Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

"Dad, I never thought of living in this way, let alone hurting you in this way. Doing such a thing is the biggest pain in my heart. I just want to put I give you the best of myself, but I can’t do it myself. I don’t know when I became what I am now. I pushed myself to the edge step by step, but in the end I found out that I did it myself. Everything is wrong.

You are right, no one is sorry for me, and no one betrays me, the person who betrayed is not you, but me, I have given you the heaviest hurt time and time again, I forgot that you gave me the most warmth My family, let me know what family affection is and what love is. I have come to the present step by step. I can no longer tell which one is the real me. I have lost my original heart. Forget has changed, I have become numb and indifferent

Maybe I should really learn, as a man, what things should be done and what things should not be done, but all these years I have never had a clear conscience, the only thing I am ashamed of is you, I hurt you, do you know these things In the depths of my heart are actually my most painful memories. I have driven myself to a dead end again and again, because I am afraid, I am afraid of meeting you, and I am afraid of putting pressure on myself over these things again and again, but I never cared about your feelings, I ignored your feelings, this is the biggest mistake in my life

In fact, as a father, you should resent me deep in your heart, because as a son, I have never given you any care or help. On the contrary, I have given you a lot of sadness and pain. All my things are imposed on you, and I throw away the things I don’t want again and again. Deep in my heart, I don’t have any concept of the world, and I don’t think about what I can do with some things Something can't be done.ァ新ヤ~~~

Sometimes I just want to live in peace and stability, but why is it so difficult? Who did I offend?

Do I deserve all the hurt and pain I have suffered? Is it all my fault that you have suffered from my abandonment and betrayal of you again and again? Is everything I do wrong? Is it really that unforgivable? In your worlds, what am I? Once in a while, I give everything. In your hearts, I am nothing. I’m not even part of the family. Pulling myself back from the abyss of pain is to hope that I can be happy and live a happy life, but in the end I got nothing but despair again and again

I really don't know how many days and nights like this I have to spend. I don't know how many days and nights like this I have spent. I am living desperately upwards, because I am afraid that I will completely collapse if I relax, I dare not let my tense nerves relax a little bit, I make myself like a wooden man, and I have no idea about anything. Any emotion, only that faint face.

When everyone thinks that I am a wooden man, when everyone thinks that I am not worthy of being a man at all, I have not given up on my ideals, because I know deep down in my heart, even if I can do everything No, I don’t need to care about everything, but I must care about these things. I want to turn everything about myself into the best and best thing in the world. I want all those who look down on me, just like my son, I bow down to me again and again, but I can't do it. My ability is not as good as my son, my energy is not as good as him, and everything I have is simply too late. I don't know how he did it, but I Knowing that he must have paid a lot of hardships behind the scenes, suffered a lot, and endured the torture of others again and again, I can't understand that feeling, how distressed it is.

You are my father, I long for you to give me the warmest return again and again, I long for you to let me stay in this warm family again and again, even if the final result is that I am covered in bruises and can only leave alone, Even if I can only hide in a corner alone and feel sad, I will not give up easily again and again, but in the end I find that no matter what I do, I can't get the best result. My most painful memories are given to everyone. I always put my pain on others. I don’t think about whether others will feel pain because of what I did. I only know that I do it for revenge. Others, take revenge on the society, take revenge on everyone who has ever done me wrong and thought of hurting me”

Zhang Yichen suddenly realized that such a father is so scary, this is not like his own father at all, he was so cowardly at first, but now why did he suddenly say these words, these words made him a son a little bit Terrified, and there is no way to understand it.

He didn't understand how much pressure he put on his father, which made him become like this in an instant. If he did everything by himself, then it was really right. Every time he kept saying that his father did How excessive things are, how hurt everyone's heart, but now think about what I said to my father, those things I did, wouldn't it hurt their hearts? Maybe people should live with their hearts in mind, Over and over again, I put my pain on others, and what I get is always what I don't want to see. As a result, those results may seem normal in the eyes of others, but in my own eyes. It seemed the most painful.

"I don't think any of you should do anything else. Let's all live the life that everyone wants to live. Don't suffer these pains alone. It is enough for everyone to live happily. Why bother?" If you make yourself so tired, why let everyone suffer because of your little bit of unhappiness?

You are all my relatives, please don’t hurt each other, it’s us who get hurt the most time and time again, and it’s still our family”

Prestige is something that I can only hope for, but I wish I could live happily ever after.