Zongman: I am on the set of Oregairu, playing the role of Bai Xue

Abandon the whole world...

This concept is too huge and heavy, and Yukinoshita is at a loss at the moment.

The system continues to explain:

[If you really have this in mind, when the current series is finished. ]

[You will be given the status of a "temporary employee" and will be screened for your own scripts. Once you pass the assessment, you will be able to obtain your own permissions. ]

[If you fail the assessment, you will be exiled to another studio. ]

"This...I can't see him at all."

[The system will not provide free help to employees who lack perseverance and value. ]

Yukinoshita curled up the corners of her mouth in bitterness.

It turned out to be like this...

Without permission, you cannot retain memories, and you can never touch the true side of the other person.

If she chooses to keep it, she will have to go through a script assessment of unknown difficulty. Regardless of success or failure, she will definitely spend more time.

Faced with this dilemma, she asked the system "if there is any other way out."

Only a negative response was received.

The girl knew that she was overwhelmed by anxiety, so she consciously tried to regulate her emotions slowly.

Wait until you calm down a little.

She asked again:

"System, what do you think I should choose?"

No matter how she thinks, she will fall into her own limitations, and often needs to temporarily break out of this vicious circle.

And the system also said that it can play an auxiliary role.

It is better to throw the question to the system.

The voice in Yukinoshita's head did not sound immediately, it seemed to be analyzing.

After a few seconds, the system responded:

【After various predictions, it is recommended that you maintain the status quo and continue recording. 】

"Really? Why don't you let me be a 'temporary employee'?"

[Because you don’t have a firm determination, you are not able to create more popularity. ]

"Am I not determined enough?" Yukinoshita asked herself, vaguely aware of her own uneasiness about the unknown road.

Although the system was profit-driven, it easily saw through her deepest concerns.

"You mean, I'll regret it halfway through."

【Based on your current knowledge and experience, the possibility of failing the assessment is extremely high. 】

Yukinoshita laughed at herself: "Because I'm too naive and too fragile?"

[Not accurate, but roughly consistent with the system's judgment basis. ]

Ah, sure enough.

The choices she faced did not require any deep thought.

All that is left is to follow the system's arrangements and complete the final recording.

As for these flashbacks and the truth about the world that I glimpsed tonight, it is nothing but a ridiculous fantasy.

Deliberately delaying time and artificially creating a coincidence of Beinuo's return will probably only backfire.

Yukinoshita stood up.

Silently watching the remaining images in front of me.

Since all memories will disappear, is there any need to watch it...

just forget it.

After all, so much time has passed, she needs to finish recording before the "world projection" is shut down, otherwise she will definitely suffer the negative impact of the abnormal time flow rate.

She opened her mouth, ready to exit the system from its current mode.

But somehow, Yukinoshita remembered that she had once had a strange dream, although she had almost forgotten most of it.

But those dreams that are repeated many times and have no beginning or end may also be fragments of recalled memories.

She asked casually: "System, will some of the retrospective memories appear in my dreams?"

[Yes, even if you do not have activation permissions, in some cases, it is inevitable that a mark will be left. ]

"Can you be more specific? Under what circumstances will this happen?"

[When your emotions fluctuate violently and you are close to the initiator of the regression. ]

Yukinoshita was very surprised.

If you read the system's explanation carefully.

She had reason to suspect that Bei Nuo had done something strange that caused her to have such a strong reaction.

And it's at close range.

Thinking of this, Yukinoshita immediately gave up the idea of ​​quitting.

His eyes were fixed on the only remaining retrospective image.

It seems that some evidence of Beinuo’s crimes is recorded here.

Memories will fade, but it is necessary for Yukinoshita to go through all of them.

Because these images are all related to her.

The flashback clips from the past began to play again——

Yukinoshita was concentrating seriously on it.

Except for some different dialogues that Beinuo created unintentionally.

She soon saw the scene in her dream.

However, the following image was completely different from what she expected.

In front of the gate of the Service Club... Bei Nuo held her hand.

The boy talked to her in different ways, and the content of each conversation was different.

There are awkward chats, but also care.

There are jokes and also serious things.

There is silence and there is also hilarity.

One of the passages made her extremely distressed.

Bei Nuo, using the metaphor of "the world is a huge studio", discussed with her the truth about the world and whether to stay or go, with a smile.

The strong-willed "self" only thought about how to refute him, hiding the nervousness brought about by holding hands.

When Bei Nuo said, "If there hadn't been a studio scam, the president and I would never have met."

Yukinoshita couldn't help but choose to pause.

She suddenly discovered Beinuo's cunningness.

Using the brutal power of time travel, he unscrupulously tested her reaction.

This is cheating!

How could she possibly understand the subtext at that time!

When Beinuo comes back, she will definitely condemn the other party!

but……

Everything will be forgotten.

Whether it is the system or the retrospection of the past.

Even my current ignorance, empathy for Beinuo, and anger at the system, all these emotions will disappear.

Yukinoshita's shoulders trembled and she hesitated for a while.

In the end, I still decided to continue watching.

Even if she would forget it, she would finish reading it all.

What attempts did Beinuo make? How did she respond? She didn't want to miss any of them.

When the video plays to the second to last segment.

In her haste, she actually threw Beinuo to the ground.

Instead of getting angry, Beinuo took the initiative to apologize.

Looking at the figure turning away in the picture, Yukinoshita had already been swallowed by guilt and regret.

In the service club where only "Yukinoshita" was left, no sound was heard for a long time after Kitano left.

The girl's blood was about to freeze, and she murmured in disappointment:

"So... that's how it is. No wonder he went to help Yuigahama..."

A troublesome girl like her is really not worthy of being the heroine.

【It is detected that your mood is extremely low. 】

[It is recommended that you take deep breaths to adjust the current feeling of suffocation. ]

"I know."

Yukinoshita finally understood the system's judgment.

Put yourself in her shoes, can she be as tough as Beinuo?

It is definitely not possible.

Why can he be tolerant and let go so easily?

The other party apologized first, not giving her any chance to say "I'm sorry".

This will only make Yukinoshita hate herself more and more.

The girl's eyes were misty.

The picture becomes increasingly blurry.

But in the next second, footsteps were heard outside the service club door.

"Yukinoshita" quickly sat up straight, pretending to read carefully, while her eyes quietly looked at the door.

Kitano and Yuigahama walked in one after another.

Both of them were holding drinks in their hands, three bottles in total.

"Xiaoxue~ sorry for waiting." Yuigahama greeted happily, and soon came to Yukinoshita and handed over the milk tea drink in her hand.

"Ah, listen to me, when I was buying drinks just now, I suddenly ran into Himena and Yumiko!"

She passionately recounted her experiences just now, and "Yukinoshita" pretended to be calm while listening, but her eyes moved towards Beinuo from time to time.

Narrated by Yuigahama, the general process is: Kitano resolved the misunderstanding between Yuigahama and Miura, and the two reconciled.

If Kitano hadn't happened to catch up, Yuigahama might have left in anger.

Bei Nuo sipped his soda and said casually, "Miura-san is a typical tsundere. He can basically handle anything if you explain it well."

"What is a tsundere?" Yuigahama asked curiously.

"To put it simply, it's because of face and inconsistency."

"Yeah, that's right. Yumiko does have this kind of personality." Yuigahama had a deep understanding, but turned to look at Yukinoshita, "Xue, why don't you react at all?"

"Ah... the misunderstanding has been resolved, how nice."

"Haha, that's right!" Yuigahama nodded repeatedly and reiterated the details of what happened.

At first Youmeiko didn't know Beinuo at all and even called him by the wrong name.

But Beinuo took the initiative with just a few words and made the other party say "I'm sorry".

After hearing that apology, "Yukinoshita" felt dazed.

She didn't expect that Yumiko Miura was not as heartless as she had imagined.

Since Miura can honestly say sorry.

How could she shrink back then?

So "Yukinoshita" interrupted Yuigahama's chat, looked at Kitano, and said in front of the two of them:

"I'm sorry about what happened just now."

Bei Nuo didn't expect her to apologize, but he quickly reacted, smiled and waved his hand: "It's okay, it doesn't hurt me."

"Eh? What's going on?" Yuigahama looked around curiously.

"Well... just now the president suddenly knocked me to the ground." Bei Nuo recounted what happened without any reservation.

After listening to this, Yuigahama couldn't help but sigh: "Xiaoxue is amazing."

"Yukinoshita" was embarrassed by the compliment and turned her face away, "It's just a conditioned reflex, how can it be so great?"

"However, the president does react quickly, which is enough to deal with ordinary people." Kitano seriously analyzed Yukinoshita's strengths, "Yuigahama-san should also be careful. If you accidentally anger the president one day, you will definitely end up in trouble."

"I'm different! How could Xiaoxue bear to do that?"

Seeing that the topic was drifting further and further away, "Yukinoshita" coughed lightly, signaling the two to focus on Zaimokuza's manuscript.

……

The latter image is similar to the previous one.

The girl shed tears of relief.

That’s great… She didn’t miss the opportunity to apologize, and Bei Nuo didn’t take it to heart.

Maybe my past self wasn’t as bad as I imagined.

The haze that had been lingering around Xue Yu had finally dissipated for the most part.

She choked for a long time.

When Yukinoshita wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, another question gradually emerged in her mind.

Kitano had already reconciled Yuigahama and Miura at this time, so why did he overturn it later?

She asked the system, but got no answer, only "insufficient authority".

Yukinoshita was at a loss and focused her attention on the last video.

With trepidation, she chose to play it.

I hope that I won’t make the same mistake again, and even if there are misunderstandings, they can be resolved smoothly.

The girl's face was covered with traces of tears she had just wiped away, but when she finished watching the last video...

Once again, tears streamed down my face.

The moment the flashback video began playing, Yukinoshita could no longer look away.

There was surprise and disbelief in her eyes.

Yukinoshita finally understood why she always had a vague admiration for Beinuo.

Isshi Caiyu once asked her: "Why did you fall in love with me, senior sister..."

She couldn't answer at the time, and it was difficult to find the source of her so-called liking.

And now,

This hidden memory.

That’s exactly the answer to the question!

Beinuo, who is usually calm, actually blushes!

The clumsy mouth that makes small talk, the clumsy and easy-to-understand cover-up, the heart-thumping eyes, the words that touch the heart...

Such a precious series of moments!

They are all hidden here!

All of them! All of them are hidden outside of Yukinoshita Yukino's memory!

The girl's eyes turned red from crying.

Crystal clear tears dripping.

She cried with tears in her eyes:

"Why……"

"Why backtrack?!"

"How, how could I remember this?!"

"But, at this moment... when I was about to forget... I remembered..."

Trembling voices and helpless cries mixed together.

Yukinoshita cried inconsolably.

But he clenched his hands extra tightly and made up his mind.