke up with Jin Zhuoxiao?

It doesn't seem impossible. After all, after being together for such a long time, you will develop feelings for a pet. It does take some time to adapt to sudden separation.

It will probably be fine after a while, Yu Xi comforted herself in her heart.