After a simple rebirth

zen【You said, I regret not continuing my studies? 】

Wuqing—[Yes, you often lament that you can only work in the kitchen. You have always wanted to change your industry, but you have no education, no experience, and you dare not start a business. You said that you have good grades, but you just didn't study. ]

zen【Is my family really not poor? 】

Seeing the words Zhang Zun sent to her quickly, Fu Ying knew that he was inclined to study, but he still had concerns and confusions.

Wuqing—[Parents just habitually instill in their children the difficult things at home. They don’t want their children to be lazy and spend money lavishly. They want to vent their tiredness and stimulate their children to work hard.] [Really difficult families are mostly those with seriously ill patients, no fixed place to live, or very low income.] [And your family is none of these.]

Speaking of this, Fu Ying sighed inwardly. It took her half her life to realize this truth.

This is how the older generation of Chinese education is, and so is Fu's mother, who always says things like "Life is difficult at home, she and Fu's father work very hard, and if the children don't study well, it would be a shame for their daily work."

Fu Ying had always had good grades. She could barely stick to studying and ignore some of what her mother said.

Fu Zhe is not like that. He quarreled and talked back to his mother more than once. When his mother said that he had a hard time, Fu Zhe got angry and didn't want to study. He wanted to be self-reliant and stop relying on his parents for food. So sometimes Fu Zhe's mother's words had the opposite effect. Her hope for her son to succeed turned into suppression of the child. In the vicious cycle, the child's failure to succeed became a daily topic of quarrels.

Many people's childhood can only heal on their own. Fu Ying and others can only digest their parents' expectations and emotions by themselves and work hard to grow up on their own.

The same is true for Zhang Zun's family. The more I learn about them, the more I realize that his family is not poor, especially since his parents are still working and his grandfather has savings. When the family buys a house, relatives are willing to help. What's the difficulty?

His mother asked his uncle to use his connections to get him into a vocational high school, but she kept talking about him. Zhang Zun didn't want to study anymore, so he went to work directly.

In fact, the real difficulty came later. His parents saw that they were working and stopped working in their 40s. Later, they had to pay for the household expenses and buy a house, which caused more conflicts.

Moreover, as the gap between the rich and the poor widened, his relatives looked down on his family. It was rare for them to lend him money, and their words were not pleasant. His mother was also very proud, so she put pressure on Zhang Zun, asking him to work with his brother, and accused him of not giving his parents as much pension money as others, and not being good at work. Zhang Zun didn't want to quarrel with her, so he simply stopped contacting her and didn't go home for a year.

zen【Isn't my family poor? My sister's living expenses for school are so high.】

Wuqing—[What's the difficulty in your family? Is it hard to make ends meet just to support your sister's high school and college education? Others who support three or four children in school have managed to get by just fine. ] [You are considerate of your family now, but your parents may not appreciate it. After a few years of finding a job to supplement the family income, your family will blame you for not studying hard and making them lose face in the village. ]

In fact, Fu Ying sometimes couldn't understand Zhang Zun's mother. She couldn't rely on her eldest son, but she also suppressed her younger son. She could say to Zhang Zun, "Your uncles' children have such good jobs and high salaries, and your salary is too little. Don't spend money recklessly and pay more for the household expenses."

Zhang Zun on the other side remained silent, but Fu Ying was so excited that she couldn't help but speak passionately on the microphone again.

Wuqing—[You are only understanding their temporary difficulties now, but for parents, face is sometimes more important than life. If you can get into college, they will be happy about this temporary difficulty and thank you for letting them hold their heads high in the village. For you, the long-term future is more important. Even if you don't go to a regular high school, it's better to go to a vocational high school and have a degree and a skill than to regret having nothing in the future, being confined to the morning tea industry and having to go to work at five in the morning.]

zen【I am afraid that I will not be able to get into a key university. 】

Wuqing—[Are you afraid of not being admitted to a key university so you don’t go to high school? Are you afraid of being laughed at so you don’t go out? Are you throwing the baby out with the bathwater? 】【Whether you can pass the exam or not is a matter for the future. Have you tried? Have you worked hard? Can you only go to a key university if you pass it? 】

Fu Ying decided to stop typing and calm down. This was the most emotional day for her since her rebirth.

After all, they were lovers, and Zhang Zun was sometimes hesitant and hesitant, so Fu Ying couldn't help but kick him. In the end, she asked him to make a choice quickly, and once he made it, he should not think about it anymore, and admit whether it was right or wrong.

zen【Has the general high school started yet?】

Wuqing—[Tell your parents that you want to go to high school, and they will figure out the rest. ]

Fu Ying thinks that a common problem among children who have received Chinese education is that they care too much about others. They always think: It must be difficult for my parents, and it must be difficult for my sisters too, so I should just give up and stop making things difficult for my parents.

Just like your parents sometimes make decisions for you without asking you, you make decisions for your parents without asking them, determining their future and your future.

zen【What can my parents do?】

Fu Ying's anger rose again. There was no way out of this, right?

Wuqing—[What can your parents do? Your grandfather used to be the team leader, so he has connections, right? Your uncle knows people in the Education Bureau, so he knows people, right? The high school is near your home, so your relatives must have some connections, right?] [You passed the high school entrance exam, and your results are in. They didn’t let you go to a difficult key high school. With your score, it’s easy to get into the high school near your home. With some connections, you can get into any place! You may even be able to get into a key class!]

Fu Ying silently said in her heart: Save yourself, not others! Save yourself, not others! Save yourself, not others!

Finally typed [Thinking more is worse than asking and doing. I can't always answer you online, and your parents and your brother can't always be by your side. Whether you study or work next, it's time for you to start thinking independently and make your own decisions. ]

So be it, let him do whatever he wants. She is tired. No matter how good their relationship is, she can't order him around or make decisions for him.

Zhang Zun also felt her anger and said nothing more.

zen【Okay, I'll go back and try.】

When Fu Ying saw this, she ended the chat with him immediately and went to check other messages slowly.

Maomao asked her to go shopping, but she said she had returned to her hometown and couldn't go.

Wu Shuang, who hadn't been in touch for a long time, also sent a message, asking her if she was in her hometown, and Fu Ying also answered.

When she opened the space, all she saw were posts about youth literature. Fu Ying was shocked. These were all dark histories.

Then she saw that her homeroom teacher had uploaded all the photos from the graduation days, so she also went in and saved the photos to her own album.

All my own photos are stored in private albums, and I don’t want anyone to see them. As for photos of my classmates, I make a class album and put them all in it.

Fu Ying didn’t know that the teacher also took photos on the day of the high school entrance examination. Seeing the photos of her classmates going to the examination room was filled with memories.

Zhang Zun sent another message, but Fu Ying ignored it and continued to save the photos.

Only read new messages after saving.

zen【Are your grades very good? How do you study? 】

Wuqing—[My grades are OK. The learning method depends on the individual. As long as you can learn it, it is useful.]

[If you go to a regular high school, you will learn comprehensive knowledge in the first year. You need to make up for the knowledge you learned in junior high school and lay a solid foundation. In the second year of high school, you will be divided into arts and science. You should choose science. At that time, you can decide which subjects to focus on based on your own situation.]

[I am a liberal arts student, so I just memorize knowledge points, do mind maps, and practice questions.]

After that, Fu Ying sent the name of the material she used, [You can try to go to the bookstore to look at this set of materials. I think it is very good. I wonder if you are interested. And your sister was admitted to a key university. There are some notes she left at home. You can also take a look. ]

zen【My brother is two years older than me, can he also go to school? 】

Wuqing—[This is not up to you. It depends on whether your brother is willing to go back to school and whether your parents are willing to let him go back to school.]

In fact, Fu Ying thinks that there is still a good chance that he can go to a vocational high school. It is also good for his brother to go to school. Anyway, he is hanging around at home without a job now, and many vocational high schools have no restrictions on previous graduates.

But with one more person studying, there will be more pressure, and I don't know what her parents will do. Moreover, the vocational high school is in the city, and it is unknown whether her brother is willing to go so far to study. If he goes, his brother may become better, but if he doesn't go, he may become more closed and emotionally indifferent.

But Fu Ying wouldn't ask.

zen【Do you have a fixed time to surf the Internet? 】

Wuqing—[No, I will rarely come to the Internet cafe in the future, and I may not come again in the next six months.]

After thinking about it, Fu Ying continued,

Wuqing—[If you have something to say, you can leave a message. I will reply to you when I see it. But the only person you can rely on is yourself. ]

zen【good】

After the conversation, Fu Ying suddenly felt like she was working. She solved a lot of problems and answered a lot of questions at once.

After setting herself to be invisible online, Fu Ying decided to search for study materials. There were still many websites where people shared study materials, but she had to find them and copy them herself because it was not convenient for her to download or print them.

As expected, I found a physics lesson with a picture quality of the Qing Dynasty. Fu Ying didn’t have high hopes for the pixels at that time, but it was too blurry!!!

Fu Ying finally switched to English, at least the picture quality of BBC was guaranteed. She had not read the entire "A Brief History of Europe", but she just happened to read it as a review of her English and history.

I had just finished watching one episode when Zhang Zun sent me another message.

zen【Are you going home soon? 】

Fu Ying looked at the time and it was indeed, already five o'clock.

Wuqing—[Yes, a few more minutes.]

zen【Finally, I want to ask you, what is your motivation for learning? 】

After careful consideration, Fu Ying answered him seriously.

Wuqing—[In order not to regret not studying and not learning professional knowledge in the future. In order to have a legitimate full-time undergraduate degree when looking for a job, so that I will not even meet the interview requirements. In order to earn face for my parents and to reassure them about my future. ]

[I like studying. I like the quiet and immersion when studying, I like to learn how to solve a math problem, I like to describe my ideas in English, and I like to review to get high scores.]

[There may be regrets and failures in the future, but I will not allow giving up and not working hard to be the factors that lead to failure.]

zen【You are very strong inside.】

Wuqing—【Only by persistence can one become strong. 】

At this moment, Fu Zhe also asked her if it was time, and Fu Ying said yes.

Wuqing—[I'm done, just stick to your idea. ]

The three of them strolled back home, and in order to cover up her lie, Fu Ying had no choice but to buy two notebooks.

When she got home, Fu's mother asked her what she bought. Fu Ying said she wanted to read the materials recommended by Teacher Li Xingyun, but they were sold out, so she only bought two notebooks.

Seeing that she did have the notebook in her hand, Fu's mother thought about Fu Ying's current performance and didn't say anything.