Trajectory 2: entangled curves

After that, perhaps because he had just completed chemotherapy, Lin Shaohua's condition improved a little.

Before they were discharged, in the hospital corridor, Zhuge Nan said to Feng Ping: "Sister Ping, we entrusted Xiao Nuo to you before we left. We believe you can give her a better life. We are going to do a kidney transplant, and the success rate is 50%. Shao Hua didn't want Xiao Nuo to know, but I think if it's healed, it's healed. If it's not successful, this is the last time for them and I don't want them to regret it."

Although Feng Ping knew Lin Shaohua's decision, she also supported Zhuge Nan's idea: "Tell Xiao Nuo the truth. She is very sensible. Let her make her own decision. No matter what, I will treat her as my daughter."

This was her promise to Zhuge Nan.

"It was impossible before, but now medicine is more advanced. We are sure we can have a baby, but you are unwilling to try." Huang Yujian's words broke Feng Ping's memory.

"I have a daughter, I don't need it anymore!" Feng Ping replied.

"You like Xiao Nuo and treat her like your own daughter, but remember, she is not your biological daughter," Huang Yujian said.

Feng Ping thought these words were very cold and harsh: "If we don't agree, let's go to sleep."

As for Zhuge Qinuo, she was really sleepy, but she really couldn't fall asleep.

My brain is like a machine that has just been wound up and then released, constantly producing fragments.

She thought about the scene when she met Huang Yujian today. Every time she came to Feng Ping's house, Zhuge Qinuo would feel like Cinderella turning into a little princess. She was picked up by a luxury car and had a tidy room of her own without having to clean it herself. This was all Feng Ping's meticulous care.

However, every time she saw Feng Ping's husband, she felt so embarrassed that she had no place to hide. In her heart, Feng Ping was her godmother and Huang Cangran was her brother. As for Feng Ping's husband Huang Yujian, she couldn't get close to him at the beginning. She didn't even call him godfather. Until now, she couldn't change her words. As a result, she now calls one godmother and the other uncle, which makes her feel so awkward that she wants to die.

She thought about the time when she came to Huang Cangran's house in the fourth grade. When she thought about that time, her tears could not be controlled. This tiredness was not grievance, it was much more complicated than grievance.

She let it run wild, because now she was alone, she could release it boldly and silently.

At that time, she lived in Feng Ping's home. Although Zhuge Nan did not say it at first, Zhuge Qinuo later had a vague feeling that Zhuge Nan seemed to want her to be Feng Ping's daughter. Otherwise, no matter how cruel the parents were, they would not leave the child in someone else's home and ignore him for half a year, even though she had recognized her as her godmother. It was also impossible for someone to treat a friend's child as her own, even though she was her godmother.

During the summer vacation, Zhuge Nan came back to take care of Zhuge Qinuo. She finally got the answer and finally found out why her parents disappeared for so long. Because her mother was sick, Zhuge Nan took her mother to visit famous doctors all over the country.

Zhuge Nan told Zhuge Qinuo the truth despite Lin Shaohua's objection.

In the car, Zhuge Nan said: "Xiao Nuo, Dad thinks you have grown up. I hope you will listen carefully to what I am going to say next."

No matter how ignorant Zhuge Qinuo, a fourth-grader, was, he fully understood that things were not a good thing.

Zhuge Nan: "Xiao Nuo, mom is sick."

Zhuge Qinuo's heart sank.

Zhuge Nan: “Very serious.”

Sink again!

Zhuge Nan: "We went to many places to seek medical treatment, but none of them could cure us."

Keep sinking!

Zhuge Nan: "Mom doesn't have much time left."

She was finally able to die after hanging her heart in the air. So this was the truth, the ending?

Zhuge Nan: "Now, I have found a way. Mom can have surgery. There are two results of the surgery. One is success. Mom can live, but we have to spend a lot of money to continue the treatment. Two is failure. Then this period of time will be the last time you and Mom can stay together."

Zhuge Qinuo actually knew in her heart that something might have happened to her family, and she also knew that Lin Shaohua was in a weak state. But since it was a matter of life and death, she felt powerless, and she had no energy to do anything more except cry.

However, it seems that fate has not dealt enough blows.

"Before..." Zhuge Nan was still talking.

Zhuge Qinuo had never been so reluctant to listen to Zhuge Nan's words. Because now, as soon as he opened his mouth, nothing good would happen.

Zhuge Nan: "In order to treat my mother's illness, my father stopped his business and we sold our house to my uncle. We only kept two rooms, one for grandma and one for ourselves. When you come back, you don't even have a home. It's different at my godmother's house. You can recognize my godmother as your mother and come back to accompany her every weekend."

"I don't want to, I want to go home and be with my parents." Zhuge Qinuo almost roared.

"Godmother will treat you very well." Zhuge Nan said. This was also the choice he and Lin Shaohua made for Zhuge Qinuo.

"I want my mommy, I want my mommy. Daddy, please don't leave me!" This is all she can say.

Zhuge Qinuo cried heartbreakingly. Zhuge Nan knew the truth was cruel, but he just wanted her to know the truth, and didn't want her to miss the last sight of Lin Shaohua if something happened.

When he accompanied Lin Shaohua to see a doctor, he had seen through life, birth, aging, illness and death, and the warmth and coldness of human nature. But Zhuge Qinuo was still young, and he didn't want the adults' choice to leave her with regrets. He always felt that if he didn't tell her all this, she would blame him in the future. But all this did not affect him. He felt that living with Feng Ping in the future was the best choice for Zhuge Qinuo.

Zhuge Nan tried to persuade Zhuge Qinuo, but the little girl couldn't accept this fact.

She obviously had the happiest family, her parents were loving and doting on her; when other children were still rolling in the mud, the clothes she wore were all brought back by Zhuge Nan from Guangzhou and Shenzhen; when others were still playing marbles, she was already collecting stamps and coins from various countries.

She remembered that Lin Shaohua had asked her what she would do if her mother was gone. At that time, she didn't even dare to think about it, and she would burst into tears when she heard the word "no more".

Now, all of this might become a reality. She had to face some things that she dared not think about.

She thought that from now on she would no longer be able to lie between her parents and watch the stars together; she would no longer be able to listen to her mother tell ghost stories, then hide in her mother's arms out of fear and fall asleep while hugging her mother; she would no longer be able to go shopping with her mother, buy delicious food and feed each other; no one would knit a sweater for her; no one would braid her hair; no one would listen to her little secrets; no one would unconditionally bear her sudden temper.

She felt like her world had collapsed and she didn't know how she would survive without her mother.