Be in low spirits

Fu Yan took off his glasses and looked at this colleague he used to know. He looked completely different, with gray hair and a thin body. He suddenly looked old. He used to feel that he had lived a miserable life, but now looking at him, he felt that everything was relieved.

Based on the clues provided by Fu Yan, the Liu family and the old man were caught in one fell swoop, and his identity was restored.

Li Li sold the house where his parents lived and gave the money to Kong Jianping, saying that the money originally belonged to Zhixi and the house was originally in her name, but he didn't want to touch her things, so he could only exchange it for the old one.

Although the evaluation report has been passed, his mental state is still very bad here at Xuyuan, and the leader has not approved his application to return to the team.

He sat in the room, looking at the sky outside the window. The pain in his body was getting worse, and the drawer of the bedside table was full of painkillers. He never let anyone step into this room, not even his parents. The furnishings in the room were still arranged the same way when Kong Zhixi was alive, even the direction of the hairpins had never changed.

For more than a year, he always hoped that she would come to him in his dreams, but he could never sleep for long. He woke up from time to time in the middle of the night and sat on the bed for a long time without falling asleep. His longing for her became more and more intense.

Xu Yuan received a call from Dr. Jiang, who asked her about Li Li's mental state. She was worried that his physical condition would worsen due to the sharp deterioration of his mental condition.

Xu Yuan called him but no one answered, so she had to buy some fruit and visit him at his home. She was received by Li's father and mother, and explained the situation to them, hoping that they could persuade him to go to the hospital for a check-up. The two old people nodded in agreement, and after seeing her off, they stood at the door for a long time, and just said, "Xiao Li, come out for dinner."

Just after Xu Yuan left, Fu Yan brought Fu Xinqi over. Father Li shook his head at him and let them in.

Fu Xinqi stood at the door and asked innocently, "Dad, isn't the police sister coming back?"

The three adults became nervous and covered the child's mouth to stop him from talking. The door was opened, Li Li looked at them and said calmly: "Let's eat." The door was closed, and Fu Xinqi suddenly sat on the ground and cried: "Dad, why can't the police sister come back? I miss her."

Fu Yan picked him up and kept apologizing. Li Li stepped forward to comfort him: "She will come back. Qiqi is obedient and she will come back." The three of them looked at him in shock, thinking that he was finally willing to accept the fact. Li's father said: "Xiao Li, that doctor Jiang said..."

"I'm fine, Dad. I'll go see him tomorrow. Let's have dinner." He recovered too calmly, and Mother Li was a little scared.

There were some home-cooked dishes on the table, including the spare ribs that Kong Zhixi liked in the past, but they were not made by him. He said to his mother, "Mom, don't make spare ribs in the future." After that, he poured the spare ribs into the trash can and picked up the chopsticks to eat.

He did go to see Dr. Jiang the next day. He looked at the film and saw that the condition had deteriorated as he had expected. "If this continues, you may need surgery. I suggest you adjust your mood first." He knew that heart disease still needs to be treated with heart medicine.

"It doesn't matter. The worst time hasn't come yet. It won't be too late for me to decide on the surgery when the time comes." This time he was calm for a long time, like a normal person.

More than half a year later, Xu Yuan conducted another psychological evaluation on him, and it seemed that he was ready to return to the team.

"This time is much better than the first half of the year. I have reported to the Municipal Bureau and may be able to return to the team next week." She was also very happy.

"Thank you, Dr. Xu." Over the past six months, he had become numb. During the day, he tried his best to avoid all memories of Kong Zhixi. Only when he returned to his room at night, he would wipe every item related to her in the room over and over again.

"Captain Li, Doctor Jiang called me... Look at you..."

"I've looked for him, and he's fine." He actually hoped that something was wrong.

"Well... Actually, if it's a broken heart, there are faster and better ways to heal it, don't you think?" Xu Yuan pulled his wrist, thinking that maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to tell him about it.

He looked at her hand and wanted to push it away immediately, but then he remembered that he would need her report to return to the team, so he politely pushed it away: "Doctor Xu, you may have misunderstood. No one can replace my wife in my heart forever." After saying that, he walked away, walked out of the building, took out a wet tissue and wiped his wrist.

Xu Yuan stood at the door of the office and whispered, "I have never thought about replacing her." The nurse came in and said to her, "Doctor Xu, Doctor Jiang is here and he wants to see you."

"Doctor Jiang? Let him in." Doctor Jiang came at this time. Could it be that something happened to Li Li's health?

"Doctor Xu, do you think Captain Li's mental state has returned to normal?" He seemed a little anxious.

"At the moment, it's much better than a year ago." She felt that given his condition, there should be no problem for him to return to the team.

Doctor Jiang used to think that any disease can be cured by scientific means, but Captain Li's illness is almost entirely determined by his mood. "But today I asked Professor Lin from the hospital to look at his films, and it is very likely that he has cancer. When Mrs. Li was alive, she brought him to me for reexaminations twice, and at that time there was no nodule. Now the development trend is really too fast."

"You mean he's pretending to be like this?"

"It's hard to say, this is just my guess."

"Mood does have an impact, but it's unlikely to have a complete influence, right?" As a psychologist, she knows that mood is very important in the treatment of the disease.

"That's why I wanted to discuss it with you." Dr. Jiang had never seen this kind of prototype before and felt that it might be worth analyzing, especially since it was a surgical prototype.

Fu Yan was unable to contact Li Li again, so he had to drive to the cemetery to find him. Sure enough, he was there. "Old Li, she doesn't want to see you like this, so why bother?"

"Doctor Xu said I can return to the team next week. I just came to talk to her." The bottle of wine fell beside him.

"We must always look forward. I know it's difficult, but you also have to think about your parents, right?" Fu Yan felt a little disappointed.

There was no emotion on his face, he looked numb. "They are doing OK."

"I entrusted Qiqi to her before. Now that she is gone, shouldn't you take care of her for her?" He has also experienced such a time, but fortunately he still has a child to take care of, so he doesn't have to go through the same thing as him.

"I want to meet Liu Jiaheng. Can it be arranged?" He drank the last sip of wine in the bottle.

"You will be back next week, right? Just go by yourself then." He looked at the bottles of wine behind him, not a single bottle left. "She still lets you drink?"

"The pain of the old wound is unbearable." If she were still alive, he wouldn't have to drink.

"It's been two years. It's time to return to the team." He said with some emotion. Two years have passed unknowingly.

"Two years. The child should be over one year old. Should he be able to walk?" He had never raised a child before and was not sure when they should be able to do anything.

"Didn't you say you've accepted the fact?" He had seen his zombie behavior over the past two years. If he looked in the mirror before going out one day, it meant he was going to see his wife.

"I don't know how she managed to get through it. She had to take care of the child and stay in confinement by herself." As he spoke, his eyes began to redden again. He thought he didn't need to pretend in front of him.

"Hey, Lao Li, you were never like this before. I remember when you set your eyes on her, you wondered if you were possessed by a ghost?"

"Yeah, at that time I thought it was an occupational disease and I just suspected her. The more I investigated, the more I felt that I was possessed by the devil and wanted to find an excuse to talk to her." Looking back on the past, he still felt that he was ridiculous.

"When Xiao Zhao first joined the team, you often scolded her and she cried, and I never saw you comfort her. But when you mention Kong Zhixi, your ears perk up."

"How do you know? When Xiao Zhao joined the team, you had already cut off contact with us." When talking about the past, he seemed to feel better.

"I heard from Uncle Jia that you have scolded everyone in the team except that Xiao Kong who was seconded here. Whenever she talks to you, you stutter and your brain short-circuits."

"Yeah, I didn't expect to see her in the team."

"Didn't you already know that she was Kong Suo's daughter?"

"Before she became a police officer, I found an excuse to go to Kong's house for dinner. I haven't seen her many times. Her sister said she rented a house outside."