Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

People live in this world in order to make their life less rigid. No one wants to live in the same way, and no one can live like this forever.

Fun is very important, how can you live without fun?

Zhang Yichen now feels that his father's experiences outside these years are simply rich and colorful life experiences, which he has never experienced before. He also wants to go out for a few times and live for himself willfully, but these years he has For my own goals, to prove to the world that I am a good man, but forget what I want in the end.

"Dad, do you know? When I heard you talk about your life experiences, in fact, what I admire most in my heart is envy for you. I admire you even more, and you can live willfully outside for so long. You I can live freely regardless of everything in the family, just for my own happiness, but I can't. I have been running around for the whole family all my life. I never know what it's like to live alone. I have never tried how to live alone!

Maybe it’s because we have different experiences, so your attitude towards everything will be different. You’ve been living happily outside all these years. You’ve lived a happy, unrestrained and free life, but what about me? , but I was trained here like a devil. At that time, I really hated you. I have said these words no less than a hundred times. I declare to people all over the world that I really hate you. I don’t want to admit that you are My parents, because you have never stayed by my side to accompany me, you will always only hurt me. As parents, you have not fulfilled your responsibilities as parents. On the contrary, you have hurt us again and again, maybe Deep down in your heart, I don't deserve to be your son at all.

It is precisely because I am afraid that you will think that I am not worthy to be your son, so I have given everything I have. I have spent my youth, my time, and my childhood on training. Because I want you to know that I am your real son, and I am worthy to be your son, so are you really worthy to be my parents?In fact, you know better than anyone in your heart that you are not the most worthy person. There are too many perfect parents in the world, and poor parents can work hard to stay with them for their children. By my side, no matter how hard and tiring my life is, what about you?

You are not willing to stay with your children if you have a little bit of turmoil. You treat your children as grassroots, and abandon you if you want to. Where do you put me as a son?What kind of position did I put, from the beginning to now, I don’t know how much position I occupy in your hearts, because I don’t understand why you would rather wander outside than stay by my side. Does my side make you feel so painful?Or is it that deep down in your heart I only deserve to be here forever?

Mom and Dad, there are some things that I really don’t want to repeat over and over again, because what I repeat again and again hurts my heart. Whenever I think of the years when you abandoned me, whenever I think of Those childhoods that I have worked hard on my own, accepting the ridicule of others, my heart is like a knife.

But I have no choice, I really have no choice, it's as easy as letting go of everything before, you can do not care about anything before, you can treat everything in the past as if it never happened, but I No, because those are all the pain that other people put on my body!

I really hope that time can be turned back. I hope that more than anyone else, if time can be turned back a little bit, I won't be living as hard as I am now.

As long as the time goes back a little bit, I can live happily and happily. I will never give up my childhood and let my childhood live in painful memories. Now I only need to recall the things I have experienced Things will remind me of my childhood bit by bit, I can't believe it in my heart, is that really a child's childhood?Why are other childhoods sunny and sunny, but mine is dark and humid?

I am also a child, why there is such a big gap between my childhood and others, it is because I was born in a wealthy family, I have to accept the fate of being abandoned by my parents, I have to accept that I fell down again and again, and then fell again. Standing up strong, do you still have to face everyone's ridicule at you with a smile?

I'm not reconciled, I'm really not reconciled, you have a state of being reconciled to many things, so why can't I be reconciled once in my heart?I paid so much, why did I end up like this?If I knew this was the result, why did I have to be reincarnated in your womb, why did you give birth to me again, and let me suffer such pain? "

"Don't talk about it, child. We know how you have survived these years. You have lived very hard and very hard. Everything you have is obtained by your own hard work. You have not asked anyone for it. In this way, as parents, we will feel even more unbearable in our hearts. We never thought that we would bring you such harm. We just want you to live this life peacefully and peacefully.

But in the end, why did I bring you such pain? Time and time again, it is meaningless for me to be a parent.I don't know how to bring a happy and happy family to my children!

You are right. As a parent, we are indeed not qualified parents, because we have not fulfilled the slightest responsibility to you, and first brought us a lot of pain. Can you hate me in your heart?But don't blame your mother, your mother has no choice but to do these things. He was forced by me. He never thought of abandoning you. She never thought of abandoning you, her own son. Holding you, I drag him away, he refuses to let go, he can't bear it.Because you are the child born in October of her laborious pregnancy and are connected by blood! "

"Actually, it doesn't matter who forced it. Today I just want to express all the thoughts in my heart for so many years. I don't want to be trapped in a small room by myself forever. I don't want to make myself I will always live in painful memories. I just want you to know that I have forgiven you. If I hadn’t forgiven you, I wouldn’t have said it to you, because I don’t have that obligation, and I don’t have that responsibility to let you Let go of the guilt deep in my heart!"

Child, you don't understand your mommy's dissatisfaction with me. I hurt her. She has no way to forgive me like this. Now she should be very happy to finally leave me, so she doesn't need to be hurt, right?

Zhang Zhentian has figured it out now. It turns out that his grandson didn't really want to visit him when he came to see him, but he just used this as a reason. I came here to give myself a piece of advice, so that I would stop doing things that hurt everyone in the family like before. If that was the case, it would be a waste for them to put down their face and intercede for themselves today.

He really didn't expect this, a young child with such a deep mind, she didn't understand if he abandoned her once more, what kind of result would he get in the end?

"Son, grandpa knows that these are because grandpa and grandma are sorry for you and your father, and also for your great-grandpa, but time has passed for so many years, and we have all realized our mistakes, and we have returned to the In this family, although I came back this time after your intercession, I am very grateful, but some things are really not as simple as you imagined, and some things can’t be done just by saying it. You still don’t understand the middle the key to

Zhang Nai really doesn't want to discuss these issues with his grandfather now. Every time he discusses these issues, no matter who is at fault, even if he has the upper hand, some things really cannot be explained clearly in a few words. Ten years of abandonment, how could it be possible for him to disappear in smoke just because of his sudden return this time? Even if my father can really do not remember to hate him, but I can't do it. I have never received their love since I was a child. It is the desire for grandparents to return to their side step by step and put in all the efforts. It is so hard step by step. In the end, they come back and talk to me in this way, so how can my heart be stable? .

"Grandpa, I know exactly what you mean when you tell me these words, and I also understand that some things are really just like what you said, and there is no way to explain them clearly in a few words, but at least you should give me a reasonable explanation Well, I don't care what kind of mentality my father and my great-grandfather chose to forgive you and my grandma, but I really can't do it like them, with a broad mind, I really don't have Way to look at my grandparents clearly in front of my eyes, I put down my dignity to intercede for them, let them go back home and they refused to give me a reasonable explanation last year, always refused to tell me Why abandon my father, abandon us!

Perhaps deep down in your heart, you feel that giving up is not a big deal, but you know what?Abandonment is a big thing for a child. No child is willing to be abandoned by others as soon as he is born, and no child can do it when he is just born, and his parents will throw himself aside Flying alone, leaving myself at home to be taken care of by my elderly grandpa, do you think this is a psychological shadow for a child, you have never considered my father's feelings.Now even if you have given him a reasonable explanation, what about me?Is my life over the years necessarily better than my father's life when he was a child?

My father and I have come to this day step by step. Step by step, we have put in more effort than anyone else, and we have experienced more difficult things than anyone else. Why is it that I hope you can come back home and want to prove to you We are really not the worst, that person wants you to know what a big mistake you made abandoning us at the beginning, but in the end, all the results for me in the end just made me bruised and bruised again and again?

Grandpa and grandma, no matter how you treat my father, I don't care how you treat me. I just want to know what kind of mentality it was that made you decide to leave this family. You clearly know that I am your grandson, but you still refuse to recognize me. You would rather treat me as a stranger. Why did you choose this ending step by step? Why are you willing to use it? It hurts us in this way but we are not willing to stand up and protect us, is it not good to protect us in a grandiose way?If you have to hide behind your back, what kind of perception do you think that will give others? "

"Son, grandparents know that you are looking forward to us being able to stand up to protect you and accompany you in the past few years. We also know that you have experienced a lot of heartache like your father over the years, because we have no way to make up for those bitter pasts. Yours, we have made it very clear. At the beginning, it was just a moment of enthusiasm, and we chose to abandon it for our own freedom. We have really regretted it now. Now you have all chosen to let us return to this home, then you Can’t you really accept us from the bottom of your heart? No matter how good you are on the surface, it’s not as important as accepting us from the inside. What we want is not that you accept us on the surface, but your real approval from the bottom of your heart. , we are your family.

I will do my best to make up for everything I owe to you. I will not let such things happen to us again, and I will not let such things hurt you again and again. We have already understood ourselves How profound are your mistakes, how much shadow those mistakes will bring to you, we are now aware of the blow, we will no longer be as willful as before, we will take the overall situation into consideration and please stand Let's think about it from our point of view, shall we?Don't press us anymore, we really have no way to give you a more detailed explanation.

The more I explain to you, the more you will feel that we are covering up the truth of the matter, but in the end it is really not the case, we really just made a wrong decision at the time, and did not expect such things to happen later, time and time again, In the end, we had no choice but to come to this point. I also regret it deep in my heart. I didn’t choose not to recognize you, but I didn’t dare to recognize you. I was afraid that if I told you that I was your grandma, you would I will turn around and leave, then I will never see you again, I don't want to leave a bad impression deep in your heart, I want to give you a perfect impression, let you accept me slowly, instead of When I first saw me, I chose to avoid me. "

Sometimes I think about it, who wouldn't say what it is for, but who knows what it is for?How can it be so easy to laugh off hurting others? Everyone has been hurt deep in their hearts, but they don't know how to deal with it.

One day later, Ran Zhihan got off the plane at the airport in England. She followed the address Xia Jing gave her to Zhang Yichen's residence. She knocked on the door and saw that it was indeed Zhang Yichen who opened the door.

When Zhang Yichen saw that the person knocking on the door was his wife, he couldn't believe it. How could his wife find out that his whereabouts were so secretive? Could it be that someone would dare to betray his whereabouts behind his back? He decided that he must investigate thoroughly. In this matter, we have to see who is so brave and risking his life, who dares to betray his whereabouts, he will definitely destroy his economy.

"Yichen, I didn't expect you to be here. Why do you live here? There is no comfortable home here. Come home with me. Let's never quarrel again, okay?"

"It's easy for you to say. When you yelled at me, why didn't you think that we would become like this? Do you know how much I hope you can be gentle, considerate, kind and understanding, but Why did my wife become like this? You go back, I will not go back with you, I have a good life here, I don’t want to see you now, you go away quickly, lest I want to go back later Hitting people."

"If I don't leave, you won't leave even if you beat me to death. You are my husband. We are a legitimate husband and wife relationship. How can we live apart? If you want to separate from me, it will not be legally recognized. , just come with me, go home with me, okay? Grandpa misses you very much, and I know he shouldn’t say those things to you. Grandpa asked me to tell you that he knew he was wrong. Don’t be so angry with him. Grandpa hasn't hit you for many years, but this time he hit you on impulse, don't blame grandpa, grandpa didn't actually want to hit you, he was just confused by you at the time, no I hit you when I knew how to react, you should understand Grandpa!"

"I understand him, who understands me? Didn't I make such a decision to be with you? But what about you, what did you say to me?"

"I know that I said such things to you and hurt your heart, but I was forced to do so at the time. I didn't want to do this, and I could only tell you in this way, I love you, and I don't want you because I want to Come with me to agree to conditions that no one should agree to, you know? Even my parents, I don't want you to agree to such conditions, I didn't expect my parents to bring you such thoughts , but you shouldn't agree to them!"

"Then what do you want me to do? In order to be with you, what else do you want me to do? If I didn't want to be with you, I wouldn't make so many sacrifices. I can for you, You can even give up the career you have created for so many years, but what about you? How do you treat me? Just because I promised your parents, are you going to treat me like this? Treat me coldly, even You ran away from home, do you still regard you as the daughter-in-law of the Zhang family, do you still have my husband in your heart, do you still have a grandfather? You asked me to think about my grandfather, then did you think about him? , You said that, how uncomfortable you made grandpa feel, you never thought about how much pain we felt in our hearts, and you never thought about how much blow your running away from home would bring to us, you always Do you think everything you do is right?"

Ran Zhihan shook her head, and said to Zhang Yichen: "Yichen, there is one thing I hope you can understand. I never thought of treating you and grandpa like this. In my heart, I regard you as the most important person in my life." Look at me, I can abandon my parents even for you, I don't want this kind of thing to happen between us, I don't want me to be with my parents just because you agreed to such conditions. Breaking up, I know that my parents said such things to you and did such things for our mutual benefit. I also know that you did this for me, but I still can’t accept it. We know each other and accompany each other. After guarding for more than ten years, can't it meet the request of my parents in a few words? I don't know what you told him, and I don't know what he said to you, but why did you ask for three chapters? Are you really going to keep me in the dark by doing this? If I didn’t accidentally discover this fact, then are you planning to keep it from me for the rest of your life? You don’t plan to tell me in your whole life, there is such a relationship between you Bet?"

"I never thought of hiding it from you for the rest of my life. I just hope that I will come back to tell you that there is such a thing in three years. At that time, even if you can't accept it, the matter is a foregone conclusion. Besides, three years have passed You will not delve into this matter any more this year. Is it wrong for me to do so? I just hope you can live happily and don’t want you to have any troubles. Could it be that I am so considerate of you? I am also wrong I think you are so important, I just hope that you can stay by my side for the rest of your life, never leave me, it is more important to me than anything else, I don't ask you to bring me much benefit, I don't ask how kind, beautiful, and considerate you are, I just hope that I can look at you in this life, and seeing you by my side for the rest of my life is enough..."

Ran Zhihan listened to Zhang Yichen's words, she felt very touched in her heart, maybe she really did something wrong in this matter!

"I'm not right about this matter. I shouldn't have said such things to you without knowing the situation clearly and ran away from home. Don't be angry with me. How do you want me to forgive me? Don't you Do you want me to clean the whole room for you? As long as you can forgive me, I can take you home. There are those relatives waiting for you at home, looking forward to your triumphant return. You have been negotiating here for so long Don't you want to go home now? Don't you want to see your grandpa? Don't you want to see the elders who have raised you since you were a child and worked so hard to grow up? I know that nothing I can say now will make you Forgive me, but I really know that I was wrong, I will never say such things to you again, as long as you are willing to go home with me, I can always carry you at home for you, and never want to go out to create It's your own business!"

"As long as you can stay at home for me, accompany grandpa well, and stay by my side forever, I will go home with you!"

Until the end, I only knew about her but didn't know where she was. No one could understand what kind of mood I was in!