Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

There is only one person in the room.

What I am most afraid of in the lonely night is the light. When others turn off all the lights, I leave my own sadness in my heart.

Just when Zhang Zhentian was ready and wanted to travel abroad with her wife, she realized that some things were really not as simple as she imagined.

Some things can’t be done by one’s own wishful thinking. If you use this method again and again to keep the people around you, then what’s the point of living in this world?

Even if I really gave him my heart, so what, the result I got time and time again is not just heartbreaking pain, how much we have paid for him, in his eyes Everything is just a small thing, and he doesn't put it deep in his heart at all.

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"Zhentian, there is one thing I have to tell you clearly. No matter what we will become this time, I hope you can let me go in the future. Maybe in your eyes, you don't think all of this is very important, but In my eyes, I regard all this as very important. Everyone has a different point of view and a different way of looking at things. You can't understand, but do you know? Very happy and happy, you gave me many things that I didn't get.

But deep down in my heart, I really have no way to forget his ending. It may make you feel very unfair in your heart, and make you feel that you are too incompetent. But do you know how happy I am with you, how happy I am? happy.

Today may be the last time we go on a trip, this time, maybe we will never have any intersection with each other again, but do you know that I am also afraid of such an ending, and I am also afraid of such a thing happening to me, I don't want these things to become obstacles between the two of us again and again, I just want to live the life that everyone wants safely.

But in this life, I have no way to give you the life you want most, because my heart is not here, I love the man in my heart deeply, I have loved for so long, and I can do everything for her, But in the end he couldn't be with me. For me, this may be a wound that I have no way to heal in my life. I have been asking myself again and again, what is it for, for a Someone who has already lost? But I just realized that I really can't lose him. Without him, I have no way to live. She is the whole driving force of my life. "

Zhang Zhentian really can't stand his wife's capriciousness, what's the point of doing this over and over again? He clearly promised himself to give himself a chance to try to fall in love with him, but why he said such things to himself now? slap me in the face naked?

"Xia Jing, I don't know what you think deep down in your heart, don't you think you are slapping me naked? Because you have already promised to give each other a chance, why should you say such things now? Don't you think so? Is it too unfair or too cruel for me? If you have a little affection for me in your heart, you won’t treat me in this way. In your heart, what am I? small pet or what

Can you do anything Don't be so capricious, what's the point of you going back and forth like this You just hurt people who care about you over and over again, you know

You think you can't lose him, if you lose him, you have no way to live, what about me, what am I, I am the same as you, I can't lose you, I have nothing to lose There is a way to live, I don't even have the courage to face reality, you can't pity me and give me a glimmer of hope to live, so that I can live happily here, stay by your side, and accompany you, right? Good? You have to drive everyone to a dead end to be reconciled?

In fact, deep down in my heart, I really don’t understand why you can’t let go of these things after so long. In my eyes, you are so considerate and now, why have you become so irresponsible? rationale

I just want to go on a trip with you in peace, restore things, and take you to appreciate the natural scenery, but why do you always treat me like this? You have already promised me, why should I reject you now? Where does this put me, and what do you think of me?"

"I didn't mean that, in my heart you have always been my family, some things I just don't know how to tell you, how should I explain to you, because the more I say, the more I explain, in your eyes Maybe it's just an excuse to prevaricate, I really don't want us to get to that point with each other.

There are some things that I can’t explain to you. The generation gap between us is too big. You may not believe some things when you say them, but I have to say some things. Why do you have to complicate everyone’s thinking? What everyone wants is just a stable life, but why can't you even get the minimum of these

Forcing love has no effect. I have stayed by your side all these years, but gradually I found that even if I leave you a place in my heart, you already have a weight in my heart, but you will always be there I can't compare to her, because she is the most important thing in my heart, I would give up my life for her, but I can't do it for you.

This is such a big difference, can’t you feel it? Don’t you want to let go of such a big difference? You have to die here, let’s not let go Let’s live together in pain, you’re happy, you’re happy, Are you satisfied? Why is human nature always so greedy and selfish?

You think I am capricious, but am I really capricious? I still want a simple and peaceful life just like you, but who can give us such a life? Only those who love themselves can live this kind of life I can figure it out, don't you? Since I don't love you, even if I stay with you, even if I forcefully keep you by my side, you may be happy.But what about me? Do I have to use my life's happiness as a gamble, whether I will fall in love with you one day? Don't you think this way is a bit too cruel for me? Since you really love me, then Please give me a chance to see if I can live the life I want, okay?"

Watching you slowly leave my sight, I realized that you have gone far, far away, but I still hope to have an eternal promise.

At that time, I thought that love has made me to the verge of pain, so why don't I save time, but in the end, I will never get back the day when I fell in love.