Can you please stop hating

Yu Xi cried until very late yesterday and her eyes were swollen the next day.

She had originally planned to meet Jin Zhuoxiao today, but gave up because she was in too bad a condition.

Yu Xi didn't eat the whole day and locked herself in the bedroom.

She didn't read or reply to the messages from Jin Zhuoxiao and Zhan Hang because she had no idea how to face them.

Yu Xi is very upset now. She is willing to be controlled by Yang Huijuan, but Jin Zhuoxiao and Zhan Hang are both innocent.

If she really does what Yang Huijuan said, no matter who she is with in the future, she will probably have to continue to meet Yang Huijuan's demands.

One is the person she likes, and the other is a childhood friend. Yu Xi doesn't want to implicate anyone, and doesn't want to be humble in front of them.

What's more, she knows that normal love and marriage cannot be achieved by unilaterally "pleasing" anyone, otherwise it will only make herself very tired and tormented.

Yu Xi thought about it for a long time, but still couldn't find a decent way to solve the current situation.

Seeing that the truth could no longer be hidden, since she couldn't avoid it, she decided to go all out and tell Jin Zhuoxiao and Zhan Hang the truth directly.

Yang Huijuan doesn't care about her future at all, so Yu Xi can only find a way out for herself.

Although it was embarrassing for her to talk about the bad things at home, it was better to confess now than to confess later when she was discovered.

Yu Xi struggled for a long time, and finally made up her mind. She sent a message to Jin Zhuoxiao: [Let’s have lunch together tomorrow.]

Jin Zhuoxiao replied quickly: [Okay.]

After sending it to him, Yu Xi looked at Zhan Hang's message again. Zhan Hang wanted to ask her out to see a movie on the weekend.

Yu Xi hesitated for a moment and found an excuse to decline. She had to deal with the things at hand one by one. It would be difficult to guarantee that there would be no problems if she agreed to both sides. It was better to be safe.

Perhaps because she knew that there was nothing she could do, Yu Xi felt inexplicably relieved after she chose to lie down. However, as she relaxed, a strong sadness surged in her heart, making her feel particularly negative.

Yu Xi lay at home all day, thinking about nothing, and didn't get up until around ten o'clock the next day.

After washing and changing her clothes, she walked into the living room and told Yang Huijuan that she was going out.

Yang Huijuan was watching a TV series and asked, "What are you going out for?"

Yu Xi lied, "Meeting with Zhan Hang."

Hearing this, Yang Huijuan was indeed happy and agreed with a smile, but immediately asked: "How come you don't know how to dress yourself up when meeting someone? You don't even put on makeup."

"Not enough time, let's go."

Yu Xi was not at all surprised by Yang Huijuan's reaction, and her emotions were as calm as dead water. After she finished speaking, she turned around and walked out.

She had made an appointment with Jin Zhuoxiao to have dinner yesterday, and took a taxi directly there after leaving the house.

Along the way, Yu Xi was struggling because she didn't know what to say to Jin Zhuoxiao when she saw him later, and she didn't know where to start.

She struggled for a long time, but still couldn't think of a satisfactory beginning until the car stopped in front of the restaurant, and finally she could only go to the appointment with a blank mind.

Jin Zhuoxiao had already arrived and was sitting not far from the entrance.

When Yu Xi came in, he was holding his chin and looking at the door. He was so eye-catching that he could be noticed at a glance.

The moment he saw Yu Xi, Jin Zhuoxiao laughed, looking at the large dog that looked like it was waiting for its owner.

Yu Xi suddenly felt very uncomfortable. What was already difficult to say suddenly became even more difficult to say.

After she sat down opposite him, Jin Zhuoxiao asked, "Are you happy at home?"

The first sentence made Yu Xi's nose sore. She pursed her lips and said vaguely: "It's okay."

Jin Zhuoxiao looked at her for two seconds, caught a glimpse of something strange, frowned and asked: "Why do I feel that you are not very happy?"

Yu Xi smiled faintly and pretended to be relaxed: "Because I'm hungry and haven't had breakfast yet."

"Why didn't you say so earlier?" Jin Zhuoxiao pushed the menu in front of her, "Order."

Yu Xi really laughed this time. She thought, let’s talk about it after we finish eating.

After ordering the dishes, Jin Zhuoxiao asked, "How long can you stay outside today?"

"It should be fine until we finish dinner."

In fact, Yu Xi felt that if she didn't go back tonight, Yang Huijuan would not ask too many questions, but after she finished telling Jin Zhuoxiao about Yang Huijuan, she might not stay long.

Jin Zhuoxiao: "Then let's go skiing after we finish eating? I saw there seemed to be a ski resort here yesterday."

Yu Xi clenched her fingers tightly, afraid of affecting his mood for eating, so she didn't reveal that she had something to say in advance, and nodded, "Okay."

Jin Zhuoxiao was quite happy during the meal, but Yu Xi always felt like a huge rock was pressing on her heart, and she had to try her best to please him.

Finally, the meal came to an end, and Yu Xi became more and more anxious.

Jin Zhuoxiao picked up the phone and asked, "Shall we go?"

Yu Xi clenched her fists and said nervously, "Wait a moment."

Jin Zhuoxiao: "What's wrong?"

Yu Xi mustered up the courage to look at Jin Zhuoxiao and said seriously: "Jin Zhuoxiao, I have something to tell you."

Jin Zhuoxiao: "..."

As if he had noticed something, Jin Zhuoxiao was silent for two seconds, put down his phone and said, "You go ahead."

Once the arrow is shot, there is no turning back. Yu Xi took a deep breath, lowered her eyes and said, "My parents have always wanted only a son, so they don't value me. If my brother and I weren't twins, I probably wouldn't even have the chance to be born."

After just hearing the beginning, Jin Zhuoxiao's heart sank, but he did not interrupt Yu Xi and listened quietly.

"My brother was very good and outstanding, but because of me, he left forever."

When Yu Li was mentioned again, Yu Xi's voice still trembled: "My parents resented me for this. They thought I was a disaster star, and I thought I was one too. So after my father passed away, I have been working hard to support my family, hoping to atone for my sins."

Yu Xi had never told these words to anyone, and she never thought that the first person to listen would be Jin Zhuoxiao.

Perhaps because Jin Zhuoxiao holds a special place in her heart, it makes it even more difficult for her to say these words.

Every word seemed to expose an ugly wound on her body, which was painful and embarrassing, and completely drained her strength.

Jin Zhuoxiao frowned: "Your brother's death is not your responsibility, and your parents shouldn't treat you like this."

Yu Xi shook her head, tears falling silently: "I indirectly killed my brother. My parents had high hopes for him. I can't just not care. I am guilty, so I can only try my best to make it up to them."

Jin Zhuoxiao finally understood why Yu Xi kept working to make money. Looking at her thin face, his heart ached like a knife.

She is obviously just a little girl, but she is forced to be an adult. No wonder she is soft inside but appears so stubborn and strong.

Yu Xi wiped away her tears, sniffed and began to get to the point: "After my brother passed away, my mother gave birth to my brother. She placed all her hopes for my brother on my brother, so she wanted to give him the best of everything."

"But our family is not well off," Yu Xi bit her lip, almost wanting to lower her head to the ground, her voice was very difficult, "so my mother wants me to find a boyfriend with good conditions, so as to achieve the purpose of supporting my brother."