Rebirth: My Mother is a Virgin Mary

After Cheng Xingmin came back, he spent two days of loving husband and wife, loving father and filial son, and then he returned to his old ways. He had come back for the New Year during the years he was away, but the time was not long, and he pretended to be decent. This time he was back and he was not leaving, so he was too lazy to pretend.

As the saying goes, "It is better to be the head of a chicken than the tail of a phoenix." Cheng Xingmin is not even at the bottom of the list when doing business outside, but he is the head of the family at home! What if his wife is doing well in business, she is still gentle and virtuous in front of him; what if the two children are not close to him, they still have to obey him after being yelled at and beaten; what if he has not been in the company for several years, he still has the same position when he returns, and there are a bunch of young people following him and calling him "senior"... Cheng Xingmin's self-confidence, which was frustrated outside, was greatly satisfied and even inflated not long after he came back.

I still hate Cheng Xingmin, even more than before.

When my first period came, I was very panicked. Even though I had learned this in biology class, the pain in my abdomen and the blood-stained clothes still made me feel helpless. Ms. Lin taught me patiently and smiled and said, "Lin Lin has grown up." But Cheng Xingmin didn't know what was wrong with him and scolded me for being "undisciplined." Don't say I was confused, Ms. Lin was also confused: "It's normal physiology. It's abnormal if you don't have it. People who have been to college don't understand this?" Cheng Xingmin said angrily: "How can I not understand! But other girls usually have their period when they are fifteen or sixteen years old. Who is with her so early? She must have met some bad people outside!" I looked at him straight: "Am I that kind of person in your eyes?" Ms. Lin also quarreled with him: "How can you say that about your own daughter! Living conditions are good now and people develop early. What's wrong with having their period at the age of twelve or thirteen! There are also those who are less than ten years old. Are they the kind of people you say? What a crappy idea you have!" Cheng Xingmin also yelled: "You only know how to compare yourself with the bad ones, why not compare yourself with the good ones!" Ms. Lin walked away and ignored Cheng Xingmin, leaving Cheng Xingmin and me alone. He and I saw deep disgust for each other in each other's eyes... After that, Ms. Lin and Cheng Xingmin had a cold war for several days.

I forgot how they made up that time. Cold wars are common, lasting from three to five days to two to three months. Cheng Xinyuan and I have long been accustomed to it. It's not just the two of them. Ms. Lin and I, Cheng Xinyuan and Cheng Xingmin, often have cold wars. Cheng Xinyuan and I are also used to being the messenger, so it's nothing. I finished the last piece of stinky tofu and drank a mouthful of soup with dissatisfaction. In my previous life, Cheng Xingmin and I didn't contact each other for five years. We didn't talk when we met, and we blocked each other on WeChat in various ways. We were more enemies than enemies.

They also quarreled. In the words of Ms. Lin, "It is normal for couples to quarrel. Every family has its own problems. I don't believe that national leaders never quarrel." Tsk, listening to her words, she seems quite proud?

But there was one time when we had a serious quarrel. It was winter, and it should be the New Year soon. Cheng Xingmin hated me and never looked me in the eye. I ignored him, too. We were just enemies living under the same roof. But there was a period of time when he would stare at me for no reason, pinching my chin and staring at me. I looked up and looked at him, and he squinted his eyes, staring at me and making me shudder. I always felt that my father was sick, and his illness was not mild. He did incredible things every day. One weekend, he took me to the hospital early in the morning. On the way, I asked him what he was going to do, but he didn't answer. I wanted to leave several times, but he pulled me back. I was in my teens, so how could I be stronger than him? He pinched my wrist, and it hurt, as if my bones were about to break. When we arrived at the hospital, they didn't do anything but draw a tube of blood. After the blood was drawn, they told me to get out. I couldn't wait to leave, so I glared at him and ran away. When I ran home, Ms. Lin saw that I was alone. She actually thought that Cheng Xingmin took me out to play. What kind of good father would take his daughter out to play without washing his face, combing his hair, eating, or even changing his clothes! She also asked me if I had made Cheng Xingmin angry again, and said that I was not decent at all when I went out in my pajamas. Humph, it’s still her good husband. Do I have a chance to change? I’m so annoyed. Both of them are sick!

I didn't understand it at that time. Although a tube of blood was drawn for no reason, at my age, no matter how meticulous my mind was, who would have thought of doing a DNA test?

Since I was little, people have said that I inherited the good looks of my parents. I look exactly like Ms. Lin, but if you look closely, my facial features are very similar to Cheng Xingmin. The only difference is that Ms. Lin and Cheng Xingmin don't have a nose bridge, and neither does Cheng Xinyuan. I am the only one who has one. When I was little, Ms. Lin said more than once that I was a eugenics, and my high nose bridge is particularly beautiful...

Cheng Xingmin took me to a private hospital in the county and found an acquaintance who also knew Ms. Lin and was her high school classmate. Before I realized the seriousness of the problem, this acquaintance had already informed Ms. Lin. Ms. Lin herself had never thought that her husband would doubt her daughter's ancestry...

This time the quarrel was quite serious. Cheng Xingmin suspected that I was not his biological child and suspected that Ms. Lin had cheated on him. He even printed out Ms. Lin's call records as so-called evidence... Ms. Lin's dignity was trampled on again. She and Cheng Xingmin quarreled fiercely. During those two days, I took Cheng Xinyuan to my uncle's house. Such an environment was really not suitable for the physical and mental development of a child. Of course, my uncle knew what happened. It was not me who said it, nor was it Ms. Lin who said it, but Cheng Xingmin himself who said it. Sometimes I really think Cheng Xingmin is a fool. He has his own doubts but complains to his brother-in-law. How screwed is he to think that his uncle is on his side?

Of course, my uncle would not side with him. My uncle was a soldier. Although he was not as tall as Cheng Xingmin, he was a martial artist. I heard that Cheng Xingmin was thrown over his shoulder several times by my uncle. I heard that Cheng Xingmin was beaten by my uncle like a grandson. I heard that Cheng Xingmin knelt in front of my uncle and promised that he would never do it again... Although my uncle's attitude and the DNA report made Cheng Xingmin believe that he and I were indeed father and daughter, he still suspected that Ms. Lin had cheated on him, and he was so stupid that he told everyone he met, even to customers who came to the store for the first time... I really admire him. If it weren't for the DNA report, I would have suspected that he was my biological father. How could he be so stupid? Is he so happy to have a hat on his head? Does he think that he is disparaging Ms. Lin by spreading this thing that never happened? People may listen to it as gossip on the surface, and some people may believe it, but more people will just think that this man is mentally ill!

How did Ms. Lin react? At first she argued with Cheng Xingmin, but later she stopped arguing and just let Cheng Xingmin say whatever he said, and even became more concerned about him. I asked her if she wasn’t angry? She said justice is in the hearts of the people, and the innocent will be innocent… I said if Cheng Xingmin continued to say that, it would affect the business of the store. She said her customers were smart people and would not believe his lies… I asked her, did you forgive him just like that? She said she was also at fault, and that she did not give Cheng Xingmin enough sense of security… I asked her, “I was taken to do a DNA test, and he not only insulted you but also me, how could I tolerate that?” She said it was good to have a report, so that she would not doubt my blood relationship anymore…

What a magnificent white lotus of the Virgin Mary...

After the DNA test, my relationship with Cheng Xingmin became more strained, and my attitude towards Ms. Lin became distant. Ms. Lin noticed the change in my attitude towards her and had a long talk with me. She said she wanted to know me better, she said she hoped I could open my heart to her, she said she hoped we were not only mother and daughter, but also friends...

Oh, my friend...

Do all parents have a desire to be friends with their children? Ms. Lin is even more obsessed with this. In the last phone call I made with her in my previous life, she said, "Lin Lin, don't worry. I am not only your mother, but also your friend..."

Ms. Lin and I can never be friends. Friends are equal, but Ms. Lin and I are not like that. She always acts like an elder in front of me.

I ignored Ms. Lin's talk and perfunctorily dealt with it. She always thought that she could understand everyone from the perspective of saving all living beings, and she felt that what she said could touch people's hearts; perhaps, to her relatives, friends, and customers, she was a supporter, a talker, understanding, and insightful; but these were useless to me and Cheng Xinyuan. She never knew what Cheng Xinyuan and I wanted...

As the high school entrance exam approached, many teachers suggested that I apply for a high school in the city. No matter how good the educational resources in the county were, they were still better than those in the city. They thought that I could definitely get in with my grades, and I was very happy to do so. But Ms. Lin and Cheng Xingmin disagreed...

Cheng Xingmin thought that the tuition fees in the city's high school were too expensive. Even if I had good grades and could be exempted from tuition fees, the cost of living was still high. I knew that he simply didn't want to spend money. Ms. Lin didn't want me to go because she was worried that I wouldn't be able to live well, that she would miss me, and that she would feel bad. I sneered at her sudden love for her. I knew her too well. She might as well have said directly that if I went to school in the city, there would be no one to do the housework, no one to take care of Cheng Xinyuan, and she wouldn't be able to take care of me. In this family, she listened to Cheng Xingmin, and Cheng Xinyuan listened to me. I was the only one she could control. She didn't control me, but I just didn't want to muddle through so many things... In the end, they thought I was good and rejected my application for the city high school. They said that I would eat and live at home, so they would feel more at ease; and they thought that as long as my grades were good, it would be the same wherever I went. The most important thing was that with my grades, I didn't have to pay tuition to apply for the county high school... Mr. Luo, my homeroom teacher, couldn't bear to see me throwing away my precious pearls, so he visited my home and persuaded them to agree to let me apply for the city high school. What did Cheng Xingmin say to Mr. Luo: "Don't pretend, you are not so kind. If Cheng Lin is admitted to the city high school, you will get a lot of bonuses, we won't fall for it!"

Teacher Luo had been a teacher for more than 20 years and had never been treated like this. She just said to me, "Take care of yourself," and left angrily. I felt guilty for a long time, for having such a family, and for having failed Teacher Luo's good intentions.

I got into the county's No. 300 high school with the highest score in the county's middle school entrance exam. I was in the experimental class, free of tuition, and received a yuan subsidy every month. Cheng Xingmin rarely smiled at me, saying that I had a bright future, and even opened a bottle of good wine to celebrate. It was a gift from his leader a long time ago, and he treasured it very much. Ms. Lin was even more attentive. Compared to Cheng Xingmin, who only said hypocritically that I had a bright future, Ms. Lin was much more genuine. She bought the latest mobile phones and branded backpacks. I thought the clothes in the store were exaggerated and not suitable for students, so she took me to visit one sports brand after another, including clothes and shoes. That was the first time I felt her generosity towards me...

I thought about living on campus, but was rejected. In Ms. Lin’s words, “If people knew that we were so close to the school, and that you could live on campus even though it was only a five-minute walk away, what would they say about me? Would I still be able to save my dignity…” At that time, Ms. Lin had just bought a storefront on the commercial street at a very low price, and it was being renovated. It was just a turn away from the No. 1 High School in the county. I sighed. There was really no reason to live on campus. It didn’t matter. I could just endure it for another three years. The farther away I lived when I took the college entrance examination, the better. At that time, no one could stop me…