When the prince is reborn, he will only hit me if he doesn't hit the wall!

Qin Yuechuan lowered his head, clenched his five fingers into fists, bent slightly, leaned on the large desk where he usually worked, and turned his back to her.

The mountain-like back actually had a hint of decadence.

Xu Xinyue walked in slowly and said softly, "Qin Yuechuan, I, I have something to tell you."

Qin Yuechuan's breathing was disordered. He didn't know what expression to use when facing Xu Xinyue. He didn't turn around and just said, "Yueyue, I'm busy with some official business today. Why don't we talk about it another day? You go back first, okay?"

He was panicking, fearing that what Xu Xinyue was talking about was something he could not accept - breaking off the engagement.

Zhang Bo said that she had asked him if he could change the imperial decree granting the marriage, but if she had not changed her mind, why would she need to change the imperial decree...

Xu Xinyue refused to give in and said stubbornly, "It won't take up much of your time, really."

"But, Yueyue, I don't want to listen now. I really don't want to listen."

He was on the verge of collapse. He was too ashamed to face Xu Xinyue. He begged in a trembling voice, almost crying: "Yueyue, I, really don't want to..."

Xu Xinyue noticed that something was wrong with his condition and wanted to move closer to check. She took a step forward and stretched out her hand, wanting to touch Qin Yuechuan first, but he dodged quickly and walked quickly to the side of the table, trying to suppress her breathing and emotions.

Seeing him like this, Xu Xinyue knew that the first priority at this moment was to appease him first. She casually placed the imperial edict on the table beside her, moved closer, and slowly turned to face him.

Qin Yuechuan didn't want to expose his embarrassment in front of Xu Xinyue, so he turned his face away.

It was almost dark, and the light in the study was extremely dim.

Xu Xinyue still saw wet traces of water sliding down his cheeks.

Qin Yuechuan cried.

She had never seen him cry so sadly. He pursed his lips, trying his best to hold back his tears, and his tears fell silently.

Xu Xinyue sighed inwardly and climbed onto his shoulders to wipe his tears.

Qin Yuechuan turned his head away stubbornly, refusing to face her.

"Qin Yuechuan, can you lower your head?"

"Don't you listen to me?"

Xu Xinyue forcefully turned his head, climbed onto his neck, and forced him to look into her eyes.

Seeing his tear-stained face, my heart couldn't help but feel sad.

"Your eyes are fine, you can't do this..."

Xu Xinyue murmured softly.

She stood on tiptoe, her cheek against his, imitating the movements Qin Yuechuan had made to comfort her in the past, and used her lips to wipe away the traces of tears that remained on his face bit by bit.

The soft touch, from the corners of the eyes to the cheeks, until every inch of skin was covered with her delicate and dense kisses.

Until Xu Xinyue's lips covered his, Qin Yuechuan's eyes widened, still somewhat incredulous.

What is this, a parting kiss?

When he thought that he might never have the chance to taste the sweetness and beauty of today again, Qin Yuechuan couldn't help but hold her waist with his hands hanging by his sides. He closed his eyes and fought back fiercely like a madman.

He kissed her hard, aggressively, and endlessly.

He swallowed all her breath desperately, as if he wanted to use up all the chances of kissing her in his life at once.

Xu Xinyue found it difficult to withstand Qin Yuechuan's fierce attack like a storm and could only respond with difficulty.

She was weak to begin with, and she was shaky on tiptoe. Unable to maintain her strength, she gradually collapsed, and the arm that was around his neck also showed a tendency to slide down.

Qin Yuechuan could feel it.

He leaned over, his lips moving non-stop, and firmly held Xu Xinyue's waist, helping her to steady her body, and led her back step by step.

In his area, his study, he can find the direction accurately even with his eyes closed.

With a flick of his sleeves, he swept away all the objects on the large black lacquered table and placed Xu Xinyue on the table lightly.

At this moment, their positions were reversed. Xu Xinyue was sitting on the edge of the table. She was nearly half a head taller than him, but that did not prevent Qin Yuechuan from raising his head and kissing her freely.

Qin Yuechuan was still not satisfied.

He didn't let her hide, and didn't let her go easily because of her moans as he usually did. His bony hands ran through her dark and smooth hair, holding the back of her head, and holding her in place without any explanation, tossing and turning, not giving her any room to regret.

Even though Xu Xinyue was sitting on the table, she couldn't help but fall backwards due to exhaustion.

Qin Yuechuan leaned over with her until Xu Xinyue lay on her back on the table.

He held her in the tiny space between his arms, without reducing the strength of his lips, devouring all her tenderness.

For the first time, Xu Xinyue truly felt the disparity in power between the two. It turned out that as long as Qin Yuechuan used a little bit of strength on her, she would be unable to move.

In the past, she could stop all his strength with just a slight movement.

And now, Xu Xinyue pushed his chest with all her strength, but could not shake him at all. She could only continue to accept the kiss that could only be described as "demanding".

When she was with him, he was always extremely gentle to her. As time went by, she actually had some illusion that he was only gentle.

Qin Yuechuan didn't come back to his senses until the person in his arms' breath gradually weakened. Only then did he reluctantly end this one-sided "plunder".

Xu Xinyue's cheeks were flushed, her eyes were half-closed, her eyelashes were trembling, her lips were like rose petals filled with water, slightly red and swollen, she looked up at the person above her head.

She adjusted her breathing slightly, raised her eyes and whispered, "Can I tell you about my story now?"

There was a gleam of tears in Qin Yuechuan's eyes, probably because of his previous indulgence, which gave him some confidence.

He half-supported his arms, lowered his eyes to look at her, and took the lead to speak in a trembling voice:

"Yueyue, why don't you leave?"

"If you don't want to see me, don't want to hear my voice, I can never appear in front of you again."

Just a glance at her from a distance was enough.

"If you really can't stand living with me, I'll leave the palace and you can stay here, okay?"

Qin Yuechuan found it a little hard to imagine. If she left, the world was so vast, where should he go to find her?

If she stayed in the palace, she would still be in Kyoto and under his protection.

Although he still had the same gentle look as always and asked for her opinion, Xu Xinyue could feel that at this moment, he was like a black lily on the verge of withering, and was about to break with sadness.

Immediately said:

"I didn't want to leave."

"I met Xu Mingxi today, and she told me something."

The previous sentence lifted him to the top of the world.

The last sentence made him fall to the ground.

He had no way to defend himself. He could not deny that what Xu Mingxi said was false, nor did he know how to explain that everything he had done was not his original intention.

"She said that both you and she are new again."

"Yueyue, I did...but..."

He was speechless and didn't know what to say to make her feel a little more at ease. He had never realized before that he was so tongue-tied.

Xu Xinyue stroked his cheek with her five fingers, and couldn't help but blush:

"I understand. I understand everything."

Her heart was filled with a deep pain as if it were being eaten by thousands of ants.

"It is only today that I know that the reason you once liked her was because of me."

All the prepared excuses were easily covered up by Xu Xinyue's one sentence.

Qin Yuechuan looked at him in disbelief, almost thinking that he had heard it wrong.

"Yueyue, are you mad at me?"

"Yueyue, I told you before, if you are unhappy about something, you can hit me or scold me, and I will let you vent your anger. Don't hold it in your heart."

"If you still feel unsatisfied, I will accept it even if you stab me twice."

Xu Xinyue shook her head, "I have never been angry with you."

"But you, take——"

He tilted his head and saw that the bright yellow imperial edict had been swept to the ground by the wind from his palm, rolling and twisting.

Xu Xinyue followed his gaze and saw the scattered objects on the ground. Then she realized that he had misunderstood.

Did he think he was going to break off the engagement with him?

That's why he did such crazy things and said those words.

"I have never thought of breaking off the engagement with you, Qin Yuechuan."

"I took it just to tell you that I want to change the wedding date."

Qin Yuechuan murmured: "The wedding date - do you want to postpone it?"

"On the contrary, I want to be ahead of schedule."

She just wanted to change the time to the earliest one.

"No matter if it's warm and cozy, no matter if it's an auspicious day, I want to marry Qin Yuechuan as soon as possible."

"Even, hopefully—tomorrow."

Qin Yuechuan's mind was filled with bright and colorful lights. He had anticipated various outcomes, but this was the only one he had never thought of!

The sudden turn of events made him feel a little overwhelmed: "I thought that since you knew the truth, you would definitely want to separate from me."

He gritted his teeth and uttered the last two words, then rolled his Adam's apple and continued, "I once made Yueyue so heartbroken that she couldn't sleep all night and even had nightmares and convulsions... I..."

Xu Xinyue held back her tears and choked up:

"I am indeed heartbroken, but what hurts me even more is - why can those who squander their sincerity live freely without any burden, while those who blame others and whose sincerity is trampled on have to endure the pain and torture themselves for the rest of their lives because of wrong love?"

"Qin Yuechuan, it's not your fault that you love the wrong person. Be sincere in your feelings. Even if the person you are pursuing is not my shadow, and whether the person you love is me or not, you are not wrong."

"Besides, the love you give me is even more passionate and pure than the one you once gave to Xu Mingxi. You have done a great job."

Qin Yuechuan's eyes were filled with tears: "But I, I can't forgive myself for causing Yueyue to be lonely all her life because of the so-called 'wrong love'. If, if I... everything will be different..."

His voice was hoarse and a little aggrieved: "I originally wanted to be with Yueyue. I really only wanted to be with Yueyue."

Xu Xinyue shook her head: "Do you remember what I said before? If it's a misunderstanding, it must be the fault of both of us. If it's a miss, it's also the fault of both of us. It's my cowardice and self-righteousness that ultimately led to this ending for you and me."

She recalled what Anaro had said in the mountains. If she had half, no, one-tenth of Anaro's courage, would the outcome between them be completely different?

"Whether I want to be lonely or not, you are the reason, but the main reason is still me. I don't want to choose to compromise. Others except you are also compromised. This is my own choice."

Xu Xinyue touched his face lovingly: "Let it go, Qin Yuechuan, we have wasted our lives, shouldn't we cherish the hard-earned time now?"

"Or, do you want me to feel guilty for the rest of my life? Every time I see you in pain and sadness, I will remember that it was because of my weakness and cowardice that you ran to someone else. Your pain is also mine. Can you bear to see me so sad and guilty?"

Qin Yuechuan hurriedly shook his head: "No, no, Yueyue is not wrong! I never wanted to make Yueyue sad."

Xu Xinyue said with tears in her eyes: "Is that why you chose to hide it and bear everything alone?"

Qin Yuechuan's tears dripped onto her cheeks: "Yueyue has nightmares because of this. How can I bear to tell you that everything you've experienced has really happened. If you and I are destined to bear this pain, it's enough for me to bear it alone."

Sometimes he always felt that the heaven was unfair, wondering why it loved to smash him to pieces, and sometimes he felt that the heaven was fair to him, returning the treasure he had once missed to him.

Even if he had to endure some suffering for it, he would be happy to do so.

Xu Xinyue felt extremely distressed. If he wasn't in extreme pain, how could he have used such an extreme method to dissipate the pain in his heart with physical pain? She used her five fingers to wipe away his tears:

"Let's just start over, okay? Let's not talk about the past, let's just look at the future. Qin Yuechuan didn't fall in love with me because of our childhood, right?"

Qin Yuechuan just looked at her lovingly, neither agreeing nor refusing.

"Let it go, Qin Yuechuan. I don't want you to spend your whole life with me carrying all this. Please, I beg you, promise me..."

Xu Xinyue held his face, tears in her eyes, and asked persistently over and over again, as if she would keep asking if Qin Yuechuan couldn't answer.

She couldn't help but let her tears fall from the corners of her eyes and flow into her hair.

Finally, Qin Yuechuan touched his forehead with hers and said in a low voice, "Okay."

Xu Xinyue smiled with relief, climbed her arms around his neck again, and took the initiative to kiss his thin lips, imitating Qin Yuechuan's just-time, licking him clumsily and tenderly.

Qin Yuechuan placed his arm across her back, half lifted her up, and helped her get closer to him. Then he took the initiative and kissed her lips, eyebrows, forehead, and cheeks.

Xu Xinyue was unable to resist her kiss and raised her hand to block his thin lips, "...Enough, enough...Qin Yuechuan"

But the burning heat gushing out of her palm made her heart tremble.

The depths of Qin Yuechuan's eyes were filled with lust, and his dark pupils were filled with thick, indissoluble obsession and love. His breathing was heavy, and he said, "Yueyue, I feel so uncomfortable, can you help me?"

"But this is ..."

Seeing that she did not refuse directly, Qin Yuechuan picked her up and quickly moved to the small carved couch under the study window. He placed her on his lap and looked up at Xu Xinyue: "Please have mercy on me, Yueyue. I feel bad..."

He took her hand, rubbed his hot cheek against her cool palm, and begged her with his misty and charming eyes.

The sudden request made Xu Xinyue feel a little helpless. Her mind went blank and she didn't know what to do for a moment.

You can't be as direct as last time!

"What should I do now..."

Qin Yuechuan thought of the unfinished business that Xu Xinyue had done after she got drunk that night, and couldn't help but hold her hand, panting: "I'll teach Yueyue..."

He held Xu Xinyue's hand and touched her index finger to his forehead.

He guided her along her eyebrows, nose bones, lips, jaw, neck, and even to her protruding and tight Adam's apple...

Xu Xinyue seemed to understand. For some reason, her body moved ahead of her thoughts. She held up his face as if instinctively, and gave him a pious and gentle kiss on the forehead. She kissed him slowly and densely along the "route" Qin Yuechuan pointed out. Qin Yuechuan's breathing became increasingly short and unbearable.

The slender and powerful hands steadied her waist and pressed her back.

Until Xu Xinyue gave his Adam's apple a deep kiss as it rolled up and down.

The corners of his eyes suddenly turned bloodshot, and his body, as straight as a pine tree, couldn't help but tremble.

Xu Xinyue rubbed his Adam's apple more and more gently with her soft lips.

Qin Yuechuan's body trembled even more violently, and he couldn't help but let out an unbearable moan from his throat.

He seemed to be very happy and enjoying it.

"Yueyue...Yueyue..."

Xu Xianyue stood up upon hearing the voice and asked shyly and softly, "Am I doing the right thing?"

Qin Yuechuan's heart seemed to be completely soaked in honey.

So sweet, how could his Yueyue be so sweet? She is so cute and seductive.

Xu Xinyue's hand unconsciously continued to move down, and she suddenly remembered "collecting the corpse" in her dream. She saw the scars on his chest and other parts of his body caused by various punishments, his skin and flesh were torn, and it was a horrible sight.

She couldn't help but gently trace the shape through the fabric.

"It must have been painful. You were tortured then..."

"Here...here...and here..."

Those hideous wounds that she had seen in her dreams were actually suffered by Qin Yuechuan.

Thinking of this, her heart felt torn and sad as if she could relate to the person herself.

"It doesn't hurt. It doesn't hurt anymore."

"Liar."

Her eyes were misty, and she added, "I saw it in my dream, how could it not hurt?"

Qin Yuechuan just raised his neck and gently pressed the back of her head, "If Yueyue feels distressed, why not kiss me more..."

He embraced Xu Xinyue, who bowed her head slightly, with his lips.

The sky gradually darkened and the cold moonlight filtered through the window. Their shadows were cast on the ground like a pair of swans embracing each other.

They are close to each other, lingering and affectionate, with extreme tenderness.

The lingering cool moonlight seemed warm and hot at this moment.