Reborn in 1974, crying with red eyes while hugging her rough husband

"Are you really happy for me?"

From Sun Zhaodi's actions and expressions, one could sense that she wasn't really happy for Shen Zhizhu.

But after all, it was my mother whom I had missed for so long, and I still couldn't help wishing for her. There were a few moments when I truly hoped that I could live a good life.

Sun Zhaodi didn't expect Shen Zhizhu to continue asking. To her, it was just a few polite words, so she responded with some embarrassment.

"Yep."

Then there was a long silence.

Shen Zhizhu smiled somewhat self-deprecatingly. In his previous life, he wished that his mother would appear during the difficult days, touch his head, and tell him that she was there to pick him up.

When I grew up, I envied them as mother and daughter, and secretly imagined what it would be like if they met.

I didn't expect that after realizing my dream in this life, I felt uncomfortable all over and just wanted to escape from here as soon as possible.

"So, what do you want to talk to me about? If there's nothing else, I'll go back to school."

"Wait, you were able to get into Beijing University. It seems that your uncle's family likes you very much. Where is your cousin? Isn't she with you?"

"Isn't it that she didn't pass the exam? Hahahaha, if that's the case, then she really deserves it. You don't know how your aunt tortured me before I left. Now my daughter got into Beijing University and her daughter didn't. This can be regarded as a vent for my anger."

Sun Zhaodi let out a long sigh, and she seemed to be alive again, full of energy.

"My cousin wanted to harm me, but she fell off a cliff and died in public. My cousin set me on fire on the eve of my college entrance exam, and was later imprisoned for fraud. My uncle and aunt were also imprisoned for condoning the crime and shielding them."

Shen Zhizhu calmly recounted his past experiences, curious about what the woman who had left him so early would say and whether she would comfort him.

She still overestimated her importance in the other person's heart.

"Ah? Hahahaha, not bad, not bad. Evildoers will be punished by their own evildoers. This family has come to this day, which is really gratifying."

After not seeing each other for fifteen years, Sun Zhaodi still resembles the image Shen Zhizhu had in his memory. She speaks softly, but there is a sense of calm madness in her words.

Shen Zhizhu vaguely remembered that Sun Zhaodi was once a gentle mother who raised him together with his father.

The house is always filled with laughter.

Even though my uncle's family often came to cause trouble, it did not affect the warmth between them at all.

Everything changed after my father died. He got drunk and drowned in a pond at the entrance of the village. My mother cried all day long and raised me with great difficulty.

He was always ridiculed by his aunt, and day after day, he went crazy and eventually left his young self and went away alone.

"as long as you are happy."

Shen Zhizhu had no desire to continue the conversation, so she avoided Sun Zhaodi.

"You are so heartless. I haven't seen you for such a long time, but you didn't even bother to call me mom."

Obviously, Sun Zhaodi didn't want to end this conversation for the time being.

"I have something to ask of you."

"You? You have something to ask of me?"

Thinking of the family of three she saw during the day, and how she herself was dressed very nicely, Shen Zhizhu really couldn't imagine what they needed her help with.

"What an attitude! You really can't learn anything from that shrew Li Chunlan. I haven't mentioned you to my daughter. Even my husband only knows that I once had a child, but he died. You know what I mean."

"I don't want you to suddenly appear in front of them and reveal your identity. You have finally come this far and become a Beijing University student that everyone envies, but you should not have anyone to rely on."

Sun Zhaodi stated her request in a semi-threatening manner while rummaging through her bag.

"You suddenly came to me just to warn me and keep me away from your family, right? Actually, there's no need to do that. I didn't recognize you at school, so you should have understood what I meant. But, you can love Li Yunyun with all your heart, but why didn't you ask me how I've been doing these past few years when we met?"

Sun Zhaodi paused her searching hand for a moment and didn't say anything. Yes, when she was still there, the attitudes of Li Chunlan and others were so bad that she couldn't stand it.

What good life can there be if you only leave behind a house deed and a child who knows nothing?

"What you told your current husband, that you once had a child but that the child died, is actually what you really believed. You thought that Li Chunlan and Shen Jianjun could not let me eat their food for free. Sooner or later, they would starve me to death, or beat me to death."

It has been two lifetimes, but when Shen Zhizhu mentioned this kind of thing, she couldn't help feeling sad. In fact, she had known for a long time that the mother with a gentle smile in her memory would never come back.

"You're living well, aren't you? I see it's not easy for you either. Take this money. It's my way of compensating you for all these years."

"Back then... after your father passed away, I lived a very miserable life alone. Every day I wanted to take you with me to die. I raised you by myself for two years, which was already the best I could do. You couldn't just let me die of exhaustion there."

"You know your uncle and aunt's personalities. As my daughter, you should be more considerate of me. I really have no choice."

When Sun Zhaodi thought of the dark years in the past, her well-maintained face couldn't help but twist, and the look she gave Shen Zhizhu was filled with disgust.

"When I see your face, I think of those days. We've been living a good life for so long that I've forgotten the time that made me sad. It's been fifteen years. Why are you here again? You appear in front of me and remind me of those things!"

Sun Zhaodi was a little emotional, as if the suffering she had endured during that period had never been vented, until today, when she met Shen Zhizhu and opened the water valve, and all the suffering came out at once.

"I'll take the money, and I promise not to mention the relationship between you and me. In the parent column at school, I'll write that both of us are deceased, so you can rest assured."

Shen Zhizhu, who used to be sharp-tongued, was speechless at this moment. She really wanted to ask him why he didn't take her away with him, when they were so happy when they lived together.

I also wanted to ask her if she had ever thought of me in the fifteen years since she left, even just that one time.

When Li Yunyun was born, did she ever think that her other daughter, a thin girl whom she had once cared for with love, was living in dire straits?

Even though he had thousands of words in his heart, they all fell silent when Shen Zhizhu opened his mouth.

She couldn't ask. To Sun Zhaodi, herself at that time was a past that she was eager to get rid of. It was a burden and a pain.