Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

Zhang Yichen felt quite relaxed during this time. His parents didn't care about my business, at least they didn't quarrel like before. His wife's condition was relatively stable during this period, and nothing bad happened. There were no accidents, which was a blessing among misfortunes for him. He hadn't lived such a quiet life for a long time, and he didn't know that it was not easy for him until now, but he never Never gave up.

If he suddenly caused bad results because of conflicts among his family members, then he really doesn't know what kind of ending he will face. He has no thoughts now, let alone any ideas to deal with these grievances Yes, he feels that his life is very fulfilling, but also very tiring.

It's really not easy for her to come to this step step by step in these years. He thinks about everything he has experienced in these years, and every decision he has made. Is he really so clear-eyed? He has never thought about how he walked. Up to this point, he lived step by step, just to hope that his family can be safe. Now that his family has reached the ending he wanted most, even though his wife is still awake, he still feels very sad. I'm happy

"Father, to be honest, I am already full of despair for this family now. I dare not give everyone in this family the kind of warmth I wanted before. Do you understand that when I am tortured again and again, when I When I have nowhere to go, I need to be drunk. When the person I love cares about me and loves me, all I get in return is pain. How much I long for my life to be happy, live happily and finally end, I get I didn't get anything, on the contrary I lost a lot.

No matter what you think of me these years, I am really happy. Even though I am hurt again and again, I can only hide in bed and cry alone, but deep in my heart, it is still The happiest time of my life.I have made it this far by my own efforts, I don’t know that all of this did not rely on anyone, I was just brought up by my grandfather, at that moment my heart was actually sad, I didn’t get your love for me , I didn't get your company for me, deep in my heart, my parents are like invisible people, they will never appear by my side.

The age when I needed you the most has passed, the past time is gone forever, and there is no chance to return to the present, how can you understand the harm you brought me back then, what kind of intense pain it is Pain, I will never tell anyone about my past pain, because it will not help, but I really can't bear it today. I got nothing in return for the damage.

I need your time the most, but you are wandering outside. You abandoned me and let me face all the pressure alone. In fact, my heart is always sad at that moment. I never thought that my parents would use Treating me in such a ruthless way, is it really wrong to do what I want? Do I deserve to be hurt by my family again and again in my life, but I endure all the pain indifferently? I am not reconciled, I I used my own efforts to prove that it is correct that I am not willing to be reconciled in my whole life.

I thought about living at all costs. As long as I can live, I will be happy in whatever I do, but what will I get in the end? Even if I can live like this, I will get nothing in the end. I will lose my lover. , lost myself, the family that could have been happy, lost everything I cared about and cherished the most, what was the meaning of all I did at that time?"

"My child, you should understand that I never thought of treating you in this way from the beginning to the end. The misunderstanding between our father and son is too deep and too deep. It is not a problem that can be solved in a few words. Do you think Have you ever been, if I really hoped that you would leave and never come back, I really didn’t want to come back to you to take care of you and accompany you so uninhibited, how could you stand here, when and where you stand on me I have thought about it from the perspective of you. Is everything you do right and what I do wrong? I live for my own freedom and food, am I still wrong? I just want to leave It's just to make the person next to your pillow happy, and it's the same for you to be happy. You can still hope that your wife can be happy and happy, and you also hope that she can be by your side in good health and safety. Separate, don’t I want to? ァ新ヤ~~~

Obviously many things are human nature, but in your eyes they are so heinous, you have never thought about the torment and pain in my heart as a father, you have never thought that when I am caught in the middle, I am in a dilemma, How should I choose at that moment, you think all this is just for yourself, have you thought about how difficult it is for me to do all this, if you can think a little bit from my perspective, then the ending It will not be the current state.I don't want any accidents between us to happen again, and I don't want any of us to continue to make a big fuss about this matter, quarreling all the time, that kind of life makes me feel very tired, what we want Neither is that kind of life. "

"Now you just suddenly told me that what you want is not that kind of life, do you think I will believe it? Once I might really believe every word of yours, but now I won't believe it, because I believe in your ending, It’s just hurting myself again and again, why should I let myself be covered in bruises, but in the end I still endured all the pain silently, while you laughed beside me alone, why should I be the one who owes me all my life, Only my grandpa, only my wife, only my children, I don’t owe my parents anything, because they didn’t give me love, didn’t accompany me, even if you gave me life, you have seen me abandon all these years Time has already calculated everything, we do not owe each other, and I will never marry because of your appearance and your existence, and you will not feel hatred for you because of your actions , I am no longer the person I used to be, I will rely on my own efforts to live a dignified life, and I will never use anyone to be sad again.”

Missing never let me go, no one knows my pain