I heard that I became the villain Bai Yueguang after I died

The second hour after entering Guixu.

Sang Nian, who was fully awake, sat by the window, listening to the chirping of insects by the pond, the fragrance of flowers carried by the wind, and...

She twitched her nose and turned her head:

"What does this smell like?"

The young man stood silently behind her, and it was unknown how long he had been looking at her.

He took a step forward and the porcelain spoon hit the wall of the bowl, making a clanging sound.

"Your medicine." He picked up the spoon, scooped a spoonful of medicine, and wanted to feed her out of habit.

She turned her face away slightly, keeping some distance:

"Thank you, I can do it myself."

Xie Chenzhou paused, silently took her hand, and guided her to grab the spoon.

Sang Nian was a little embarrassed:

"Fellow Daoist Yu, I have explained many times that I can use my spiritual sense, which can barely be considered as my 'eyes'. You don't need to be so careful."

The person on the other side didn't speak.

Sang Nian sighed inwardly.

This fellow Taoist who accidentally entered Guixu like her is a taciturn person.

Often, the voice stops while talking.

But she could sense that he was always by her side, almost never leaving her side.

perhaps--

Is he a little scared too?

Sang Nian thought uncertainly.

A living person who comes to Guixu, the legendary resting place of the dead, would probably be scared, right?

Seeing that he saved her and helped her make medicine, she decided to ignore his immoral behavior of blowing up the well and running away, and comforted him lightly.

"Don't worry," she said to the young man, "I will definitely find a way out and take you out."

As she said this, a relaxed smile appeared on her face, and her lifeless eyes seemed to brighten.

Xie Chenzhou looked into her eyes, and couldn't help but stretch out his hand and touch her through the void.

She drank the medicine spoonful by spoonful, unconsciously.

——Or maybe she had been tempted like this too many times and no longer had the patience to respond.

He took his hand back, his voice hoarse:

"…How did you become blind?"

"This."

Sang Nian said:

"My soul was injured by a person's sword energy. When I just regained consciousness, I found that I was blind."

She added:

"But it's okay. I've cultivated my spiritual sense to be very strong, so it doesn't matter how I see the road. It's the same."

How can they be the same?

She used to love flowers the most.

Xie Chenzhou's fingertips trembled as he asked her with difficulty:

"who is it?"

Sang Nian: "Who is it?"

Xie Chenzhou: "Who hurt you?"

Sang Nian was puzzled: "Why are you asking this?"

Xie Chenzhou was silent for a long time, and said in a very light voice:

"Is it Xie Chenzhou?"

Sang Nian was shocked: "How did you know?"

"..."

In the dusty little house, the young man felt a rusty taste in his throat, and his internal organs were almost torn apart by her short words.

He lowered his eyes, half of which were covered with despair.

"It was Xie Chenzhou who hurt you and made you what you are now."

Sang Nian heard that his tone was wrong:

"What's wrong with you? Do you have a grudge against him too?"

He did not answer her question, but only asked:

"Do you hate him?"

Sang Nian drank the last sip of medicine, wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, and said casually:

"Now I don't even remember who he is, so why should I hate him?"

The curse more vicious than hatred is forgetfulness.

She didn't hate him, nor did she love him anymore.

She forgot about him.

Xie Chenzhou looked at the girl in front of him quietly, with red eyes.

There are so many ways to punish him, but the only way is to forget him.

But, it is forgotten.

The room suddenly fell silent, and Sang Nian smelled a faint salty smell:

“What’s that smell?”

After a while, Xie Chenzhou said in a hoarse voice:

"Maybe, it's someone who betrayed his sincerity and is afraid."

Sang Nian didn't understand, so he subconsciously asked:

"Afraid? What are you afraid of?"

"Afraid……"

Afraid that you would think of him, and afraid that—

You can't think of him anymore.

Xie Chenzhou didn't say anything else.

Sang Nian didn't care. He had been like this since they met.

She had gotten used to his sudden silences and found new topics to talk about.

"Your medicine is really effective. I got better immediately after drinking it. Are you a doctor?"

Xie Chenzhou said slowly:

"Ah."

Sang Nian was instantly delighted, and hurriedly held his hand, with a sincere look on his face:

"My senior brother's old illness has relapsed and he is in very poor health. When we get out, could you please go and treat him?"

She did not forget to add:

"Don't worry about the consultation fee. You can have as many spiritual stones as you want."

Xie Chenzhou said:

"I thought you would let me heal your eyes first."

"The eyes can be treated later, but Senior Brother can't wait any longer."

Sang Nian spoke very quickly:

"You didn't see how weak he was. I heard that he used to love to play iron, but now he can't even lift a bench."

Xie Chenzhou suddenly asked her:

"Do you still remember your senior brother?"

"I don't remember." Sang Nian said, "I only found out when I ran into it by chance."

Xie Chenzhou's tone was mixed with some confusion:

"Then why do you have such deep feelings for him?"

Sang Nian thought for a moment and said:

"Maybe it's because of loneliness?"

She said somewhat embarrassedly:

"When I first regained consciousness, I was still a tree. I couldn't move or speak, and I couldn't see. I finally transformed into a human, but I didn't know where to go."

“This world is so big, but it seems like there’s no place for me.”

She said: "Later, I met my old friends, and it seemed that I had a little more connection with this world."

Or rather——

A sense of belonging.

Although it's only a little, it's enough to soothe the uneasy heart.

"Forget it, why am I telling you this?" She shook her head. "You wouldn't understand even if I told you."

Xie Chenzhou said: "I understand."

Sang Nian: "Hmm?"

That was a long time ago. Today’s demon is not yet a demon, and the young man is still just a young man.

The world is so big, but there is no place for him to stand.

But there is such a person.

She stood before him and told him over and over again that he was fine.

She liked him very much, only him, the most.

Take the trouble.

——She is his only connection with this world.

Xie Chenzhou looked at the bewildered girl in front of him.

He understands.