Siheyuan: I just want to live

After Jin Ming left, Chen Feng turned around and went upstairs slowly with heavy steps.

Jin Ling looked at Chen Feng's back as he went upstairs, with a very complicated look in her eyes. Then she regained her composure and led the child to follow him upstairs.

After Jin Ling went upstairs, she saw Chen Feng lying quietly on the bed with his eyes closed, as if he was resting.

She looked at him silently, with a lot of thoughts in her mind, but in the end she said nothing.

As usual, Jin Ling gently put the children on bed and coaxed them to sleep tenderly.

Although Jin Ling's actions today were no different from before, she could not conceal the hint of sadness between her brows, as if there was a dark cloud covering her heart that would not go away.

Chen Feng naturally noticed this, but today he chose to turn a blind eye and pretend not to know.

Perhaps it was because of what happened today, or perhaps for other reasons, that he could no longer care about Jin Ling's feelings.

Time passed minute by minute, and Jin Ling finally succeeded in coaxing the children to sleep.

She sighed softly, then she gently took off her coat, lay down on the bed, and prepared to go to bed.

But after Jin Ling lay down, she couldn't fall asleep. Her mind was full of Chen Feng's words just now and the choice Jin Ming would give tomorrow.

She thought about various possibilities over and over again. If Jin Ming chose to continue going to school tomorrow, what would Chen Feng do?

Will he support Jin Ming's decision and help him achieve his academic goals?

Perhaps Chen Feng would encourage Jin Ming to study hard, provide financial and spiritual support, and find a good school for Jin Ming so that Jin Ming can concentrate on pursuing knowledge.

In this way, Jin Ming will have the opportunity to receive a higher level of education, broaden his horizons, and achieve good achievements in the future.

However, if Jin Ming chooses to work in a factory, what kind of position might Chen Feng arrange for him?

Perhaps Chen Feng will find a suitable position for Jin Ming based on his abilities and interests.

In this way, Jin Ming can accumulate experience through practice, improve his skills, gradually grow up, and become a talent useful to the country and the factory.

Now no matter which option he chooses, Jin Ming needs to make the decision himself, and no one else can choose for him.

As Jin Ming's brother-in-law, Jin Ling believed that Chen Feng respected Jin Ming's wishes and was willing to help Jin Ming.

Jin Ling lay in bed, her thoughts drifting away. She couldn't help but think of her life over the past twenty years, which was also full of choices.

She hopes that Jin Ming can make a wise choice this time and not regret her decision. After all, this choice may affect Jin Ming's life.

Jin Ling tossed and turned in bed, unable to fall asleep. Various images and thoughts kept appearing in her mind, making her feel upset.

Chen Feng, who was sleeping beside him, also had trouble falling asleep. However, unlike Jin Ling, he was not suffering from insomnia because he was worried about Jin Ming, but because he was disturbed by Jin Ling's constant tossing and turning beside him.

Every time Jin Ling turned over, the bed would creak, which made it even harder for Chen Feng to fall asleep. He sighed helplessly, thinking that this night would be difficult.

Just like Chen Feng and his wife, Jin Ming who was in the next room also had trouble falling asleep.

At this time, Jin Ming was lying on the bed, looking at the dark roof with empty eyes, and his mind kept recalling every word Chen Feng had just said to him.

He knew that everything Chen Feng said was real. Even if those things had not happened yet, they would definitely become a reality in the near future.

At the same time, he also firmly believed that no matter what decision he ultimately made, his brother-in-law would support him unreservedly.

However, even though he already understood these principles in his heart, when Jin Ming really needed to make a decision, he fell into endless confusion and was at a loss.

This is the first time that Jin Ming has done this. In the past, Jin Ling and Chen Feng had arranged everything for Jin Ming. Jin Ming didn't need to worry about these things at all. He just needed to follow the arrangements.

But this requires him to make this decision himself, which makes Jin Ming difficult to choose.

Time passed minute by minute, but Jin Ming still couldn't fall asleep. He could only keep his eyes wide open and stare at the dark roof above his head.

Although his eyes were tired, his mind was extremely clear and he had no feeling of sleep.

In this long and silent night, Jin Ming seemed to have forgotten to blink. He just stared upward silently, letting his thoughts gradually empty.

When the morning light first appeared and the sunlight poured into the room through the window, Jin Ming still maintained that posture, as if he had become one with the bed.

However, the early morning bird sounds and Chen Feng's voice calling him to have breakfast broke the tranquility.

Finally, Jin Ming came to his senses and realized that a night had passed and a new day had arrived.

Hearing Chen Feng's call, Jin Ming slowly got up, walked out of the room, and came to the next room.

At this time, Chen Feng and Jin Ling were already sitting at the table, waiting for breakfast to start. Seeing Jin Ming appear, Jin Ming looked at Chen Feng and said, "Brother-in-law, I..."

But before he could finish his words, he was interrupted by Chen Feng. Chen Feng smiled slightly, signaled him to be patient, and said: "Okay, we can talk after breakfast."

When Jin Ming heard Chen Feng's words, he nodded obediently, sat down quietly, and started eating breakfast.

Time passed quickly and breakfast was soon finished. Jin Ling quickly cleaned up the dishes on the table and turned into the kitchen.

As a result, only Jin Ming and Chen Feng were left in the main room, and the atmosphere around them became a little solemn.

Just as Jin Ming was still struggling with how to start, Chen Feng suddenly raised his head, looked at Jin Ming and asked, "Did you not sleep last night?"

Although Chen Feng could guess from the dark circles under Jin Ming's eyes that he did not get enough rest last night, he still chose to take the initiative to bring up this topic, trying to break the current slightly dull atmosphere.

Hearing Chen Feng's words, Jin Ming nodded vigorously and replied firmly: "Yes! Brother-in-law, I didn't sleep all night last night. My mind was full of what happened yesterday. I kept thinking about what choice I should make."

Chen Feng looked at Jin Ming and nodded slightly to show his understanding. He then asked, "So, have you figured it out? If not, you can spend more time to think it over carefully. We still have enough time. There is no need to rush."

Jin Ming looked at Chen Feng firmly and shook his head slightly, indicating that he didn't need more time to think, he said.

"Brother-in-law, thank you for your advice, but I have thought it through clearly and there is no need to hesitate any longer."

Chen Feng nodded with satisfaction, and then asked: "In that case, can you tell me what decision you finally made?"

Jin Ming took a deep breath and said seriously: "Brother-in-law, after careful consideration, I decided to give up continuing to study in high school and directly enter the factory to become a worker, and contribute my own strength to the construction of the country with practical actions!"

After Jin Ming said this, the big stone in his heart finally fell to the ground and he felt relieved.

A long-lost smile appeared on his face, as if the sunshine penetrated the clouds and sprinkled on the earth.

The originally heavy mood gradually dissipated, replaced by a sense of relaxation and joy.

Chen Feng, who was sitting next to him, listened to Jin Ming's words quietly, without showing much surprise or dissatisfaction on his face.

For Chen Feng, no matter what choice Jin Ming makes, he will give support and help.

So, he stood up and said that whatever Jin Ming chose would be acceptable, because no matter what Jin Ming chose, Chen Feng would work hard to help him realize his dream.

However, when Chen Feng heard Jin Ming say that she didn't want to go to school, he couldn't help but confirm with Jin Ming again.

"Are you really sure you want to do this? Don't you consider other possibilities? After all, going to school may bring you more opportunities and room for development."

Jin Ming looked at Chen Feng, a hint of determination flashed in his eyes, and he nodded vigorously, indicating that he had made up his mind.

He took a deep breath, and then said in a stronger tone: "Yes, I have made up my mind! I will not go to high school, I will go to the factory to work as a worker! This is my choice, and I will not change it!"

After saying that, Jin Ming clenched his fists tightly, as if to cheer himself up.

Chen Feng looked at Jin Ming and knew very well that he seemed to have made up his mind not to go to school anymore.

So, Chen Feng nodded gently, showing his understanding and acceptance, and said at the same time: "Okay, I understand. Regarding your work, I will help you make proper arrangements."

Then, Chen Feng looked at Jin Ming carefully again, with a hint of concern in his eyes. He said softly.

"Okay, go back and have a good rest! You just didn't sleep for one night, but you have such obvious dark circles under your eyes. What will you do if you have to work overtime in the factory in the future!"

Hearing Chen Feng say this, Jin Ming couldn't help but feel a little surprised. He subconsciously reached out and touched his eyes, and asked doubtfully: "Really?"

He didn't seem to be too aware of his condition after staying up late, and Jin Ming himself felt that his body was in good condition.

Chen Feng looked at Jin Ming's actions, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and he explained with a smile: "Yes, look at yourself in the mirror, the circles under your eyes are as dark as a panda. Go and have a rest, and rest up enough before talking about other things."

Seeing that Chen Feng said this, Jin Ming said no more. He stood up, stretched, yawned, and said to Chen Feng.

"Brother-in-law, I'm going to go back and catch up on my sleep! I didn't sleep last night, and now that you've reminded me, I'm really sleepy too!"

After saying that, he rubbed his eyes, looking very sleepy.

Chen Feng looked at Jin Ming's appearance, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, revealing a smile, then nodded, and said to Jin Ming, "Well! Go back! Have a good rest!"

He could see that Jin Ming was indeed very tired and needed to adjust his condition.