Don't think of rebirth.

If he had to find a word to describe his life, Qin Yue felt that there would be no better word than "perfunctory".

But to others, his ideas were simply incredible.

"Huh? Perfunctory?"

"You can be considered a young master, right? Although you can't compare to the Jiang family, you have been well fed and well clothed since childhood."

"My family's business is supported by my mother and brother, and my father is a doctor, so he has connections when he treats patients. How lucky I am!"

"Your brother is so versatile, and your family doesn't have high expectations of you. This condition exceeds that of countless people, right?"

From childhood to adulthood, there are so many people who say this kind of thing, it's really annoying.

All he wants is to confide his inner distress to someone he can talk to. He doesn't really want others to give him advice, so why blame him?

Doesn't he know how many advantages he has that others only dream of? But will his troubles disappear because of these advantages?

Qin Yue just felt that his life was perfunctory. He had an excellent family and a perfect brother, but he himself was good at nothing.

He once saw a joke on the Internet, which roughly meant that some people were like the people carefully sculpted by Nuwa, while some people were like mud dots thrown out by vines.

He is like a speck of clay. Compared with his elder brother who is as outstanding as him, he is nothing.

When reading novels, Qin Yue would think that his brother was probably at the level of the protagonist, and he was the protagonist's background board. He only existed because the protagonist needed a family.

He has been living in a daze, unable to find the meaning and value of his existence.

Until that day, my brother died.

How could Qin Min die? At the funeral, Qin Yue still couldn't figure it out.

Isn't he the "protagonist"? He should live in the center of the world with his brilliance forever, so why did he die to save himself?

Why, the protagonist is gone, but the background is still alive?

Mom and Dad were sad and in pain, but they had to accept the fact that they only had one child left.

Therefore, the stage that once belonged to the protagonist urged Qin Yue to step onto it.

How is it possible? How could he do that?

He is just a background! How can such a perfunctory existence stand up!

How funny. He had clearly fantasized about being reborn before, thinking about snatching away all of Qin Min's shining points and making himself the protagonist.

Finally, when it was his turn, he couldn't do anything.

He began to escape, not daring to face the sight of his family, and not wanting to take on responsibilities that were too heavy for him.

It was so painful, as if he was about to drown in the expectations and gazes. He struggled hard but couldn't get rid of it.

It was not until Gao Changying appeared that Qin Yue was freed.

Does he really like Gao Changying? Qin Yue didn't know, but being with her, he could gain...confidence.

He could not become the protagonist on the stage that originally belonged to Qin Min, but he could become Gao Changying's "male lead" on her stage.

In any love story, there are two protagonists.

On the stage with Gao Changying as the heroine, he doesn't have to bear so much pressure. He just needs to love her and give everything for her.

Until this moment, Qin Yue felt the cold and hard blade piercing into his body, and his mind was in a trance.

It hurts so much, I feel so nauseous and uncomfortable. I can’t stand up and I’m about to fall down.

With a dull thud, Qin Yue fell to the ground, dizzy and dazed.

Why, why, is he going to die? Just like that?

No, it shouldn't be like this, he hasn't yet...

Consciousness came to a brief halt.

"Not yet"? Is there anything he must do?

No.

He has no wishes, no obsessions, and lives a perfunctory life, so perhaps this is how he deserves to end.

Qin Yue's hand, which was originally stretched out in the air, fell heavily and smashed into a pool of blood.

His vision went dark and the sounds around him seemed to be getting farther and farther away.

However, at this moment, another scene appeared before his eyes.

He saw himself returning to the time when he had just entered high school. There was one more person in Class 3 of Grade 1, and as a result, everything changed.

Those memories were not coherent, as if they were picking out the key points.

He saw that his relationship with his brother had improved, he studied hard and achieved much better grades than he had now, and he was rewarded by his mother.

He heard his brother say that he envied him and called him a hero.

Everyone in the class got together, participated in many things, and spent every day in a lively manner.

When a classmate encounters difficulties or troubles, the whole class will step forward, give her or him advice, and then take action.

He saw himself as the deputy monitor, jumping around among a group of people and having a happy life every day.

Even if nothing happened and it was just an ordinary daily life, he could fall asleep peacefully and wake up refreshed.

I don't know when the tears came out, slid down my face, and fell into the pool of blood on the ground.

He used to always feel regretful, always thinking that he was no match for his brother in everything, and that his life was perfunctory and meaningless.

But in fact, he had never made a good choice and was not prepared for his choice.

He didn't even know what he was regretting.

The result is what is happening now. After his brother passed away, he became nothing and ended up like this.

Even if there really was an opportunity called rebirth as he had imagined when he was a child, he would only repeat his mistakes if he went back to the past.

“The future is full of endless possibilities.”

“I can do anything!”

Qin Yue looked at himself in his memory somewhat greedily, remembering these two sentences firmly.

What is truly perfunctory is not his life, but his attitude towards his life.

The value of existence does not need to be given by others, nor does it need to be found, but should be created by oneself.

It was actually only natural that he would have such a tragic and ridiculous ending.

【Your ending is not funny. 】

[If she were here, she would definitely say that. ]

A voice sounded, and for some reason, Qin Yue knew that this voice was related to the memories he had obtained.

That "she" is the extra girl in Class 3 in my memory, right?

"Thank you... Thank you..." Qin Yue murmured, his eyes gradually becoming blurred.

It was not to thank the other person for allowing him to see another possibility at the end of his life, but to thank the other person for giving him the "answer".

It turns out that he can live the life he wants and make choices according to his own will.

It is like a ship that has been drifting in the dark sea and finally sees a lighthouse. It just wants to return to the harbor and rest under the guidance of the light.

He is not a hero who returns with treasures and after going through hardships, but there are more than heroes in the world. Don Quixote has his own ending.

Therefore, let him put an end to this period of his life as Qin Yue - rather than anyone else.

[Personal rewards have been distributed. ]

【Good night, Qin Yue. 】