After the rebirth of the idol, he started to lose weight and became the best actor

After Jing Xian left, Lu Rong returned to her daily routine on the crew.

Rose Fever is a low-budget production with fewer scenes and a small cast, and can be shot in 1-3 months.

Especially the shots involving the male lead rarely had NGs. The director himself prepared for two or three years and was unwilling to let go of any free time after the official shooting began.

The other three main creative staff members are college students who have just graduated and are at the perfect age to be slaves.

The few of them hit it off immediately, and the shooting progressed by leaps and bounds, just in time for a few days before Lu Rong started school.

The night before leaving the crew, Lu Rong knocked on the director's door.

"Come in."

Xiang Yang didn't even raise his head, completely concentrating on the editing work in front of him.

He invested most of the money invested by Jingxian into the post-production of the film. In order to catch up with the National Day schedule, he filmed and edited the film at the same time, and stayed up late every day.

Another part of the money was used to increase the actors' pay. It was not easy for several young people to accompany him to film in the wilderness.

Although Xiang Yang's upright character offended many of his colleagues, he was always nice to the actors in the crew.

"Director, I'm Lu Rong."

Xiang Yang finally raised his head, his tone slightly tired: "Xiao Rong, what's the matter?"

"Huai Yunjian has a prototype, right?" Lu Rong said word by word, and the whole room suddenly became quiet.

After a long silence, Xiang Yang lowered his head and took a deep breath: "You... discovered it..."

He took out a cigarette, and when he looked up, his eyes were dark: "Do you mind?"

Seeing Lu Rong shaking her head, Xiang Yang tiredly lit a cigarette, took a deep puff, and his mind instantly became much clearer.

"He is my son, named Xiang Yun. Yes, he is the prototype of Huai Yunjian."

Maybe it was because he finally had someone to talk to, or maybe he subconsciously believed in Lu Rong's character.

Under the moonlight, Director Xiang began to slowly tell the story of the past that was buried deep in his heart.

"I am sorry for him. What they said on the Internet is right. Parents who can't have children should not bring them into this world without permission..." Xiang Yang wiped his tears.

When he was shooting his first film, he met his gentle wife. They fell in love with each other, got married, and soon had their first child.

But marriage is not love, it requires joint efforts from both parties. After the second film became a hit, career and dreams occupied almost everything of his life.

His wife couldn't stand him being away from home all year round, and the marriage ended in a hasty divorce. With the agreement of both parties, the son was awarded to him. Soon she had a new family, and her attention to her ex-husband's son gradually decreased.

Due to his divorced family and lonely life, Xiang Yun unfortunately suffered from bipolar disorder. In the same year, he fell in love with a girl in his class.

How can a child who can’t even learn to love himself love others?

Bipolar disorder is a mental illness in which patients experience two distinct mood states: manic episodes and depressive episodes.

During a manic episode, patients may experience elevated mood, euphoria, increased energy, increased activity, increased talking, racing thoughts, inflated self-confidence, and decreased need for sleep.

During a depressive episode, symptoms are similar to those of depression, including low mood, loss of interest and pleasure, fatigue, changes in sleep and appetite, self-blame and guilt, difficulty concentrating, and even suicidal thoughts.

Xiang Yun does not understand normal love. When he has a manic episode, he often does some eye-catching actions like a little boy to try to attract girls' attention.

These actions not only caused confusion and disgust to the girl, but also caused ridicule by the students in the class who were watching the fun.

He doesn't understand.

So the depression lasted longer and longer.

He always sat in the back row of the class and couldn't help crying. His classmates thought he was capricious and called him a psycho. They asked what kind of man would cry at any time?

Xiang Yun sometimes shares his family story to attract other people's attention, and the people who listen to him seem to feel sorry for him, but then turn around and start chatting and laughing with other people.

When Xiang Yang learned about his son's illness, it was already the most stressful time of his senior year in high school, and it was also the time when Xiang Yun was bullied the most.

The students in the class seemed to have gotten used to making fun of him after class. They liked to take his things and hide them, then laugh and watch his pitiful look as he anxiously searched for them.

After picking up his son, Xiang Yang looked at a classroom full of students wearing clean white school uniforms, feeling extremely confused.

These students will rescue stray cats and dogs on the street, and will stand up for a stranger on the Internet, but they are unwilling to show even a little concern for a classmate who is in distress.

At that time, Xiang Yang was filled with regret. Even if he was full of glory, what did it matter? He was still a failure.

After watching his son cry and laugh countless late nights, he decided to quit the entertainment industry.

He took his son to Rose Manor for recuperation, but before he could deal with the follow-up, his son committed suicide on the night he was about to move in.

Xiang Yang took a deep breath, the smoke blurred his eyes and eyebrows. The man in his forties said with a trembling voice, sobbing:

"I arrived just one step late. I was already at the doorstep. If I had turned a step and gone to the back garden first, I could have stopped Xiaoyun. I could have confidently told him that daddy would always be with him from now on...ah...ah..."

He choked and his whole chest was shaking. The cold wind was howling outside the door, and the faint scent of roses came in through the crack in the door.

"You, you know how scared I was when I didn't see him after I went upstairs? Xiaoyun even left me a letter, telling me not to worry, he would sleep quietly outside and not let the house become a haunted house. How can I be assured? He doesn't even have a home after death..."

Xiang Yang wiped his tears. A grown man crying like a fool.

"Xiao Rong, actually on the day of the audition, there was an actor who looked very much like him. I hesitated for a long time, but there was a soul in your eyes. That was the him who grew up alone and pushed himself to despair. When the first shot was taken, I couldn't sleep all night. I thought it was him coming back."

"My condolences, director." Lu Rong frowned: "Is this movie made to commemorate him?"

"Yes." Xiang Yang admitted.

"I gave him a name that means freedom, hoping that he can live a better life in his next life, and not... not meet such irresponsible parents again. I selfishly arranged a heroine for him, and asked him to love boldly. I also wanted him to have a home when he leaves..."

I don't know when the wind outside the window stopped, and the dim light made the shadows of the two people very long.