After rebirth, the old, weak, sick and disabled are a family

Qu Shuyue is sleepy during the day and often suffers from insomnia at night.

Tan Xuxi hid everything that could threaten her life.

Saying sweet words over and over again.

"Hubby, it would be nice if people didn't have thoughts. Without thoughts, there would be no pain, and no one would control us. It would be nice if we could be like plants and trees, with life but no thoughts."

She didn't want to die, but she longed for death.

Jun Yi came and brought the medicine that Tan Xixi needed, "Well, taking medicine is not a long-term solution."

Tan Xixi said: "You and I both know that this disease has no chance of being cured."

"She is very good at hiding her emotions. Even when her emotions are about to overflow, she can pretend to be calm. These emotions are like poisonous snakes that can devour her at any time. She is always in danger and she longs for relief."

As he spoke, his eyes became moist.

Tan Xuxi felt that she was sick too.

"She used to be just irritable and angry, but these past few days she's had thoughts of wanting to die. She sleeps most of the day, but she's still very tired."

"She said she was like an ant trapped in a brazier. She was in pain, she was struggling, she endured day after day, bit by bit, minute by minute, second by second. Every day, every bit, every minute, every second was extremely painful."

Tan Xixi raised her head slightly and asked with red eyes: "What should I do?"

Jun Yi didn't know how to answer. Tan Xixi's expression was really heartbreaking. Tan Xixi said again:

"I am always worried that something might happen to her. I am always ready to save her, but I also hope she dies. She is in too much pain. It would be better for her to die and put an end to it all."

Jun Yi stared at Tan Xixi and said in a deep voice:

"Help her rebuild her connection with the outside world, experience the agility of water flow, feel the changes in temperature, appreciate the warmth of the sun, listen to the whistle of the wind, understand the depth of love, and feel all the beauty in the world, and life will naturally flourish."

Tan Xixi suddenly said: "Don't you think she can't feel it? She feels it more deeply and thoroughly than anyone else. She cherishes life and being alive more than anyone else."

Jun Yi was silent for a long time and said: "If she couldn't feel it, you would have been gone by her side a long time ago."

"Most patients in mental hospitals often have a deeper and more thorough understanding of life and their views on the world than those who appear to be normal."

“They are ‘different’, their unique perspectives, their alternative viewpoints, their advanced ideas, if they are not crazy, they are likely to become pioneers in a certain field.”

“But they’re crazy.”

Tan Xuxi could no longer stop crying.

He wanted her to die, but he didn't want her to die. He only loved her in this world.

He added: "I don't know how long I can stay with her. I'm afraid I can't hold on."

Jun Yi comforted her: "She is in great pain, but you can't transfer her pain to yourself."

“The reason why people suffer is that they pursue the wrong things.”

Tan Xixi: "She...had already arranged her funeral, but we just didn't know about it."

"She gave everyone hope to live, except herself."

Tan Xixi burst into tears, and Jun Yi said:

"She feared death more than anyone else, but she also longed for death. When she was alive, she was closest to death, and when she died, she was really dead."

Estrella Ranch, Eudemonia Province.

Located between magnificent mountains, it is surrounded by lush forests, herds of horses, and cattle and sheep.

The wind ruffled her hair, which smelled of grass.

Tan Xixi talked to the person in charge of the ranch, "I want to find a quiet place for my wife to rest well."

He paused and said, "A place where no one knows me."

The person in charge realized that the oriental woman in the green dress was a patient.

Tan Xixi added: "My wife is afraid of pain and suffering. She can't stand bumps and stimulation. She is too fragile."

"rest assured."

The person in charge thought, this is not weakness, this is simply pretentious.

"It is absolutely quiet and comfortable here, suitable for patients to recuperate, so don't worry."

"Mia~"

Tan Xuxi looked at it again and again. This place was indeed nice, and the person in charge handled the formalities for him.

"Mia~"

Hearing the shout, Qu Shuyue looked over.

The horse was out of control, and one of the eight or nine-year-old girl's feet was tightly entangled in the rope of the saddle, and her foot was stuck in the stirrup, unable to free herself.

She lay on the ground, head downward, being dragged across the sand by the frightened horses.

"Mia~"

Their parents and people around were stunned. They shouted and tried to stop the horses, but to no avail.

Qu Shuyue's tone was emotionless, "A horse's life, or a human life."

The person in charge ran towards the horse while saying, "Human life...Human life...That's my daughter!..."

Niu Shuyue took out a pistol and shot at the horse with a bang.

The horse was startled. It turned around a few times on the spot, raised its front hooves high, and then let out a long neigh.

The person in charge stopped and saw the oriental woman holding a gun.

"Mia~" The girl's mother rushed over, hugged her tightly in her arms, and covered her eyes.

The person in charge went to check on the horses.

The horse's mane was disheveled and a bullet had pierced its chest. It wanted to struggle and neigh, but it opened its mouth wide and no sound came out.

Its head kept lowering and lowering, the veins on its neck bulging, and it tried hard to move, even a centimeter.

Qu Shuyue stood there, looked at it, raised the pistol again and pulled the trigger.

She walked up to it, stroked its head gently, and asked it: "Are you not in pain?"

"you're free."

"I'm sorry." said Qu Shuyue.

"I'm sorry," she said again.

"I'm sorry," she said again.

She said it over and over again, her voice so soft that it was almost inaudible.

Tan Xuxi knelt down on one knee and hugged Qu Shuyue in her arms, she smiled emptyly.

"Talking about doctors, being a doctor means either solving pain or ending pain. If it were you, which one would you choose?"

Tan Xixi slightly bent her body, stretched out one hand to gently support the back of her head, and put the other hand around her slender waist.

"I don't choose either. I choose to suffer with you."

"I have a hundred ways to get rid of pain, and a hundred ways to end pain, but I only have one reason to suffer with you, and that is because I love you."

One of Mia's feet was entangled in the rope and was already bloody, but fortunately no bones were broken. She was discharged from the hospital after resting for a few days.

The fresh fruits, vegetables and milk from the ranch are picked and squeezed right away and are only supplied to Tan Xixi and Niu Shuyue.

Every day, Tan Xuxi took Niu Shuyue to ride horses, milk cows, prune flowers, spray water on flowers, and help clean up the feces of small animals.

Tan Xuxi would take photos and videos of Qu Shuyue every day, recording every detail of her life.

Qu Shuyue asked: "Why do you take so many photos every day?"

Tan Xixi replied: "I want everyone to know that you have been to this world."

Qu Shuyue asked: "Aren't you tired of it?"