I am cannon fodder, but I can hug thighs

"How come I didn't know when people in your house couldn't even get enough food to eat?" Song Shiqiu was so angry that he laughed at her reason.

Lin Jin didn't care what Song Shiqiu said: "So do you want to go back to your yard to eat before coming over?"

Song Shiqiu: “…”

Lin Jin didn't really chase Song Shiqiu away. She asked someone to go to the small kitchen to fry two dishes and added a pair of chopsticks for Song Shiqiu: "Next time, at least let someone tell you in advance. You didn't even tell me, so who would be prepared?"

"I didn't expect you usually only eat this much." Song Shiqiu looked at the two dishes on the table. The portions were not large, just enough for one person. "How shabby."

Lin Jin clenched his fists: "If you don't farm, I don't blame you."

"What did you want to say in the letter you asked someone to write to me?" Song Shiqiu asked casually, "I don't quite understand."

"You don't understand? You're so smart, but you don't understand?" Lin Jin raised an eyebrow, not quite believing what Song Shiqiu said. "If you don't understand, why are you here?"

"It is precisely because I don't understand that I came to ask for clarification."

Lin Jin nodded, as if accepting this reason, but she did not explain: "Eat first, and then talk after dinner. I'm hungry."

Although Song Shiqiu was a little nervous, he did not show any sign of being anxious. No matter what the result was, it was just a foregone conclusion in Lin Jin's mind. It would not make any difference if it happened a little earlier or later.

Lin Jin ate her lunch leisurely, rinsed her mouth with tea, and then looked up at him: "You really don't understand?"

"What you said is specious. If you don't say it, who will know what you want to say?" Song Shiqiu was quite annoyed.

"If you really don't understand, then forget it. There will definitely be arguments in the future." Lin Jin sighed, as if he felt a little sorry that the other party didn't understand what he meant, but his eyes were full of smiles.

Song Shiqiu's Adam's apple moved, his eyes were deep, and when he saw Lin Jin getting up to leave, he reached out and grabbed her hand: "What do you mean?"

"I don't understand this, and I don't understand that. It seems that I really have nothing to say to you, sir." Lin Jin lowered her eyes and pulled her fingers out of his hand. "If you insist that I explain it clearly before you understand, then forget it."

Don't ask. If you ask, she's just too shy to say it.

Song Shiqiu grabbed her hand back, the color in his eyes seemed a little unreal: "Ajin, what are you doing..."

Lin Jin coughed, her face felt hot and tight: "Close your eyes, close them, they're scary."

"First, let me make it clear first. I'm just dating you. If we're not suitable, we'll break up." Lin Jin figured it out. Dating doesn't necessarily lead to marriage, and marriage may lead to divorce. Why bother being so stubborn? She won't necessarily lose. If she does, then she loses. She has no worries, so what is there to lose?

Song Shiqiu looked at her with burning eyes and listened to Lin Jin explain what love was.

"Anyway, although I am nominally your wife, there is nothing wrong with that, but we have to be clear about what's between us, and we have to take it step by step." Lin Jin touched her nose, that is, getting married first and then falling in love, she trusted Song Shiqiu's character, "So, unless it is necessary, don't just treat me as married."

She glanced at Song Shiqiu who had been silent, her heart beating faster and she felt a little embarrassed: "You didn't say anything, it's embarrassing for me to say this."

If it were in the past, and the person she was facing was not Song Shiqiu, she would have just turned around and left, treating all her previous words as nonsense.

The more Lin Jin thought about it, the more she regretted it. Suddenly, she felt that the decision she made today was a bit stupid. She didn't really want to fall in love or anything like that.

She was a little annoyed and had no mood at all. She planned to give up: "Forget it, forget it, forget it. Love is not suitable for me. Just ignore what I said and treat what happened today as a..."

Song Shiqiu exerted a little force and embraced Lin Jin in his arms. The others had already left tactfully, leaving the space for the two masters.

Lin Jin rested his forehead against Song Shiqiu's shoulder, his ears reddened: "Song Shiqiu."

"Hmm?" Song Shiqiu held her in his arms, without making any extra movements. "I'm just afraid that what I say might seem a little frivolous."

Her heart was beating like a drum, and Lin Jin couldn't tell whether it was hers or Song Shiqiu's, or both of them. She felt like she didn't know what to do with her hands and feet.

She pushed Song Shiqiu slightly, her eyes dodging: "Don't you have any official business to deal with today?"

"I...have I?" Song Shiqiu pursed his lips and looked down at her.

"Yes, there must be!" Lin Jin nodded heavily. She felt that she could not accept the fact that she was no longer single yet. She needed to take it slow. This was her first time to fall in love and she was a little, a little unable to do it.

She pushed Song Shiqiu out of the yard: "Go and get busy, don't waste time here with me, your time is so precious."

Song Shiqiu was pushed out before he had the chance to carefully feel the feeling of the warm and soft beauty in his arms. He looked at the fleeing Lin Jin. It didn't seem like she had a telepathic connection with him, but rather that she treated him as some kind of monster.

The servant following Song Shiqiu lowered his head and dared not speak.

The master was driven out by the lady again.

Lin Jin hid back in the room, covered her head with the quilt and wailed: "System, I regret it, I have never been in a relationship, I can't do it!"

[It's okay, host. According to the collected data, Song Shiqiu won't do it either.]

"I don't care whether he can do it or not. I...I feel embarrassed to see him now." Lin Jin wanted to cry but had no tears.

The system kindly reminded her: [Host, that's not called embarrassment, that's called shyness.]

Lin Jin choked, and then gave up on herself: "No matter what, I feel very uncomfortable facing him now. Why should I be so impulsive? Is it too late to break up now?"

She felt so guilty now. She didn't dare to look into Song Shiqiu's eyes. She felt a sense of shame in front of Song Shiqiu that she had never felt before.

She couldn't understand what she was ashamed of. Wasn't she still the same person as before? What was she afraid of?

[Hmm... maybe it's too late.] The system thinks it's actually quite interesting. Two pure love warriors are in love. I wonder what will happen.

Lin Jin had never wanted to die as much as she did now. She wanted to ask herself why she was so blinded by greed and wanted to fall in love. Wasn't it better to just farm? Her career hadn't even started yet, so what was the point of talking about love?

"I regret it. I really regret it." Lin Jin wailed, feeling that she had completely brought disaster upon herself this time. Why did she send out a dating invitation just because she felt guilty for a moment?

"If I had known... I wouldn't have talked so much with Yang Muer." Lin Jin closed his eyes resignedly, "I accidentally convinced myself."

I can only say it’s fate.

[Host, why are you still struggling? ]

"I'm not just struggling with it. I just feel... I just feel like something is wrong. He, I, anyway, just feel it's not right." Lin Jin did not deny that she did like Song Shiqiu, but even though she liked him, she always felt something was wrong. "I feel like it's a bit sick, sick, and I don't like this sick feeling."

She felt that she might be sick again. She was sure that she liked Song Shiqiu, but she didn't know why she couldn't accept him.

[Host, you are not Plato, are you?] The system suddenly thought of a possibility.

Lin Jin's face was tangled for a moment: "I...may be asexual. I can only accept holding hands and hugging."

She really didn't dare to think about anything more, and even felt disgusted in her heart.

"I'm sorry, I know I might be sick." The more Lin Jin thought about it, the more she regretted it. She felt that it was a wrong decision to date Song Shiqiu. "I'm going to go find Song Shiqiu and make things clear. He shouldn't waste his time on me. I can't give him what he wants."

[It sounds a bit scumbag, but you are the host, so you are always right in the eyes of the system.] The system said without any principles.