Zongman: Unknowingly trapped in the hatchet

It’s so strange, why can’t I see Xiaoqing’s face clearly suddenly?

Is...Xiaoqing going to fly away?

I am such an idiot, what am I talking about...

The scenery in the park today is beautiful, really beautiful.

She was just thinking that if Xiaoqing didn't go to buy disinfectants for her, Xiaoqing might be able to see such a beautiful scenery.

Maybe the two of them can still sit together on this bench, even if it's just to watch quietly for three or five minutes, even if it's just without saying a word...

Yui's vision gradually became blurred, and certain emotions were spinning wildly in her eyes, but she always maintained a delicate balance. Yui just felt so uncomfortable and painful, she wanted to scream, she wanted to release.

But she can't...

Xiaoqing, I'm still here...

I don’t want Xiaoqing to see me like this. I must be crying now, I must be crying, right?

There has never been a time when Yui wanted to hide herself so much, as if her current appearance was so shameful.

Obviously... obviously Xiaoqing had just praised herself for being pretty enough without makeup...

No, no.

Is it because Xiaoqing praised me like that that I can't let Xiaoqing see me in my current appearance?

I must be very ugly now. Xiaoqing probably won’t like me like this.

Screwed it…

I really am a fool just like Xiaoqing said.

Why do you want to talk about this to yourself?

Obviously, obviously it's better to keep it in your heart...

The girl suddenly turned sideways. Her mother once told her that when she wanted to cry but didn't want to, she could raise her head at 45 degrees so that her tears would not flow down all at once.

How did you answer at that time?

Oh, right.

I pushed my mother out of the room angrily, and complained softly:

"I won't cry. I'm not the same person I was when I was a kid anymore!"

I'm sorry...Mom.

Yui lied back then, I seem to be still the same as before...

Thank you...Mom.

Yui is using it now, and it really works...

"Xiao, Xiaoqing, it's getting late. You should go back. If you don't go back, it will be dark soon."

Yui didn't know how she said this. She seemed to be isolated from the world. She couldn't hear her own voice or see the scenery around her, but fortunately, she could still hear what Xiaoqing was saying.

"how about you?"

"I, I want to stay here for a while longer. I haven't watched the sun set like this for a long time." Perhaps because she was afraid that Su Qing would worry, or because she was afraid that Su Qing would want to ask something, Yui suppressed her sobs and urged:

"Don't worry about me. I've already told mom that I'll be back later. I'll just stay for a while and then go back by myself! So, so Xiaoqing, you should go back first."

That's not the case...

I don't want you to leave...Xiaoqing...

No, Yui, you can’t do that, and you can’t say that.

That's a bad boy!

Even though her back was facing Su Qing, and even though she knew Su Qing couldn't see what she was doing at the moment, Yui still pretended to casually rub her eyes with her sleeve, trying to wipe away the few drops of crystal that were about to overflow due to her disobedience.

At least, not now.

The girl told herself to hold on a little longer.

After Xiaoqing leaves, I can do whatever I want!

"Well, then I'm leaving?"

Su Qing's light words came from behind, Yui felt relieved, nodded quickly, and urged again:

"Okay. Be careful on the road."

Su Qing didn't reply this time. Yui could only hear the sound of plastic bags rubbing against each other. She thought that he was packing alcohol, bandages, etc. If she had known that he would cry, she should have helped him pack them in advance.

Then, Yui felt the boy stand up, and she was the only one left on the bench, feeling empty.

Until the footsteps gradually faded away and there was no more movement behind.

Yui knew that Su Qing was gone. At this moment, tears finally fell from her face like pearls from a broken string, and then soaked a corner of her black suit jacket, which seemed a bit out of place compared to other places.

It’s better not to cry. If you keep crying your clothes will get wet. If your mother sees you when you get home, she will be worried, right?

But, I can’t stop…

Cry for a while, cry for a while, mom won’t know if you cry on your sleeves.

Yui thought, she was still not smart enough. If she was smart enough, she wouldn't be hiding here crying secretly now, right?

Yui thought again, she must be quite smart. If she wasn't smart, she wouldn't be hiding here crying secretly now, right?

So is Yui smart or not?

The girl thought about it and decided not to think about it anymore.

She just closed her legs and curled up into a ball, just like the pink ball she had tied on one side. Then, she buried her head deeply in it, and the small secret room that belonged to Yui alone was built.

Next, you can cry!

Just don't cry too loudly. It would be bad if some children who haven't returned home yet suddenly come running over and get scared by you.

Besides, what if, what if Xiaoqing hasn't gone far and suddenly comes back after hearing my crying, then wouldn't I have been holding it in for nothing for so long?

As for whether Su Qing would come back after hearing her crying, Yui didn't even think about it. She felt that he would.

And yes – for sure!

After all, Xiaoqing treats herself best!

How could I leave you here crying alone when I'm good to you? You're lying!

No, no! I didn't lie!

Xiaoqing was not angry when Sabule suddenly knocked him down on the first day. He just smiled and praised Sabule for being energetic and cute!

Xiaoqing would teach me math and physics, but when I couldn't learn, he would always give me questions on the same knowledge point, so I couldn't find him after class...

But...that's because I'm too stupid!

Xiaoqing also told me to say whatever I want to say and not to be overwhelmed by other people’s atmosphere!

Although, although I still didn't know how to say no to Youmiko that time, Xiaoqing came over very quickly and held my hand, and held my hand until we left the classroom. That was the first time we held hands!

Oh, by the way, after holding hands, Xiaoqing hugged me tightly for the first time. Although it was an accident, it was definitely because Xiaoqing was worried about me!

Also, even though his cookies tasted so bad, like black charcoal, Xiao Qing said he was disgusted and even said something like “If you feed me this kind of stuff, I’ll break up with you”, but he still ate a lot of them that day!

Xiaoqing really can’t bear to part with me, her good friend, hehe.

There is more!

That time when I was eating pomegranate candy with Xiaoqing, Xiaoqing told herself that there are things that taste better than pomegranate candy!

At that time, my mind was full of Xiaoqing praising me for my sweet smile. After returning home, I suddenly realized that Xiaoqing must be treating me to more delicious candy!

And, there are many more...

So - I didn't lie!

Sadness spread like mist, flowing through the girl's blood vessels and filling every corner of her body. It was so gentle, yet so heavy, like water, as if it wanted to drown her.

The girl murmured subconsciously:

"Xiaoqing..."

"Well, I'm here."

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