Double Life: My whole world is you

Cheng's mother was thin and wore loose clothes. She hid after she became pregnant. She was not discovered until six or seven months later. After the report, Cheng's father took Cheng's mother out to hide for a while. At that time, the family planning office couldn't find her, so they smashed their house and arrested my grandmother and detained her for a few days. Finally, Cheng's mother was found by them. The family planning office wanted to force her to have an abortion, but an obstetrician and gynecologist at that time didn't have the heart to do it. "Since the B-ultrasound shows that the baby is eight months, forget it! After all, the couple is old and the baby is already formed."

After much persuasion from everyone, Cheng's father accepted the fine of 1,500 yuan to save Cheng Zhu.

When it comes to the current policy of encouraging the birth of a second or third child, and even offering incentives for the second or third child, Cheng's mother only feels sorry for the six-month-old child who was forced to have an abortion. (The child between Cheng Qiao and Cheng Zhu)

Although Cheng Qiao was five years old when Cheng's father passed away, she does not have a deep memory of her father. The scene of Cheng Zhu being born and Cheng's father carrying her all the way back from her grandmother's house is one of the few memories she has.

Cheng's father didn't say a word along the way, but Cheng Qiao could clearly sense his happiness. Although it took not only crossing several bridges but also walking on several mountain roads to get from Waipaowan to their bay, and although Cheng's father carried Cheng Qiao all the way, it was nothing for him who had been doing heavy farm work since he was a teenager. Cheng Qiao only felt that the scenery along the way was fast, and they arrived home in a short while. When Cheng's father put her down, Cheng Qiao saw that he still looked relaxed and didn't breathe heavily.

But Cheng Qiao could never see his appearance clearly. His face seemed to be covered by a filter, blurry and unclear. At that time, the family was poor and they had never taken any photos. Cheng's father passed away suddenly, and the only photo was a black and white photo of him when he graduated from junior high school. When Cheng's mother handed it to them, it had been mostly destroyed. She could only vaguely see those clear and bright eyes. Cheng's mother said that Cheng Qiao's eyes were very similar to his. But what he actually looked like, Cheng Qiao could not imagine. In her dream, she rubbed her eyes several times. She wanted to see the young man in front of her clearly. She wanted to try hard to remember what her father looked like. But she couldn't see it clearly. The three and a half year old girl cried in grievance.

"Silly child, why are you crying?" Cheng's father picked her up again. They walked through the living room of the adobe house and came to the room. Young Cheng's mother was also covered with a veil, and Cheng Qiao couldn't see her face clearly. She stood at the door and didn't dare to get close. Cheng's father held her and walked to the bed. Cheng's mother took out the newborn Cheng Zhu from the quilt to show her. The little girl said unhappily, "Mom, you gave birth to another child. The police are coming to arrest you again."

Cheng's father and mother were amused by her shocking words, but their faces were also full of heartache. For the past six months, they had indeed neglected the eldest child for the sake of the second child. The eldest child stayed at relatives' homes for a few days here and there, and she had also witnessed several scenes of people from the family planning office violently arresting people and smashing things.

Dad Cheng held her in his arms and sat beside Mom Cheng, talking to her, "Although I'm very happy that we gave birth to a son, our daughter is also our treasure. We didn't take care of her for the past six months, and she has suffered. Do as much farm work as you can in the future, and mainly take care of the two children. I will work hard to make money outside, and as long as the two children are willing to study, I will support them even if I have to sell everything I have."

Cheng Qiao fell asleep unconsciously while listening to her parents' gentle words. When she opened her eyes again, her mother pulled her out of bed. Her mother put on a new red cotton-padded jacket for her. A little kid popped out from the left side of Cheng Qiao. Cheng Qiao was startled and heard the little kid calling in a baby voice, "Sister, sister..."

"Zhu, be good and put on your clothes first." Cheng's mother took another smaller red cotton jacket and put it on him.

Cheng Qiao was a little confused. She let Cheng's mother help them put on their clothes. At this time, Cheng's father came in from outside. He happily hugged Cheng Zhu and kissed him, "Today my son is one year old!"

He saw Cheng Qiao looking at her, so he put Cheng Zhu down, hugged Cheng Qiao and spun her around, then said with a smile, "My girl looks so beautiful in red! She'll look even better if she smiles."

Cheng Qiao smiled in agreement with him, and he used one hand to scratch her nose. At this time, someone called him from outside, so he put Cheng Qiao down and walked out.

Cheng's mother tidied the room and walked out with the two of them. At this time, many adults were busy in their shabby living room. After a while, many people came, sixty or seventy people she knew and didn't know. There were four tables in the small living room, and the remaining two were in the small courtyard of more than ten square meters. Cheng Qiao stared at the lively scene.

Cheng Zhu, who was walking unsteadily, ran towards her with a smile, shouting, "Sister, sister..."

She held Cheng Zhu's hand and followed the crowd. Before they knew it, it was night. Cheng's father sent off the last guest. He sat on the bed with a slightly flushed face after drinking. He was in high spirits after drinking. He pulled Cheng's mother and said, "I'm so happy! I have a son and a daughter. I will work harder to pay off the remaining two hundred yuan. We will work hard for another two years to build a new house, and then we can use this shabby house to raise pigs."

"In two years your daughter will go to school." Cheng's mother replied.

"Yes! In two years, my daughter will be six years old. They are reluctant to let her go to preschool, but I am different. As long as my daughter wants to study, I will support her even if she is still studying at the age of 30." Cheng's father said excitedly.

"What nonsense are you talking about. She's still studying at the age of 30? By then her children will be in school." Cheng's mother scolded.

"As long as she wants to study, I will support her. I suffered a lot because I didn't have money to study, and I will never let my child follow my path." Cheng's father's eyes were red. He looked at his cute daughter and hugged her and kissed her twice. "When you grow up a little bit, Dad will modify my 28-inch bicycle to a smaller size and teach you how to ride it. Then you can ride to school when you are in junior high school."

He fell asleep again without realizing it. When he opened his eyes again, he still saw the familiar old house, but the room was empty. Cheng Qiao was scared and ran out. Cheng's mother was crying on a coffin, and several aunts and grandmothers were trying to persuade her. Cheng Qiao watched everything. At this time, several children were laughing around Cheng Zhu, saying, "You don't have a father anymore. You are an orphan." Cheng Zhu, who was over one year old, didn't understand what it meant and was still playing with the children.

Five-year-old Cheng Qiao felt lonely and uneasy standing in the crowd. She didn't dare to approach the coffin, she just looked at it from a distance. In the blur, she seemed to see the soul of Cheng's father coming out of the coffin. He looked at everything gently, and finally floated in the air and waved goodbye to everyone. Cheng Qiao gently asked in her heart, "Dad, I can't ride a bike in this life. Is it because you didn't have time to teach me?"

Unconsciously, her head felt heavy again. When she opened her eyes again, they were pitch black. She knew that her dream was finally over. She looked at her watch. It was 5:15 in the morning. It was still early. She could lie down for another ten minutes. She lay flat on her back with her left hand resting on her head. She recalled everything in her dream and felt the father's love that was out of reach, just like his appearance that she could never remember.