Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

I'm just a passerby in your heart, when did you include me in your plan?We have lost so much, and I can no longer imagine the injuries we have experienced.

Zhang Zhentian doesn't want his family members to see his true inner thoughts. When encountering these things, he should ask his family members to improve their views, even if those methods are done by unscrupulous means, everything is wrong. But if my family can understand and care more about me, then it doesn't matter if I suffer a little bit of grievance, but will my family really have a little relationship with him now?If he wronged everyone in his family, how could he easily forgive him for a wrong injury, how many heavy blows he caused to others, and who knows, time and time again, deep in his heart, he may have already Numb, he really doesn't know how to face the deception of his family, he doesn't understand why he did those outrageous things, and he doesn't know what happened to him before, so he chooses Such a road, she clearly knew that the road ahead was a road of no return, but she still walked on that road without hesitation, was she really possessed?

"No matter what, I don't want you to misunderstand me more and more about some things. I am my father, and I have my reasons for everything I do. If there is a gap between me and my responsibility because of these small things, don't you? Do you think it is interesting for us to live like this? What I also want is a peaceful and peaceful life, just like the ultimate path of that kind of life is not what we want, I should also think about the path I took What is it like, isn’t it? I also want to live for myself, and I don’t want to change myself because of anyone. Do you know the pain of changing yourself because of one person? In the end, that person may not be with you. When you are together, he will not necessarily change for you. He knows that everything you should do for him is just as it should be. How painful and tiring.

I am a person who has experienced it, and I clearly understand what kind of pain I have experienced in these years. Those pains may be nothing in your eyes, but in my eyes, they are my life. The deadliest pain, time and time again I swallowed all the pain deep in my heart, I never thought of asking anyone to feel the pain I have experienced.Because I know that you are my family, I can't do this, but I still caused you great harm invisibly, do you really think that all this is the result I most want to see?Actually it's not what I want to see!

Now in this family, everyone is prejudiced against me. Everyone thinks that my appearance has destroyed the harmony and peace of the family, but who has ever thought about what I think all this is for? Did I do it? Isn't all this tiring?Is it really so unworthy of everything I have paid for?I also want to live a happy life, I also hope that I can be beautiful, so happy and smiling, but I don’t want all the harm, hurt you, cause harm to you, that’s what I don’t want to see Yes, when and where you have considered my problems from my perspective, but you have thought about the purpose of everything I do, and who of you has ever changed your mind and stood on my side? You have always looked at anything from a different perspective, you are always so decisive, you use all your critical thinking on me, I am your magic power, you will only regard me as a mistake I look at it from the perspective of my own life, and no one even thinks about the life I live. What kind of life are they?

Some things are not good for me, I told you too clearly, but can you choose to believe me once, believe that I, as a father, never thought of hurting you, and I hope you can live well Live happily and easily. When I see you living in such pain again and again, do you think I don't feel anything deep in my heart?You are my son, no matter when and where, I will stand on your point of view and consider how painful your life is. I will rot all the injuries on you again and again. I always feel that your ability to bear is stronger than mine, even if you bear a little bit of injury, you will not feel anything, but it is not good for me, I have lived very hard, It hurts, I have no way, no mentality to bear any harm..."

"Listen to you, you want all of us to understand you now, don't you? Then when all of us can understand you, have you understood us? Don't we all do it without heart? Is it gone if there is no pain? We have come step by step to today, is it really so smooth? All the hardships are borne by ourselves. Where were you at that time? Now you want our forgiveness. Have you ever thought about how desperate and painful we were when we were abandoned?

Why do you always want others to bear it for you after you discover your mistakes? Why do you never know how to understand the torment and pain in a person's heart? What exactly do you want?What do you think of the sincerity given to you by everyone in the family? The result that we live again and again in this life is the most impossible and least willing to see. What we want is just an ordinary life, an ordinary life Life may be too simple for you, but it is so difficult for us!

It is all thanks to you that we can live such a painful life like today, why are you still obsessed with your obsession, and still want to let us bear all the pain, and want our reason, is it in your heart that we Is it only suitable to be a jumping clown, accepting the harm you have brought us time and time again?We are not saints and we don't owe you anything. The hurt caused by the abandonment that we caused to us has disappeared the moment we forgive you, but now you still want to ask us to forgive you. How is that possible?Why don't you think about whether you deserve others' forgiveness for doing those things yourself?

Dad, you are my family. When and where we are, I should really consider issues from your perspective, but have you ever thought about how much your actions have hurt grandpa? He is yours. Biological father, why haven't you repented at all until now, is every decision you make for yourself correct?Do you still think that every word you say is accurate?

If you really feel sorry, and everyone in our family, let me face such a situation, you should tell all the truth instead of hiding your fruits over and over again , even if you can buy the whole world, maybe you can hide it from yourself? You are just deceiving yourself. Not everyone will forgive you for the mistakes you made. The truth, then you can only wait for the world to hate you, my family will not forgive you again and again, I have no debt to you, on the contrary, we will not go to the debt you owe us Care about, because you are my family, I still choose to forgive you, I have no way to continue to hurt the family members again and again, but I also have no way to let you choose to hurt the family members again and again, his injury is related to Inherently, no one will feel changed because of what you do, I just hope you can think twice, and you will think clearly about what you are doing all this for. "

Zhang Na can't take it anymore, he didn't expect his grandfather to be such an irresponsible man, because he thinks about pushing all the mistakes on others because of his own mistakes, then others will deserve it for the rest of his life , Am I taking the blame for him?Why is he still not like this?Isn't he really tired of living like this?Seeing his father living so anxiously, he felt pain deep in his heart. That was his father. He used to show such sunshine in front of him, but now he can only live in such pain. , My mother is still lying in the ward, but my father has suffered such injuries, what exactly did my grandpa and grandma do?Have they considered the injuries their family members have suffered from their own perspective?

"Grandpa, as a junior, I shouldn't interrupt and say these things today, but after I heard these things you said, I couldn't bear it anymore. I don't understand what kind of mentality makes you have such thoughts, no I understand why you want to say such cruel and heartless words to your son. You have hurt your family time and time again. Have you ever thought about how difficult your family's life is? I don't understand Why did you become such an irresponsible person? My dream is that my grandpa is a responsible person. My grandparents can talk, live lightly and treat everyone honestly, but what you are doing now This attitude made me question my dreams, I am afraid, I no longer have any hope for you, and I will not believe you again, the consequences of believing in you may be to hurt my family, that's it Under such circumstances, I still choose to protect my family, rather than let them get hurt!"

"I know, it's rude for me to say these things to grandpa here today, but I don't want to do this, and I have no choice but to leave. I just don't want my family to be hurt. Look back, look Look at everyone in the family, what kind of blows have been suffered because of these things, how can you really bear it after seeing it, they have such a difficult life, but they have never blamed anyone, because they know, want to If you keep living, you must work hard on your own, and never rely on others. Do you understand how great this kind of harm is? When they give their sincerity again and again, they get the heaviest harm again and again. , Have you ever thought about how much that kind of injury will deal him a blow? None of you have considered that he went to the end again and again, just to let everyone in the family live happily and happily, every day All the feelings of one person after giving have come to naught, and who cares what kind of life and thoughts everyone in my family lives, no one has ever thought about their deep feelings, everyone They are all living selfishly, sacrificing for themselves by whatever means, hurting others, treating others as substitutes for their own harm, but do others really owe you? Does she deserve you to hurt?

I choose to say all of this today because I know I can't let this happen again and again. Everyone in the family has been hurt badly. You look back and see what happened again. How many people are living sincerely, who is really laughing from the heart, which one is not hiding the wounds in their hearts, think about what we do all this for, myself My family members are no longer able to live happily, so what is the meaning of everything we do? I don’t want all our efforts to be in vain. I don’t want all my efforts to be in vain. I only hope that my family I would be much happier to be able to live in peace and health, even if it was only for a few dozen days, or even a year, but why can't I meet this little requirement?

How painful and uncomfortable everyone in the family is living, only we know, we are watching all this become what it is now, we have no exit to organize anyone, but we have become accomplices , to hurt those who are most loyal to us time and time again, we have turned all everyone's concern for ourselves into the greatest harm in this life, and who cares about other people's innermost thoughts? Do you really not feel the slightest bit?All the efforts they have made time and time again are all just for the better life of their family members, but do we now treat everyone in this family as someone who can be hurt casually? ?I can't live in such a selfish way, even if you don't want me to, I want to go out alive and upright, and I can say uprightly that I protected my family instead of causing harm to them.

In fact, you should also know that it is very difficult to protect a person, but it is very simple to hurt a person. Even if there is only one sentence, it may really hurt the self-esteem of others. Over the years, I have experienced many, many times. Once I saw what the person I hurt turned into. I watched the person I wanted to protect being hurt by others, but I didn't have any way to stop it. Who can understand the kind of pain I felt at that time? Helpless, I always want to protect someone, but he will never have any way for me to protect her, because I am not capable enough and neither am I. If you have to protect her, I am not qualified.

Gradually, I found that only when I become a master again and again, and only when I stand on the pinnacle of life, can I protect her well and prevent her from being hurt by anyone. Those hurts may be nothing to you , but it is the heaviest thing for me, how much I long for her to live happily and happily, how much I hope he can live with a smile every day in his life, without worrying about anything, as long as she is happy she is happy , there is nothing more important to me than this, but then I found out that I was all wrong, my thoughts were wrong, and my actions were wrong.

Because of all the hard work I have put in for him, in his eyes, I am nothing, because he does not have me in his heart, I know that it is really hard to live in a marriage without love, because the person he loves the most in his heart It's not you, even if you give up everything for him, he won't care, deep in his heart, all she wants is a peaceful life, and he won't change because of these things, because Who would have thought how difficult it was for me, but when I listened to the stories of my grandparents told by my parents again and again, I still felt something deep in my heart!

I don't know what kind of reason you have, which made me feel so deeply about everything my grandparents did and faced. I only hope that my grandparents can live happily, But I saw these grandparents turned my mother into what I am now, and I have no way to forgive me. I am not a saint. I can’t forgive time and time again. Everything is the best, because everything is right, I really can't do it, I once thought, as long as everyone can live happily together, it doesn't matter if I suffer all kinds of grievances, I am willing to replace you All people bear all the pain, as long as you can be happy and happy, but in the end what I got in exchange, my mother went to the hospital, but you are still living so happily outside, I don’t understand what it is like The reason why you can live so heartlessly.

Maybe it's just because that's my mother, I don't have any feelings for him, so you can't feel the despair and pain of those deep feelings after a relative goes crazy, all you can do is hope that your family will procrastinate again and again. As for me, I want a teacher, and I hope my family can live happily every day. Everyone has almost the same idea, but in the end the choices I face are similar. I have experienced many, many things, and I only want to I hope he can become a gust of wind and disappear with the wind, but can I really get such a result in the end?That is simply impossible. "

Zhang Zhentian never thought he would cause such heavy harm to everyone in his family because of what he did. Now that he sees his grandson and son living so hard, how can he be truly happy in his heart? Woolen cloth?But I am such a person, he always smiles when facing everyone, all the pain and pain can only be swallowed silently behind your back, and who can understand a person as an elder from his perspective There should be some thoughts and some behaviors.

It's not easy for him, he has given everything again and again, and what he wants is not just for everyone to live happily and happily. All he does is still for his relatives, to be able to live again and again In order to live the best life, he just chose the wrong path in the end.

Now in his eyes, he has no way to go back before, everything he did has become a mistake, and these mistakes can only continue, if he chooses to turn back now, then all the abilities he has given before Everything was in vain, and he decided to tell his son and grandson all his experiences in the past few years.

"Perhaps you think that I have been very selfish these years, and I have never cared about your inner thoughts and feelings, but I hope that after listening to all the things I told you today, if you still think that I am With such a hard heart, you can't cry, then I don't have any words to describe you, I only hope that everything I said to you today is to resolve the biggest misunderstanding between you and me, and don't let me go because of some bad things. I also hope that I can truly become a part of this family, instead of just getting doubts from the family time and time again, and I just want to be able to truly integrate into this big family. I also know how difficult it is for me to have a family. Even if I give my all, it may be in vain in the end. I have tried, as long as I can be happy and happy, even if I hurt everyone in the family, I will not hesitate. But I can't do it now, I can't be as ruthless as before, I hope you can quietly listen to me tell you all my hard work!"

"Grandpa, if every word you say can really move me, then I will consider that I will never pursue your previous responsibilities for anything in my life. It is time for everything we have paid For Yunyan, we used to be so difficult and lived so hard. Didn’t we just want everyone in the family to be happy and healthy? Are you really happy in this way? Think about what we have gone through Xiaoxiao, what reason and method should you use to convince us to eliminate the biggest misunderstanding of you, and not to misunderstand you again and again like before? You should also understand that being misunderstood by a person How uncomfortable it is, let alone your own relatives, that kind of feeling, I guess you don’t want to continue to experience it in this life. If you really hope that everyone can live with the fiery, please tell the truth about everything. Say it all!"

"It seems that I should tell everything today no matter what. If I continue to hide it like before, it may cause a bigger misunderstanding and make everyone in the family even more unwilling to accept me. , if I choose to say everything today, in exchange for the understanding of my family members, then I will be worth it.

Why bother to destroy what I most want again and again because of some unpleasant things in the past? Obviously what I want is right in front of my eyes, but I can never get that feeling. In fact, there is no way to continue to experience it, and all I want is a happy life. "

"Since you want to know so much, let me tell you now, I just hope that after you have heard all these things, you can still be like this, not because of my previous things or some bad things. , and cause wrong judgments on me, you should try to believe that I believe that I also sincerely want to stay at home and take care of everyone in the family, instead of thinking about hurting you again and again, that kind of thing is not what I want most The desired ending is not what I want to do."

"I don't think it's necessary for you to play tricks here. If you have anything to say, say it quickly. If your reasons don't move us, then why should we forgive you? Forgiving again and again has already caused some people in the family to resist , and hurt everyone in the family, I don't want this kind of thing to continue, I just hope everyone can be happy!"

"Actually, these things are like this...

I was with him like we were by the lake, from the beginning I fell in love with her at first sight, then I followed his footsteps, I knew he was a mercenary, until I fell in love with him slowly, willingly gave myself for her Everything, even my own life, everything I can only tell you slowly, I want to make it clear to you one by one, I want to tell you what kind of thought I had at the beginning before I gave up When you leave this home, I hope you will know and understand, and appreciate the predicament we were facing at that time.

At that time, your grandfather was always unwilling to allow me to be with him. In order to get my father to agree to her being with me, I made a lot of efforts and argued with him in front of my father at all costs. , I just hope that my father can agree with me to marry me, because I love my wife, I love this beloved woman, I will give everything for my beloved woman, even if the end result is only in exchange for him again and again I don't hesitate to hurt me.

At that time, I didn't understand why my father had such a big misunderstanding about my wife. His prejudice against my wife couldn't be eliminated no matter what. He kept struggling with my wife's status as a mercenary. Later, the company There was an economic crisis, and it was my wife who sold all the family property to help him overcome the company's economic crisis. That is, after that incident, my wife got my father's approval without paying anything back. Please promise to let the two of us live together Together, who knows that after being together, because of one thing, my father came to hurt us time and time again. I don't understand why. In order to let me break up with my wife, my father actually asked me to go on a blind date. All the blind dates were messed up. At that moment when I saw my father, his heart was broken and desperate. He never thought that I would be so disappointing.

But you should also know that if one person doesn't love the other person, then even if these two people are forced to be together, how can they be truly happy, truly happy? Everything we do wants only It's just like this, simple, but now think about every mistake we have made, how ridiculous, how stupid, we hurt the best father to us, and then I said to my dad In order to be able to be with my wife, I told my father over and over again, and I also left home. I would rather run away from home than stay in the house. Live on that suffocating home!

Your grandpa agrees, I am very happy after we are together, I think it is enough for him to agree to this matter, but I did not expect that after experiencing these things, my father actually chose to say something to him that surprised me If he said that, my wife was very angry and angry, and I didn't know how to persuade him back.

I will never forget every word I said to my wife when I found him that day.

In those few days, I endured and endured. I thought day and night to go to Xia Jing's home to find Xia Jing. I wanted to ask why Xia Jing was still angry?Why don't you make a call? I think even if Xia Jing doesn't call me, then if I call Xia Jing, she should answer it!

The more I thought about it, the angrier I became. I didn't expect that Xia Jing wouldn't even answer her own phone calls. I thought Xia Jing must be still angry, so I called Xia Jing a few more times.

"Sorry, the phone you dialed has been turned off, please call again later..." I heard the mechanical voice in the phone, and I called again.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily out of service area, please dial later..." The same mechanical voice came from the phone as before.Hearing the sound of this machine, I felt inexplicably angry. I ran downstairs angrily, and wanted to go to Xia Jing's house to find Xia Jing, but I was stopped by my father again.

"Zhentian, why are you going?" My father looked at me in a panic, thinking that something happened to me.

"Dad, I'm going to find Xia Jing. I called her so many times and she didn't answer. She hasn't called me once since yesterday. I'm worried that something will happen to her." After I finished speaking, I thought go out.

My father felt that his son was so stupid when he heard what I said, and he said to me: "You silly boy, if you are smarter, you shouldn't listen to me and stay at home, you should rush out to find Xia Jing, others We are almost arriving in the UK now, and we must not be able to make phone calls on the plane!"

"Zhentian, if Xia Jing didn't answer the phone, it doesn't mean something will happen to her. Maybe she is still angry with you, so she turned off her phone, and she will be fine in a few days. Besides, it's so late today Xia Jing should go to bed too." My father still hoped that I would not listen to him this time and run out to find Xia Jing, but I was so happy that Mr. Zhang agreed to be with Xia Jing. So I listened to what my father said.

This time I listened to my father again and did not go to Xia Jing at home.

On the first day, no one answered my call, on the second day I called and still no one answered, on the third day I called, still no one answered... until the seventh day, no one answered my call, I I feel a little strange.Even if you don't answer the phone for one or two days, what about three or four days?Even if I didn't pick up for three or four days, but it's already the seventh day, why haven't I picked up yet?

I have endured and endured at home these days, and I resisted not going to Xia Jing. I wanted Xia Jing not to be angry and then I went to Xia Jing to admit my mistake, but now I can't bear it anymore. I feel that I am now I have to go to Xia Jing.

If I wanted to rush upstairs to the study to find Mr. Zhang, I opened the door of the study, and when Mr. Zhang saw that it was me who came in, he said to me with a straight face: "Zhentian, what are you doing?" What happened, don't you know that you have to knock on the door to enter my study?"

At that time, I ignored what my father said, and said directly: "Dad, it's already the seventh day today, and Xia Jing still hasn't answered my call. I'm really worried, and I'm going to find her."

Mr. Zhang knew that I couldn't bear it anymore, so he didn't say anything else, so he waved me out, and as soon as I got out of the study door, I ran downstairs, the speed was like a trapeze.

That day I drove all the way to Xia Jing's house. When I arrived at Xia Jing's house, I found that Xia Jing's house was already empty, so I went to ask the landlord.

"Hello, may I ask, where did the girl who rented your house go?"

"You mean Xia Jing, right?" the landlord asked me.

I heard that the landlord still remembered Xia Jing's name, so I nodded quickly.

"That's right, that's her, that's Xia Jing, do you know where she went? I haven't contacted her for several days." I excitedly said to the landlord.

"I don't know where she is. I only know that she seems to have gone abroad." The landlord's words were undoubtedly a bolt from the blue for me. I didn't speak for a while, and the landlord shook his hand in front of my eyes Shake, I just came back to my senses, and I asked the landlord again.

"Then do you know when she left?"

"It seems like a week ago. Calculate the time and she should have arrived at the destination a week ago."

"Then did she leave anything for you?" I asked again.

"She looked very sad when she left, her eyes were red, and she looked like she was crying." The landlord said to me with a sigh.

I heard what the landlord said, and I knew that I must have hurt Xia Jing's heart, so Xia Jing left without saying goodbye. I said to the landlord, "Thank you!"

The landlord turned around and left. After walking a few steps, he turned back and said to me: "I suddenly remembered that Xia Jing went to the company to find you that day."

"When?"

"Probably the day she left."

I thought about it, I didn't go out at home the day Xia Jing left, did Xia Jing go to the company to find me that day just to tell myself that she was going abroad?If this is the case, then Xia Jing didn't leave without saying goodbye, but she missed the only chance to keep her.

The more I think about it, the more I feel bad. He hates it. At that time, I hated myself for arguing with Xia Jing, and I hated myself for saying so many things that hurt Xia Jing.At that time, I thought in my heart: "If I hadn't quarreled with Xia Jing, wouldn't Xia Jing have left? If I hadn't said those things that hurt Xia Jing, wouldn't Xia Jing have left alone heartbroken gone?"

I left Xia Jing's residence in despair, and drove towards the lake. I turned the speed of the car very high along the way, and he galloped all the way.When I got to the lake, I parked the car there, and I walked to the edge of the lake step by step. I looked at the blue sky and recalled all the scenes when I met Xia Jing by the lake in my mind.I thought of a twinkling teardrop that slid down my cheek, and I cried, and my heart ached too.Half an hour later, I yelled into the wide lake: "Xia Jing, I know I was wrong, come back! I shouldn't make you sad, don't leave me alone, come back quickly..." I Shouting one after another, he thought that Xia Jing would appear in front of him just like before when he shouted loudly at the lake.

I called Xia Jing for a long time but I didn't see Xia Jing. I believe that this time Xia Jing really left herself and left.

When I got home and shut myself in the room, Aunt Xu told me to go down to eat and he refused to eat, so I just stood by the window of the bedroom blankly. When he couldn't stand still, he moved a chair to the window and sat on the chair to continue drinking.Sip after sip, bottle after bottle, until I drank so much that I passed out.

I fell asleep that day and was still chanting Xia Jing’s name. When Mr. Zhang came in and saw his son like this, he felt a little sad. He took the quilt and walked to me, and gently covered Zhang Zhentian with the quilt. He held Mr. Zhang's hand, and kept muttering: "I'm sorry, Xia Jing, I didn't mean to say those words to anger you, I know I was wrong, please don't leave me, okay..." I said Tears flowed out.Seeing me like this, Mr. Zhang felt quite conflicted. He wanted to tell where his son Xia Jing was, but he promised to keep Xia Jing a secret. In the end, Mr. Zhang decided to wait until I asked.

How could I know so many things at that time?

I still foolishly thought that my wife didn't want to live with me, so I chose to leave, but the fact is not like this at all, he just can't stand me sneering at her time and time again, can't stand me time and time again, so He will choose to leave. It turns out that everything I have done and what I have done by myself are so wrong.

I was afraid that everything I did would hurt him, and in the end I hurt him deeply!

No one knew how desperate he was at that time. When he left this country to go abroad, how lonely she must have been alone. I never considered it from his perspective, because I was selfish, I It's just a photo of you, I'm just that you chose to abandon her for your own affairs, I don't know what kind of thinking I was at that time, to make such a decision, to hurt her like that.No one has ever understood how painful he and I are in Shanghai, and no one alone can know. "

"and after?"

"later……

I drank a lot at home and it was the third day when I woke up.

In the morning, I opened my eyes in a daze, only feeling dizzy. I stood up unsteadily and found that I was lying on a chair with an extra quilt on my body. At that time, I thought it was Xia Jing who came to my house I picked up the quilt that fell on the floor and threw it on the chair, then ran downstairs in a hurry, calling Xia Jing's name while running, when I walked downstairs, my father I was eating breakfast and seeing the sound of me going downstairs, my father thought it was an earthquake.

I ran downstairs and looked around, but I didn't see Xia Jing. I stared blankly at my father who was eating breakfast and stared at me blankly. I walked over step by step and said to Mr. Zhang: "Dad , what's wrong with you? Why are you looking at me like this?"

Mr. Zhang smiled at me and said, "Are you finally willing to wake up?"

I didn't understand what Mr. Zhang said, so I asked again: "Dad, what do you mean by that? What do you mean I'm finally willing to wake up? Didn't I just get drunk and sleep all day?"

Looking at his silly son, Mr. Zhang felt speechless.

"Are you sure you only slept for one day?" Mr. Zhang asked.

When I heard my father say this, he thought to himself, "Did I sleep for more than one day? Did I sleep for two days?"

Mr. Zhang looked at his son in a daze and said slowly: "You have been asleep for three days, you really don't know?"

"I have no idea!"

Mr. Zhang looked at me with a half-smile, and shook his head from time to time.Looking at my father's expression, I knew that my father would not believe it, and I immediately said, "I really don't know!"

"You really don't know?" Mr. Zhang asked me back.

"Dad, I said, can you give me more trust? I really don't know that I have slept for three days. I just remember that I went to find Xia Jing that day, and found that Xia Jing's house had already been deserted. Later, I also learned from Xia Jing’s landlord that Xia Jing went abroad a few days ago, and then I went to the lake, and then I went home to drink, and finally fell asleep. I probably know this.”

After I finished speaking, I looked at my father. Mr. Zhang nodded half-understanding, and then shook his head. I looked at my father's expression, and he felt very tired. He asked, "Dad, do you understand?" You still don’t understand?”

"I understand but understand." Mr. Zhang was not embarrassed at all, he answered his son's question very decisively.

I heard my father's answer and he didn't know what to say to his father.

Mr. Zhang looked at his son who was speechless by his own words. At that time, my father thought it was funny.I said to Mr. Zhang, "Dad, I want to ask you a question."

When Mr. Zhang heard me say this, he thought that I must have discovered something, and he was looking forward to asking that sentence himself. As long as I asked that sentence, he would tell me everything.

"Okay, tell me." Mr. Zhang looked at me expectantly.But my question disappointed him.

"I heard from Xia Jing's landlord that Xia Jing went to the company on the day she left. Is this true?"

Mr. Zhang's expectation was still in vain, he said without humility: "That's right, there was such a thing, you were not in the company at that time."

"It turns out that Xia Jing really went to the company, so did she go to the company to say goodbye to me or go to the company to make up with me?" I said to myself.

Mr. Zhang heard Zhang Zhentian talking to himself alone, and couldn't help asking: "Zhentian, what are you muttering about?"

I regained my senses and said, "Dad, did Xia Jing look for me that day?"

I looked at my father eagerly. He hoped that his father would say "yes", but he didn't want his father to say "yes".

When my father faced my question, he also felt that it was difficult to answer. He knew in his heart what his son was thinking?If you say "yes", then you will definitely blame yourself for missing the only chance to keep Xia Jing, but if you say "yes", then you will also be sad, and you will feel that it is because of yourself that Xia Jing did not tell And don't.This is really a dilemma, what should I say?

I just stared blankly at the hesitant father, and rushed over to hold Mr. Zhang's shoulders with both hands, kept shaking Mr. Zhang, and kept asking: "Is it? Tell me Yes or no?"

Mr. Zhang looked at me as if I was going crazy, and he didn't know what to say.

"Dad, tell me, did Xia Jing go to the company to look for me?" I continued to ask my father unwillingly.

"Zhentian, let go first, I am dizzy from your shaking, please, let me tell you." Mr. Zhang was so dizzy from my shaking that he had no choice but to let me let go first.

I heard my father tell me, he let go of his hand immediately, and I kept urging Mr. Zhang: "Speak quickly, speak quickly."

Mr. Zhang yelled at me unceremoniously: "Why are you in such a hurry, I was so dizzy by you, at least you have to let me slow down so that I don't get dizzy before I wake up!"

When I heard it, I thought it was the same, and he said courteously to Mr. Zhang: "Okay, Dad, please wait for a while and I'll get you a glass of water."

"That's about the same!" Mr. Zhang was still the same as before, he wanted to enjoy the feeling of being served by his son first.

I walked towards the kettle in three steps at a time, and he quickly poured a glass of water and sent it to Mr. Zhang.

Mr. Zhang took the water I handed him, and took a sip directly. He regretted it if he didn't drink it.Mr. Zhang's tongue was blistered. He looked up at me and yelled at me, "What are you doing? You want to burn me to death, don't you?"

I apologized and said to Mr. Zhang: "Dad, I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you that the water was just boiled, so I poured it for you without cooling it."

Mr. Zhang was so angry that he was about to die. He stood up and was about to go upstairs, but I grabbed him.

"Dad, you haven't told me yet? That day Xia Jing..."

Before I could finish my sentence, I was interrupted by Mr. Zhang.

"Needless to say, you still do this when you ask me for something? Even if you have nothing to ask me for, I am also the father who gave birth to you and raised you. You shouldn't scald me with boiling water." Mr. Zhang turned around and left.

I looked at the back of Mr. Zhang going away, and I shouted at the back: "Dad, can't you be considerate of me? I am Xia Jing's boyfriend. I can't contact her now that she is abroad. As a Shouldn't I be worried about her boyfriend?"

It's okay if I don't say anything, but as soon as I talk about Mr. Zhang's anger, my words will amplify it a lot.

When Mr. Zhang heard what I said to himself, he couldn't help turning his head and yelling at me: "You are her boyfriend and you can't get in touch with her. You should be worried. Then I gave birth to you and raised you for so many years. She scalded me with boiling water, is this what you should do as a child?"

At that time, I was speechless by Mr. Zhang. Mr. Zhang looked at me who was speechless, and I continued: "You can disobey your father for a woman, you can do everything for a woman, and I can do all of these things." I understand, because I am your father, but what you did today really disappointed me, are you so absent-minded? You can even forget to tell me that the water has just boiled? Do you still have me as a father in your heart? "

As Mr. Zhang spoke, tears began to glisten in his eyes. I looked at my father who was so disappointed because of myself, and he realized that his father had already started to have gray hair on his head. He suddenly realized that he cared too much for his father. not enough.

Mr. Zhang turned around and went upstairs. I hesitated to speak and looked at the back of my father leaving, but I couldn't say a word. I felt a little sorry for my father's cultivation and felt ashamed in my heart.

In fact, at that time, I didn't think about hurting my father, my so-called new knowledge of things, I didn't think that he would be hurt so much because of what I did.I really regret the pain I caused her, but in the face of some things that I don't know how to do, I also hope that he can live happily, happily and easily, but every word I said All these things hurt her in the end. I don't know what I should do to make him live happily like before. Are you sure you want to continue listening to the following things?Then when you hear it slowly, you will feel that what I have done is getting more and more excessive, because you will feel that I am not worthy of being your family member. It is judged by my thoughts, and all my purchases should not be rejected by all my efforts. I hope you can stand on my side and consider everything I have paid, just how hard and painful it is! "

Zhang Yichen knew that her father was everything he said today, if she could tell him everything he said, would she be willing to bear all the truth by herself?

"Since you are willing to talk, then you can tell me everything, we are here to listen!"

"Then there is...

My father continued to get angry after going upstairs. He really didn't expect that the son he had raised so hard would scald himself with boiling water because of a woman's absent-mindedness.My father felt uncomfortable. He always thought that no matter how much the son he raised loved his daughter-in-law, he would at least know how to treat himself well and not burn himself with boiling water. The more he thought about it, the more angry he became.

At that time, not long after my father went upstairs, I carried another jar of wine upstairs. I kept feeding wine to my mouth in the bedroom as before. I recalled in my mind that I said to Xia Jing What I said, every single word, even myself, a forgetful person, can still remember clearly, let alone Xia Jing who is extremely arrogant?Every time I think of the hurtful words I said to Xia Jing, my heart is like a knife being cut one by one, and the pain is extremely painful.

I selfishly thought that only when I was drunk could I see Xia Jing, because only when I was drunk could I escape reality and go to see Xia Jing in my dream.

boom……

The wine jar I was holding accidentally slipped from my hand, fell directly to the ground, and shattered instantly.I was woken up by the loud noise, and I opened my eyes in a daze. I, who was still sleepy, looked at the broken wine jars all over the floor, and suddenly woke up. I squatted down and started to pick up the pieces. , I know that if my father sees me bringing wine to the bedroom to drink, I will definitely not be able to escape, and I will have to be dealt with by my father according to the family rules. 33 Novel Network

I thought I would just clean it up, but I didn't expect that my father would be woken up by my loud noise. He was standing at the door of his bedroom, but he didn't open the door to come in.

I packed up the debris on the ground and wrapped it in my shirt, ready to go downstairs to throw it away. I thought I made it perfect, but how could I think that my father was standing at the door of my bedroom?

When I opened the door and was about to go out, a person appeared in front of me suddenly. I was so frightened that I threw the things in my hand on the ground. When I saw that it was my father, I breathed a sigh of relief. But when I saw that the thing in my hand had fallen to the ground, I was raised again in this tone.

"Dad, you, are you still up so late?" He asked his father hesitantly if he had done something bad.

My father was on fire when he saw the things on the ground: "Sleeping? Didn't you sleep too?"

Facing my father's doubts, I didn't know how to answer him. I was silent for a while before I said softly: "Dad, it's not that I don't sleep. I'm going to throw out the trash. The trash can in the room is full!"

Do you know?When your grandfather heard this sentence, he was so angry that he asked me casually: "Oh? So the trash can in your bedroom is full? I thought you fell in the middle of the night. It's a fall!"

"How come, Dad, I just want to go downstairs to throw out the trash, you go to bed first, I'll be back in a while!" I wanted to run as soon as I finished speaking, but how could he let me get away with it so easily? Woolen cloth?

My father spoke, he stopped me, and asked again unhurriedly: "Wait a minute, Zhentian, I want to ask you a question, I wonder if you can answer it for me?"

At that time, as soon as I heard my father say this, it must be a bad thing, so I could only bite the bullet and answer: "Of course, Dad, please tell me!"

"Zhentian, are you rich?" My father just said that, which caught me off guard.

"Dad, why do you say that? You also know how much my monthly salary is. Don't you pay for a lot of expenses at home? You make my son feel embarrassed by asking me that." I was a little unhappy at the time. with.

"Oh? How come you have no money? Your dad, I think you are very rich!" He said without changing his face.

I feel that what my father said is very strange. It is completely wrong with what he said at dinner today, which makes me a little elusive about my father's thoughts.

"Dad, you clearly know that I'm not as rich as you, so why do you still say that? To show off to me that you are richer than me or there are other reasons, you can just say it straight, why beat around the bush?" I got a little angry Said to Mr. Zhang.

"Why am I showing off to you that I'm richer than you? Dad, isn't it all for the sake of earning more money for you?" Mr. Zhang looked at me with a half-smile and said.

"Then what do you mean?" I said impatiently at what my father said.

"Okay, since you asked me to speak straight, then I will speak straight."

"Well, tell me."

"Zhentian, since you keep saying that you have no money, let me ask you, would a person without money use a custom-made shirt worth thousands of dollars to pack garbage?" Mr. Zhang's originally amiable face suddenly changed. Got dead.

When I heard what my father said, it was like being struck by lightning on a rainy day, and I stood there motionless.

Before I could recover, Mr. Zhang spoke again: "Zhang Zhentian, tell me, what is wrapped in your shirt?"

As soon as I heard it, I yelled secretly: "No!"

Don't look at Mr. Zhang who is already in his fifties, his ears are very good. He can hear the slightest sound clearly. As soon as I finished speaking, Mr. Zhang opened his mouth.

"What are you talking about? What's wrong? Is there some secret hidden in your shirt?" Mr. Zhang bent down to pick up the shirt after he finished speaking. How could I let my father get the one with the wine jar? What about the shredded shirt?

Before Mr. Zhang bent down to pick up the shirt, I suddenly bent down and picked it up. Seeing how fierce my reaction was, my father suspected that there was something weird in the dress. I understand that Mr. Zhang is asking me to hand over the things.

I was in a hurry. I didn’t know whether to hand it in or not. I knew very well that if I handed it in, my father would definitely not be able to forgive me if I saw the contents inside. But if I didn’t hand it in, my father would firmly believe that there was a secret in the shirt. This put me in an instant dilemma.

I opened my mouth and said to Mr. Zhang: "Dad, there is really nothing in it. This shirt is only used to pack garbage after I don't want it."

Mr. Zhang didn't believe it.

"Since there is rubbish in it, you can take it and I will throw it away for you. I just have to go out to do something." Mr. Zhang spread his hand towards me again.

"Dad, this is really rubbish." I explained in a panic.

"I know it's garbage, so I said I threw it out for you by the way!"

Hearing what my father said, I became more and more flustered.

"Dad, no, son, how can I ask my dad to help me take out the trash, don't you think so?"

"What's the matter, I'll throw it away for you, so as not to make another trip!" Mr. Zhang went to take the shirt from my hand after he finished speaking, and I subconsciously avoided it at that time. Not happy anymore.

"Zhentian, what do you mean? Why are you avoiding me?" The father turned cold for a moment.

"Dad, it's getting late, go to bed early, and I'll come back when I lose it." I ran away, but Mr. Zhang stopped me.

"Stop, Zhentian, there's no need to act. Don't think I don't know what's in it. Did you take the wine to the bedroom to drink again?" Mr. Zhang didn't bother to talk to me in a roundabout way, so he said it straight away. .

As soon as I heard it, I knew that my father was deliberately playing a game of cat and mouse with me.

I threw the things in my hand on the ground, and said, "Since you know all about it, I'm not afraid to tell you, that's right, I just brought the wine into the bedroom to drink. You can punish me however you want."

"Happy, you said this yourself, you haven't forgotten the family rules."

"No!" I replied bluntly.

"That's good, you can figure it out." Mr. Zhang left without looking up. I didn't expect to be discovered by my father in the end. "

The me at that time, you think it’s terrible, you may never have thought that the so-called man in your eyes is actually a cowardly person who looks like that, you have never thought about how much pain I felt in my heart at that time , I am enduring the torment of pain, I want to declare to the world that everything I do is right, I want everyone to know that all I do is to hope that the people at home can be happy and happy, how hard it is for me , who has considered every bit from my point of view, I am living hard alone, I just want everyone to know that everything I do is for the good of everyone in the family, not The kind of selfish villain.

"I went back to my bedroom, and he couldn't help sighing. My father would think from the time I met Xia Jing until Xia Jing left, and he said: "Could it be that he really went too far?Could it be that I treat him like this now because I shouldn't have treated Xia Jing too much?Don't you deserve everything that happened now?Oh, Xia Jing, Xia Jing, do you think I did something wrong, uncle?Should I not help you keep a secret, should I tell Zhentian where you are? "

He was talking to himself in the bedroom alone, he didn't know what was the right thing to do, he had already begun to recognize Xia Jing as his daughter-in-law from the bottom of his heart, and he didn't want to lose Xia Jing as his daughter-in-law.He used to think that Xia Jing was not worthy of his son, but after some things, he saw through a lot, and now he began to gradually feel that it was not that Xia Jing was not worthy of his son, but that his son was not worthy of Xia Jing .

After thinking about it, Mr. Zhang felt sleepy, so he raised his hand and looked at his watch: "No wonder I feel sleepy. It turned out to be early in the morning. Alas! Don't think about it, go to sleep."

As soon as Mr. Zhang lay down, he fell asleep and snored.

Mr. Zhang slept very comfortably, but I didn't sleep well. When he was caught drinking, Mr. Zhang went back to his room and stood on his head.It turns out that the house rules say that if you steal alcohol, you will stand on your head all night.Although I was standing on my head, he was still thinking about where Xia Jing went. He thought that if he hadn't scalded his father with boiling water absent-mindedly that day, he would have known who Xia Jing was looking for at the company that day.

"Oh, I'm all to blame, I'd better be punished, and I'll ask my dad tomorrow, um, that's the way to go." I thought.

I frowned and looked at the sky outside. He was waiting for the dawn, and he felt that every minute he was sitting upside down felt like a century of sitting.

late at night.

I was so sleepy that he fell asleep in a daze while standing on his head. The time he fell asleep lived really fast. The time passed by every minute and every second, and the sky finally gradually brightened.

As soon as the sun came out in the morning, a beam of light shot into my bedroom, which hurt my eyes. Zhang Zhentian opened his sleepy eyes in a daze, turned his eyeballs and saw the rising sun. The son sat up: "It's finally dawn, and the time passed quickly when I was asleep, and it was dawn in the blink of an eye."

I was so happy, I opened the closet door and took out a set of casual clothes, gray pants, gray clothes, and white short sleeves.After I changed my clothes, I hurried downstairs. I saw my father sitting on the sofa, so I walked over to sit down cheekily.

"Dad, have you had breakfast?" I asked Mr. Zhang cautiously.

Mr. Zhang glanced at me and said unhappily: "You don't care if I eat or not, have you had enough wine?"

As soon as I heard my father speak in this tone, I knew that my father was still angry with me. In order to know about Xia Jing from my father, I had to bow my head and admit my mistake.

"Dad, I know I was wrong, so don't be angry, I will never steal alcohol from now on." I swore to Mr. Zhang.

Seeing that my attitude of admitting my mistake was not bad, Mr. Zhang said, "Tell me, what can you do with me?"

As soon as I heard it, I quickly asked, "Dad, can you tell me what I asked you that day?"

Although Mr. Zhang knew that Xia Jing must be the reason why I asked him for something, he didn't expect that I was not tactful at all and asked directly.

"What did you say that day?" Mr. Zhang asked me pretending not to know.

I was taken aback, did dad forget what he said that day so soon?Dad's memory is very good, even if he remembers things from a long time ago, it's only been a few days, how could he not remember?Could it be that Dad was testing himself to see if he really repented?

"Dad, that's right, that's what I said the day I accidentally burned you with boiling water." I said to Mr. Zhang submissively.

"Oh, did you burn me with boiling water? Why didn't I know?" Mr. Zhang still deliberately pretended not to remember what happened that day, he said while observing my reaction.

Seeing my father like this, I could only bite the bullet and say: "Dad, I was wrong that day. I shouldn't be absent-minded, I shouldn't have failed to control my emotions, and said something that hurt your heart. I'm sorry, you adults don't care about villains." Excuse me, please forgive me!" I said and bowed my head to Mr. Zhang.

"So you would say sorry, Zhentian, do you really have me as a father in your heart? Since you and Xia Jing have been together, you have been talking about Xia Jing every day. I am afraid that you have long since lost my father in your heart." ?” Mr. Zhang said chattingly.

I was speechless by my father's sudden question, what could he say?Is he going to say to his father who has raised him for decades, "Dad, you are right, I have long since lost your place in my heart?" 'Isn't it hurting my father to say that?But if you say to your father, 'Dad, you are wrong, you are always the most important in my heart? 'If I said that, my father would definitely not be so sad, but if Xia Jing found out after I said this, Xia Jing would definitely be angry.I was very conflicted, he didn't know how to answer is the best for his father.

Mr. Zhang seemed to see what I was hesitating about. Mr. Zhang said to me, "You don't have to think of something to tell me the best of both worlds. Since I asked you this, I definitely hope you can tell the truth."

It was even more difficult for me to speak when I heard Mr. Zhang say that.

"Dad, I..."

Mr. Zhang suddenly stood up and slapped me in the face: "Are you a man? Just tell me what I want to say. What I hate the most in my life is a person like you who is sloppy and not decisive at all. Like you, I don’t dare to say anything to you, how could there be a way out? I don’t even know how Xia Jing would fall in love with a yes person like you. If I were Xia Jing, since I’m gone for the rest of my life, I won’t come back again, huh !"

Mr. Zhang was so angry that his whole body was trembling. I was scolded by my father, so I immediately yelled at Mr. Zhang: "Yes, Xia Jing is all in my heart. I do things so submissively, but I am still born to you." Son, this is a fact that cannot be changed."

The first half of my sentence didn't hurt Mr. Zhang, but the second half made Mr. Zhang blush with anger.

"Don't you want to know if Xia Jing went to the company that day to find you?" Mr. Zhang said to me unhurriedly.

"I want to know, but I asked you a few times and you didn't answer me. I know I shouldn't have scalded you with boiling water carelessly last time, but I have already told you too modestly, what do you want me to do?" What?" I growled in a rage.

"If you want to know, then I'll tell you now. You're right. Half of Xia Jing's visit to the company that day was to find you, but the other half was to meet me." Mr. Zhang told Xia Jing's purpose for going to the company .

"It turns out that Xia Jing really went to the company to look for me, but I didn't see Xia Jing because of my narrow-mindedness." I said to myself.

Mr. Zhang looked at me in such a daze, he didn't know what to say for a while, and I spoke when he was about to turn around and leave.

"Dad, you said that Xia Jing went to the company to see you?" I asked Mr. Zhang.

"Yes, what's the problem?"

"Dad, can you tell me why Xia Jing went to the company to meet you?" I suspected that my father knew where Xia Jing had gone.

Mr. Zhang heard me ask this question. Although the expression on his face didn't change much, he still had a straight face, but he was still very happy in his heart. Mr. Zhang thought silently in his heart: "Finally this is the question!"

Mr. Zhang just looked at me, but he didn't speak. I looked at my father who didn't speak, and I became even more suspicious.

"Dad, tell the truth, do you know where Xia Jing went?"

"Zhentian, why do you ask such a question? How could I know where Xia Jing has gone?" Mr. Zhang asked instead of answering.

At that time, the objection of my family members, until now I lost it, and my family’s forgiveness and acceptance, do you know how I got through these things?