Siheyuan: Crossing the two worlds, if you don't obey, you will be a beast

However, I know clearly in my heart that if I cannot rely on my perseverance and endurance far beyond that of an ordinary person to firmly guard this fragile and shaky spiritual defense line, then all the efforts and hard work I have put in will disappear like a dream bubble, and all the results will be wasted! Therefore, no matter what difficulties and obstacles I face, I must grit my teeth and do my best to persevere...

In this way, I endured the pain and fatigue in my body, dragged my heavy body that seemed to be ruthlessly crushed by a heavy burden, and took trembling steps. At this moment, my legs seemed to be filled with heavy lead blocks, and every time I raised my legs and took a step, it seemed extremely laborious and slow. Every tiny step forward was a thrilling and arduous life-and-death battle for me, because every step forward required me to exhaust all the remaining strength and the little courage I had left.

The road under my feet is long and rugged, like a journey without end. I can't see where the end is at a glance. I am struggling on this road in a daze and helplessness. As for what is waiting for me ahead, I know nothing about it. My heart is full of confusion and anxiety. Maybe it is a turn for the better, or a deeper and more dangerous predicament, but I have no time to care too much. I can only bite the bullet and walk step by step, hoping to get out of this foggy and dark place as soon as possible.

Not only that, I was willing to give up my originally not-so-outstanding identity and extremely low status. At this moment, I seemed to be an extremely small and insignificant speck of dust in the vast universe, so humble that I had reached the extreme. I was seen with a flattering look on my face, lowering my eyebrows and looking down, deliberately putting on a pitiful look of groveling and begging for mercy. I took a deep breath, then mustered up great courage, and in a soft and trembling tone that was almost like begging, I trembled and carefully told the people around me about the various unspeakable pains hidden in the deepest part of my heart.

I begged them with all my strength, begging them to be merciful, even if they only showed a little sympathy or pity! My heart and eyes were filled with eager expectations, and I longed for them to have a broad mind and tolerance, to raise their noble hands high, and generously forgive the mistake I made this time.

At the same moment, a burning flame ignited in my heart, and I eagerly hoped that they could lend me a helping hand. Even if the help was only a tiny bit, it would make me feel happy and grateful from the bottom of my heart!

You must know clearly that even such insignificant and fleeting help is likely to become a vital life-saving straw for me who is trapped in such a difficult and arduous situation. Perhaps it is precisely relying on this little bit of seemingly small but powerful support and encouragement that I have enough courage and confidence to successfully overcome the layers of difficulties and obstacles ahead, and finally step into the beautiful and fascinating place like a paradise - there is always light after darkness.

Even if I have to bear an unimaginably heavy and painful price in order to obtain this hard-earned assistance, I will never have even a little hesitation or retreat in my heart. Because I deeply understand that if I want to completely break free from the suffocating predicament I am in, then making some necessary sacrifices is naturally inevitable.

However, my heart, which has been burning with the flame of passion from the beginning to the end, is strong enough to give me endless motivation and courage, allowing me to face and accept any severe challenge without hesitation, forge ahead and without looking back.

Oh my, when I saw with my own eyes the light of hope that suddenly broke through the dark sky like a flash of lightning, the joy in my heart was simply indescribable. I was so happy that I couldn't help myself! I guess the merciful God must have been deeply touched by the perseverance, tenacity and unyielding willpower shown by me.

Perhaps it was the eyes of God that saw through everything in the world, and witnessed my tenacious struggle and perseverance in the face of numerous difficulties, that finally moved my heart, and cast my eyes full of love and warmth, like the warm spring sun, gently on the body of a lonely person like me. At this moment, I felt that all my long-term persistence and unremitting efforts had been rewarded, and all the hardships and pains I had suffered before were now gradually dissipated into the invisible like the morning mist.

Whenever my thoughts drift back to the storms I have experienced, the peaceful lake deep in my heart will be like countless pebbles thrown into it, and it will no longer be able to remain calm. Circles and layers of ripples continue to spread in the lake of my heart, one after another. The surging torrent of emotions is roaring in my heart without any scruples, and all kinds of chaotic and complicated thoughts are like the sea water at high tide, which makes people sigh with endless emotion!

Thinking back to the past, during that extremely long and extremely difficult and arduous period, I seemed to have turned into a precision machine that never knew what fatigue was. I worked day and night and refused to stop for a moment.

Every minute and every second is as precious as a rare treasure. I know that time flies, so I must seize this fleeting time and never dare to be negligent or lazy. Working hard day and night, rain or shine, has long become the norm in my life. It is not surprising that I am so busy that I forget to eat and sleep.

Those brief moments were like shooting stars across the sky, fleeting; and every blink of an eye was like a fleeting moment, gone in a flash. However, for me, these insignificant moments were all extremely harsh trials and tests. In this difficult journey, it can be said that there were countless difficulties and obstacles, as well as layers of seemingly unattainable and insurmountable difficulties.

However, no matter how soul-stirring, earth-shattering and heavy the blow was, or how much hardship, suffering and torture I endured, I never had the slightest thought of giving up easily.

The reason is not complicated. In the deepest part of my soul, there has always been a ball of fiery flames that surges and gushes out like a volcano erupting. It jumps and burns fiercely, emitting endless light and heat, and will never stop. It is this ball of never-extinguished flame that gives me endless strength and courage, allowing me to move forward bravely and face all difficulties and challenges without hesitation.