After rebirth, the old, weak, sick and disabled are a family

Duan Huiyan stared at the bright red apples in the trash can that had oxidized and turned black, and felt bitter inside.

"Brother Xi, you are wrong. Even if I can't do anything, I still want to know about her. I want to know if she is safe and happy. Only in this way can I feel at ease."

Upon hearing this, Tan Xuxi turned his back to Duan Huiyan and sat down on the edge of the bed.

Perhaps he didn't dare show his vulnerability and helplessness in front of his childhood friend.

"I have always wondered if there was ever a moment when she loved me instead of treating me as an object of empathy or a substitute that could satisfy her needs. Unfortunately, I can't find the answer."

Tan Xuxi paused, as if he was organizing his words, or as if he was digesting his emotions.

"But even if she only treats me as a substitute, I am happy with it. Because I love her. I have loved her since I was 25 years old."

Duan Huiyan felt a dull pain in his heart. He understood that this was his brother Xi telling him the truth.

Tan Xixi continued: "More than one person asked me, why do you rush into her without hesitation, knowing that it is impossible, but still rushing into the fire, what is the purpose?"

"Actually, I don't know what I want. Maybe it's just because my name is Tan Xixi, or maybe it's just because she is Qu Shuyue."

"I don't ask for the result, I don't ask about the way back, I just want the process, as long as she is happy."

"But now, she won't even tell me the process."

"I feel bad, really bad."

"After she finds out you lost a leg, she will force herself to retreat into her shell and seek freedom in her dreams to escape reality."

"Ayan, what do you think I should do to make her willing to come out of her shell, face reality, and come back to us?"

"By force? She clearly doesn't want to live at all, but she is still trying to stay alive, just to avoid making the people who love her sad."

"But, Ah Yan, she is too tired like this."

"I don't want her to be so tired."

Tan Xuxi spoke calmly, as if he was telling someone else's story, but his eyes were red.

Duan Huiyan slowly turned his head and looked at the trash can. The apple had been oxidized beyond recognition.

He hugged Tan Xixi tightly and said in a trembling voice: "Brother Xi, please don't be like this. I feel uncomfortable and distressed."

Tan Xixi hugged him back and said softly, "Ayan, I'm fine, don't worry."

Duan Huiyan choked up and said, "Brother Xi, can you let me see her? I want to see her. I want to tell her that no matter what she becomes, I will always be by her side and never leave her."

Tan Xuxi was silent for a long time, tears welled up in her eyes and flowed down, but she smiled.

"Ayan, in my entire life, I have never been so obsessed with anyone. She is the first and will be the last."

"I don't know, and I'm not going to try, anyone other than her."

"Brother Xi..."

"Ayan, do you know? I once thought that I would be her salvation, but I didn't expect that in the end, I was the one who needed her salvation."

"Ayan, remember, she will always be our little princess, the treasure we hold in our hands."

"Brother Xi, I know."

"So, don't tell her the truth, okay?"

"it is good."

Duan Huiyan agreed without hesitation. How could he not know Xige's concerns? And how could he allow anyone to hurt his little princess?

Tan Xuxi smiled gently, like a tiger embracing its cubs, gentle yet strong.

"Perhaps... I have found the wrong way of thinking. Cause and effect in this world are linked together. What is the cause and what is the effect, perhaps it is all destined."

"Brother Xi..."

"Ayan, do you believe in fate?"

Duan Huiyan was silent for a moment, then said, "I didn't believe it before, but now I do."

"why?"

"Because only fate can explain why I met her, why I fell in love with her, and why I must have her."

Tan Xuxi smiled, her voice choked with sobs.

"Ayan, you know what? Actually, I don't believe in fate either."

“But now, I believe it.”

"Because I met her, fell in love with her, and understood why I couldn't live without her."

The two people's eyes met, completing the most profound communication and vows.

"Brother Xi, if... I mean if, if Xiaoyue... she wants to leave this world, what will you do?"

Tan Xuxi smiled with relief, but was determined despite the pain.

"I will stay with her, regardless of life or death, and I will never leave her."

Duan Huiyan's eyes were filled with tears, he knew that his brother Xi was never just talking.

"Brother Xi..."

"Ayan, you have to know that in this world, no one can survive without anyone else."

"But if she's gone, there will be no light in my world."

"Brother Xi..."

"Ayan, don't cry. We all don't want this to happen, right?"

"No, I don't hope so. I don't hope so at all."

"So, what we have to do is to make her willing to face reality and continue to live."

"I will, Brother Xi, I will definitely do it."

Duan Huiyan sat in the hall of Cimei Manor, feeling as if he were in another world.

He was the one who planted every blade of grass and every tree with her.

He helped her choose the bed and the cabinet.

He helped her plan every detail.

He helped her buy every wall and tile.

He loved every corner and every inch of land here, just as he loved her.

They laughed here, quarreled here, kissed here, and did everything that lovers would do here.

But now, the building is empty and everything has changed.

Duan Huiyan laughed at himself. It turned out that this was the cruelest thing in the world.

"Brother Xi, you said, we should do this, right?"

"Who can tell right from wrong?"

“Perhaps, from the very beginning, we were wrong.”

"But, Ayan, even if I know it's wrong, I'm willing to make the same mistake again and again."

Duan Huiyan stared at the floor tiles. There were his footprints, her footprints, and their overlapping footprints on the floor.

Now, he can only sit in a wheelchair and stare at the floor tiles in a daze.

Tan Xuxi shook his head, walked outside and made a phone call.

"Brother Duan, I think Ayan's injury is almost healed, we can start to deal with things."

"Xuxi, it's only been two months, why don't you wait a little longer?"

"Brother Duan, trust me, find him something to do, and he won't have those random thoughts."

"Well...ok, I'll arrange something for him."

"Well, Brother Duan, thank you."

"Xuanxi, I should thank you. My son is an unruly wolf. If something like this had happened in the past, he would have tortured himself to death. How could he have stayed in the hospital to recuperate?"

"Brother Duan, Ayan is my brother. If I don't help him, who will?"

"Xuxi, you are always the kindest one."

"Brother Duan, please stop teasing me."

"Okay, I won't tease you anymore. I'll arrange something for him right away."

"Well, Brother Duan, thank you."

"I'll leave Yan'er to you."