The Pillow of the Bad President

"For a long time, as long as I closed my eyes, it was the horrible scene of that night! I wasn't sure if I could really come out of the shadows, so when you proposed to go back to China, I didn't go with you, I didn't For the cause, but I need time, need more time to face

......"

For the past four years, she stayed in New York alone. Apart from thinking about him every day and night, she was also trying to prevent herself from being troubled by those shadows, but after all, such things cannot be healed for women. scars.Mobile terminal m..

Song Jiaren paused here for a long time, and then slowly said again, "Gisen..." "After returning to China, I realized that there is no way for us to go back. Giseon has pursued me for many years. I was left alone in New York. He kept asking for my health, knowing that after I committed suicide for you, he still cared about me persistently. I wanted to have a new start, so

So he agreed to his marriage proposal! "Before I decided to get the certificate, I told him that I would not have children. If he accepted, we would get married. He agreed to me at that time and respected my choice!"During our honeymoon in the Maldives, he found out about my secret.

I should have concealed something, so I told him everything, thinking that his feelings for me could be tolerated..." Song Jiaren laughed at herself, the tears that just fell on her face had already been wiped away by her hands. Only the moisture in the corners of the eyes remained, and he said in a shy voice, "Now that things have happened, I don't actually blame Jisen, what he said is right, I am indeed sorry for him!I'm actually more sorry for him, I understand everything about him

So I didn't promise to call the police before you and Ms. Sang came home! ""I'm a woman who can't give birth normally, not just him, any man with me, no matter how much he loves me, thinking that I have been raped by so many foreign men for other men... and I lost my womb and couldn't conceive a child , even test-tube babies can't do anything, I will

Uncomfortable, there is no way to accept it! "

After the last word was finished, only the sound of the infusion tube falling every two seconds remained in the ward, and the silence seemed very long.

Qin Sinian's peach blossom eyes were covered with blackness, and all the cells in his body were panting wildly in shock, like a stiff sculpture, sitting on the chair, never changing his posture.

The protruding Adam's apple rolled up and down several times before finally making a sound, "Jiaren, why didn't you tell me? When you returned to China four years later, you never said a word!"

Even the moment when she chose to end her life, she never told him... "I don't want your guilt!" Song Jiaren shook her head heavily, "Si Nian, I also have my own pride. I came back from New York Looking for you, what I want is your love, not your sympathy! If you agree to start over with me because you sympathize with me, such impure feelings

Love I would rather not! "

Qin Sinian never thought that there would be such an involvement behind the revenge incident back then. He has never known it since he returned to China for so many years, and Song Jiaren wanted to hide it. If it wasn't for the domestic violence involved, he would have It is possible that you will not know it all your life!

He always thought that Song Jiaren didn't choose to go back to China with him four years ago, but simply didn't want to give up her ballet career, but he didn't expect that there was such a heavy reason...

If Song Jiaren told him about this after returning to China, would the current situation be different?

Will he choose to start over with her?

The four-year agreement marriage is over, will he really let go of Sang Xiaoyu's hand?

The answer is no.

Qin Sinian is very clear about this cognition. As early as when he chose to return to China, he sorted out all his feelings. Once he leaves, he will never see him again. Even if he learns the truth later, he will never let go. Mrs. Qin who lost herself...

Veins popped up on the back of his hand, and in the end all he could utter were these words, "Beauty, I'm sorry."

Thousands of words I wanted to say, but in the end there were only three weak words left. "No, Si Nian, you don't have to tell me you're sorry!" Song Jiaren said shyly, "If possible, I would like to keep this matter from you for the rest of my life! Yours is, it's all over, I've been out of the shadows

Here it is, and this is my own business, you don't need to blame yourself or feel guilty! "

Song Jiaren let go of her clenched fists, and said slowly, "As for the matter between me and the Jisen couple, I will take care of it, and it has nothing to do with you!"

"Beauty..." Qin Sinian's deep voice was hoarse, and the only thing he could say was this, "I'm sorry!"

How can you not blame yourself, how can you not feel guilty?

If it wasn't for saving him back then, Song Jiaren would not have suffered such torture. After returning home, she was rejected by him and even chose to commit suicide to end her life. In the end, in order to forget that he chose to start a new relationship, she hastily agreed to Ji Sen's marriage proposal. As for the domestic violence that has evolved into the present...

These initial triggers were all because of him, the chest was full of suffocated and suffocated emotions, and there was nowhere to release them.

Song Jiaren shook her head again, and said firmly, "I said, you don't need to blame yourself or feel guilty. It's been so many years, and I've come out! Si Nian, promise me, don't say sorry again!"

Qin Sinian's thin lips were pursed into a thin line, and his eyes were gloomy.

Song Jiaren turned her head to look out the window, smiled at him, and said proactively, "It's getting late, I have nothing to do! Miss Sang must be waiting for you at home, you should go back soon!"

Hearing the word "Miss Sang", Qin Sinian's Taohua eyes lightened slightly.

After a moment of silence, Qin Sinian got up from the chair and moved towards the door of the ward as stiffly as his figure.

"Si Nian!"

Qin Sinian froze when he opened the door.

Song Jiaren lowered her almond eyes, grasping the quilt with both hands, her voice was very soft, but the trembling inside could be heard, "This incident is... shameful to me, it is the biggest stain in my life! You Just keep it as a secret and bury it in the bottom of my heart, I don't want a third person to know, is that okay?"

How could he say no?

Qin Sinian's Adam's apple rolled, and his voice was as low as a bell from an ancient temple, "I promise you."

……

The sky was as red as fire, and there were deserts all around, as if there was no end.Sang Xiaoyu was struggling to move, and the yellow sand was flying all over the sky, and the sand got into her neck and mouth, scraping her skin.

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