Rebirth at the starting point of happiness

The baby delivered this time was born with congenital hypoplasia. Aunt Li tried her best to save him when he was born, but in the end he was unable to cry.

Su Qiuyue didn't dare to see or hear what kind of sadness their family had.

I feel sorry but I am powerless to do anything about it. The best way is to calm down.

Things are unpredictable, life is like this, it is impossible for everything to go as planned. This is what Aunt Li said.

This time the child was not wrapped in red cloth, but in a floral cloth that was at the bottom of the box at home.

The last time Aunt Li insisted on having the red cloth was because she looked down upon the immoral things done by Wang Changgen's family and felt unfair for the child, so she insisted on having the red cloth.

This time the baby is a full-term baby and weighs almost five kilograms.

Su Qiuyue held the child who was getting colder and colder and followed Aunt Li up the mountain.

The snow on the mountain was not heavy at this time, and Aunt Li led Su Qiuyue up a path on the mountain.

Walk to a flat area and continue walking inside.

“There used to be a land temple here, but it was later demolished.

Further up was the mountain god temple, which is gone now.

It turned out to be just a small house, not very big, but it was a place for worshipping gods in the past.

After a long time, no one came.

Look at this forest, there are so many small trees, all the children I raised are buried here."

Aunt Li found a big tree. It was not very thick, not very straight, and had a slight bend in the middle.

"That's it."

Aunt Li took a shovel and started digging a hole along the roots of the tree.

It was already winter and the ground was frozen hard. Su Qiuyue and Aunt Li were sweating all over as they dug a small hole half a meter deep.

"Hey, luckily you are young, otherwise we wouldn't be able to dig this hole."

Aunt Li gathered some hay and put it at the bottom of the pit.

Then he carefully wrapped the child and put him in the pit. He put hay on top and then he and Su Qiuyue slowly covered him with soil.

"Big trees are good. Big trees are the most reliable. They can accompany you.

If you have a bad health in this life, you will suffer even if you live. In the next life, we should take good care of our health and be born as a healthy person.

Come back well.”

Aunt Li kept on rambling, and Su Qiuyue watched her trying to comfort the little soul of this life.

"Aunt, why was it buried under the big tree?" Su Qiuyue asked.

"You are still young and have not experienced this. When I was a child, I helped my grandmother and my mother deliver babies.

When I was a child, it was not easy for a child to be born and grow up safely.

Almost every family has experienced the death of a child.

Some children died in accidents because they were not taken care of. Some died at birth, and some died before the due date because they were too tired from working.

It is true that I heard an old man threatening a child, saying that if he didn't behave, he would throw him into the west mountain.

At that time, if a child died, they would just wrap him up in a straw mat and throw him directly into the West Mountain.

These are all good families.

Some were thrown directly into the trench.

There are even those families who don’t care about this, and they feed the babies that are aborted or born dead directly to pigs.”

When Aunt Li said this, she felt a chill in her heart.

At that time, human life was not really considered life and was very cheap.

"I learned this from my grandmother. She would take all the children she took care of to the mountain and bury them under a big tree.

My grandma said that when she was young, she saw wild dogs and wolves carrying away children, and she also saw children being eaten by wild dogs. She couldn't bear it, so she buried the children she saw, and buried them to rest in peace, thinking that it was a good deed.

Go to the mountain and find a not-so-good big tree for these lonely children to rely on.

A well-grown tree has sufficient nutrients, and mushrooms and weeds will grow near it.

The wild animals in the mountains are willing to come here to look for food, and the trees grow so well that people also want to cut them down to build houses.

So we look for trees that don’t grow well, so that wild animals on the mountain won’t come and dig for food, and the children can be safe under them.”

Aunt Li stood up, brushed off the frozen soil and snow foam on her body, patted the big tree and Su Qiuyue, and walked down the mountain.

“Don’t even mention these children, women in the past weren’t considered human beings.

How many people spend their confinement after giving birth? Some even go back to work the next day after giving birth.

My grandma said that in the past women had short lives, and they were full of health problems after getting married and having children.

I would be satisfied with a piece of land and a thin coffin after I die.

Nowadays people say that women hold up half the sky, but I’m telling you something in secret: don’t be stubborn.

Life is better than before, but people are also very stupid.

My grandmother's grandmother was a midwife. Relying on this skill, she lived a good life compared to other families in her small family.

In the past, marrying a wife was not only for the purpose of carrying on the family line, but also for serving as a livestock.

If you give birth to a girl, she will be treated like an animal at home. When she goes out, she will be treated like an animal by other families.

Those were not days, but we managed to get through them bit by bit.

Life is better now, women are human beings now and can argue with men, but now they are fooled.

Is there any benefit in competing with men in working harder, other than making yourself exhausted?

This woman is already at a disadvantage, yet she is still rushing to do the work. Isn't she stupid?

Look at your older cousin. Being called an “iron girl” is an honor. What benefit did she get? Did she get paid? Or did she not have to work hard? Did she not have to work or have children after marriage?

It's just a nice name, with no benefits. Others still have to rely on her to work, and if she chooses a bad man in the future, she may have to support the family. Stupid or not.

Don't learn from her. You should know what's going on in your mind.

Everything else can be compared except work. When you get married and have children in the future, you will be the one who suffers in raising the children, yet you are still competing with men for work.

You have the ability to make money, so don't be stupid." Aunt Li said earnestly about her life experience, not wanting her to work hard.

"Auntie, don't worry. I've seen so many women giving birth, and I know it's not easy for women. Why are you making things more difficult for yourself? I'm not stupid."

Su Qiuyue chuckled and told Aunt Li that if Aunt Li knew that she had no plans to get married, she would probably have a different story.

"You are a person who knows what's going on. It's OK if you understand it in your heart.

You still have a sister to raise, so you should talk to her more. Don't let the child you have worked so hard to raise become depressed and confused about men. You will have to worry about her in the future."

Aunt Li thought of her sister and reminded her.

She has been with her grandmother since she was a child, and has been influenced by her grandmother. Now that she has grown up, she has set her character and it is impossible to change it.

"I know. I know that Auntie is doing this for my own good and is worried about me." Su Qiuyue said coquettishly, holding Aunt Li's arm.

"It's all right for you to understand. Isn't it normal for a master to worry about his apprentice's affairs?

And those words about burying the child should not be said in front of others, otherwise you will make a mistake.

Come on, stop talking to me and go back quickly. It was freezing cold up there last time."

Aunt Li pulled Su Qiuyue and quickly pulled her back. It was very cold that day.

Su Qiuyue was really freezing when she returned home.

Xinyue and I sat on the kang and talked about what happened today.

Without Aunt Li's words, Su Qiuyue and her sister talked about almost everything.

No matter what the world is like, you can't be a pushover. There are so many poor people now, but they can only try their best to do what they can.

Because if it were them, they would be pitied. Who can pity you? What can pity you do? Who can save who?

She let her sister know these things so that she could understand what life is like in this world. Even good people who can survive have to grit their teeth and adapt to life.

You can't raise a naive child.

"Sister, I heard them talking about you behind your back." After hearing what her sister said, Su Xinyue remembered the rumors in the team during this period.

"What did you say about me?" Su Qiuyue had a large pillow supporting her lower back and an apple in her hand, biting it with a crunching sound.

"They say you're not good and it's hard for you to find a husband. Maybe you won't even be able to get married." Su Xinyue pouted.

"Why? I didn't do anything." Su Qiuyue didn't care, but she just didn't understand.

"You went to Wang Changgen's house before, and talked about the hymen in front of so many people in the brigade, including many men.

They say that you, a grown woman, have no shame, and you keep talking about your hymen and sexual intercourse between men and women.

There were so many people around at that time, but you just opened your mouth and spoke without blushing.

What they said was very unpleasant. They said you were still a midwife and the way you looked at people made you look like a dirty person.

He also said that you don’t look like a grown-up girl, and no one would dare to marry you in the future.

They didn't understand at all before, and you told them what was going on, but they said bad things about you behind your back.

Why are they so mean? Why aren't they ashamed to say it? If they have the ability, they shouldn't do those things. They are not ashamed to do those things, are they afraid of what others will say? "Su Xinyue got angry as she spoke.

"Hahaha, why are you angry? I'm happy to hear you say that." Su Qiuyue found it quite funny to see her sister getting angry.

This little hot pepper, look at what she said, she has a really sharp tongue.

"I was wondering why you didn't go out and run like crazy like before, it turns out you got angry after hearing others say bad things about me.

Don't pay attention to them. Just pretend you don't hear what they say behind your back. It doesn't matter.

If they say it to your face, you can just curse back. Who do you think you are? "

"Dare to say that in front of me?! If you dare to say that, I will slap her in the face." Su Xinyue said angrily.

"If you really smoke, the team will say that neither of us sisters can get married." Su Qiuyue replied.

"Gossips, gossiping all day long. They are so nosy, why should they worry about whether we get married or not?

Just eating soybeans with salt, you are just farting away." Su Xinyue rolled her eyes.

"I know you are amazing, from now on people will definitely call you Little Pepper.

By the way, after the New Year you should prepare to go to the middle school in the commune.

Our brigade is far away, so you have to live on campus. "Su Qiuyue suddenly remembered this matter and quickly got up to get the cotton out to make a quilt.

"You have to bring your own bedding when you go to boarding school. My family will make you a set of old bedding and make new cotton.

Using a new one will attract too much attention, and someone might get jealous and cause trouble for you." Su Qiuyue explained to her.

"I know that good days have to be lived secretly. We eat apples at home and eat potatoes when we go out." Su Xinyue repeated what her sister taught her. She was not a child anymore and she knew all this.

The days of hibernation are very leisurely and there is not much work to do. After being tired for half a year, I can finally take a break.

Xu Feng and Sun Yanqiu would come over to help when they had nothing to do.

"New bedding is so good, that's all." Sun Yanqiu held the newly made bedding and placed it on the kang cabinet.

"Bring my quilt over in a few days and fluff out the old cotton. It's time to make a new one for me," said Sun Yanqiu.

There is no space in the Youth League Home, and if you want to fluff the cotton again, you have to queue up. I am too busy making quilts on the kang, so I might as well come to Su Qiuyue's place.

"Okay, let's do it in a few days. Then I'll ask Uncle Wu to come."

There are people in the brigade who can fluff cotton. A quilt of cotton costs a few cents. You can fluff it yourself and borrow tools from others. Su Qiuyue can't fluff it herself, so she doesn't bother.

"Okay, I'll bring it over tomorrow or the day after tomorrow." Sun Yanqiu said.

"Sister, will your family play the piano this year?" Su Qiuyue asked Xu Feng.

"Yes, I haven't played it for several years. This year Xu Huier started working and gets a salary every month. Now it's about 30 yuan a month.

I pay 20 yuan a month to my family, so we have some money now.

It will probably be in the next few days, you guys play first, and I'll play at my house later." Xu Feng was very happy, as there was someone earning a salary in the family, and the family income increased.

With the family's annual income, the carpentry work her father took on this year, and her older brother's salary, the money to pay back her cousin can be saved quickly.

"I heard from Xinyue that you were happy when people outside talked about you. What's the matter?" Xu Feng said.

"Why not? I'm getting older every year. If they don't like me, they won't come to me and talk about marriage anymore.

It saves a lot of trouble, aren’t you happy?

It would be best if those gossipy women wouldn't think of me when they talk about introducing someone to someone. "Su Qiuyue said this when she saw that her sister was not at home.

"What are you thinking? You know you are getting older. If you continue like this, you won't get married?" Xu Feng asked her with a frown. Girls should get married at this age, otherwise everyone in the team will point fingers at you and gossip about you.

"Sister, I have my own house and can earn money, so shouldn't I be the one to decide what kind of man I want to marry?

If they think I'm easy to talk to, they'll come around and be annoyed.

Besides, my sister is still young, so I’m not in a hurry. I’ll consider it when she’s older.

Otherwise, it would be inconvenient to bring my sister to someone else's house, or to have someone come to my house." Su Qiuyue didn't dare to say that she didn't want to get married.

"That's right. If those gossipy women set their sights on you, they will get you any kind of weirdo." Xu Feng also felt that she was right.

After all, it is a big event in her life. Her parents are only cousins. They can introduce someone to her but cannot make the decision for her. She has to make the decision herself.

"Yanqiu is the best. Don't worry about this." Xu Feng said to Sun Yanqiu. After all, they were educated youth, and the people in the team didn't dare to take advantage of them easily.

"What's good about it? It's annoying. Some of them are dating in the Youth Corps House, and some are dating other educated youth from other brigades.

I don’t even dare to get married because if I do I’ll have to move out and I won’t have the money.

Some educated youth were dating people in the brigade, and they didn’t know what to do.

There have been a lot of letters coming to the Youth Hostel in the past six months. You can wait and see before and after the New Year. There will be letters soon." Sun Yanqiu was fed up with them.

"Who is dating someone in the team? Who?" Xu Feng asked curiously.

"From our room, and from the team next door. By the way, Song Xiaojuan has also received a lot of letters in the past six months, and not just from one person.

She said they were just friends, not dating, and I don't know why she had so much to say." Sun Yanqiu pouted.

"Several? Where are they from?" Xu Feng asked.

"She knows a lot of people from Shanghe Village and other communes. I didn't pay much attention to her, except for seeing one or two of them occasionally." Sun Yanqiu said a few words, and then she and Xu Feng started chatting about their guesses.

Shanghe Village? Could it be Chen Jiang? How did they know each other?

When Su Qiuyue heard Shanghe Village, she thought of Chen Jiang. It was best that she was overthinking.