Genshin Impact: What should I do if I become my own character? !

It was indeed comfortable to discuss and study together, and there was no one in the library, so as long as we were not too loud, no one would notice.

It was noon... He looked at the angle of the sun shining through the glass, stopped talking, stood up, and put the book back to where he had taken it. He tiptoed as he put the book back. The heights required to take the book and put it back were different. "I'm sorry, Desir, I may have to go home first. My sister is waiting for me. Goodbye, my dear friend."

"Goodbye..." He didn't say the name that was allowed to be said until the person left his sight, "Nolinxi..."

She took out the book that the girl had to tiptoe to put back, and saw that there was a small bookmark stuck there. Was it put there when she left?

Is that a hydrangea? The purple flower is very beautiful. I have never seen it before, so I feel a little strange. After all, in Mondstadt, except for the one on Eldana's head, I have never seen this kind of flower before...

The last time I issued the card, I was in a hurry and didn’t look at it carefully. It looks a bit ordinary...

But the color is pretty, a very beautiful purple... just like her eyes...

I took the book back to my room temporarily and planned to return it after lunch.

The room was spacious and comfortable, and it was the one facing the sun. I had to walk through a long corridor to get to my room. The corridor was a bit too deserted. Although there were many windows, there were still places where the sun could not shine.

At some point in the evening, the servants would light all the lamps, making it as bright as day.

The books in the room were moved in these two days. They are books on alchemy. Maybe I wanted to find more topics to talk about so as not to be bored. Suddenly I realized that there seems to be no need to learn so much. After all, as long as you learn to listen, you will be happy.

"Desir!" A slightly angry voice came. After putting the book on the table, he half-knelt down, lowered his head and looked at the ground. The owner of the voice was very familiar.

“Dear father, I am flattered by your visit. It is an honor for me to have you here in person… well…” After receiving a hard slap on the face, he did not ask why, but just remained quietly in a half-kneeling position.

“Where is your upbringing?! After staying with lowly commoners for so long, have you picked up that disgusting and vulgar language?!” Compared to the man who was biting people like a mad dog, the man who was half-kneeling quietly was more like the noble who understood etiquette.

"Dear father, I'm sorry for making you have such thoughts. I feel very sorry for this..." The voice was low, which was the most common tone used at home.

“The respected Lawrence family should keep a proper distance from those lowly civilians. We should let those civilians admire us, fear us, but respect us. And you! As the person with the greatest potential to become the head of the Lawrence family! You lower yourself and become a so-called close friend with a lowly civilian woman!” He belittled and denied every decision as before, and slowly walked to the table. “I gave you the right to freedom, so that you can see the world, but what have you become after you come back?! You even read this kind of book!” The book was thrown to the ground with a loud bang.

“……” He was rarely silent, or rather, he was the one who always remained silent at home, just like usual.

"Speak up! Have you learned all the etiquette? Deshier! What did that lowly commoner say to you? Tell me, you don't really want to be with a lowly commoner, do you?"

"That's my friend...please respect her..."

"Heh!" He looked at the person half-kneeling on the ground and laughed, "Why? Friends? Have I taught you how to choose friends? I believe you still remember! A woman who can't help you become the head of the family should be cut off as soon as possible, otherwise when you need to arrange a marriage in the future, those noble ladies will reduce your points for it."

"That's not friendship...that's mutual exploitation." The so-called friends are all exchanges for more benefits, without a trace of true feelings revealed.

He put his hand on his shoulder and pulled him up: "Deshier, my dear son, my glory, my hope, believe me, you will not let me and my mother down, right?"

The place on my face where I was slapped still hurt, but as soon as my father said this, it seemed as if all my anger and resentment disappeared.

"Father..."

"Dexier, you will become the head of the family, you will definitely do it. Don't let me down, and don't let mom down."

"I promise you that I will work hard to become the head of the family..." After becoming an adult, the methodical and even cowardly man looked into his father's eyes for the first time and made his request. "I will be so outstanding that no other competitor can match me. I don't need the so-called marriage to increase my bargaining chips... I also don't want any young lady to be the benefit of the exchange."

“……”The father didn’t say anything. The door slammed shut and he chose to leave in silence.

I picked up the book on the ground. The cover was relatively intact, but the pages inside were wrinkled and there were even some tears in some places.

The fragile dried flower bookmark fell to the ground and broke into several tiny pieces, completely unrecognizable.

When he left, my father deliberately stepped on the ground. Although there was no mud on his shoes, there was an obvious footprint.

Spread out the book, smooth each page out with your hands, then close the book and place another book on top of it.

Other books scattered on the ground were also picked up. None of them were as badly damaged as that book. The same steps were followed to straighten them out one by one and then press them down with heavy objects.

You must be very sad, right? You haven't finished watching it yet, but it's broken...

I didn't go to lunch. When you become an adult, you don't have to attend family dinners every day. Except for some special times when everyone is required to attend, when you become an adult, there will always be something else to do.

I carried the books back to the library and put all the books back in their original places, including that one.

I picked up a fairy tale book that I listened to most often when I was a child and started reading it carefully. At that time, my mother would often read comic books quietly by my bedside, with the window open so that the wind would blow into the room.

At that time, my mother was in good health, so she would stay with me every night and leave only after I fell asleep.

She would touch her face with her warm hands and repeatedly say, "Deshier, my hope, I love you."

As long as mother is still here, every dream will be a beautiful dream...

My mother's illness seemed to be getting worse. I tried to feed her some medicine, but she started smashing things again...

But when I am awake, I still hum songs softly and recite stories that I have heard countless times.