The reborn elder sister has gone crazy with killing, and there is a crying monster behind her

Jin Yan said sorry and wanted to leave, but Gongsun Jiayan grabbed her arm.

"Jin Yan, I, I, I used to like gentle and quiet women, women who are in tune with me, just like you. When I'm with you, no matter what we do, I'm extremely happy."

"Then why did you..." Jin Yan was surprised and happy, but also sad and hateful with tears in her eyes.

"Jin Yan, I don't want to lie to you. Why did I go south? Why did I like the princess? I have my own reasons!"

"What kind of hardship could make you, Master Gongsun, give up your self-esteem and love?"

"I...Jin Yan, I'll tell you everything!"

"Just tell me!"

"I am in the Gongsun family, and there are many things I cannot control. I have lived with my mother since I was a child. My brother and sister-in-law and I have studied hard and worked hard for so long, but we are still on the edge of the family. The direct lineage has endless resources, and we can only pick up what they don't want."

"One word from the head of the family can change our lives forever. I don't want my mother and sister to suffer, and I don't want my brother to be bullied. My current reputation is far from enough to protect them."

"You may think I am aloof and don't like to socialize with others, but I just don't want to waste the hard-earned money of my mother and sister!"

"I always eat at Jubaolou because I used to write all the menus for the owner of Jubaolou! He allowed me to sell the dishes at cost price."

"Look, you never imagined that my life is so difficult and embarrassing. How could you, Miss Jin, who is so wealthy, know about this?"

"I, Gongsun, I didn't know your family was in such a situation, and I didn't know you..."

"But everything will be fine now. The Gongsun family has been incorporated into the Military Education Department. Although they are insignificant officials, we rely on the Queen, and things will get better."

"Since you have joined the Military Education Department, why do you need to involve the princess?"

"The princess is honest, kind, lively and cheerful. I like her very much!"

Gongsun Jiayan's face flushed slightly. He pulled aside all the veils and told his former lover what was in his mind. He was embarrassed, uneasy and terrified.

"You said you like the princess very much, I don't believe it, but I know that feelings can't be forced. I also understand what kind of person you are, but I still feel unwilling to give in, so I came to keep the appointment!"

"Thank you for your kindness, Miss. I am unworthy of your friendship!"

"I don't understand. You are so talented. The emperor has opened an imperial examination this year. As long as you maintain your current level, it will be easy for you to get an official position. Why do you still want to do this?"

"Jin Yan, you know, although I am from the Gongsun family, I am not a legitimate child. I want to stand out and be valued by the head of the family, so I can only do this."

"With your knowledge, it is not difficult to pass the imperial examinations. With your ability, it is also easy to be promoted. As long as you work harder, success and fame will be within your reach. Why do you have to humble yourself to please the princess?"

Gongsun Jiayan listened to Jin Yan's words. Once upon a time, he also thought that he could make a name for himself with his abilities, but what happened in the end?

Reality slapped him hard in the face!

No matter how capable he is, he will find it difficult to make progress without the help of a noble person.

Gongsun Jiayan held the window eaves with his hands, looking at the mountains in the distance, as if he was talking to himself and Jin Yan.

"I have worked hard for 16 years. My mother, brother and sister lived a humble life in the Gongsun family. My mother always told me to work hard, strive for excellence and stand out."

"I feel like I'm about to be driven crazy by these words of getting ahead and being in a high position. I'm really too tired. I just want to reach the top overnight. The string in my brain is broken. I feel that all my efforts are a joke in the face of power and status."

Gongsun Jiayan looked at Jin Yan and broke down crying: "Jin Yan, I'm sorry, I really don't want to let you down, but I have no choice, I'm so tired, I hate myself for being incompetent."

"You have such a hard life in the Gongsun family, you can let your aunt start her own business. When the time comes, as long as you are good enough, you don't necessarily have to get the approval of the head of the family. You just need to get your own approval."

"Easier said than done!"

"You can find a like-minded partner who understands you and you can run your own family. Isn't that better than fighting for power in that shady family?"

Jin Yan took a deep breath and continued, "You are so self-destructive. You are unlike the Gongsun Jiayan I know. The Gongsun Jiayan I know is so proud, so noble, and has always had great ambitions!"

Gongsun Jiayan looked at Jin Yan, who was more ambitious than her, and smiled bitterly in his heart.

His eyes were red. "I also despise myself like this, but what can I do? If I had a wife of noble status, I could stand firm in the family, get the approval of the head of the family, and my family could have a place."

"I also want to start my own business, but my family has an inseparable and complicated relationship with the Gongsun family. I don't think I have the ability to leave the Gongsun family. I don't want the official position I worked so hard to obtain to be used by the Gongsun family. I don't want to be so tired. With the princess around, they will be wary, so I chose the fastest way."

"Gongsun Jiayan, why? You are so capable and can make a name for yourself, but you choose to act like this. It really makes people... look down on you! Why do you want to make people look down on you?"

"If you despise me, don't blame me. I really don't want to do that. But if I succeed, the Queen will see my efforts and she can easily change my life with just a few words. So I made this choice after careful consideration."

"It seems that Master Gongsun has made up his mind to curry favor with the powerful and is planning to be with the princess!"

"Yes……"

For a long time, Jin Yan stopped talking!