After rebirth, the old, weak, sick and disabled are a family

Niu Shuyue stared at the empty wine bottle on the table, her mind empty.

It was as if I was back to that afternoon full of sunshine and laughter, and that early morning with drizzling rain.

“Actually…I had a dream that was exactly like the real thing.

In the dream, I became the third party.

He has a wife, children, and a tyrannical grandfather.

He allowed his son and grandfather to insult me ​​again and again.

Allowing the media and paparazzi to take pictures of him and me again and again and then publish them.

Let everyone spit on me and even attack me personally.

In my dream, I died, died in the year I loved him the most.

I spent countless days and nights trying not to give up loving him.

But it only took me six seconds to give myself a death from which there was no escape.

He took a running start and jumped down from the tenth floor.

But the moment I landed, all I could think of was his goodness. How pathetic, how pitiful, and how hateful I was.

Even if I kill myself, I can't give up loving him."

Duan Huiyan and Lu Huian were both shocked by her words.

The two looked at each other and saw surprise and worry in each other's eyes.

Tan Xuxi had studied psychology, and upon hearing this, he complained in his heart.

[If it was a dream, it would not have caused such strong emotional fluctuations in people.

But looking at her empty eyes, he became uncertain.

He could only judge from her tone, expression, and body language.

What she said sounded more like things she had experienced personally.

Could it be that she really had such an experience?

If it’s personal experience, then…

He didn't dare to think further.

He tried to get some clues.

But at this moment, he couldn't see through Ni Shuyue's thoughts.

There was a hint of sadness in her eyes, as if she had really experienced that pain and despair.

Duan Huiyan couldn't help but ask, "Xiaoyue, does your dream... have any special meaning?"

Qu Shuyue was stunned for a moment, then smiled brightly.

"I don't know, maybe I've been under too much pressure lately."

Because of what Qu Shuyue said, they were no longer in the mood to play and put down their wine glasses. The atmosphere suddenly became solemn.

One person comforted her with a few words and then the conversation ended.

The next day, Tan Xuxi came to Niu Shuyue's home early in the morning.

He knocked on the door and waited for a while before the door slowly opened.

Qu Shuyue looked at Tan Xixi, somewhat surprised.

"How did you come?"

Tan Xuxi looked at her haggard face and felt heartbroken.

"I heard what you said last night, and I wanted to come see you."

Qu Shuyue was stunned for a moment, then smiled bitterly, "I'm fine, I just had a nightmare."

Tan Xuxi didn't think so, he gently held her hand.

"Ms. Qu, dreams often reflect our true feelings.

If you want, you can tell me about the dream, maybe I can help you untie some knots. "

Qu Shuyue looked at him with amusement.

"Dr. Tan, I really want to know more details... Maybe I should pay Dr. Tan a little consultation fee."

Tan Xixi shook her head. "Ms. Qu, we are friends. I don't need you to pay anything. I just hope you can be happy and no longer be troubled by that nightmare."

He patted the back of her hand gently, "So, if you want, just tell me about it."

Niu Shuyue raised her eyebrows, pulled Tan Xuxi to the study, and sat in front of the desk.

“Actually, in my dream, I met an angel.

He said that he saved me because his Hippocratic Oath did not allow him to give up any life, even if mine was self-inflicted, even if I was an ant or dust.

He said that I was the first and only person he had ever met and whom he could not stand by and watch die.

He said that as long as I was happy, he could be my scapegoat for the rest of his life.

I don’t like blue, but it has attracted me to jump towards it more than once. He doesn’t know it, but the angels know it.

He gave me a red dress that looked like a wedding dress and a custom-made ruby ​​bracelet.

But I…broke my promise…on the day I received the gift.”

Niu Shuyue raised her hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, then looked at Tan Xuxi and said.

"Doctor Tan, do you believe it? I think that angel is you."

When Tan Xuxi heard this, he was shocked. He didn't expect that he had such a status in Qu Shuyue's heart.

He took a deep breath, tried to calm himself, and then looked at Qu Shuyue gently.

"Ms. Qu, whether you regard me as that angel or not, I will always be by your side to protect you.

I am willing to face your dreams and pain with you. As long as you need me, I will always be there. "

Niu Shuyue slowly leaned her head on Tan Xuxi's shoulder.

Tan Xuxi's embrace was warm and solid, as if it could isolate her from all the disturbances in the outside world.

He patted her back gently, as if comforting a wounded child.

The study was very quiet, with only the sound of two people's shallow breathing intertwined.

Just when Tan Xuxi thought that Niu Shuyue had fallen asleep, she suddenly spoke.

“I’m scared when it comes to talking about doctors. I was scared the day my father died, and I was scared the day my mother died.

The first time I jumped into Shichahai, I was very scared.

The second time I jumped into Shichahai, I was also very scared.

I was scared to cut my wrists while lying in a 37° bathtub.

I was still very scared after jumping off the roof.

But I can't be afraid, because there is no one behind me.

I have to be strong, I have to survive.

Talking about doctors, do you believe it?

In fact, I have never thought about giving up my life. Every time I want to prove whether this world is really worth my stay.

Every time, I find excuses for myself, reasons to live."

After hearing this, Tan Xuxi felt a pang of pain in her heart.

He understood that the pain and struggle that Qu Shuyue had experienced was far beyond his imagination.

She looks strong, but inside she is as fragile as a piece of paper.

Her life was filled with too much fear and despair, but she chose to face it again and again.

"Ms. Qu, don't be afraid. As long as I am here, I will be your angel, your unique Raphael."

Tan Xuxi lowered his head, resting his forehead against hers, his voice low and firm.

“You are unique, irreplaceable, beautiful, worthy of being loved, and worth being expected.

Niu Shuyue, remember, your life is precious and worth cherishing.

I will always be by your side as long as you want me to be."

What Niu Shuyue fears most is being seen through and being warmed by others.

Ordinary warmth to her is like the 50° sun, which will burn her skin and push her into an endless abyss.

"Wuwu... stop talking. The more you talk, the more scared I get. What if one day you are no longer my angel? What should I do?

I'm afraid that I will depend on you, I'm afraid that I will fall in love with you, I'm afraid that I will be unable to live without you.

You are the light, the only light in my dark life.

I'm afraid I'll get stuck in it and won't be able to extricate myself.

Tan Xixi, you are the person I least want to lose in my life. But, can I? Can I have you? "