The president's wife wants to run away

Chapter 56 Self-doubt

I hung up Lin Yuwei's phone, feeling confused. Her crying, pleading, and those seemingly true and false explanations were like sharp knives, cutting bloody marks on my heart. I stumbled out the door, just wanting to escape from it all, escape from the accusations, abuse, and the network that suffocated me.

Zhong Yuxuan chased me out, he grabbed my hand and asked me anxiously: "Luo Xue, where are you going? What happened?"

I shook off his hand, my eyes blurred with tears, "Leave me alone! Leave me alone!"

I had no idea where I was going, so I wandered around aimlessly until I finally hailed a taxi and told them the name of a remote town.

This small town is far away from the hustle and bustle of the city, with fresh air and pleasant scenery. I rented a simple B&B and wandered aimlessly around the town every day, trying to numb myself and escape reality in this way.

However, no matter where I go, I can't get rid of the pain in my heart. Lin Yuwei's words entangled me like a nightmare, and the malicious comments of those online trolls gnawed at my heart like a venomous snake.

I began to doubt my own value and ability. I tried hard to prove myself, to get rid of the label of "Cinderella", to gain everyone's recognition. But why did I end up with such a result?

I was like a wounded little animal, hiding in a dark corner, licking my wounds. I felt unprecedented loneliness and helplessness, as if I had fallen into a bottomless abyss, without a ray of light.

"Am I really wrong? Do I really not deserve happiness?" I curled up in bed, my tears soaking the pillowcase.

At this moment, a knock on the door broke the silence in the room. I got up and opened the door, and saw a familiar face, and a warm feeling suddenly surged in my heart...

"Luo Xue!" Qin Xue hugged me tightly. Her thin body carried amazing strength, as if she wanted to dispel all my uneasiness.

I couldn't hold it back any longer, tears burst out, all the grievances and fears turned into tears and rushed out. Qin Xue said nothing, just patted my back gently, like coaxing a child, one by one, but it strangely calmed me down.

"How did you find me?" I asked with a sob, my voice very hoarse.

Qin Xue took out a tissue from her bag and handed it to me, with a hint of reproach in her tone: "How dare you ask! You ran away without saying a word, do you know how worried I was? Fortunately, Zhong Yuxuan contacted me and said that you might come here to relax."

I then remembered that I had only left a text message for Zhong Yuxuan before I left, saying that I wanted to be alone. I didn't want him to see me in such a state of embarrassment, and I didn't want him to be involved in this endless whirlpool of public opinion.

Qin Xue pulled me to sit on the bedside, her tone gentle but firm: "Tell me, what happened? You can't solve the problem by locking yourself up like this."

I hesitated for a moment, but finally confided in Qin Xue. From Lin Yuwei's crying, to the vicious comments on the Internet, to my own deep self-doubt, I told her everything without reservation.

Qin Xue was silent for a long time after listening to my story. Then she held my hand tightly and said with a firm look: "Luoxue, listen, those people don't understand you at all. They are just blinded by superficial things. You don't need to prove yourself to anyone. You are you, the unique Li Luoxue."

"But..." I bit my lip and wanted to refute, but found that I couldn't find any reason.

Qin Xue seemed to see through my thoughts. She smiled and said, "I know you still have a lot of concerns in your heart, but you have to believe that time will prove everything. Your task now is to have a good rest and adjust your mentality. We will slowly solve other things."

Qin Xue's words were like a beam of warm sunshine, shining into my cold heart. I nodded and tried to force a smile: "Thank you, Qin Xue, I'm glad to have you by my side."

"Silly, we are best friends." Qin Xue smiled and pinched my nose. "Okay, don't think too much. I brought you your favorite cake. Let's eat and talk."

That night, Qin Xue and I talked a lot, from the bits and pieces of the past to the visions and hopes for the future. Her company and encouragement, like the warm sun in winter, melted the ice and snow in my heart little by little.

However, I know in my heart that this is just the beginning. I still have many challenges to face and many obstacles to overcome. Can I regain my confidence and prove myself?

Outside the window, the sky gradually darkened, and the cold winter wind slapped the window, making bursts of sobs, as if responding to my mood at the moment. Qin Xue's cake was very sweet, but I couldn't taste it. Those sweet tastes seemed unable to touch the bitterness deep in my heart.

"Luo Xue, look at me." Qin Xue put down the cake in her hand and looked at me firmly. "Have you ever thought that your value does not only lie in whose daughter you are, but also in what kind of person you are?"

I was stunned for a moment and looked at her in some confusion.

"You are kind, brave, and tenacious. You have created your own life with your own hands. Over the years, you have been running around for the children in the orphanage, helping those in need. You never complain and never give up. Aren't these more important than your background?"

Qin Xue's words were like a flash of lightning, breaking through the haze deep in my heart. Yes, I have been working hard to live and become a better person. Why should I deny myself because of other people's evaluation?

I looked at Qin Xue with gratitude. Her support and encouragement were like a beacon in the darkness, guiding me in the right direction. However, the confusion and self-doubt in my heart were like a lingering fog, making it difficult for me to see the road ahead.

"But, if I wasn't the daughter of the Li family, would Zhong Yuxuan still like me? Would he still treat me the same way he does now?" I murmured to myself, my tone full of uncertainty.

Qin Xue sighed, held my hand and said, "Luo Xue, no one can predict the relationship. But I believe that true love must be based on mutual understanding and respect. If Zhong Yuxuan really loves you, he should accept everything about you, including your past and your family."

I nodded. Qin Xue's words comforted me greatly, but the uneasiness deep in my heart still lingered. I didn't know if I could regain my confidence and happiness, and I didn't know what the future held for Zhong Yuxuan and me.

It was late at night, and the town was completely silent, with only the whistling wind and the occasional barking of dogs. I lay in bed, but I couldn't fall asleep. My mind was in a mess, like a tangled knot that couldn't be untied.

I stood up and walked to the window, looking at the dark night sky outside, feeling confused and helpless. Just then, I saw an old man sitting alone under a street lamp at the corner of the street, his figure looked particularly lonely under the dim light.

I couldn't help but walk downstairs and approach the old man. He was wearing a washed-out cotton jacket, his face was covered with traces of time, but he still had a kind look, exuding a peaceful aura.

"Old man, why are you sitting here alone so late?" I asked softly.

The old man raised his head, a flash of surprise flashed in his cloudy eyes, and then he regained his composure. "I'm waiting for my granddaughter. She will come back from the city to see me today."

"Oh..." I hesitated, not knowing how to start.

"Girl, you look worried. Have you encountered any difficulties?" The old man seemed to see through my thoughts and asked with concern.

I hesitated for a moment, but I still told the old man about my troubles. I told him that I thought I had found happiness, but suddenly I found that it was all built on a lie. I felt confused and helpless, and I didn't know where to go.

The old man listened to my story quietly, and after a moment's silence, he slowly said, "My child, life is like a journey. You will always encounter various landscapes and experience different storms. The important thing is that you must always believe that after the storm, there will always be a rainbow."

His voice was deep and powerful, as if it carried some kind of magic that gradually calmed my restless heart.

"But I have lost my direction and don't know where to go," I whispered.

"Child, have you ever thought about what you really want? What is the most important thing in your heart?" asked the old man.

I was stunned for a moment. I had never seriously thought about this question. I had always lived for others, for the recognition of my family, for the love of Zhong Yuxuan, but I had never asked myself what I really wanted.

"I..." I opened my mouth, but found that I couldn't answer this question.

The old man smiled, pointed at the stars in the sky and said, "Look, there are so many stars in the sky, and each one is emitting its own light. My child, you must also believe that your life is the same, full of infinite possibilities. Don't give up on yourself because of temporary confusion. You must believe that one day, you will find your own piece of starry sky."

The old man’s words were like a flash of lightning, illuminating the darkness deep in my heart and giving me new hope.

The old man's words were like a beacon, illuminating my confused heart. Yes, who have I been living for? For a man who doesn't love me, for a false identity, I even lost myself. I began to examine my life, and those dreams and desires that I had ignored, those bits and pieces that once made me happy, gradually emerged before my eyes.

After saying goodbye to the old man, I walked aimlessly on the country road. The wild flowers on the roadside were in full bloom, colorful and exuding a faint fragrance. I stopped, closed my eyes, and took a deep breath. The fresh air made me feel more relaxed than ever before, and also allowed me to hear the voice of my heart more clearly.

I want to start over, I want to live as my true self, and I want to pursue what I really want.

I took out my cell phone and called Qin Xue. Her familiar voice came from the other end of the line, with a hint of worry and anxiety.

"Luo Xue, where have you been? Zhong Yuxuan has searched the entire city! Do you know that everyone is worried about you?"

Listening to Qin Xue's anxious voice, a warm current surged in my heart. During this period of time, only she has been by my side, giving me encouragement and support.

"Qin Xue, I'm fine. I just want to be alone for a while. Don't worry about me. I'll be back soon."

"Are you really okay? Where are you? I'll go find you."

"No, I'm fine. I'll tell you when I get back."

I hung up the phone and looked into the distance. The sun was setting, and the sky was a fiery red, as if foreshadowing the coming of a new day. My heart was also filled with hope and expectation.

I returned to the villa that once made me feel suffocated, packed my things, and did not take anything that belonged to Zhong Yuxuan. I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes were firm and confident.

I am leaving, leaving this place full of lies and hurt, to find my own happiness.

I walked out of the villa, took a deep breath, and felt the air of freedom. I know that the road ahead is still long, but I am ready to meet new challenges and opportunities.

I hailed a taxi and told Qin Xue's address. The car drove away slowly, and I looked back at this city that once carried my dreams and hopes. There was no trace of nostalgia in my heart, only longing and expectation for the future.

Goodbye, past. Hello, future!