Rebirth: My Mother is a Virgin Mary

"You are the most selfish person!" I said the last sentence and went back upstairs with the box. The box was empty, and it was done on purpose to "scare" Ms. Lin.

She also knew that I wouldn't really leave, I was just taking this opportunity to show my disappointment in her.

I'm waiting for her to come up and talk to me.

I know her. Every time she has a conflict, she always ends it with a heart-to-heart talk. I don't know how many times she had such a talk in her previous life. The process is always intense, but the result is always harmonious, just like the forced family-friendly TV show finale. Then, not long after, another conflict will arise. Her so-called "reformation" is only a three-minute enthusiasm. This cycle repeats over and over again, which is annoying.

Ms. Lin once said that I was her confidant, who could always untie her troubled heart. But who knew my true thoughts? It was really tiring to pretend to be sensible.

After two lives, Ms. Lin has not made any progress in this regard. It is my fault that I lived too comfortably and trusted Ms. Lin too much, thinking that rebirth means awakening.

Ms. Lin came in when I was lying on the sofa and about to fall asleep. Before she came in, I had seriously thought about how to communicate with her this time. I even thought that if possible, I would confess my reborn identity to her and tell us the same thing, so that even if she had fears from things that had not happened, I would face it with her.

But it will only be done when it is absolutely necessary.

"Lin Lin..." is a familiar tone in the memories.

What followed was a familiar sigh. He then sat next to me, gently held my hand, and slowly stroked it, with unshakable sadness and self-blame in his eyes.

"It's always like this..." I "complained", "You said you understand me, but I know you better. I can even predict all your next moves. Mom, you live to atone for your sins, right?"

"At least for now." Ms. Lin said in a low voice.

"I've said it before, since you feel guilty towards us, then make amends and don't think about anything else. If you don't want to be yourself, then live for your children. But now, your mood has not changed at all, and all you've done is to make amends and show your gratitude in a self-righteous way."

"Am I useless?" Ms. Lin smiled bitterly.

"Yes!" I said without hesitation, observing the fluctuations in Ms. Lin's emotions. "You didn't expect me to agree, right? Did you still think that I would follow your heart and say what you wanted to hear? Wasn't it like that last time? Do you think you found spiritual relief by yourself? No, I was always following your heart. In this rebellious mother-daughter relationship between us, I was the one who comforted you. It was before, and it was also when I was bitten and hospitalized. It was obviously me who was injured, but I had to be strong and comfort your injured heart! Do you know how much I hate to hear you say "I am the one who hurts the most"? I was the one who was injured and felt the pain, but I still have to comfort your injured heart as a mother; because you think it is your fault that you did not protect me well, and I am the flesh that fell from your body, so you naturally think that you will feel more pain than me, and what you want to hear is "the child is in pain, the mother is more painful than her"... Of course you love me, there is no doubt about that, but while you love me, you don't mind satisfying this little vanity. You may not realize it because it has become your habit."

Ms. Lin's body was shaking uncontrollably. Although she was unwilling to admit it, her flustered movements exposed the selfishness in her heart.

Unlike before, I did not listen to Ms. Lin's long expression of her inner grievances and anxieties. I said so much just to make her break down her defense first.

"All your changes are superficial. Deep down in your heart, you are still surrendering to fate and life."

I don’t know how much of an impact this last sentence had on Ms. Lin. I only saw her body shaking uncontrollably again, and her eyes went from confusion to clarity. At that moment, she understood everything, as if she had just woken up from a dream.

I knew I didn't need to say anything more, and I didn't want to delve into why she was so anxious all day. I just fooled myself and thought her worries were just a dream.

I was so tired that I fell asleep leaning against the big doll. I didn't know when Ms. Lin went downstairs. When I went downstairs again, the atmosphere in the house was completely different.

I rubbed my eyes. Ms. Lin and my second aunt were talking and laughing. Cheng Xinyuan and Qin Luotian continued to decorate the store festively under Ms. Lin's instructions, and occasionally acted coquettishly towards Ms. Lin, as if nothing had happened today.

When my second aunt saw me, she smiled and teased Ms. Lin: "It has to be your daughter. Without her, this family will fall apart!"

Ms. Lin agreed and said proudly, "Of course!"

After experiencing this not-so-small storm, this New Year's Eve was peaceful and beautiful.

Ms. Lin set a goal to watch the Spring Festival Gala with us for the first time, but now her eyelids are closing uncontrollably, and the way she is trying to hold on against the sofa is both cute and funny. Cheng Xinyuan "evilly" took out his mobile phone to record this moment, including the second aunt who was sleeping and snoring beside him.

There are not so many restrictions in the small county town. After Cheng Xinyuan took the photos of Ms. Lin, he happily prepared to set off firecrackers.

I asked Qin Luotian, who was sitting next to me, "Why don't you go together?"

"He alone is enough." His eyes stayed on me, but he looked away the moment I asked the question.

He turned his face away awkwardly, pretending nothing had happened.

"We also bought some small fireworks. Do you want to set them off together after we finish setting off the firecrackers?" Qin Luotian asked shyly.

"Okay!"

The host on TV was counting down the days, and Cheng Xinyuan lit the firecrackers at the right time. The crackling and lively sound woke up Ms. Lin, who was about to fall asleep, and the second aunt who was sleeping soundly. Cheng Xinyuan downstairs shouted happily, "Happy New Year!"

Ms. Lin and my second aunt hugged me at the same time: "Dear! Happy New Year!"

Second Aunt looked careless but was actually thoughtful. She also hugged Qin Luotian and said, "Happy New Year, Luotian!"

As they were hugging each other, Cheng Xinyuan rushed over and said, "Mani! Mani! Just don't hug me, right?"

At that time, Qin Luotian was opening his arms and wishing me New Year's greetings in the name of relatives. Cheng Xinyuan slapped him and broke his beautiful plan, and I couldn't help but curse him in my heart.

Unknown to Cheng Xinyuan, Qin Luotian rolled his eyes at him several times and planned to cheat him of his New Year's money.

Second Aunt took out the red envelopes she had prepared in advance and handed them out to us one by one. Cheng Xinyuan complained "unhappily", "Ah~ My sister's is so much thicker than ours!"

Then Cheng Xinyuan was the first person to be compared with him in the new year. "Compare with your sister~"

Cheng Xinyuan chuckled, "Anyway, I can still ask my sister for a New Year's gift."

Ms. Lin sent the red envelope via WeChat, and just after sending the red envelope, she answered a call from Uncle Gu.

Cheng Xinyuan raised an eyebrow and poked my arm, "Mom has sweet phone calls to answer, what about yours?"