I am cannon fodder, but I can hug thighs

Lin Jin felt as if she had gone deaf and could not hear any sound. She let go of her hands weakly.

"So...it was me, it was me who used up Sister Shi Xia's life-saving medicine..." Lin Jin felt dizzy and then fell to the side like a lifeless rag doll.

It was she who killed Sister Shi Xia.

If only she had died then.

Xunmian quickly caught Lin Jin and anxiously pinched her philtrum: "Girl! Girl!"

Lin Jin opened her eyes and stared at the sky with lifeless eyes, tears sliding down her eyes: "Xunmian, I, hurt my sister."

"No, it's not like that, young lady, don't think like that." Xun Mian hugged Lin Jin and cried bitterly. They had been with Lin Jin for so long and knew best how much Lin Jin wanted to save Song Shixia. "Don't think like that. It's God who doesn't want the second young lady to live. God wants to take the second young lady's life."

Lin Lin looked at Lin Jin and turned his face away cruelly: "Lin Jin, everyone will die eventually, why do you have to do this? We are just living a few decades longer than Song Er."

"I want her to be alive." Lin Jin felt pain in all her internal organs, "But I want her to be alive!"

Why can everyone be healthy except her sister Shi Xia?

Lin Jin forgot how she left the Lin Mansion. She only remembered that when Lin Lin looked at her, there seemed to be a sadness in his eyes that she couldn't understand, like regret. What was he regretting?

Does Lin Lin also care about her sister Shi Xia?

Yes, her sister Shi Xia is so good, she should be liked by everyone.

After Lin Jin returned to the Prime Minister's Mansion, he had been guarding Song Shixia. The light in his eyes seemed to be extinguished at this moment: "Sister Shixia, can I stay with you for the next few days?"

"I missed you so much. I was living outside at the time, and there were all kinds of noises at night. I was actually very scared."

Song Shixia touched Lin Jin's head and said, "Ajin has been wronged."

"I'm not wronged. I just miss you every day." Lin Jin took Song Shixia's hand and put it on her face. "Buddha is useless. It doesn't listen to my wishes and it won't save me."

Song Shixia touched Lin Jin's head and hugged her into her arms: "Ah Jin, do you know what your sister was thinking when she first saw you?"

She was wondering at the time why her sister was so thin. Her clear eyes were filled with sorrow. She felt as if she saw herself when she was younger.

So she wanted to be nice to Ajin, just like she was taking care of herself in the past. She felt that if she didn't have a brother, she would probably be the same as Ajin. So it didn't matter if Ajin had no one to protect her, she would just protect him in the future.

Later, as she watched her Ah Jin getting better little by little, she felt as if her heart had come alive. Her brother was too sharp and was deeply favored by the emperor. He had many people fawning on him and even more people who were jealous of him. If he made a mistake, what awaited her brother was that everyone would tear him apart and eat him.

She had to maintain a lukewarm, neither distant nor close relationship with many people.

But Ajin is different. There is no one behind Ajin, so she doesn’t have to worry about anything. She can even be Ajin’s backup. She thinks maybe this is God’s will.

God didn't want to see her suffer in her last days, so he let Ajin accompany her.

"Ajin, if you can live a peaceful and smooth life, I will have no regrets." Song Shixia patted Lin Jin's back gently, as if coaxing her sister to sleep, her voice gentle and soft, "It's just that you don't know how to take care of your body, which makes people worry."

"Why are you so stupid? Why did you leave everything to me? What would you have done?" Song Shixia looked at Lin Jin's tears, feeling distressed and blaming herself, "Ajin, you should be nicer to yourself."

Lin Jin cried in Song Shixia's arms and was speechless.

"Don't cry. It seems that Ajin hasn't told her sister her story yet." Song Shixia took a handkerchief to wipe Lin Jin's tears.

Song Shixia is known as the most talented woman, and people say that she has a very smart mind. She spends every day with Lin Jin, so how could she not notice things that other people could notice?

Her Ajin, perhaps came into this world with her own responsibilities.

"Sister Shi Xia." Lin Jin hugged her. Both of them were now thin and emaciated. One of them was crying inconsolably, while the other had tears in her eyes but she didn't let them fall.

Lin Jin stuttered as she told Song Shixia about her past, what kind of family she was born into and what she had experienced, but she concealed the fact that this was a book.

"Ajin suffered, she really suffered." Song Shixia didn't expect Lin Jin's life to be harder than she imagined. Compared with the physical torture, the suppression of willpower was more despairing. "I just listened and felt that you must have been very sad at that time, Ajin."

Lin Jin shook her head with tears in her eyes: "I felt sad before, but not now."

She wasn't sad. If it weren't for this, she wouldn't have met her best friend, and she wouldn't have met Song Shixia later.

The original book has more than 3 million words, why did she remember Song Shixia, a person whose description is less than 500 words in total? Is it because of the villain Song Shiqiu?

She remembered it because when she saw the description of Song Shixia, she felt that the person in the book must be very lonely, just like herself back then. She once had a thought that she really wanted to hug Song Shixia in the book.

Perhaps Song Shiqiu knew that the two of them had a lot to talk about, so he didn't come to disturb their time alone for two consecutive days.

Lin Jin fell asleep next to Song Shixia, holding Song Shixia's hand tightly, as if this would ensure that they would never be separated.

In the early morning, the rain that had been falling all night stopped. When the breeze came in with warm water, Lin Jin opened her eyes. She did not sleep well and would wake up at the slightest movement.

Lin Jin held Song Shixia's hand and felt a chill, which was different from the previous chills. It was a chill that did not belong to a living person.

She sat up suddenly, stretched out her trembling hand to push Song Shixia, who still had a smile on her lips, and cried out: "Sister Shixia?"

Qingfeng was about to tease Lin Jin, but when she heard this, she suddenly understood something and slammed the basin to the ground with a clang: "Girl!"

"Sister Shixia, you lied to me, didn't you? You said last night that you would teach me how to make river lanterns today. You must have been kidding me, right?" Lin Jin hugged Song Shixia's body and rubbed her face over and over again. "Are you angry at me for saying that I would not live if you died? I will never say that again. I beg you not to leave me..."

Lin Jin grabbed Song Shixia's hand. Song Shixia's hand had already stiffened, but she still forced her hand through Song Shixia's fingers and interlocked theirs.

"Sister Shi Xia, please don't abandon me. I will be obedient from now on. I will be obedient and listen to whatever you say." Lin Jin felt that she was almost out of breath and was shaking. "Sister, please speak quickly, please speak quickly, I'm crying like this, please help me wipe my tears, don't you love me the most?"

"I beg you, sister, please stop making trouble, okay? Please stop making trouble." Lin Jin burst into tears. The servants of Fuyun Courtyard knelt on the ground, crying softly.

When Song Shiqiu arrived, what he saw was Lin Jin, who was only in pajamas and sitting on the bed with Song Shixia in his arms with a dull look in his eyes. It was as if he had left with Song Shixia and was left with only an empty shell.

He took a deep breath, but this time he couldn't hold back his tears.

Lin Jin looked at his and Song Shixia's clasped hands and clenched them a little tighter. He suddenly felt that this world was meaningless, just like the previous world, meaningless at all.

She felt as if she saw Song Shixia's soul in a trance. She tilted her head and kissed the top of Song Shixia's head. Tears silently slid down and fell on their clasped hands.

Sister Shi Xia, please take me away, please.

Don't leave me, it's so boring without you.