I, who was determined to stay in Naruto, became the white moonlight

"If a person possessed by Shukaku falls asleep, his personality will be gradually devoured by Shukaku, and sooner or later he will lose himself. Because he can hardly sleep at ordinary times, the personality of the psychic sometimes becomes unstable." Boss Toad explained.

Gaara on the opposite side was also constantly moving, and he quickly formed a seal.

Boss Toad continued, "But if the medium falls asleep, Shukaku will wake up."

Just as Gama Boss finished his words, Gaara successfully performed the "Sleeping Technique" and fell into a deep sleep, and the real Shukaku was awakened.

"Hahahaha, I finally got out!"

Haruko felt that things were starting to get bad, so she quickly shouted to Uzumaki Naruto, "Naruto, let me go up too!"

"But..." Uzumaki Naruto was a little hesitant. He didn't want Haruko to be involved in the battle.

"Don't say but! Hurry and pick me up before that Totoro makes a move!"

At the urging of Haruko Asagao, Naruto Uzumaki signaled to Gama Boss to pick up Haruko Asagao with his hands and put him on his head.

"This little sister is very well behaved." The Toad Boss commented.

The Toad on Naruto Uzumaki's head raised his little finger and said, "Dad, she's Naruto's!"

"Hey! Stop talking nonsense!" Uzumaki Naruto became angry and embarrassed.

In the morning, Haruko had no time to pay attention to them. She was staring at Gaara who was hunched over.

"Mr. Toad, what should we do now?"

The Toad Boss obviously enjoyed her address, and replied in a completely different and kind voice from the one he gave to Uzumaki Naruto: "Little sister, go wake up the sleeping brat first."

"How can we wake him up?" Uzumaki Naruto asked.

"Just hit that kid with one punch." The Toad Boss still exposed his own unreasonableness.

“……” Haruko Hayama thought it was a bit violent, but for her who had just been cheated, this was a good idea.

While Uzumaki Naruto and Gama Boss transformed into the Nine-tailed Demon Fox and controlled Shukaku, Haruko Asahi and Uzumaki Naruto jumped up and jumped onto Shukaku's head.

Uzumaki Naruto punched Gaara without mercy, waking him up from his doze.

Gaara woke up and was furious. He immediately controlled the sand and swept up Uzumaki Naruto.

"You will be killed by me, but my existence will not disappear!"

Snapped!

Gaara had just been punched on the right cheek by Uzumaki Naruto, and now, he was slapped on the left cheek by Hayama Haruko.

"Are you awake?"

Gaara turned his head towards her after being hit, with an incredulous expression as if saying "How could it be you who hit me?"

It was rare for Haruko to look at Gaara so seriously in the morning.

"I didn't believe it was you at first, but I didn't expect... Gaara, why would you do such a thing?"

Hearing her call him "Gaara" mercilessly, Gaara's mind suddenly became even more unstable.

He held his head in pain, "I exist to kill people other than myself... I am a monster!"

Seeing that Shukaku was about to get agitated again due to Gaara's loss of control, Haruko Asahi quickly held up Gaara's head.

"Excuse me, let me see what you are suffering from!"

Haruko Asagumi and Gaara face each other. Under the operation of the flower god's phantom eyes, Haruko Asagumi enters an illusion constructed based on Gaara's subconscious mind.

[What is love?]

[My family is nothing but a lump of flesh filled with hatred and murderous intent...]

Young Gaara sat on the swing and watched other children playing in the distance.

[I was created based on my mother's life. Because of the automatic attack of sand, others dare not approach me.]

Once again scaring away the playing children, Gaara held the ball tightly in his hands, and couldn't help feeling furious in his heart.

[But... there was a person who approached me, talked to me, played with me, and even made intimate gestures towards me.]

Gaara stood there shyly, letting the young Haruko wipe the sweat off his face.

[Even though I hurt her, she still stood by me. She was the first friend I made. She said she liked me very much, she said she hoped I could love myself, and she said she would come to find me when she grew up.]

In the morning light, Gaara reluctantly parted with Zaoma Haruko.

[Her eyes fascinated me. There was no fear or disgust, only... cherishment.]

After Gaara adjusted his mood, he returned home and asked Yashamaru, "Haruko was injured...I hurt her. She was obviously injured, but why does my chest hurt so much?"

Yashamaru was surprised for a moment, then squatted down and comforted him: "Lord Gaara, the wounds on the body will fade with the passage of time, but the wounds in the heart will only get deeper and deeper. Lord Gaara is worried about your friend."

Gaara asked frustratedly, "Then how can I heal the wounds in my heart?"

"There is something that can, but this medicine is very troublesome and can only be obtained from others. That is affection."

"emotion?"

"Emotions are about wanting to devote oneself to the people around you that one loves, just like my sister. Shukaku Sandtaki was originally a creature that existed to attack, and the sand will automatically protect Gaara-sama - it is the love of a mother. I think the sand is full of your mother's will."

Gaara was shocked but also happy, "Really?"

fake.

[From the time I was six years old until now, I have been assassinated many times by my own father. If you are too powerful, you will become a terrifying existence.]

In the dark night, Gaara killed another ninja who attempted to assassinate him, but when he stepped forward and took off the ninja's mask, he found that it was actually Yashamaru.

He was his uncle, Yashamaru, who had always been by his side, comforting him and encouraging him.

"Why..." Tears welled up in Gaara's eyes.

"Because I hate you. I deeply hate you for killing my sister."

"Your name was given to you by your sister, Gaara. A Shura who only loves himself and fights only for himself. This way, you can continue to exist."

"The name is filled with such a wish, but my sister didn't give you this name because she loves you. She hopes that you will continue to exist because you hate this village and curse your dead sister."

[Then why do I exist?]

[Every time I think about this, I can't find the answer, but as long as I'm alive I need a reason, otherwise it's no different from being dead.]

[So I came to this conclusion - I exist to kill people other than myself.]

[Fight only for yourself, love only yourself.]

"Little Love!"

The image of Haruko running towards him with a bright smile in the morning appeared in his mind.

[My mother doesn’t love me, my father doesn’t love me, Yashamaru doesn’t love me… The only one who loves me is Haruko.]

For six years, Gaara relied on the original photo to support himself and became stronger, and finally went to Konoha in the joint Chunin selection exam of various countries.

"Haruko... my Haruko... I can finally see you..."

However, when Gaara looked at Haruko Hayama who was surrounded by people, he felt the same pain in his chest as when Yashamaru died.

[You are all I have left, so... you can't betray me! You can't leave me! You can't let anyone else take you away!]

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