Trajectory 2: entangled curves

The two walked to the elevator and Mi Bei let go of her hand.

"Are you going back to the crew early?"

Zhuge Qinuo found an excuse and asked him.

Mibe: “Ah, yes!”

Mibei suddenly became less talkative.

Zhuge Qinuo: "Emm, then I'll take you there?"

Mibei: “You have nothing else to do?”

Zhuge Qinuo: "Yes. Not only today, but we should be able to slow down the pace later on."

Mi Bei: "Okay, thank you for your help."

On the way back...

Mi Bei was driving the car, Zhuge Qinuo was playing with his cell phone, and the atmosphere was tense.

"I'm sorry!" Mi Bei spoke first.

Zhuge Qinuo asked alertly: "What happened today? Why did you suddenly say this again?"

Mi Bei: "I... just want to go back so suddenly."

I couldn't muster up the courage to say what I wanted to say.

"What's the matter? Work is more important."

Zhuge Qinuo is very understanding.

Along the way, Mi Bei seemed to be hesitant to speak.

To be hesitant to speak means not speaking.

Zhuge Qinuo once again felt what others called "Mibei is a man of few words".

She knew why and what she had to do.

After sending Mi Bei to the downstairs of his crew dormitory, he was about to leave when she called him, "Mi Bei, can we chat for a while?"

"Yeah!" Mibei stopped getting out of the car.

This is also what he wants to do.

"I actually feel that you are different today. Coming back early is also your excuse, right?"

"From the time you got off the car to the time you met your friend, you didn't touch your phone, so the all-of-a-sudden incident with the crew is not true."

Zhuge Qinuo analyzed it seriously and explained patiently once again: "I have been thinking about it for a while, and there are some things I still need to talk about.

"I think you're still thinking about what happened last night."

Mi Bei didn't respond.

Zhuge Qinuo had complete control over the initiative in this conversation.

"If you don't say anything, I'll take it as your consent."

"Turn around and look at me." Zhuge Qinuo requested.

Mi Bei did as he was told. He looked into her eyes, his heart in disarray like a leaf in the wind.

"I can be responsible! I want to be responsible for you!"

Zhuge Qinuo didn't say anything, Mi Bei had already said what he wanted to say.

"Responsible?" Zhuge Qinuo chuckled.

"Last night..." Mi Bei wanted to ask one last time.

"Last night," Zhuge Qinuo continued, "we really didn't."

She looked at Mi Bei firmly, and spoke every word with decisiveness.

Then she turned around and changed her tone: "I don't know how you kids are doing now, but I'm so much older than you, I know exactly what I want, no matter what the circumstances."

Minai still didn't say anything. This wasn't the answer he wanted.

Zhuge Qinuo continued: "Yes, we almost did yesterday."

Mi Bei denied: "It can't be that close!"

"But that's the truth. You were drunk, I was just drunk. I'm not going to let that happen. That's just who I am."

Since things were going to be said like this, Zhuge Qinuo didn't want to turn back. She had to solve the problem here. She had already prepared words that would convince Mi Bei.

"Because my body will definitely make a choice according to my heart after checking both my emotions and my rationality. This is my responsibility for my feelings as a mature woman, and it is also a kind of self-respect and self-esteem."

"So, you really shouldn't have any burden. You don't need to worry about being responsible, and neither do I."

"Even if, I mean just in case, the so-called intimate contact we had last night was definitely not mine. I don't think it came from the bottom of your heart and you couldn't help it."

"Think about it, are the few times we've had contact really enough to make us fall in love with each other after drinking a little wine? I know I'm not that kind of person, and I know you're not that kind of person either."

"We are all adults now. We must have an understanding of ourselves and will make the right choices at these times."

"If we really had it yesterday, do you think that would have been the right choice for us?"

"I would not choose to do that, and I did not do that."

"You are still young. You will have more opportunities to know the world and have more choices."

Mi Bei still didn't say anything. He didn't like her saying he was young.

"You said it yourself, you blacked out. Was the alcohol you drank yesterday enough to make you black out? I also felt different after drinking alcohol yesterday."

"I've thought about it for a long time. There must be something wrong with the wine yesterday. I will find a way to investigate this. I don't want there to be any misunderstandings between us. I cherish our meeting."

"If possible, I hope we can still be the same as before."

In these words, she showed all her intelligence, maturity and stability. Some distances still need to be opened, and some gaps still need to be clarified.

"Yes! Good!" Mibei responded, and then said, "I'm leaving first."

"Okay!" Zhuge Qinuo didn't say anything else. She thought Mi Bei would need some time to digest it.

She was actually a little scared. She didn't know how Mi Bei would digest all these things, and she was afraid that she would never have any contact with him again.

"I understand what you said, I just don't know what to say, because, you are right. There is no need to investigate the alcohol issue, it will never happen again anyway. We are still good friends."

Just as I was worried, Mibei sent me a WeChat message.

Zhuge Qinuo breathed a sigh of relief and replied, "It's great that you have a mouth! The child is growing up slowly."

Mibei: “Not a kid!”

Zhuge Qinuo: "My bad! My good friend!"

Mi Bei lay on his bed in the dormitory, thinking over and over again about Zhuge Qinuo's words. He was now somewhat doubtful about his life, his feelings towards people, his own emotions, and even the accuracy of his own physiological cognition.

Otherwise, he clearly felt that she was different from him, so why did she say no?

Otherwise, he obviously treated her differently from others, so differently, so why couldn't she feel it?

Otherwise, he was clearly naked, and clearly felt satisfied and tired after a night of making love, but she just said no?

Could it be that she is like this to everyone, and her kindness to herself is just an illusion?

Could it be that she prefers to express herself more directly, or more romantically, or in some other way?

Could it be that last night was really just a dream after they hugged each other?

How is it possible? But if it is true, then this is too real.

What's even more abominable is that even if there wasn't "in-depth communication", they at least had close enough contact, the kind of close contact that was just missing that finishing touch. Why, does she still just think of herself as a child?

Is it that bad?

Were his kisses, his hugs, and all his expressions of love and desire for her so bad?

He was going crazy because he wasn't accepted.

She gave him too much insecurity. He was so insecure that he was afraid when he thought about facing her next time.

Afraid that she would look at him like a child.

What's more, he is afraid that he will never appear in her eyes again.