Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

Nothing is necessary, it's not all in exchange for enduring again and again, Zhang Yichen felt quite relaxed during this period of time, his parents didn't care about my business, at least they didn't quarrel like before, and his own His wife's condition was relatively stable during this period, and nothing bad happened, let alone any accidents. This was a blessing among misfortunes for him. He hadn't lived such a quiet life for a long time. I don't know, it's not easy for him even now, but he never gave up.If he suddenly caused bad results because of conflicts among his family members, then he really doesn't know what kind of ending he will face. He has no thoughts now, let alone any ideas to deal with these grievances Yes, he feels that his every day is very fulfilling, but also very tiring.It's really not easy for her to come to today step by step in these years. He thinks about everything he has experienced in these years, and every decision he has made. Is he really so clear-eyed? He hasn't thought about how he walked. Up to this point, he lived step by step, just to hope that his family can be safe. Now that his family has reached the ending he wanted most, even though his wife is still awake, he still feels very sad. Happy "Father, to be honest, I am already full of despair for this family now. I dare not give everyone in this family the kind of warmth I wanted before. Do you understand that when I am tortured again and again , when I am desperate and need to be drunk, when the person I love cares about me and loves me, all I get in return is pain, how much I long for my life to be happy, live happily and finally end , what I got I got nothing, on the contrary I lost a lot. No matter what you think of me over the years, I am really happy. Even if I am hurt again and again, I can only hide I was crying alone in bed, but deep down in my heart, that was still the happiest time in my life. I have come to this day with my own efforts, I don’t know that all of this is not dependent on anyone, I am just driven by myself At that moment, my heart was sad. I didn't get your love for me, and I didn't get your company. In my heart, my parents were like Like an invisible person, you will never appear by my side. The age when I needed you the most has passed, the past time is gone forever, and there will never be any chance to return to the present. What kind of severe pain is the hurt that brought me? I will never tell anyone about my pain, because it won’t help, but I really can’t bear it today. I’ve done so much , but what was the ending I got in exchange for, I got nothing in return for the harm my family did to me. When I needed your time the most, you were wandering around the world, you abandoned me and left me alone Faced with all the pressure, my heart was always sad at that moment. I never thought that my parents would treat me in such a cruel way. Is it really wrong to do what I want? I deserve to be hurt by my family again and again in my life, but I endure all the pain indifferently? , as long as I can live, I will be happy in whatever I do, but in the end, what will I get in return? Even if I can live like this, I will get nothing in the end. I lost my lover, I lost myself, and I could have been happy My family lost everything I cared about and cherished the most. At that time, what was the meaning of all that I did?” “You should understand, my child. You, the misunderstanding between our father and son is too deep, and it is not a problem that can be solved in a few words. Have you ever thought about it, if I really hoped that you would leave, I would never come back. By your side to take care of you, to accompany you so uninhibited, how can you stand here? When and where have you considered it from my perspective? Could it be that everything you do is correct, and everything I do is right. Is it wrong? I live for my own freedom and for eating. Am I still wrong? I want to leave just to make the person next to my pillow happy, to be happy, and it’s the same for you, you can still hope for yours If your wife can be happy and happy, you also hope that she can be by your side in good health and safety, and will never be separated for the rest of her life. Don’t I want to? Obviously many things are human nature, but in your eyes But it is so heinous, you have never thought about the torment and pain in my heart as a father, you have never thought about how I should choose at that moment when I am caught in the middle, you think all this is just for Myself, have you thought about how difficult it is for me to do all this, if you can think a little bit from my perspective, then the ending will not be in the current state.I don't want any accidents between us to happen again, and I don't want any of us to continue to make a big fuss about this matter, quarreling all the time, that kind of life makes me feel very tired, what we want Neither is that kind of life. ""Now you suddenly said to me, you don't want that kind of life, do you think I will believe it? Once I might really believe everything you said, but now I won't believe it, because I believe you The ending is just to let myself hurt again and again, why should I let myself be covered in bruises, but in the end I still bear all the pain silently, and you laugh by myself, why should I owe you all my life? Only my grandfather, only my wife, only my children, I do not owe my parents, because I have not given me love, have not accompanied me, even if you have given me life, in these years you have seen When I gave up, I had already calculated everything, we owe each other nothing, and I will never combine because of your appearance and your existence, and you will not feel sorry for you because of what you did I have hatred, I am no longer the person I used to be, I will rely on my own efforts to live an upright life, and I will never use anyone to be sad again." Real life is the way of life, and a happy life lies in one's own life. holding in hand