The eldest sister was reborn and the younger sister traveled through time. I just want to survive.

Because my face was covered with moss, I had been living with snakes, insects, rats and ants ever since I could remember, because no one wanted to get close to me.

My mother is the witch saint of the Wu Yue tribe. She is very busy every day and every hour, so busy that she forgets that I, her son, exist.

Fortunately, I am a person with strong hands-on ability. When I am hungry, I can find food to fill my stomach. When I am thirsty, I can find water to drink. I was self-sufficient and lived until I was three years old.

According to the tradition of the Wu Yue tribe, when a child reaches the age of three, his parents and relatives will hold a grand and lively coming-of-age ceremony for him.

Yuechan and Yuexuan are the children of the tribe leader Yuekun. When the brother and sister were three years old, a grand coming-of-age ceremony was held. Their father and mother baptized them with flowers, and the people of the entire Wu Yue tribe celebrated and prayed for them.

I am very envious. I envy Yuechan and Yuexuan for being treated like stars by everyone, and I envy them even more for having A Niang's love.

Yuechan and Yuexuan’s mother is my aunt, the most beautiful woman in Wuyue and also the most gentle mother in the world.

When cousin Yuexuan is happy, his aunt will laugh along with him. When cousin Yuexuan is sad, his aunt will comfort him with red eyes. Even when cousin Yuexuan makes a mistake, his aunt will teach him in a gentle voice.

The look my aunt gives to my cousin Yuexuan is always so gentle and warm.

Whenever I was swept by my mother's cold eyes, I would subconsciously think of my aunt's eyes, and think how great it would be if I were also my aunt's child!

I accidentally learned that when the sons of the Yue family and the Ming family have their coming-of-age ceremony, they can all receive the baptism of a hairpin with flowers from their aunt.

Since I was a child of the Ming family, naturally I would receive the baptism of hairpin flowers from my aunt, so I began to look forward to the day of my coming-of-age ceremony.

I don’t know how old I am, nor when I was born. I estimate that I am as tall as Yuexuan and the others, and I guess that I will be able to have my coming-of-age ceremony soon.

But I waited day after day, until Yuexuan and Yuechan’s birthday came, but I still didn’t get my coming-of-age ceremony.

I couldn't help it any longer, so I plucked up the courage to ask my mother when I would have my coming-of-age ceremony.

My mother glanced at me, her eyes were cold and without any warmth, and told me that only healthy children were qualified to hold a coming-of-age ceremony, and I was an ugly monster who did not deserve it.

My only hope of having a close contact with my aunt was shattered. I was very sad and hid in the dense forest to cry secretly.

I cried loudly for a long time, crying out all the grievances that were pent up in my heart. Because at home, if I cried loudly, my mother would scold me as a useless monster.

Being called a monster is sad enough, and I don’t want to be a useless monster anymore.

When I was crying to the end, suddenly something started howling with me. I looked carefully and found that it was a wounded female wolf who was crying with me.

The mother wolf's claws were pierced by a sharp weapon, and her belly was frighteningly large. She whimpered and asked me for help.

I don't know why, although I am a descendant of the pure-blooded Ming family, I have the talents of the Yue family. I can easily learn the skills to control snakes, insects, rats and ants, and I can also understand the language of animals.

The mother wolf asked me to cut open her abdomen and save the cubs inside.

I was very scared and didn't dare to dig into the mother wolf's belly until her howling became quieter and her breath became weaker. I realized that if I didn't take action, both the mother wolf and her cubs would die.

So, I plucked up my courage, cut open the mother wolf's stomach, and rescued the little wolf inside.

The mother wolf was dead and the little wolf was only barely breathing.

In order for the little wolf to survive, I took on the responsibilities of a parent. Every day I would carry the herbs that animals like and look for the mother animal that had just given birth, just so that the little wolf could have a few sips of hot milk.

The wolf cub was much bigger than other wolf cubs since birth. When it was two months old, it learned to hunt for food on its own and no longer needed me to find milk for it. Fortunately, it still relied on me. I stroked its big head and it would jump happily for a long time.

I named the little wolf Ah Hui. Although Ah Hui treated me as his breadwinner, I treated Ah Hui as my friend. With Ah Hui's company, my lonely and boring days became much more interesting than before.

Ah Hui grew bigger and bigger. When he was one year old, he was almost as tall as me, but he was still as close to me as a child. Occasionally, I would lie on his back and let him carry me to see the scenery outside the dense forest.

Before I knew it, Ah Hui became an indispensable partner in my life. Apart from snakes, insects, rats and ants, Ah Hui was my only friend.

Yuexuan and Yuechan’s fifth birthday ceremony was still very lively, and almost all the people in the Wuyue tribe had a taste of their birthday cakes.

I finally found out that Yuexuan, Yuechan and I were born on the same day. They were born at dawn, but I was born at dusk. It is said that the moon did not appear on the night I was born, and there was not even a single star.

The Wuyue tribe regards the sun, moon and stars as auspicious signs. I thought I had found the reason why I was not welcomed. But I still firmly believe that I am my mother's child and she cares about me in her heart. She is just cold and hard.

Until one day, when A Niang helped Yue Xuan up after he fell to the ground, and comforted Yue Xuan with a look of heartache and a soft tone, I realized that A Niang’s personality was not cold.

I couldn't understand why my mother hated me so much. Was it just because I was ugly? Apart from my ugly face, I couldn't think of any other reason why my biological mother hated me.

From then on, I had a new hope, hoping that the moss on my face would heal. Then, my mother would no longer hate me, and I would be able to gain her love and care.

I followed the witch doctor's advice and drank the bitter medicine every day. I persisted for many days, but the lichen on my face became more and more serious, and I became uglier than before.

My face couldn’t be cured, and I was in a very depressed mood, so I asked Ah Hui to carry me outside the dense forest to get some fresh air.

The cool breeze penetrated every inch of my skin, and I felt much better. I secretly decided to secretly learn how to heal the lichen. I thought that one day, I would be able to cure the lichen on my face.

But I didn't expect that before my great career in medicine had even begun, the Wu Yue tribe would encounter a major change that threatened their survival.

That day, when Ah Hui and I were returning to Wu Yue territory, we ran into a seriously injured teenager outside the dense forest.

The boy was seriously injured and had been poisoned by the miasma set by the wizard. If I didn't rescue him, he would surely die.

I chose to save him without hesitation, gave the boy some detoxifying herbs, and asked Ah Hui to carry him into Wu Yue's territory to recuperate.

I sent the boy to the home of the mute woman at the entrance of the village. After the boy's wounds healed, the kind-hearted mute woman personally sent the boy away from the village.

I was happy for a long time because I successfully saved a person's life. I even had the idea of ​​becoming a great knight and making being a hero my life mission.

Unfortunately, my excitement didn't last long.

On a moonless and starless night, the young man came back, followed by many armored cavalrymen. The cavalrymen hacked at anyone they saw, killing them with every strike.

Adults were killed before they could even put on their clothes, and children died in their dreams. The entire Wu Yue was littered with corpses and rivers of blood.

When the Iron Cavalry's butcher knife was about to chop at me, Ah Hui appeared in time and carried me away from the Shura-like hell on earth.

In just one night, the Wu Yue tribe was gone, and with the billowing smoke, they turned into ashes without the flow or jumping of life.

After the cavalry retreated, I ran and shouted around my home like a madman, trying to find a voice that could respond to me.

Just when my throat was almost hoarse, A Niang appeared. I subconsciously rushed over to her, but was ruthlessly pushed to the ground by A Niang.

After falling to the ground, I discovered that my mother was holding a little man that looked like charcoal burnt in her arms.

I didn't dare to cry, or even feel sad or disappointed. I carefully followed A Niang and her group to the Wu Yue tribe's sacred place for breeding Gu, hidden in a secret cave deep in Wushan Mountain.

Only the Wuyue clan leaders, Wusheng, and the Wusheng's direct disciples can enter the Wushan Secret Cave. It was because A Niang led dozens of disciples to practice Gu in seclusion that she escaped the fate of being killed by the Iron Cavalry.

A'niang carried the burnt little man into the secret cave, and I and the others were locked outside.

Soon, I heard A Niang's shrill cries from the secret cave. I thought she was crying because the burned person couldn't be saved and died.

Later I found out that it was not the case. The person that A Niang brought back was Yue Chan. Yue Chan was burned beyond recognition in the fire, but she managed to survive.

After A Niang's sadness subsided a little, she questioned me with cold eyes, asking me why I was still alive and why I didn't die?

The look my mother gave me was so cold that I was shivering and couldn't speak. I just kept shaking my head.

The instinct of survival made me dare not tell my mother that I was the one who saved the young man who led the Iron Hoofs to massacre the entire Wu Yue clan.

In the following days, I was still ignored. My mother either went out early and came back late, or discussed revenge plans with her disciples behind closed doors. She would not pay attention to me unless it was necessary, and would not even look at me.

And I had a new playmate who depended on me, and that was Yuechan, who was injured beyond recognition.

Yuechan became as ugly as I was, but I could vaguely see the shadow of my aunt in her eyes and eyebrows.

Others say that Yuechan and her aunt seem to be cast in the same mold. I also think that the mother and daughter are very similar, not only in appearance, but also in their simple and timid personalities.

Yuechan was in so much pain that she cried every day. I knew tears were salty, and I was afraid that her wound would be more painful if touched by tears, so I kept wiping her tears.

After spending a long time together, Yuechan became very dependent on me and listened to me. She would cry if she couldn't see me for a while.

Finally, the wound on Yuechan's face no longer hurt, but her face was still very ugly. However, the moss on my face healed miraculously.

The day my facial skin returned to smoothness, Yuechan stared at my face for a long time, with disbelief and surprise in her eyes.

This led me to believe that my original appearance was not very good-looking, because my mother still didn’t like me and the way she looked at me was even colder than before.

Not long after, my mother took me away from Wushan, and we became members of the Yan family. My name was also changed from Mingche to Yan Yongchen.

The Yan family was just an ordinary farming family, making a living by cultivating a few acres of thin land. The stepfather was a frail and thin man, and he passed away within a few years.

My mother shouldered the heavy burden of the Yan family, paid for my studies and calligraphy, and threatened that I would pass the imperial examinations.

In order to pass the imperial examination as soon as possible, my mother urged me to study every day. To me, "urge" is not just an adjective but real encouragement. My mother would not allow me to slack off for even a moment.

Maybe my hard work day and night paid off, or maybe I just had a natural talent for studying, but when I was just sixteen years old, I passed the imperial examination and ranked first.

After all, it was the result of my hard work, and I thought I would get a compliment from my mother, but I was still treated coldly for more than ten years.

My mother ordered me in a strong tone to approach the only daughter of the Qian family, the richest family in Jiangnan, and ask to marry Qian Manman, the only daughter of the Qian family.

And he told me clearly not to let my lust get in the way, because the purpose of my existence in this world is to avenge the Wu Yue tribe.

I nodded and agreed with Ah Niang's words, because Ah Hui and I were the only ones who knew that the Wu Yue tribe was massacred because of me. It was also my duty to seek justice for the 63,876 innocent souls of Wu Yue.

I have a love Gu, and it is easy for me to win the heart of a young girl who is not very worldly-wise. But I didn't expect that Qian Manman would already be attracted to me before I even used the love Gu.

I don’t understand, how can I, who has been hated since childhood, be loved by others?

To solve the mystery, I bought a bronze mirror and carefully observed my appearance for the first time in my life.

When I saw the similar appearance to my aunt and Mingchan, and the almost identical eyebrows and eyes, I understood everything in an instant.

I understood why my mother hated me, why she beat and scolded me without mercy, and why she cried out when she was drunk and unconscious that I was not the one who died...

Because I am not my mother's son at all, but my aunt's son.

The Wu Yue clan has an unwritten rule: the Ming family controls the art of witchcraft, and the Yue family controls the art of taming beasts, and the heads of the two families and their descendants are not allowed to break the rules.

If any descendant who goes against the will of heaven appears in one of the two families, he must be expelled from the family and must not be involved in anything related to the family.

I have pure blood suitable for raising Gu. According to the clan rules, I cannot be an heir of the Yue family. I guess that this is the reason why I was transferred to the Ming family.

And the Ming family's original child, A Niang's biological son Yuexuan, took my place and became the heir of the Yue family.

My mother hated me because her son died and I, by chance, survived.

But I still feel wronged. Even though Yuexuan is gone, he has received the wholehearted love of my mother and aunt, but I have received nothing.

If possible, I would like to exchange lives with Yuexuan. Even if it is just to live happily for a few years, it is much better than being ignored and living in agony.

When Yuexuan was alive, I envied him very much. Even after Yuexuan died, I still envied him very much.

From then on, I no longer had any expectations for my mother, and I changed her name to mother.

Because I don't understand, we are not biological children, but my aunt can give Yuexuan her wholehearted love, why is my mother unwilling to give me even a little bit? Am I born unworthy?

Later, I passed the imperial examination and got third place in the imperial examination. According to my plan, I approached the daughter of the Su family. The daughter of the Su family was much more cunning than Qian Manman. Even though she had lost her reputation, she was not determined to marry me. I did not want to waste time and directly used the love Gu on her.

Later, the daughter of the Ge family became my aunt and I had to take over. I didn't like the trouble, so I used love poison to control her.

From the beginning to the end, Qian Manman was the only one there. She was like a fool and was fooled by me, but she still loved me and was willing to give up her life for me.

Qian Manman's wholehearted love made me realize that I deserve other people's care.

But the debt I owe is too great, and I am destined to let down the only person who cares about me.

When I saw the face of Yu Jinzhou, the third prince of Dafeng, resentment surged towards me like a wave, making me more determined to overthrow the Yu imperial power.

Yu Jinzhou and the young man I rescued are very similar in appearance and personality!

After confirming that Yu Jinzhou was the son that Yu Huai'en cared about the most, I did not hesitate to plant the twin life and double death Gu that I had spent several years raising on Yu Jinzhou.

The Twin Life and Double Death Gu can not only restrain Yu Jinzhou from going down with me, but even if I fail, it can also drag the person Yu Huaien cares about the most to hell with me.

After decades of living in despicable ways, I successfully sought justice for the innocent souls I had hurt. But in the end, I still couldn't let go of my childhood dream of being a righteous knight.

I want to make amends to those I have harmed, and I also want to smooth over the storm I have stirred up.

So, even if I was moved, I was afraid of the cold and loneliness, and still didn't want to cause trouble for others by following me.

As for where to go after everything is over, I thought about it for a long time and finally decided to be buried at the bottom of the sea.

I heard that people who died in the sea would have no remains left and would not be reincarnated. I don’t want to be reincarnated as a human being again.

Life is too hard and too tiring. I don’t want to go through it again. I just want it to end completely without leaving any trace.