I became a cannon fodder villain. If I want to survive, I must take care of my baby first.

Rujing and Mushu knew each other when they were very young.

On the day of separation, they, who were still children, had a big fight with each other.

It was also from then on that she gradually realized that she had reason to resent her parents.

All the pain that Ru Jing suffered was never justified.

During the rebellion, his younger brother Wuchang was born.

She liked this cute boy very much and was determined to protect her brother and not let him suffer like herself.

After all, her parents are not simply sons over daughters. Her mother is cold and selfish, and her father is violent and weak. Even if Wuchang is a boy, he is doomed to a tragic fate as long as he is born in this family.

However, Rujing, who had never been cared for and loved, had no idea how to care for others, and she could not give her brother the love that he lacked.

What's more, she has suffered a lot. Even if she tried her best to resist, she was already covered with wounds. How could she protect her brother?

In the process of fighting against fate, Ru Jing noticed that his brother sometimes had a look of fear in his eyes, the same expression he had when he was afraid of his parents.

Rujing wanted to tell her brother that she was different from her parents and would never abuse Wuchang, and hoped that he could accept her love as a family member.

It was not until she was washing clothes by the pond that she scooped up a handful of water to wash her face. She finally saw her own cold and selfish expression reflected in the water, which was exactly the same as that of her disgusted parents, which was terrifying.

Ru Jing then realized that no matter how hard she resisted, she would be assimilated into her family invisibly.

In order to survive and have more strength to fight, she endured the pain brought to her by her parents, but was invisibly contaminated by their colors and became the person she hated the most.

So she ran away, fleeing this den of evil with deep disgust.

Before leaving, she wanted to take Wuchang with her.

However, the hungry brother just asked with a numb expression without any emotion: "Why do you want to leave?"

He simply didn't understand, and under the oppression of his parents, he thought that pain was the norm in life.

Even though he was no longer abused by his father, he was still scolded and always received the cold shoulder from his mother, and the quarrels continued endlessly.

Are there any other possibilities in life?

Hearing this, Rujing finally realized that her brother, like her, had long been eroded by the bad environment. He took suffering for granted and tried his best to endure it.

Even if she took Wuchang away, the helpless brother and sister would have no chance of survival, and she could not bring any hope to her brother.

Even Rujing herself often thought that if she had not been born into this world, her parents would have reduced the burden of raising a child, and perhaps she was destined to endure endless pain.

Even though she abandoned her beloved younger brother and ran away from home after a big fight with her mother, she had no confidence in life and thought that she would just destroy it.

With this mood, Rujing participated in the battle against the evil dragon and the battle of realms.

Even if I have to die, I can't die in vain. At least I should sacrifice myself to protect this country, she thought.

It's ridiculous that we have never been treated well by the world and have never loved this country, but now we have to fight for this land.

What is even more incredible is that in that battle in which tens of thousands of people died, Rujing miraculously survived, and because of her outstanding performance, she was noticed by Mei Carlos, who accepted her invitation and took up a position in Liuguang City.

This city has a long tradition of women being leaders, and no one would have any problem with Souji Rujing just because she is a woman.

It would be more accurate to say that the residents were more resentful of Carlos's life experience. Fortunately, she worked diligently for twenty years and always considered the people first, and finally won the respect that a normal person deserves.

On the battlefield, due to the tense situation, even if Mushu asked her to use mirror light magic to command the battle, Rujing just followed the command and put all her mind into analyzing the situation.

But when she arrived in Liuguang City, Mei Carlos arranged the highest position for Ru Jing as soon as she arrived, and asked her to arrange all matters, big and small.

Ru Jing carefully confirmed several times before she realized that Mei Carlos was not deliberately humiliating her, but recognized her performance on the battlefield.

Hearing this, she quickly refused: "I can't do that. Previously, it was because of the guidance of the Knight Commander that I was able to temporarily command the battle."

Unexpectedly, Mei Carlos was extremely surprised and said, "So Mushu is so capable? Just wait, I will call him over right away."

Mushu did not work with Rujing for too long, because he wanted to invite her to be the Knights Templar's advisor as soon as he arrived, and was naturally driven back by Meicarlos.

"You want to snatch people from me? No way." Mei Carlos said unhappily.

But even though he was rejected, Mushu still wanted to recruit talented people and would go to Liuguang City every now and then.

With him around, Rujing feels more confident about her work.

Because she felt that Mushu was the leader of the Knights Templar after all, and he must be able to do everything perfectly, and she was just taking advantage of him.

In fact, Mushu just kept persuading her to join the Knights and tried his best to make her laugh, which basically only served as psychological comfort. It was Rujing herself who really made the work possible.

It's funny that the Knight Commander's position is higher than that of the lord, but in his own territory, Mei Carlos couldn't drive Mushu away. After all, he didn't invite him, and he couldn't send him back like before.

In order to prevent his capable subordinates from being poached, Meicarlos would do ideological work on Rujing from time to time, telling her that the Knights Templar were all stinky men who looked down on people and if they followed the Knight Commander, they would go hungry nine times out of three days.

"When Mushu sees that he can't get your body, he will try to get your heart. Don't be fooled by his elegant, easy-going, handsome and rich appearance!" Mei Carlos said earnestly.

Rujing was horrified: "Could it be that he was actually pretending?"

She couldn't help feeling frustrated and felt that she had misjudged the person.

After spending some time together, it was hard for Rujing not to have a good impression of such an outstanding man like Mushu, not to mention that he always praised Rujing's appearance and talents generously. However, in Rujing's view, those were just polite remarks and she didn't take them seriously.

Mei Carlos's answer was unexpected: "No, that man is a true gentleman. What is better than his appearance is his character. If you fall for him accidentally, you will have to do hard work in the Knights Templar!"

Unfortunately, Rujing did not listen to her advice and fell without any preparation.

At first, she didn't take Mushu's outstanding appearance seriously. After all, in her heart, her brother would always be the most likable boy in the world.

However, soon, Mushu, who persisted in lobbying Rujing every day, was unexpectedly moved by her strong character, surrendered to her courage, and fell in love with her shining humanity.

Mushu unconsciously transformed his invitation to Rujing into an all-round courtship offensive that would make her heart beat fast if she wasn't careful.

His meticulous care, considerate and gentle attitude, and the perfect sense of distance made Rujing, who disdained any superior appearance, feel that he was becoming more and more handsome.

But she felt that she was not worthy of Mushu and thought that everything was just her unrealistic fantasy.

Rujing's greatest support is Meikalos. Even though they are as close as mother and daughter, they lack a blood relationship after all.

Besides, Mushu's looks and figure are so outstanding, while Rujing herself is just so-so.

That's right, even though everyone who saw Rujing would praise her for her beauty from morning to night, from the city gate to the end of the city, she still thought that everyone in the city was being polite to her and that she was actually very average looking.

Of course, this is not Rujing's fault. After all, whether it is the younger brother who is more handsome than a woman, the sexy and beautiful Carlos, or the handsome Mushu who is glowing all over, each one of them is far beyond ordinary people.

They are the only ones Rujing cares about.

This led her to have overly high demands on certain evaluation criteria.

Rujing believes that he is not worthy of Mushu, and the love he inadvertently shows is just a false illusion.

She was invited by Mushu to attend the ball, had endless things to talk about with him every day, prepared for the training of the Knights together, and so on. She felt extremely happy every moment with him. Even so, Rujing still could not look directly into her own heart.

It was not until that day that the arrival of Manjushage and Luo Shiqi changed their relationship.