Harry Potter: Who cares about belated motherly love?

I am Sirius Black, my best friend and soul twin James was murdered along with Lily by that bastard Voldemort.

Harry, who was exactly like James, was left alone.

The Potter family had died not long ago because both the main family and the branch family were infected with dragon pox, and there were no relatives left to raise Harry.

The wizarding world is very dangerous, and in order to make the blood protection cast by Lily effective, Dumbledore advocates that Harry should be raised by Lily's blood relatives.

Although I was reluctant, I finally entrusted Harry to Lily's Muggle relatives.

I handed Harry over to them and then went to hunt down the traitor Peter.

However, Peter implicated many Muggles, blew them to pieces, and escaped.

When I woke up, I was detained. For some reason, Peter's crime of killing Muggles was blamed on me, and even the crime of betraying James fell on me.

Without any proper investigation or trial, I was thrown into Azkaban.

Dumbledore was there at the time, and he should have known that the real traitor was Peter, but he put all the blame for the murder of Muggles and the betrayal of James on me, made only a superficial defense, and sent me to Azkaban with almost no objection.

From that moment on, I began to doubt Dumbledore, whom I once believed in.

Life in Azkaban was very difficult.

But the deaths of James and Lily were facts, and it was also true that I went after Peter unprepared, resulting in the deaths of a large number of innocent Muggles.

So, I am willing to accept the fact that I am in Azkaban.

Dementors feed off emotions of happiness and hope.

I was once dominated by despair and almost had a mental breakdown, but in the end I managed to hold on.

I have plenty of time.

Dementors react strongly to positive emotions, so I could only think about negative things nonstop.

I hated Peter so much that I vowed to kill him, but in the end, I became more and more suspicious of Dumbledore.

It was Dumbledore who had originally suggested that I change the secret-keeper's identity from myself to Peter.

Although he didn't say it directly.

If you think about it, Peter comes from a single-parent family, not a prominent family.

If his mother was used as a threat, he would easily defect to the enemy.

Unlike me, no matter how much rejection she faced, the name “Black” still carried weight.

No matter which force it is, no one dares to touch me easily.

What's more, my family is already in the other camp, so there is no possibility of them being taken hostage.

However, some people at the time said that it was a great idea to change the secret-keeper to Peter.

Why didn't I realize that something was wrong?

And James' invisibility cloak.

Even then, Dumbledore did not return it.

If there had been an invisibility cloak, Lily and Harry might have been able to escape.

No, in fact, Lily is a Muggle-born after all, and James is also rich.

Wouldn't it be better if they could cover their tracks, not use magic, and flee overseas?

After being deprived of positive emotions, I finally understood.

Why do I believe so firmly in Dumbledore's justice?

I never got along with my extreme purist mother.

Perhaps because of this, I admire Dumbledore and James even more for being willing to accept Muggles. They have a freshness that I have never seen before.

However, everything is now full of doubts, and even the things I have always believed in have become unbelievable.