I, who was determined to stay in Naruto, became the white moonlight

Haruko fiddled with the equipment on the lab table, admiring the familiar glass surface while secretly glancing at Orochimaru.

"What are you looking at me doing?"

Sensing her gaze keenly, Orochimaru kept moving his hands.

Haruko stammered, "I just think... Orochimaru is pretty powerful."

Orochimaru raised an eyebrow, "Your definition of awesome is still as weird as ever."

"Have you ever thought about what to do in the future, Orochimaru?" Haruko observed his expression carefully.

"In the future?" Orochimaru gave her a strange look, "I won't consider the future until I develop immortality."

"Why does Orochimaru want to achieve immortality so much?"

Orochimaru paused with his hand holding the test tube, slowly put it down, and looked at her, "I thought you knew."

"For me?" Haruko said but shook her head first, "Orochimaru, I know you."

His words deceived everyone, including his ignorant self, but they could not deceive Hayami Haruko, who had been with him for many years.

Perhaps at the beginning it was because he witnessed her death and wanted to resurrect her and achieve eternal life, but later, Orochimaru, who had forgotten his memories, still chose to embark on the path of the first round, which shows that he was actually doing it for himself.

She wasn't sure what Orochimaru had been thinking in the years since she left, but he eventually defected from Konoha.

But what is certain is that he felt uneasy because of her death. He was worried about the passing of life all day long, and was afraid that he would disappear from this world without knowing it, just like the girl who existed in his vague memory.

Haruko couldn't help but feel distressed for Orochimaru, who was so fragile and insecure.

She had finally accompanied him through the death of his parents and the cruelty of World War II, but in the end, she did not expect that her death would once again cast a shadow over Orochimaru's heart.

"Orochimaru...I'm sorry."

Haruko opened her mouth, but it seemed that nothing she said could fill the void of his anxiety, so in the end she could only apologize.

Orochimaru seemed not to understand her meaning, and instead said regretfully: "It seems that my admiration has been underestimated."

Haruko found it a little funny. When Orochimaru was a child, he always looked arrogant and self-centered. She didn't expect that he would become such a joking person when he grew up.

"It turns out that one day I will be loved by Konoha's genius. If I tell others about this, many people will be envious of me, right?" Haruko teased him.

Orochimaru looked back at her impartially and spoke word for word, "If we realize our future together, perhaps more people will envy us."

Seeing the obscure feelings in his eyes, Haruko turned her head away a little afraid to look directly at him, and responded to him in an embarrassed tone, "Don't joke, Orochimaru."

"Why do you think this is a joke?"

His question made Haruko freeze. The ambiguous relationship that had always existed was exposed, and Haruko had to face her friend's love for her. This was undoubtedly a difficult thing to deal with, and even more difficult for the current Haruko to respond.

Haruko was at a loss, "But... I don't understand why you suddenly..."

"It wasn't sudden." Orochimaru's hoarse voice turned deeper, "You have heard the story of the birth of this subtle feeling before."

Haruko's dazed head was immersed in memories as he spoke long and thin words.

"Without you by my side, I feel even more upset..."

"When I meet your expectant eyes, I think I should be happy..."

"There is really no meaning in life, but only by living can you encounter interesting things..."

"Just like I met you before, and I meet you now."

The windows that had been closed when she arrived were flapping in the wind, making the only rustling sound in the laboratory.

Orochimaru looked at her quietly as she lowered her head, as if waiting for her response, but the intense emotion in his eyes revealed his inner unrest.

After a long while, Haruko finally spoke in a conflicted and apologetic voice.

"I'm sorry, Orochimaru. Right now... I can't respond to you."

After being rejected, Orochimaru was not disappointed. Instead, he tried to save their relationship from another perspective. "Sure enough, should I have said it before?"

"No...it was the same even in the past." Haruko raised her head as if she finally had the courage to look him in the face. "We...just didn't meet each other at the best time."

The meaningless denial suddenly arose in Orochimaru the negative emotions he had been trying hard to suppress when she apologized.

He had clearly already found an excuse for their missed relationship, so why did she continue to deny everything they had been together?!

"Didn't you say you would try your best to stay by my side?" Orochimaru's face turned grim. "It seems like all these are lies to keep me locked up in Konoha!"

Haruko was extremely firm about his choice to defect, "I also told you that Orochimaru will try his best to stay by my side, right?"

"In what capacity?" Orochimaru questioned her.

Haruko was speechless after being asked this question, and at the same time she kept asking herself, what kind of identity could she have to keep him here?

At first, they were friends, hoping that he could stay in Konoha and not go down the same path; for a moment, she became an enemy, hoping in her heart that they would never stand on opposite sides; later, the identity of friendship was tainted with pity, and it was no longer the same.

Feeling the pain and fear he suppressed himself, she just wanted to be with him.

Is this love?

Haruko couldn't be sure of this subtle change, but she didn't need to be sure.

She knew that what Orochimaru wanted to hear about was not these, but precisely the promises that she could not give as she was leaving eventually.

Now...what identity can she use to keep him here?

As if he was getting angry at her for not wanting to admit anything, Orochimaru clenched his teeth, his irritable mood agitating his nerves and he began to speak without thinking.

"Why not just defect from the village, abandon the moral bottom line you set for me, capture some living bodies to speed up the experiment? As long as we can achieve immortality, we can discuss it for lifetime after lifetime!"

His paranoid words made Haruko's face turn cold. An arrogant and tense atmosphere surged around them, and neither of them stared at each other's eyes, showing no weakness.

"Put your hand out!"

Haruko walked up to him without saying a word, pulled out his left hand, and directly used the white thread to tear the thick bandage in one go.

Looking at the old and new inscriptions that were oozing blood, Haruko's face grew even darker.

Even though she had reappeared by his side, he still felt insecure and kept rehabilitating his wounds, as if he wanted to mutter the word "Haruko" deeply into his life.

Haruko held his wrist tightly with one hand and engraved words with the other hand, emitting a bright green light.

Realizing her intention to fully recover from her injuries, Orochimaru struggled to break free in fear, "No! How could you!"

Orochimaru wanted to retract his hand, but found that Haruko was extremely strong at this moment. She glared at him with suppressed anger, and instantly froze Orochimaru in place.

"Orochimaru, look at me!" Haruko roared, "I can't ease your fear of death because I am the culprit."

"But I hope you won't be trapped here by me. Death is meaningful to me! If my death can bring happiness to everyone, I think nothing is more worthwhile than this!"

"You should support my life choice, whether it is the past or the future, just as I support you, whether it is eternal life or just going with the flow, because that is your life choice!"

"But you can't... you can't let yourself live in the pain and anxiety caused by me. I will hate myself..."

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Gratitude list as of July 2024, 4:

grateful--

Yuansheng starts sending reminder token x2

The fire of Tianya City sent a reminder talisman, a thumbs up, and flowers x3

The reminder letter sent by K

Flowers from zimeng x2

Chinese people are great:-), Liang Hong who loves spicy potato strips, it's Xiaoyu not Xiaoyu, Mo Wentian who loves red bean jelly, cat who loves to eat ^o^, early summer. Starry sky, Pinellia SS, Qian Huiyue, Hong Yi Saigao, yam cake stuffed with jujube paste, Kuisen sauce A, Wang Yunchuan who likes big scales and sea hedgehogs, Xuanchun, purple potato porridge., Jin Xiula from Nanning, Xi Beibei the rabbit, Xianchajun, Yuanjianniao, Nian Ziyi, Sprite-flavored pig, Fufufu Ningna sent to generate electricity for love

Thank you for the gift! The author is so touched! Orochimaru smiled evilly and seduced (???w?′?)