Trajectory 2: entangled curves

Both of them were silent for about a minute.

Zhuge Qinuo spoke first: "What did you feel when you closed your eyes just now?"

"Nothing." Mibei replied.

"Hey, that's not how you chat. To be honest, I'm not very good at chatting either, so I specially brought out these personal collections just to make a good start." She complained a little.

"Oh oh oh, okay, okay, then tell me what you feel." Mi Bei smiled and felt relaxed.

Zhuge Qinuo: "Isolation! Isolation between the outside and the inside."

After another minute of silence, Mibe said, "Me too."

Zhuge Qinuo: "Is it similar to the life of you celebrities? Bright and lively on one side, and quiet and lonely on the other?"

Mibe disagrees: "I'm not some kind of star."

Zhuge Qinuo: "But those more than 100,000 people think you are. I am one of them."

"I don't know how to interact with them. Live streaming is very popular now. I'm not good at chatting. I'll be disliked if I do live streaming. I've seen and heard good and bad things. It's better to do my own thing than to be judged by others." Mi Bei felt a little regretful after saying this. He didn't really want to talk so much to outsiders. He wondered if there was some "truth serum" in this carefully arranged formal environment, was it the tea, or the aromatherapy?

Zhuge Qinuo paid no attention to Mi Bei's doubts, but continued to close his eyes: "If you want to be an artist, a star, and accept the attention of thousands of people, you must have the courage to accept criticism, right? The bad ones can be ignored. You have so many people who like you, look at them more."

Mi Bei started to be conservative: “Yeah.”

"Also, you don't know how to chat? No, I think it's great. I never thought that there would be a day when a star would be in my house, sitting across from me and chatting with me." Zhuge Qinuo saw Mi Bei's disappointment, thinking that something must have happened, but she didn't know it.

So she didn't want him to bring up these bad memories again, especially in front of a stranger. She had to change the subject: "And you're so pretty, so pleasing to the eyes, I don't even want to sleep, I just want to stare at you."

Obviously, her trick worked. Looking at Mi Bei's slightly red face, she realized that her words just now were a bit frivolous and she cursed herself in her heart for being such a shameless old lady for teasing such an innocent little boy.

So he immediately poured a cup of fruit tea, scooped a small spoonful of honey, stirred it, and handed it to him: "Try it?"

She tried to act as if nothing had happened.

"You, tell me about yourself." Mi Bei's words were a little confusing. "It tastes good."

Zhuge Qinuo: "Me? What can I say? Didn't I tell you on the way here?"

"Do you hate him?" Mi Bei asked cautiously. It would be better to talk more about her rather than expose herself in this conversation.

"You mean my ex-husband?" Zhuge Qinuo didn't think that the two of them were close enough to talk about such a topic, so he was a little surprised, but still replied with a smile, "Do you think I live like a resentful woman?"

"Why did you get divorced?" Mi Bei asked quickly, but soon regretted it. Because he really didn't see any sad temperament of an abandoned woman from her state, so he thought that the divorce might not necessarily be the man's fault, so his question was very abrupt.

Zhuge Qinuo didn't care: "He cheated!"

"He cheated on her, don't you hate him?" Now that it had started and she was not the one at fault, Mi Bei wanted to satisfy her curiosity more.

Zhuge Qinuo shook his head.

"Don't you love him?" Mi Bei continued to ask.

"Why do you ask that?" Zhuge Qinuo asked back, "Do you have to hate to be considered as having loved?"

Mi Bei was stumped by the question.

Zhuge Qinuo: "It's not that I don't feel anything at all. I was sad for a while, but I have two children. I have to work hard for them. I no longer belong to myself."

Zhuge Qinuo: "Was it hard? During that period?"

Zhuge Qinuo: "I think it's not as bad as you think. There are still people who care about me. I'm not that miserable. Besides, I work during the day and spend time with my kids at night, so I don't have that much time to endure. If I have to say it's bad, it's only when it's late at night and everyone is asleep that I lick my wounds and feel like a failure."

Mibe: “You’re fine.”

"I know." Zhuge Qinuo answered confidently, then smiled brightly, "After I figured out some things, I felt that I was actually great!"

Mibe: “What’s the matter?”

Zhuge Qinuo: "After I figured out why he cheated."

"Cheating! Why? There's no novelty, you don't love me anymore, or maybe it's not that you don't love me anymore, you just wavered and didn't keep it."

"It's not that I'm not good enough, it's that he's not good enough! Why should I punish myself for someone else's failure?"

Zhuge Qinuo spoke one sentence at a time, which was different from what he did to Huang Cangran. At that time, she was just comforted. Now she has figured it out and has become more sublime, but now no one comes to ask her about these things and care about her. In other people's world, these have become a thing of the past.

She didn't know why, for no reason, she was willing to share with Mi Bei. Whatever he asked, she was willing to answer slowly and speak from the heart. Perhaps, it wasn't about sharing with him, but she really needed such a confidant, she could tell anything, without having to worry about whether he could understand, and without having to worry about whether her words would affect his mood.

She and he were more like two strangers who met in a specific time and space, confided their innermost thoughts to each other, and returned to their own world the next day without worrying about the secrets being leaked.

"Won't he think about his responsibilities? After all, you have a child." Mi Bei asked again.

Zhuge Qinuo: "He didn't take responsibility for this family. Yes. He was very wrong."

"But how wrong is he as a human being?"

"Even I can't say that I will only love one person in my life. People have seven emotions and six desires, likes, dislikes, desires, and are fickle. Even time and space are rotating, and everything changes. Why should we ask people's feelings not to change?"

"Isn't it good for people to live like human beings? Isn't it good to let each other go and be happy?"

If he hadn't asked, she wouldn't have realized that she had let it go so completely.

Mi Bei: “Are you happy now?”

"Happiness! If I hadn't gotten divorced, I would still be living a so-called happy life, still a good wife, still a good mother, still a good daughter and daughter-in-law in the eyes of adults." "But have you noticed? In all my happiness, there is no me."

"It's different now. I have my career, my children, and my own time. I'm no longer dependent, and I don't have to wait and live my life in anticipation of what others can do. I feel like I own myself. I've had this kind of possession before, but I didn't understand it at the time, and I didn't think it was special. But my failed marriage made me realize how precious it is to belong to yourself."

"Also, I have my own unexpected gain..." Zhuge Qinuo raised an eyebrow at Mi Bei, and Mi Bei turned away shyly. "I mean, what's wrong with having this opportunity to join the crew and meet you guys?"

Mi Bei calmed down the abnormal fluctuations in his heart: "I understand. It's good now. I will shoot more dramas in the future, and my life will change a lot."

Zhuge Qinuo: "Change? My current life makes me very comfortable, and I don't want to make any big changes. I won't film again, it's enough to have the experience. I think the only thing I still need to work hard on is to expand the business and give those two guys a chance to be tall, rich and handsome. Then I'll drink some tea and watch the storm outside. Enjoy the peace by myself."

Mibei: "You talk like you're going to retire."

Zhuge Qinuo: "You are such a child! If I could retire now, I would. Such peace is so precious."

Mi Bei was obviously unconvinced: "Me? Child? You are the childish one. You are only a few years old and have only experienced so much, yet you pursue the so-called peace. It is childish to think you are mature."

Would you actually resist? Zhuge Qinuo didn't want to argue too much: "Yes, what you said makes sense. But there are some things you are too young to understand."

Mi Bei: "You don't understand. Life always has infinite possibilities."

"Leave it to you young people." Zhuge Qinuo said as he picked up the teacup and touched it lightly, then handed it to Mi Bei. "By the way, when are you going to update your Weibo? When you reach 20, will you give out benefits?"

Mi Bei: "Update, welfare, not so many people will want to watch it, I haven't thought about it yet, and besides, 20, it's not that easy."

Zhuge Qinuo: "You are too modest. Does your company have any plans for you? Have you ever considered appearing on variety shows?"

Mi Bei: "By the way, I just saw your number in my phone, can I save it?"

……

A conversation in the wind and rain that became more and more boring as it went on, but miraculously lasted until three in the morning.

She also wanted to say that after all the ups and downs, she was so tired that she wanted to quit and retire.

He also wanted to say that he understood this kind of tiredness. However, it is not as easy as he thought. He still needs to actively adjust himself and face new challenges at all times.