The unscrupulous system forced me to frantically test the small black room

Nova snorted and then spoke.

"Mr. Xu has always been the best. In every international competition, he can calmly accept the trophy that proves first place from the judges."

"But there was one time when he was absent from a competition that took half a year to prepare for, even though I had clearly seen him there just a few hours before."

“I anxiously left my own round behind, and after asking, I learned that he had never left the competition venue.”

"So I looked for him everywhere in the venue, and finally I suddenly rushed into the men's bathroom and found him in front of the bathroom sink."

"I don't know what happened to him. He seemed to be sick. He curled up and shivered, and kept calling the name Tao Zhi."

"That was the first time I saw him so weak. He was completely different from the majestic image I had always imagined him to be."

"I originally thought that this man named Tao Zhi was the one who bullied him, but when he was sent to the ambulance, he grabbed my hand and refused to let go."

"He said to me at that time, Tao Zhi, save me," Nova said.

Tao Zhi's heart began to tighten, and his hand holding the fishing rod trembled slightly, but he still pretended to be calm and looked at the fish swimming in the water.

The fishing rod happened to move, and Tao Zhiru pulled the rod as if he had been saved, his movements a little flustered.

Tao Zhi threw the fish into the fish cage with a smile, then clapped his hands.

Seeing that Tao Zhi did not respond to her, Nova continued to speak on her own.

"Since that competition, I have never seen him again. I only know that he has returned to Mr. Gu's class and no longer travels around in various public competitions."

"The next time we heard about him was when he returned to his country."

"I know, he went to find you." Nova said.

Tao Zhi was silent for a long time before he spoke.

"Obviously I have a lover I cherish. It's impossible for me to be with Lao Xu, and I won't be your imaginary rival in love." Tao Zhi said.

"I know that I am not qualified to be your love rival. Mr. Xu may not even remember my existence."

"I look so miserable now. I don't even have the courage to go over and say hello to him." Nova's tone dropped.

"What's there to be embarrassed about? You're so beautiful right now. Let me tell you. Come on, I'll push you over to say hello."

Nova became flustered when she heard this and anxiously turned her wheelchair back.

"I don't want to, I don't want to go like this!" Nova shouted.

Seeing that Nova was unwilling to go, Tao Zhi did not force her.

"Then when you are ready..."

Tao Zhi turned his head as he spoke, and when he saw Nova's wheelchair was out of control and coming towards him, Tao Zhi hurriedly reached out to stop it.

But because she was not feeling comfortable when sitting, she grabbed a corner of the wheelchair in panic, and the wheelchair tilted. Nova in the wheelchair screamed and rushed forward, then fell down and fell into the water.

Tao Zhi jumped into the water without any reaction. The movement of the two attracted the attention of Xu Yanze and Gong Cheng, who dropped their fishing rods and rushed over.

Nova could not move her legs in the water and could only let herself fall in horror. Tao Zhi swam over and found that the water was so deep that he could hardly see the scenery below at a glance.

Tao Zhi reached out and grabbed Nova's arm, pulling it upwards.

Nova was still struggling because of her body's instinctive desire to survive, but as she watched the light gradually disappear in front of her eyes and felt her chest becoming more and more swollen due to lack of oxygen, she suddenly felt that dying like this would not be a bad thing.

Don't you always want to die?

But I have been dragged by each of them to survive until now.

For a person like me whose life has no meaning at all, this unexpected fall into the water is simply a gift from God to redeem myself from this disaster.

Nova struggled to pull her hand out of Tao Zhi's hand. Tao Zhi stared at the girl's actions in the water with wide eyes.

No, buddy, I won’t let you do this!

Tao Zhi gritted his teeth and pulled Nova upwards, but as the two of them were pulling, Tao Zhi felt dizzy and his hands were becoming increasingly weak. Not to mention pulling Nova, he himself could hardly swim.

Nova was wrapped in fatigue, bubbles came out of her mouth and nose, and she was almost losing consciousness. Tao Zhi was not much better, but fortunately Nova finally stopped struggling.

However, Tao Zhi couldn't swim anymore.

Tao Zhi's vision became blurred, and he felt so suffocated that he could no longer hold Nova's hand and could only let go helplessly.

After drinking a big gulp of water in pain, Tao Zhi's body sank uncontrollably and fell into deeper darkness.

The luster in Tao Zhi's eyes faded, and one hand stretched out weakly towards the faint light flickering in the ripples on the water.

My fingers clenched subconsciously, but only ice-cold water flowed through them, and I couldn't touch anything.

Fish swam leisurely before my eyes, and a faint fishy smell lingered in my mouth and nose. The feeling of suffocation surged like a tide, and darkness spread wantonly.

A strange sense of familiarity was pulled out, and those forgotten memories slowly emerged in the mind, growing and clinging wantonly until they filled every corner of the memory.

Room, small bed, fish tank, colorful fish.

I buried my head in the fish tank in an uncomfortable and awkward posture, feeling the fishy water slowly submerging my mouth and nose, then slowly opened my eyes in the water, quietly watching the colorful fish swimming in front of me.

Through these colorful fish, I greedily fantasize about the blue sea and the world outside the house.

I imagined myself as a child running on the beach, with soft and dense sand under my feet. When I looked back with a smile, I saw my parents following me, holding hands and waving at me, telling me to slow down.

Suffocating, cold, exciting, stimulating, and even greedy.

When he was about to hold his breath, he instinctively raised his head and gasped, enjoying the sound of his heartbeat that was almost about to jump out.

Then, almost obsessively, he stuffed his head into the fish tank again, over and over again, enjoying the moments of tranquility that the feeling of suffocation brought him.

Once, my mother accidentally caught me burying my head in the fish tank and scolded me for getting my clothes and quilt dirty and wet, just because it would add to her mother's troubles and fatigue.

But fortunately, my mother was too busy and she came to the room less and less often. When she came back, the wet quilt and clothes were almost dry.

But there is one time in my memory that was different.

When your mouth and nose are submerged and a feeling of suffocation comes over you, how do you feel?

It was a pain that went deep into the bone marrow.

The pain was so severe that I could no longer bear every minute and every second of breathing. I just wanted to cry out and vent my feelings, but after I opened my mouth with a hideous face, my dry and hoarse throat could not make any sound.

I could only let the painful feeling in my chest spread throughout my body, as if my lungs and intestines were being pulled and stirred, and I screamed silently again and again in extreme grief.

It was so painful that even though he could clearly feel his life slipping away, he still chose to resist his instinct to survive and buried his head deeper in the cold water.

Then he allowed his own death to approach, and stubbornly continued this matter.

I just want death to come faster.

In this way, I can escape from this world full of lies.