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He looked at Qin Huairu, and suddenly he felt complicated. He didn't want to get involved in her life, but at the same time, he couldn't bear to completely reject her approach. This was an emotion that confused him, with the instinct of self-preservation on one side and the kind nature on the other. He didn't want to cause more rumors because he was too close to her, but at the same time, he couldn't completely ignore her loneliness.

"Don't worry, I will always be here. After all, we are neighbors. If anything happens, I will definitely not stand idly by." He finally chose an ambiguous answer, neither completely refusing nor making excessive promises. He hoped that this would make her understand his attitude, while not making her too dependent on him.

Qin Huairu seemed to understand what he meant, and the disappointment in her eyes deepened, but she didn't say anything more. She just nodded slightly and whispered, "Thank you, Xiang Qian."

This "thank you" made Li Xiangqian feel a little uneasy. He understood that Qin Huairu might still have a lot to say in her heart, but he didn't want to delve into it any further. The sound of rain outside continued, and the sound of raindrops hitting the window became more and more dense, as if adding some indescribable rhythm to this conversation.

The dull feeling in the air became stronger and stronger, and Li Xiangqian suddenly felt that perhaps this conversation should end. After all, continuing would only make both parties fall into deeper entanglement. He stood up, walked to the door, and said softly: "It's still raining, you should go back early and don't get wet in the rain."

Qin Huairu raised her head slightly and glanced at him, her eyes were complicated and she seemed to be a little hesitant, but she finally stood up, put on the wet windbreaker, and walked to the door. Li Xiangqian opened the door for her, and the sound of rain outside became clear instantly, and the cool breeze mixed with raindrops blew in her face.

"Xiang Qian, thank you so much." Qin Huairu stood at the door and looked back at him. She seemed to want to say something, but in the end she just said goodbye softly, "I'm leaving."

Li Xiangqian nodded without saying anything more. Watching her gradually disappear in the rain, he closed the door and let out a long sigh. The silence in the room made him feel inexplicably tired, as if the conversation just now had exhausted all his energy.

Li Xiangqian leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes, his head feeling a little dizzy. This dizzy feeling seemed to be getting more frequent recently. At first he thought it was due to lack of sleep or excessive thinking for a long time, but as this feeling gradually intensified, he began to feel that something was wrong.

He rubbed his temples with his fingers, trying to clear himself up, but the chaotic thoughts in his mind were like a mess of strings. The more he tried to sort them out, the more he felt at a loss. Qin Huairu's appearance just now was like a stone thrown into the lake that was already restless, causing waves and making his already exhausted mood even more chaotic.

He shook his head, trying to get rid of these complicated thoughts, but the inexplicable dizziness still lingered in his body, as if to devour all his energy. Since this period of time, all kinds of complicated things in the yard made him feel that he had nowhere to escape. Whether it was the entanglement between him and Qin Huairu, or the rumors among the neighbors, they made him breathless. Every time he tried to withdraw, things would always entangle him again like an invisible net.

"Am I too tired?" Li Xiangqian thought to himself, a trace of doubt flashing through his mind. As a tough and capable person, he rarely felt so powerless, but this recent constant fatigue made him feel uneasy. He knew that he couldn't go on like this. This feeling was not just physical fatigue, but more of a psychological oppression.

He stood up and tried to get some water to drink, perhaps to relieve the dizziness. But the moment he stood up, he suddenly felt dizzy and stumbled, almost knocking over the cup on the table.

"What's going on..." Li Xiangqian steadied himself, held onto the table and took a breath, a few drops of cold sweat seeping out of his forehead. He suddenly felt uneasy, this feeling was too abrupt, as if his body was suddenly sending out some kind of warning. He recalled everything that had happened recently, it seemed that he had felt this inexplicable dizziness and weakness more than once, but every time he thought it was just temporary fatigue, until today this feeling became particularly strong.

"Am I really sick?" He couldn't help but think to himself, feeling a little anxious. Over the years, he had been taking good care of his body, and his diet and daily routine were all regular, but now this sudden physical reaction forced him to re-examine whether he had overlooked any problem.

But he was not a person who liked to complicate things, especially his own physical problems. He always thought that as long as he rested more and paid more attention, he would get better after a while. But this time, he vaguely felt that things were not so simple. The dizziness and fatigue were like a heavy stone pressing on his heart, constantly reminding him that this was not just a temporary fatigue.

Li Xiangqian smiled bitterly, slowly walked to the teapot, poured a glass of water, and drank it in one breath. The cool water slid down his throat, bringing a temporary sense of freshness, but the sleepiness did not dissipate. He stood there, his eyes slightly scattered, and his mind involuntarily emerged with the words his mother once said to him - "Sometimes people have to learn to let go, otherwise they will tire themselves out."

His mother's words were always simple and powerful, but Li Xiangqian never really took them to heart at the time. He always thought that he was a capable person and could get through anything, no matter how tired or busy he was, as long as he gritted his teeth, he could get through it. However, now, this dizzy feeling made him realize that he might have underestimated the pressure that had accumulated over a long period of time.

"Maybe, I really should take a good rest." Li Xiangqian thought to himself, but then he laughed at himself. How could he have time to rest? Things in this courtyard were happening one after another, leaving him no chance to breathe. What's more, there were elderly people at home. As a son, he didn't even have time to go home, so how could he rest?

"Am I pushing myself too hard?" He thought as he rubbed his stiff shoulders. The pain in his shoulders gradually intensified, as if reminding him that every part of his body was sending him an alarm.

Just as he was lost in self-reflection, there was a slight sound of footsteps outside the door. Li Xiangqian subconsciously raised his head and became alert.