The world is taken over by crazy and sick people

Chen Shizi opened her eyes hazily a little, and in a trance she saw a black thing coming down the stairs, and then she heard a bang in her ear.

Unable to bear the dizziness, I fell asleep again.

It was almost 11 o'clock when Chen Shizi woke up, feeling dizzy.

She opened the curtains, and the cold wind from the window rushed through her brain. She shivered immediately and was no longer confused.

I looked at the time, was startled for a moment, and hurried downstairs to wash up.

While brushing her teeth, she inadvertently sniffed the hollow of his shoulder, and a sharp, cold fragrance lingered around her nose, lingering on. Her brain felt cool and soothing, and she thought it might be the cool breeze from the window that had reached the head of the bed and brought her with it.

It smelled good, so she sniffed it twice more and felt that the smell was very familiar. However, her brain seemed to stop working properly and the smell was stuck in her head. She racked her brains but just couldn't remember it.

Confused, Chen Shizi returned upstairs and lay flat on the bed, thinking carefully with a hint of sadness on his face.

This taste,

Smells good,

So familiar...

Vague memories of when I was asleep suddenly surfaced in my mind.

A faint voice came into my ears, "Jiaojiao, from now on, I will protect you."

Chen Shizi was lying on the bed. She was stunned for a long time at first. After two or three minutes, a silent smile suddenly appeared at the corner of her mouth.

Really, when people are unlucky, they will dream about strange things...

As she laughed, two cute little fangs appeared, and two blushes appeared on her delicate face under her bangs. Her dark pupils were glittering with starlight. Chen Shizi was self-deprecating, romantic, shy, and laughable...

He pulled the pillow over, too embarrassed to cover his face, and slowly began to laugh cheerfully.

Is she stupid?

How could she dream of someone saying such things to her?

How ridiculous... Hee~

When she was very young, whenever she felt miserable, sad, and helpless, she would always dream of someone.

In the dark night, she curled up on the cold bed, and that man would hug her from behind, warmly and gently, never speaking a word, but seeming very deep and sad. She felt warm and safe, and wanted to turn around and look, but every time she had this thought, she would wake up from her light dream. She was greedy and her heart was trembling.

When she grew up, that person disappeared from her dreams and never came back. She wondered why she had to insist on seeing it clearly and would regret it if she lost the light.

Grandpa said that she was young and had a special physique, so she was easily bumped into dirty things, but it would be fine when she grew up. He also said, don't read it.

She doesn't want to grow up.

She just wanted to wait for that person to hug her in her dream again, and from then on, she would definitely not look at him.

Does such a person really exist in this world?

Silently, deeply, without saying a word, being held is like being wrapped in warm clothes, and that is the whole world.

Many times, Chen Shizi felt that she had no sense of belonging in this world. Who did she belong to?

***

When Chen Shizi was born, he heard the endless complaints and quarrels of the previous generation.

"Where did all the money Dad made when he was young go?"

"Xiao Si squandered it all! He took Dad's hundreds of thousands of dollars and said he was going to do business, but within two days, he spent it all on women and playing cards."

"Dad didn't let any of you down. My eldest brother got married three times and built houses with his money. My sister also paid for her house after she got married. My fourth sister's mother was so partial to me - just me! She only gave me a little compensation for my marriage... At that time, I gave all my salary to Dad every month. Money was so valuable back then."

"Noisy, noisy!!! Every time you say that I spent all the hundreds of thousands! As if dad never cared about you?!! Eldest sister's children...eldest brother's sons...my second sister really suffered a loss...when it came to my Jiaojiao, I bought it for your children, did our Jiaojiao have anything??! Let me ask you! The only pair of bracelets were given by the Zhang family! Do you have the nerve to talk about my hundreds of thousands? Aren't I going to get married..."

Four-year-old Chen Shizi felt it was so noisy. Her father was getting married today and would be someone’s son-in-law. She was confused and didn’t understand. But she was sure that she could have a banquet at the wedding, so she was very happy... But she was so unlucky. While she was sitting on the motorcycle, her foot was hit hard by the bus that picked up the guests, and it was bleeding... Her father got off the car and kept staring at her. She didn’t understand the look in his eyes, as if he was saying sorry or something.

"Dad, I'm fine, I'm not hurt..."

Auntie asked Chen Shizi to dance for the adults in her father's new home to please them. She was confused and was pushed to the TV. She danced and spun around under the gazes of many people, and everyone laughed. There was also a little girl who was laughing so hard that she fell backwards. She was her father's new daughter. Chen Shizi's young mind went blank. She felt like a monkey being fooled at the market.

After the wedding, she returned to her mud house and went to herd sheep with her grandfather in the evening.

Grandpa was chatting with the old men, and someone asked, "Is Jiaojiao sad?"

She was stunned, her almond eyes widened, "Why are you sad? Grandpa Wan, are you talking about my foot? It doesn't hurt!"

The old man surnamed Wan laughed and asked, "Is the food delicious today?"

4-year-old Chen Shizi suddenly smiled happily, "It's delicious! There are red soybeans and honey in the sweet rice. It tastes especially good when you bite it!!"

Her smile is as bright as the sunshine, revealing two little white fangs and a pretty dimple.

Grandpa Wan was also sitting on the bench, laughing so hard that he couldn't straighten his back.

Grandpa looked at her deeply, without saying a word, which seemed a little strange.

At night, grandpa led the old sheep and she followed the little sheep, and they ran back home.

Next to the patio at home, there was a century-old bluestone tablet on the ground, the surface was polished to reflect light, and not far away was a sheepfold. There was a dim old light bulb on the earthen wall, and Chen Shizi squatted alone beside the tablet, playing with beer bottle caps in the dim light. Marbles cost one cent for two, and beer bottle caps were picked up from the garbage ditch. One marble and four bottle caps made for the most fun game, and Chen Shizi had a lot of fun playing alone.

"Jiaojiao, stop playing and come here."

Grandpa's voice was a little deep, with his hands behind his back. Chen Shizi felt a little scared and nervously moved to the other side of the patio.

It was dark there.

"Come into the house with Grandpa."

***

The lights in the room are usually not on at night. In order to save electricity, only an old Yellow River TV is turned on for lighting. It only plays Qinqiang opera, which my grandparents love to watch.

Tonight, the TV was off, but the lights were on.

"Sit down."

Grandpa knocked on the low table with his pipe, his face a little gloomy.

Chen Shizi felt a little panicked.

"Jiaojiao, do you accept your fate?" Grandpa asked.

"Ah? Grandpa..."

Tears of fear and panic filled Chen Shizi's eyes, just like her helpless lamb in the sheepfold just across the wall.

Grandpa frowned and said, "From now on, you can only watch TV for a while a day, and you can only play for a while after dinner. You have to study and learn etiquette with grandpa, understand?"

"understood……"

Chen Shizi bit her lips and held back her tears.

***

In the summer, Dad came back and visited with his wife and "daughter".

His wife was a very nice person. She brought Chen Shizi a box of Wahaha and a pile of clothes, and asked Chen Shizi to call her mom.

Said: "Last time I saw Jiaojiao couldn't bear to throw away the bottle she drank from, so I bought her a board. Jiaojiao, are you happy?"

"Happy."

"Then call me mom."

"Mom." Chen Shizi called obediently.

The woman smiled gently, "Lianlian is the same age as you, but you are so much shorter than her. These clothes that Lianlian couldn't wear before are perfect for you. Take a look, do you like them?"

The girl's almond eyes were dim and bright, and she smiled, "I like it."

Then the woman changed each of them for her and praised them for being beautiful.

Grandma was smiling and responding in the house, while grandpa was smoking his pipe alone in the yard.

"Chen Shizi, do you accept your fate?"

Chen Shizi started crying, and her two little hands were clasped together in fear.

"Grandpa... did I... did I... do something wrong..."

Grandpa tapped her forehead with the pipe.

"You must study hard and make a name for yourself."