I am cannon fodder, but I can hug thighs

A man’s infatuation can still be talked about, but a woman’s infatuation cannot be talked about.

Not everyone will change after falling in love, but not everyone can remain consistent. She doesn't know what she will become after falling in love, but she is afraid that she will become someone she doesn't recognize.

So she didn't dare to like anyone, even if that person was Song Shiqiu.

If she indulged in it, what would she do if Song Shiqiu changed one day in the future? If she could pick it up and let it go, then there would be nothing to be afraid of, but she was worried that she couldn't let it go.

"Sir, I'm timid, you know that." Lin Jin gave a very forced smile, "I'm always afraid of things that I'm not sure of. The future is unpredictable, so I don't dare to gamble."

She didn't dare to imagine herself becoming a person she didn't recognize, nor did she dare to imagine Song Shiqiu becoming a person she didn't recognize.

Song Shiqiu put the hairpin into Lin Jin's hand: "It's just a pair of hairpins, Jin, don't be afraid. If you don't dare, it means that I haven't done well enough for you to trust yourself to me."

Everything Lin Jin wanted to say turned into a sigh, as if she felt it was not worth it for Song Shiqiu.

"Song Shiqiu, you don't understand." Lin Jin didn't know how to explain her feelings. "You don't understand how cowardly I am. I worry about my feelings being betrayed, and I also worry about betraying other people's feelings. I can't easily accept the change and end of a relationship. I'm afraid of that kind of pain."

She is not someone who can easily let go of things, otherwise she would not have been tortured for so many years.

If you have never gained, you will have no loss, so she chose to escape and deceive herself from the beginning. If she had never had other feelings, even if Song Shiqiu fell in love with someone else one day in the future, she could face the separation calmly like she did with Jiang Tingxue.

"I'm very paranoid. Apart from requiring mutual affection, I don't allow anyone to share my lover. But here, I should be considered a jealous woman." This is the second point that Lin Jin dared not accept from Song Shiqiu.

"Ajin, I..."

Lin Jin interrupted Song Shiqiu, and then she came to the third point she wanted to say: "My lord, I don't believe in any vows of eternal love, because people change, and their hearts change even more easily. What's more, it's someone like you, my lord. I wonder why you like me."

"Of course, sir, you can say there is no reason. But the next question is, sir, you yourself don't know why you like me, is this feeling real? Is it really not an illusion caused by dopamine secretion disorder? If you tell me a reason, sir, I will think that there are so many women in the world. If you meet a similar person, will you feel the same way? Or, if I change one day in the future, will you no longer love me?"

Is this still love?

Lin Jin knew that this idea was twisted and not straightforward at all, but love has been a very complicated proposition since ancient times. You can explain it from any angle, but you can easily refute it if you look at it from another angle.

So most of the time people will not explain the proposition of love, because it has no standard answer.

But unfortunately, Lin Jin is just twisted to this point. She cannot accept false things. She does not hold any point of view, but she wants a real answer. She must have an accurate answer as to what true love is.

Lin Jin said so much to Song Shiqiu because she knew that Song Shiqiu would understand what she meant.

"Song Shiqiu, I can have many friends, but I can only have one lover at the same time, just like I only have one pair of biological parents." Lin Jin hopes that Song Shiqiu can think it through instead of hastily confirming this relationship.

She cannot choose her parents, but she can choose her feelings.

She can live without love, but she can't compromise for it.

"You should know that this is a very illegal request." Song Shiqiu's breath became heavy, as if warning Lin Jin.

"Is it against the rules? Maybe. If my body is destined not to be free, I hope my soul will be free forever." Lin Jin's smile remained unchanged. She would not change her mind because of anyone. "I know you have great ambitions. You have reached a great height in one move."

If this relationship is not what she expected, she would rather not have it than swallow it. The system is right. From another perspective, greed is not bad. Her greed has not hurt anyone.

She wants to have the best of both worlds, she wants freedom as well as bonds, but if bonds hinder her freedom, she can also get rid of the bonds.

Lin Jin's words made the entire Bikong Courtyard silent, not daring to breathe. Madam told adults what she meant by unwillingness and freedom. Is this... Is this a divorce?

Song Shiqiu left without saying a word. Although Lin Jin had an indescribable feeling, she was not very surprised. After all, from the very beginning when Song Shiqiu urged her to get married, she vaguely knew that his views on marriage and love were very different from hers.

"Are we going to eat these tonight?" Tu Huaining looked at the various cakes and pastries made in front of her. She thought that if they were ruined, they could just be thrown away, but Lin Jin insisted on keeping them for herself.

Tu Huaining looked a little unhappy.

"Yeah, but it doesn't matter, I can just eat it myself." Lin Jin is now farming on his own and really can't stand seeing others wasting food, even if it's himself, "You guys eat yours."

Tu Huaining pressed the corners of his lips and said, "Are you stupid? Why don't you just give these to the beggars? Why do you have to eat them yourself?"

"That makes sense." Lin Jin thought it was a good idea. "As expected of you, Huaining. You have a brilliant mind."

"Of course I'm smarter than you." Tu Huaining snorted arrogantly.

After Song Shiqiu left the Bikong Courtyard, he was about to enter the palace. Xia Zhengan was chatting with Xia Min about family matters. He mainly wanted Xia Min to tell him the location where Lin Lin had buried the bomb. Without Xia Min's help, Lin Lin would not have been able to complete these tasks quietly.

"Are you so infatuated with her? Do you have to protect her?" Xia Zhengan really wanted to know what kind of magic potion Lin Lin had given Xia Min. "You are not like that, Sixth Brother."

"It's not that I'm infatuated with her. I just think that she is very courageous for a woman to be able to achieve this. I admire her and don't want her to die." Xia Min seemed to have no idea what he was thinking about and suddenly chuckled.

Xia Zhengan was so angry that his hands were shaking. He threw the evidence of Lin Lin's crime in front of Xia Min, but Xia Min said that he already knew it: "There are so many good girls in this world, why do you have to cling to Lin Er!"

"You're right. I've often thought that if she learned a little more about obedience, I wouldn't have such a headache." Xia Min propped up his head, like an idle prince. "Then I thought about it again. If she really did that, I wouldn't be happy with her."

"But those are the lives of tens of thousands of people! You can't mess around with them!" Xia Zhengan slammed the desk three times.

"As long as she doesn't die, the people will be safe. She just wants to live, and that's not wrong. The lives of the people are in your hands, Your Majesty. As long as you don't want to kill her, the people will not be in danger." Xia Min was unmoved, and his lazy look was as if he was about to fall asleep. "As for the rest, don't worry, I will take good care of my princess."

"What about the innocent people who died in the Huguo Temple three years ago? She did nothing wrong? You must be blind to think she did nothing wrong!"

"You're keeping a tiger in a closed door!" Xia Zhengan was almost mad. He really couldn't understand what was so good about Lin Lin. "Don't you know that a big tiger can hurt people?"

"That's just bad luck. Didn't father make Song Shiqiu and Su Cheng'an loyal and devoted?" Xia Min laughed sarcastically, not knowing whether he was mocking himself or others.

Xia Zhengan pinched his philtrum and said, "They are loyal to the emperor, how can this be the same? What about Lin Er? Is she loyal to you? She wishes you would die and take away your power!"

"It's okay. I'm happy to do so. If she can take it away, it means she is capable." Xia Min laughed out loud, not taking his own life seriously at all.