After midnight

After Su Ziling and everyone left the study, An Yan sat down on the chair behind the desk again.

He thought for a moment and opened the locked drawer on the right.

There were two notebooks stacked one on top of the other in the drawer. He first pulled out the black notebook on top, then the red one. These two notebooks were actually diaries, but they were written by different people.

An Yan opened the red notebook, the words on it were both elegant and neat.

March 1998, 3, sunny

Today I met a boy in Jiudu Library, and he snatched the book I wanted to read. But the library only has one copy of this book.

March 1998, 4, sunny

The library's loan period is one month, so I came to stake out. I was sure he would show up today, and he did.

Ange, he said to me with a smile.

May 1998, 5, cloudy

We bumped into each other frequently in the library and left contact information with each other. Only I knew that I did it on purpose.

May 1998, 5 Cloudy weather

He asked me out tomorrow. This is the first time he asked me out since I left the letter.

March 1998, 6, sunny

It was the first time he called me a little girl.

March 1998, 7, sunny

I fell in love with him.

August 1998, 8, light rain

He confessed to me, Ange and Muyi will be together forever.

March 1998, 9, sunny

I unexpectedly saw him today, and he was a little flustered. Although he said it was nothing and he was still eating with me, I always felt that he was weird, not gentle and not smiling.

March 1998, 9, sunny

Today is a very special day. After parting with 'him' yesterday, he came to see me early this morning. He told me that the 'him' yesterday was called An Ran, and he was his twin brother. But he didn't tell me why An Ran pretended to be him without explaining.

March 1998, 9, sunny

It was a bit windy today, and I saw him again. This time he was An Ran. The second time we met, I could tell them apart very well. An Ran looked calm and composed.

October 1998, 10, light rain

An Ran appeared again, and I finally realized that the days when An Ran appeared were the days when An Ge had not met me.

March 1998, 10, sunny

I had a fight with Ange, and I don’t like it.

March 1998, 10, sunny

After a week of cold war, Ange came to apologize. He said he was very sorry, but he still had to hide everything about Anran from me. I said, is it because we are not family? So I proposed to him.

March 1998, 10, sunny

The first time I went to his house, I was very nervous and excited, but I didn't see the legendary An Ran.

May 1998, 11, cloudy

The first time I saw An Ge and An Ran standing side by side, it was a bit magical. I suddenly felt that they were not that similar.

May 1998, 11, cloudy

Standing outside Ange's house waiting for him, I learned from the neighbors that the An family had only one child named Ange.

June 1998, 11, Light Snow

An Ran turned out to be the 'Son of God'.

June 1998, 12 Heavy Snow

At the end of the year, I finally married Ange. I will share everything with him and stay with him for the rest of my life.

March 1999, 1, sunny

On the first day of the new year, I moved into my new home, and I think I will be very happy.

May 1999, 1, cloudy

I finally understood the pattern of the exchanges between Ange and Anran, and I really enjoyed staying at home alone with Ange.

March 1999, 2, sunny

Sister-in-law, aren't you curious? On the first day after the Spring Festival, An Ran came to me on his own initiative. He seemed to want to say something, but in the end he said nothing. Of course I was curious, but in the end I didn't ask anything.

May 1999, 3 Cloudy weather

Spring is here, and An Ran seems to be different. I think it's great, but An Ge is a little worried.

May 1999, 4 Cloudy weather

The roses in the courtyard are in bloom, and the family took a photo together. This photo is precious.

March 1999, 5, sunny

I have always known that there will be special people visiting our house at certain times of the year, but Ange still doesn't want me to know.

March 1999, 5, sunny

An Ran disappeared as usual. I can't bear any of An Ge's helplessness and anger for him.

March 1999, 6, sunny

Ange, on the road outside my house, I called him. He smiled and walked towards me and took my arm. Sister-in-law, he whispered, knowing that I recognized him. On our way home, he took the initiative to mention someone to me. That person was Zhang Yang.

May 1999, 6 Cloudy weather

The time between Ange and Anran was getting longer and longer, and I felt a little uneasy.

July 1999, 7 Heavy Rain

I mentioned An Ran to An Ge in a veiled way, and An Ge told me that An Ran knew what to do. Of course, I knew what a good boy An Ran was, but I also confirmed that An Ge knew what An Ran was doing all along, and he just didn't tell me. But, An Ge, I love you.

March 1999, 7, sunny

The weather was extremely hot, and An Ran came back from outside, looking very bad. I didn't know what happened.

July 1999, 8 Heavy Rain

Zhang Yang turned out to be An Ran's "guardian". An Ran finally met his guardian. This should have been a good thing, but when I heard about this from An Ge, what he vaguely revealed to me made me worried.

March 1999, 8, sunny

Ange and Anran disappeared at the same time, and the weather was extremely depressing.

August 1999, 8, light rain

Ange was like facing a great enemy, urgent and busy. Anran seemed to have figured something out, more calm and detached. But I still didn't understand anything.

March 1999, 9, sunny

Ange hugged me tightly, and his fragile look made me feel so distressed. He was gentle, smiling, and responsible. I could always be a little girl next to him. But I knew that life couldn't go on like this forever.

March 1999, 9, sunny

An Ran came to me and wanted me to take An Ge away from here. An Ran didn't understand that I couldn't do anything that An Ge didn't agree to.

March 1999, 10, sunny

An Ran started to stay at home every day, her clear eyes were misty. I suddenly remembered that I had never met the man named Zhang Yang.

October 1999, 10 Strong Wind

Ange told me everything, and I began to doubt the world deeply. I don't regret being with Ange. I just hate that I'm not smart enough or strong enough.

March 1999, 11, sunny

At night, I couldn't sleep and found out Anran had sneaked out. I looked at Ange's sleeping face, not knowing whether I should tell him.

May 1999, 11, cloudy

It turned out that An Ran went to see Zhang Yang that night. He wanted to try to do something. I don’t know what the final result was, but I only know that An Ran never went out again.

May 1999, 11, cloudy

An Ran passed away, so sad and unexpected. I couldn't accept it. And no matter how much I begged, An Ge wouldn't tell me who killed him. In the evening, An Ge took An Ran's body away, leaving me alone here. I waited for him to come back, but this family would not be complete anymore.

March 1999, 12, sunny

An Ge finally came back, and he said that after An Ran's body was cremated into ashes, no one would be able to find him. This is good, this is the best.

June 1999, 12, Light Snow

The house was deserted and I began to miss An Ran. Although I didn't know him well, if he were here, An Ge would definitely not be like this. He had been enduring in pain.

March 1999, 12, sunny

We left safely, but our imprisonment has not disappeared. I don't know how long this will last.

June 2000, 1 Heavy Snow

It snowed again. This time, there would be no two similar boys playing and laughing in the quiet night. Ange stood in the snow, feeling lonely. I could only watch him from afar.

March 2000, 2, sunny

Winter was finally coming to an end, and Ange finally made his decision. He said he planned to wait for the next "Son of God" to come, and he said that this time, he would protect him no matter what. He said that this time, he would never let Song Hongtian's conspiracy succeed, even if he had to sacrifice his life for it.

May 2000, 3 Cloudy weather

I'm pregnant. I didn't expect I could be so happy. Ange also turned back into the smiling boy at this moment. All this is thanks to you, my child.

March 2000, 12, sunny

Time flies so fast, my child is born into this world. His father named him Anyan. Anyan, Anyan, my child, I just hope you grow up safely and happily.

May 2001, 4, cloudy

I never thought that fate would treat us like this. An Yan, unexpectedly awakened his water ability when he was 3 months old. Is this really true? I cried several times, thinking how painful An Ge must be.

March 2001, 12, sunny

My dear son, happy first birthday! Mom and Dad don’t know how long we can keep this a secret, but we will definitely protect you with our lives.

March 2002, 12, sunny

My dear son, time flies, you are two years old now. You have grown up, and you don't know why your father is so strict with you, trains you and forbids you to use your abilities outside. Mom knows all your doubts and grievances. Mom is sorry for you. But, son, Mom still hopes that you will never know.

May 2003, 1, cloudy

Just today, the government announced that An Yan became the 77th "Son of God". The truth can't be concealed anymore. The 77th, what a irony. Ange, they actually erased An Ran's existence. An Ran, you tell me, An Yan is still so young, what should he do? Your brother and I, what should we do?

March 2003, 12, sunny

Anyan, you are three years old. You don't know how happy your mother is!

June 2004, 1 Heavy Snow

Something is stirring in the cold winter.

March 2004, 2, sunny

Ange must know something, about Anran, about Anyan.

August 2004, 3, light rain

Ange became anxious. He had been out early and back late recently and was in a bad state. I couldn't just sit there and wait for death any longer.

March 2004, 4, sunny

An Yan, you have made a good friend, right? This way, Mom will feel more at ease.

March 2004, 5, sunny

That man has returned, betraying the 'Guardian' of the 'Child of God'.

With a creak, the door closed again in this dull space. Su Ziling walked towards An Yan. An Yan pulled himself out of his notebook and looked up at him. This was the last record of his mother.

"What are you looking at?" Su Ziling asked softly.

"The notebook my mother left behind is very important."

"And the other one, too?"

"No, that was left by my uncle."

"Is it safe?"

"Yeah." An Yan replied.

Su Ziling's eyes suddenly flashed with a hint of heaviness and regret, but he quickly concealed it. He pursed his lips and asked, "When did you know all this?"

"When I was fifteen, on June 12th."

Su Ziling knew that on June 12, An Yan disappeared and his parents also disappeared from this world. This day was the anniversary of An Yan's parents' death.

Wait, so Xu Xing had told him that this was the first time An Yan lost control in the bar? Su Ziling looked at An Yan in surprise, but An Yan lowered his head and didn't look at him again. An Yan took out a photo from the notebook he had just closed and handed it to Su Ziling.

Su Ziling took it and looked down at the photo. The photo was well preserved and Su Ziling felt it was hot in his hands. He looked at the photo and found that his eyes began to feel sore and bitter, so he hurriedly raised his head and said, "Your mother is really beautiful."

"Yeah, then who do you think I look more like?"

An Yan was asking him which of the two similar men in the photo he looked more like.

"Of course it's your father." Su Ziling said with a smile.

An Yan also smiled, he closed his notebook, put away both notebooks, and then followed Su Ziling out. He knew that Su Ziling did not tell him the truth, he was more like the man standing beside him, who seemed to be there and not there.

The boy who smiled gently but was as ethereal as the wind.